It was too late; I felt my inner self-scream in pure agony. Arthur took his last breath tied to a post upside down his inside hanging out of his stomach. I felt sick as I walked closer, my tear refusing to slip from my eyes.
I tried to take a deep breath but the smell was too unpleasant, gulping back the dry lump in my throat I moved against my body want and need I moved. I could feel Ramsay eyes on me watching me, I reached his mincing eyes and the smile he wore dropped. My fists tighten into a ball.
Passing Rodrik I shook the hand that clasped on my shoulder, pushing him harshly off me. I moved forward standing toe to toe with said Lord of the North. I glared up into his green piercing eyes that screamed murder.
"I would never hurt you Lily bug!" Ramsay smiled grabbing Lillian hand and swinging it as he walked down to the waterfall "You're my best friend I couldn't ever hurt you"
Lillian stared at her childhood friend a big smile coming to her face "You know what Ramsay you should ask if you can live with us" Lillian shrugged "Than we can play everyday"
Ramsay smiled "That would be good, I would love that"
"Well I'll write your father a letter" Lillian nodded in a matter of fact way.
Ramsay scoffed "You know he wouldn't read it Lillian, I'm not a Bolton" he signed avoiding all eye contact "I'm a snow, a bastard of the north"
Lillian looked at Ramsay her eyes screaming with annoyance "As long as I live you're my friend, you're Ramsay Falls, you're Family" Lillian smiled bumping her shoulder with his as their feet moved in the warm water.
I thought of those words forever, friend/family but as I looked into these eyes he wasn't a friend, he wasn't family he was dirt. He had killed Nadine without a second thought, his father betrayed Robb and Lady Stark and now Arthur hangs dead among a cross.
"Lil-" I felt the burn of my knuckles as it connected with his jaw line. His head only turned to the side the fresh print already appearing on his white snow like cheeks.
I waited for his soldier to move but they didn't I have never seen so much red than I did staring at me. All those promises I made to my parents lie in the ground with Nadine, lay hurt with Brent. If hot steam could come out of my ears I'm sure you could have seen it as I glared up upon this so called friend.
"I deserve that" he nodded "My father did betray-" I felt the tingle go through me again as I connected with his other cheek "Lily-" I stood over him after my foot connected with his chest, a fit of coughing erupted from him on the ground a small sadistic smile on his face.
That's when I was pulled back his soldier gripping me roughly by the arms "I fucking hate you" I hissed.
His eyes flashed with pain but he masked it as he dusted himself off, standing on his own two feet now, he discarded me as he turned to Rodrik "I think I'm going to find it far more entertaining to see you and Ludd kill each other…I NEVER WANT TO COME BACK TO THIS FUCKING SHIT STAIN OF A HOLD FAST" he yelled in Rodrik face his cheeks bruising from my punch.
His eyes connected with mine "I have better things to do than be wet nurse to you and Ludd so settle this on your own, last house standing" He stared at me "wins. Otherwise I'll kill you both and be done" Ramsay Shrugged.
"You're insane" Rodrik gasped in shock.
"At least I'm not you" He spat "Bring her"
I felt myself being forced to walk, I frowned as I began to push back my heels digging into the dirt to try and stop the dragging but it was useless. I was dragged all the way away from Rodrik once out of sight "Leave us" Ramsay growled at his soldiers.
As I stared I examined him he wasn't the sweet boy I grew up with, his eyes glistened with a monster, I had killed but I wasn't killing and torturing for laugh's I was killing for survival.
"You hate me why?" he asked his tone holding the same voice it did many years ago, it was soft and innocent. Something I recognised.
My eyebrows knitted in anger "You don't know why?" I asked angrily
"I wasn't involved in the decision my father made Lillian, I'm sorry about Robb and Lady Stark I know they meant a lot to you" I held my hand up stopping him in his rant.
Moving closer I was once again toe-to-toe "You killed my fucking baby sister"
"No I never-"
"I buried her Ramsay I came back escaping the shit hole I was contained too only to get to Ironrath to see her fucking dead" I spat
"I would never hurt-"
"THE FUCKING GIRL WHO STOOD UP FOR ETHAN, ETHAN FUCKING BETROTHAL WAS MY FUCKING BABY SISTER" I yelled pocking him in the shoulder.
"Lillian I-"
"You killed two children because of Ludd Whitehill, Ludd who always called you a fucking bastard, who degraded you" I hissed "WHO CALLED YOU A FUCKING SHIT STAIN OF A BASTARD"
"Lillian-" he signed pain written in his eyes.
"I hate you," I whispered and if I could wound him anymore I had "And there will be a time when you die at my hands for what you have done"
"I never meant to hurt you Lillian" he signed "I always protected you, I've always swore alliance to your family"
"You broke that the day you put a knife to my baby sister neck" I pushed him back "Get the fuck away from me Ramsay. Your dead to me, I fucking hate you and I hope when you die its be someone more gentle than what I have planned for you"
He signed "I'm sorry Lillian I didn't know, I would never harm you and I still won't ever harm you…you're my best friend" I glared at him "I'm going to go now Lillian" he signed walking away from me.
I wanted to throw my dagger at the back of his head, I wanted to kill him, choke him to death but I let him walk away a part of me the inner child remember him as him a child, my best friend who would never hurt me.
I let him go and I hated myself for it. Hated that I didn't stick a dagger in his heart, a knife to his throat a sword across his belly. When Ramsay was no longer insight I took a step back.
Turning I walked angrily back towards Rodrik "Lillian you're okay" He smiled in shock pulling me into a gripping bear hug "I thought he would have-"
"I'm fine," I whispered
"Did you?"
"No the bastard still lives" I nodded because I let him go my thoughts screamed "I will fight with you" I nodded
"Are you okay?"
"I'm fine" Nodding I walked away leaving him in the grove. My head screamed a million things at me. Turning the corner I found the wolves circling outside the castle, letting out a small whistle they followed me inside the castle.
Turning to one of the guards we had left "Shut the gate, send soldier to gather all the small folks left willing to fight" I nodded
"Yes Lady Falls" he nodded going outside.
As I turned some corners I could hear the wailing of Brent. Biting my lip "Stay" I ordered the wolves as I pushed open the door. The Maester working away on Brent leg.
"Lillian are you-? AHHHH FUCK ME OUCH FUCKIGN SEVEN HELLS" I flinched at his pain, walking over I grabbed his hand gripping "Are you okay?" he asked exhausted his body covered in sweat.
"I'm fine now shh brother"
Maester stood up washing his hand in water "All done keep that on or it will be infected and lose it…but other than that you will live" he nodded strongly "He probably need some rest"
Leaning over I kissed Brent forehead "I love you and thank you for protecting the boys"
"Always" he yawns
"Go to sleep" I muttered running my hand through his sweaty forehead pushing back his hair. His eyes slowly closed just like when he was younger; after I knew he was asleep I stepped out of the room sending in a whining Ice and Jaymie.
Grabbing the boys I walked back to the room, Shadow at my ankles, stepping up on the bed I pulled the boys in looking at them. Grabbing them with everything I had I held them. Shadow lying on bed with me as a slow tear finally escaped my eyes.
"I love you two more than the flowers loves the sun in summer and I will protect you with everything I have…you two are my beginning and my end" I whispered, "Sleep my boys, sleep"
A/N: I would like to personally apologise for those who have found it a struggle to read. My editing is not the best, the way I picture it sometimes doesn't turn out the way I want it too. So for the bad editing and confusing I am sorry but this is my first story and I hope for those who understand me are enjoying it.
Jeanette x
