Brent POV
I missed my sister I missed her so much I felt as if a part of me was torn away my other half gone. I had pain but I buried I buried it so deep because of Lillian.
She may be older, she may be in charge but her heart was breaking every second it was like watching someone try to breath when they're drowning.
Walking down the hallways I heard laughter and my heart jumped at that sound, turning the corner I followed the laugh. Pushing the door open my blue eyes landed on Lillian.
She was bathing the boy a giant smile on her face. This is how it should be this is the Lillian I should see everyday.
I shouldn't have to see her in pain. I blamed Jon for a lot of it I was mad at him but I wasn't mad at him because I understood why he left. Just wish they told each other beforehand.
"Mommy smile" Derik voice echoed with happiness
"Yeah mommy smile little man" she spoke back her voice like a child's.
"Mommy Ned" Derik pointed to little Ned who sat up with Lillian hand behind his back as Derik stood.
"Yeah you love your brother," she asked
I couldn't describe how proud I was about her taking Robb kid as her own but they were the best of friends so I'd see Ned going to no other than her. Just kind of wished Robb listened to Lillian and myself about Walter fray he shouted traitor.
"Uncle Brent" Derik childish voice hit my ear breaking me from my thoughts smiling I pressed off the doorframe coming into the room.
Lillian smiled at me as I kneeled besides her hitting her with my shoulder I helped bath little Ned and Derik. It was good for this split moment nothing hurt, I was okay, Lillian was smiling something I hadn't seen since Winterfell.
"Thanks" Lillian mumbled under her breath
Raising an eyebrow at her "What for?" I asked wrapping Little Ned up
"You know what for" She smirked bumping me with her hip "You've been my rock for so long and you're the best"
"Hey were family what we're suppose to do"
"Talking about family" she nodded dressing the boys "Jaymie"
"What about her" I frowned confused
"Brent Falls you know what I'm talking about" She pointed out
"What's that boys you want to go play okay" I laughed picking them both up in my arms "Say bye Mommy"
"Brent"
"BYE MOMMY" Derik yelled as we walked quickly away.
Jon POV
It didn't take long until we arrived the sound of cheers and the horn of rangers returning hit my ears. Smiling I looked at Sam "Jon" he smiled wrapping me in his arms.
"Lord Snow…. this is no place for wild beast lock him away or I'll let hum throw him in tonight stew" Alliser called. Taking a deep breath I walked away.
"Come on Ghost" I nodded ghost followed me.
"Jon…Jon" Turning my head Sam was beside me "This is for you Jon"
I stared at the parchment, it didn't go unrecognised that she wasn't here I knew she wouldn't stay here not for a week. Gripping the parchment "How is she?" I asked staring into Sam eyes "Does she look okay"
Sam signed, "I didn't really know what she looked like before but from what you told me she doesn't look okay, she's broken and hurt…She fierce though almost broke a recruits arm"
"Why?" I frowned
"He touched her ass" Sam smirked
I couldn't help but chuckle "Yeah that's my Lillian"
"Read it I'll come get you when the meeting starts" Nodding I locked Ghost up before heading to my bedchambers. I could tell it was different that someone had been in here. Walking towards the bed I took a seat.
My Dearest Jon.
I don't know if you're mad at me or if you hate me I guess I couldn't blame you if you were or did. I tried calling your name but you rode on, beyond the wall. I rode for many months to see you and I hope you get to read this that you return safe, because your safety is all I ever ask.
I asked Robb to tell you I had died, I asked so I could travel safely. That people would stop searching for Lillian Falls with the bounty on her head. I don't travel alone Brent saved me but we couldn't save Sansa.
I heard you meet Grant, it bring me joy to hear he is alive but it hurts at the same time. I lied to you because Grant means the world to me and I didn't want him to be punished for falling in love with a Wildling.
I know you probably have mixed feelings running through you, but I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm the girl you fell in love with and the girl who breaks your heart. I write you to tell you to forget about me.
I am broken, I am hurt and I am beyond fixable but you, you're not to blame because without you I would of died along time ago. You're my everything and because of that when I fall I fall a proud, Happy lady.
I wish to not burden you no more. But know that you are my everything and I will cherish every moment I've had with you and thank you for what you gave me.
Sincerely Lillian
I stared at the handwriting it wasn't steady anymore, the writing was rushed and the parchment was wet. She cried as she wrote this, taking a deep breath I knew she needed me I knew I had to say something to tell her she wasn't a burden but, but maybe this is for the good.
But I don't want her to die alone without anyone, I wish for her to have children I know Lillian and I know she would stay true to her word that she'd marry no one, bear no child to a man other than me.
Lillian my love I was happy to hear she was alive but the ache within still stayed; it still rang loud in my ears and painful within my heart. God if only I believed it was her.
Lillian POV
I rolled my eyes at Brent he had a habit of running away from his feelings "Lillian" lifting my head to Rodrik voice "I have an invitation to go to high point for a meeting"
"Are you going?" I questioned taking a seat at the table
"What you think?"
"If it was me and they had Brent I'd go but its up to you all of it Rodrik, you need to make a decision"
Rodrik nodded pressing his lip together "For Ryon I'm going"
"Rodrik what is it you truly want?" I signed, "Lets not beat around the bush just tell me"
"I was wondering if you'd come"
"Are you taking the Glenmore soldiers?" I asked
"No they'll stay at Ironrath"
"And you don't think maybe this is some trick?" I questioned, "That maybe Ramsay is involved in this?"
"No he wants something I can tell"
"Fine when do we leave?" I wondered
"First morning light and thank you Lillian"
"For Ryon" I nodded standing up I slide the chair back leaving Rodrik in his own thoughts.
Hey guys I couldn't help but break my rules I really wanted you to hear my next chapter. Hope you enjoyed this chapter I felt like it was a little boring but trust me great things are going to start happening soon. Let me know your thoughts and sorry if any spelling mistakes I did this at work on my phone. Anyways let me know what you think.
Jeanette x
