I leant back covered in sweat, blood and relief. It took many hours but finally in the early morning another miracle in life laid before me "It's a boy" I smiled as I wrapped the little bundle of joy in my arms and furs.
Drying the blood off his little pale skin, Robb cut the cord as I placed him on Talisa bare chest. The smile of relief I knew it, the pure happiness I knew it, it was motherhood "Thank you" Robb whispered kissing my forehead
"Your welcome" I smiled "I'm going to leave you two alone for a little while, come check on you later" I nodded standing up for what felt like a long time. All my muscles screamed with joy to finally stretch.
Walking out of the room Jaymie was holding Derik, Jaymie had grown on me and very much grown on Brent, the way his eyes follow her when he spoke it made me fill full inside, knowing my little brother was, is happy.
Brent eyes connected with mine and as if I knew what his eyes asked, "It was a boy" I nodded
He smiled leaning back on his chair, smiling I went to my bedchambers and began drawing a bath to wash my body. As I stripped off my clothes I stared at myself and shivered in disgust.
My once pure untouchable body was now covered in scars and bruises that hadn't healed. It screamed pain and agony. Would Jon love this if he seen it? Or would he turn me away? I wasn't perfect anymore! I wasn't a pretty sight.
Lowering my head I jumped into the bath the hot water greeting my skin like an old friend. Closing my eyes I grabbed the sponge and began wiping Talisa birth blood of my skin.
When I was done I stood dressing quickly, this time my eyes didn't connect with the mirror, I could read every scar, every mark and tell you what happened but this wasn't the time for it.
Heading out of the room I walked down the corridor and to the dinning room for breakfast taking a seat I began to eat, my eyes scanning to Derik who was now sitting on his uncle lap smiling at me "Good morning baby boy"
"Momma" He laughed
"What you say little man" Brent laughed "Uncle Brent?"
"Momma" Derik Laughed
Laughing, "You wish" I smirked
"Momma" It was pure happiness to my ears
Brent stood bringing Derik, taking him I attacked him with kisses, receiving my own kiss from Brent on my head "Going to ready our horses we're leaving today"
Nodding "Get an extra horse for Jaymie, and if Robb argues tell him I delivered his baby. Jaymie go get yourself ready unless you want to stay here?"
"No I want to come" she nodded
"Okay go get ready" Holding my little man I walked to Talisa and Robb room, Knocking before I entered I heard Robb deep voice say come in. Pushing the door in I entered "How are you two going?" I asked
"Good" Talisa smiled staring at her little boy
"His beautiful" I whispered sitting on the bed so I can see him better
"Thank you Lillian, Thank you so much"
"Hey your family" I nodded "And we got to stick together"
"Um ask her" Talisa nodded "Please Robb"
Frowning Robb stood "Can we talk?" Robb asked
"Um Sure" Following him out of the room, Derik on my hip "What is it Robb?"
"What you said Talisa and my Son are my weakness and I'm at war" he signed "Talisa is refusing to leave my side and I can't withdraw myself from this war, but my son"
"Robb" I frowned
"War is no place for a child"
"I have a bounty on my head Robb you really want to risk your child life? Tell your wife to leave your side"
"I know you will protect him, your one of the fierce fighters I've ever seen, they will sing songs about you and fear you Lillian Falls" he signed "I've tried to get her to leave with the baby, she's going to say he died in child birth" he lowered his head "So no one will look for him during this war"
"And after Robb what about after this war?"
"I'll come for him"
"And if you fall, if both of you fall Robert than what? He grows up without parents?" I signed "Talisa needs to leave your side you can say she died in child birth Robert that way your son can have a mother if god help you fall"
"I tried" Robb stared a slow tear falling down his cheek "She's refusing" he gulped "She doesn't want our child to be captured, hurt or worse killed"
I stared at Robert "If you both fall I will mother him like his my own and when his older I will tell him how brave use were" I nodded holding back a tear "I don't trust Walter Frey and neither should you"
"What is it you would like me to do?" he asked
"Stay alive" I shrugged "All I'm asking is to stay alive"
Robb pulled me to him "I love you sister, protect my son, protect my brother, protect my nephew and protect yourself" he nodded "And if I fall save Talisa and if Talisa falls save me but if we both fall Save Ned"
"Ned?" I questioned
"My sons name Ned"
"Named after great man" I nodded "Okay I'll do it"
"Thank you"
"I will do what I can but I need something from you" I nodded
"What?" he asked
"You're not going to like it"
"Lillian?"
…
"Are you sure?" Robb asked,
"Yes I'm sure" Robb nodded releasing a huff as he released crows in all different directions "You're going to break his heart"
"Only fair he broke mine" I shrugged "Time to go, say your goodbyes" Robb took a deep breath nodding following me to the horses, I jumped up on mine. Brent holding Derik.
I stared at him as he held onto his son, to everyone he was the strong wise king of the north but to me his Robb and Robb was leaving his first born and his uncertain of what will come of him.
Gulping back the tears Robb passed me little Ned, putting him in the sling Derik use to lay in "I'll die before anyone hurts him Robb I promise"
Robb nodded grabbing his wife hand, which was holding nothing back, tears streaming down his face "Go" she whispered, "Please go"
Nodding I kicked my horse and we moved, I heard her wail turning my head they both had collapsed to the ground, bitting my lips I continued to move forward. My spare hand soothing little Ned cries for his parents.
