Jon POV

I had just fought of so called brothers of the night watch. My mind was racing and the thought of Lillian played out in me. Removing my sword from a man "Jon" Looking up to Grenn voice I saw Ghost.

A smile appeared on my face "Where in seven hells, come here" I laughed kneeling down "I missed you boy" I whispered patting his head

"What should we do with this lot?" Ed asked nodding towards Craster's wives/daughters.

Standing "Its not safe for you on your own, Mance Ryder has an army heading this way and there is worse out there than Mance…. Come with us to castle black we can find you work keep you safe"

"Meaning all respect crow. Craster beats us and worse…your brother crows beat us and worse. Will find our own" Craster's first wife nodded

"You want to stay here in Craster's keep?" I asked confused at why you would want to stay somewhere you were hurt in.

She spat on the ground "Burn it to the ground and all the dead with it"

We gathered the bodies and burnt the keep to the ground as she wished. We all stared as the flames brightening the night "Jon back at castle black who was the girl?" Ed asked

"Sorry?" I frowned staring Ed dead in the eyes now.

"The girl she had arrived called your name and everything" Ed frowned at me confused.

"Wait you could see her" I asked frowning "She wasn't there, I swear it"

"Seven hells Jon I seen her blue eye, brown wavy hair, beautiful figure and a bright smile yes I seen the beauty" Frowning at Ed words I jumped upon my horse "Jon?"

"We got to move"

"Jon it's going to take a week to return and it's dark," Ed signed, "Who is she?"

Looking up at the moon "I thought she was dead but if you seen her than she's very much alive"

"Who is she Jon" Ed asked

"It's Lillian"

"Lillian, your Lillian?" Ed questioned

"Yes" I signed running a hand through my hair "I have to ride to her"

"Jon she'll probably be gone by the time you return and Alliser would hang you if you leave your brothers" Ed signed. He was dead right. Taking a deep breath I swung my foot off jumping down.

"Fine set up camp first light we pack up and get a move on"

Lillian POV

I was almost back at Ironrath, my heart heavy and sad from not really getting the chance to hold Jon, to talk to him. Returning to Ironrath the gates were opened and unarmed, riding in a cold shiver went through me all the hairs on my arms stood up.

What the fuck was going on? I really wasn't in the mood to deal with this shit. Jumping off my horse I patted his neck as I tied him to a post. Walking past the people, I was shocked to see them, they looked hungry. Looking down at my riding purse I smiled pulling out some food Sam packed me. Handing it to a little girl, she thanked me sitting down with her mother. What had the Whitehills done?

The sound of voices echoing through the hallways hit my ears like a loud bell. My feet began moving faster towards the screaming and yelling. Pushing open the large wooden door it slammed against the wall.

I felt all eyes on me but my eyes were captured on one person and one only, I could see the Maester on the floor coughing from pain but it wasn't what I was staring at.

"Lillian you've-"

I said nothing as I walked, my feet making a sound as I did, I felt people move closer ready for an outcome, reaching out I grabbed baby Ned from Gryff arms, handing Ned over the room was silent as I walked up to the other Whitehill guard holding my child, my Derik.

I never felt my blood burn so hot I was shaking with anger "Fuck off you-" my fist stung as I connected with his face, grabbing Derik from his arm I held him on my hip.

"Lillian" Brent voice hit my ear with caution but I didn't care.

I turned myself to Gryff my eyes deadly "Trust me when I say this Gryff Whitehill if you ever touch my children again see that pretty little fucking gate outside, that's where you fucking head will sit If you ever, ever touch my boys again" I spat angrily.

"Lillian" Gryff tone was surprised

"These aren't yours" Gryff Guard that had Derik spat, picking himself up from the ground.

"Yes they fucking are" Walking towards Jaymie I handed her Derik "Who the fuck do you think you are?" I questioned

"I'm a-" Before he could say another word he fell to his knees, blood splattering from his mouth, an arrow in his neck. The room got more and more tense. I felt every eye on me.

"Let that be your fucking warning" I stared at Gryff

"Lillian" the sound of man marching hit my ears "What the-" flinging my bow around my chest I turned on my heels grabbing my boys from Brent and Jaymie I left them to what would be.

I never felt more anger than I felt now, I never felt more scared than I did. These two are mine regardless of Ned not being mine he was mine, I had raised him , I had nursed him, I had done so much and I did it for him.

It was like looking at Derik he was his father and looking at Ned he was his father "Shh boys momma got you now, no one will ever touch you again" I whispered as I fell onto the bed in my bedchamber.

Whistling Shadow and Ice jumped up on the bed as the boys cuddled into my side, my anger burning down, my annoyance, my hurt everything begin to mellow as they held on to me.

Brent POV

I have seen my sister as fierce as a cold winter, harsh like a long storm but I have never seen her like I just did. I didn't care for Rodrik hitting Gryff I didn't care that we had a small win. I just stared at the man lying on the ground with an arrow in his neck.

My thought went crazy what happened with Jon? Is he okay? I have seen Lillian angry, I've seen her hurt and I've seen her kill but none with such little effort as just then.

Rubbing my face I nodded to the guys, gripping Jaymie hand "She's loosing it Brent"

"Do well to keep that to yourself" I nodded guiding her out of the room and towards the bedchambers. As I walked in Lillian was hugging the boys, the wolves lying on the end of the bed "Did you see him?"

"For a second, he was leaving as I came" She whispered, "I don't think he really saw it was me" her voice was filled with pain

She needed him, I was unsure of her leaving but she needed him, I hated the gods for playing such a trick, such a stupid cruel trick. Will my sister be like this forever? Will she be cold?

"I'm sorry," I whispered


Hi guys

sorry it took so long to update but I hope you enjoyed the chapters and story so far. Let me know what you all think and as per usual 10reviews and I'll update. Thank you for those who read every time i update and review very much appreciated :)

also were you upset Jon and Lillian didn't see each other ? Well if you were don't worry I have a great chapter for when they unite ;)

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