Lillian POV

Coldness crept down the dungeon the cold winter air licking at my bare skin. Shivers rolling down my body as I sat in my cell my arms wrapped around my knees rocking back and forth. My throat dry and painful the laughter had died down after the cold air began to nip at my skin. Wiping my nose from the water that began to drip, my thoughts going to a happier time, a time when we use to run around and have fun.

The sound of metal and keys rattling hit my ears and this time I didn't care for playing nice, standing my body ached from standing so rapidly, bending I began scraping my hand among the ground, feeling something large in my palm of my hand I lifted it, light crept into my cell. Standing to my full height I ran to the door hiding near the stone walls when the door opened a guard crept in, squeezing the rock tight I let out a little whistle his face turning to me, smiling I pounded the rock into his head "GUARDS" laughing I kicked the gate shut wrapping my arm around his throat and my legs around his body stopping him from moving and began to squeeze.

"LET HIM GO" another guard yelled "or I swear"

"You'll what?" I asked a smile appearing on my face as the Torch alight my cell "you'll what?" I teased pressing tighter on the guards neck.

"I'll Fucking kill you, FALLS FAMILY PIECE OF SHIT" he hissed "fucking you need to be taught a lesson" he spat grabbing his keys I felt the sting in my arm the blood pouring from the scratches off the guard I was chocking to death. But they soothed me somehow.

When the gate opened I grabbed his head twisting it hard until I heard that sharp crack kicking his body aside I stared at the guard who rushed in now standing motionless at the person on the ground.

"YOU FUCKING WHORE" he screamed charging at me weapon drawn stepping to the side he missed me but anger clouded his vision. Picking the torch up from the ground I threw it in his face "AHHH"

Just like that darkness swept in bending low I placed my hand on the wall using my back to go across the wall, the sound of his sword slicing through the air hit my ears. Gulping back I held my breath when I felt it the sword pierce my arm "GOT YOU DIDN'T I" he laughed.

Grabbing the sword I held onto the blade feeling it slice my hand once feeling his hand on the sword I grabbed it twisting it backwards behind his back the yelp escaped his lips the sword dropping with a clang to the ground "tell me little boy what were you going to do with me what type of lesson" I growled in his ear pulling his arm higher up his back my teeth grinding against each other "you fought for the wrong house and now you must die" I whispered picking up the sword I dug the blade into his back ap horrifying scream reached my ears but didn't last long. letting go he flopped to the ground like a fish out of water, dead.

"Lillian" turning to the voice I crouched like the caged women my breathing hard and fast I was staring at my so called best friend as he stared at me "time to go stop killing whitehills guards"

Standing to my full height I looked at him being able to see and glanced at the bodies behind me I didn't ever want to take a life but me or them I choose me I have to I'm a mother and my children need me.

Guards held crossbows at me as the gate was reopened again placing my hands together heavy chains brought them to my side my arm dripping with blood from where I was stabbed "get her bandaged up" Ramsay voice was kind but menacing at the same time "Ludd these dead soldier won't be the only thing dead if she tells me another hand been laid on her"

The tug of the chains made my feet move squinting my eyes as we walked further and further into daylight. Blinking away the pain it caused I took a deep breath nice cold fresh air made my heart pound strong and my lungs feel at home.

Turning my head I saw Ramsay staring at me "what?" I spat

"You still do that breath in thing"

"Yeah well been in a dungeon for gods knows how long" I snapped "Really not into the smell of decaying bodies and shit"

Ramsay nodded "I wouldn't be into that either but up you pop on the horse" he nodded to a horse he voice filled with humour.

"My hands"

"No I'm not that stupid you will remained chained until we arrive at winterfell I feel you won't try and escape when you find out what's there"

I frowned at him reading him like a book "who?" I spat angrily.

"My new wife" he laughed "now up you pop" red is all I felt all I could see as I glared at him. Ramsay guards grabbed me around the shoulder holding me tight as the other one picked me up. Swinging my leg around I sat upon the saddle my chains being passed to Ramsay "please stop frowning it's an unappealing look on you lilybug"

"I would like to say I give a fuck but I don't" I hissed my hand gripping the knob on the saddle.

"Hmm" Ramsay hugged his lips pressed together evil in his eyes "ya" he yelled kicking his horse I groaned as the chains tighten and my arm jarred quickly tapping on the horse it caught up to Ramsay the ache in my wrist still there but he just laughed.

Ramsay held up riding alongside of me "Lillian" his tone was soft no longer menacing "please don't make me mad I do not wish to hurt you"

I stared at him "you already have" I whispered in return.

"Nadine yes I am sorry but you need to move on" scoffing at his words my eyes turned to the road and he no longer rode beside me handing the chains to a guard who didn't bother to speak or annoy me.

The rest of the ride was filled with chatter and glances

but I just stared at the road ahead trying to keep my balance on this horse. It didn't take long until winterfell came into view every good memory was from here every happy moment here.

"Never thought I'd see you smile" Ramsay smirked

Turning to him "I will never smile for you" I hissed "never now whom is your wife there is only three women left in this world I care about so who is it" I hissed angrily.

Passing the gates Ramsay jumped off his horse coming to my side his hands snaked around my waist and he helped me off, every part of me wanted to vomit on him for touching me.

"Reek bring me my wife" he smiled down at this man bowing his head in fear, frowning I moved to look at him my eyes going wide.

Moving forward quickly I kicked him the force pushing him in the mud his blue eyes stared up at me pain and torture written in them "Traitorous pig" I hissed my chains now being held back stopping me from taking his life "they were boys and you killed them" I shook my head "Robb your brother betrayed...you're scum Theon" I hissed venom in my tone as I watched him scurry away "release release me right now" I demanded.

"Do not" turning I saw roose Bolton "Lady falls my deepest condolences to your sister" he nodded "your family were always so kind to our it's a shame such accident occurred"

"Is everyone here a traitorous spineless pig?" I questioned ignoring his apologies they meant nothing to me.

"LILLIAN-" stopping my glaring the voice I knew it and just like that my anger subsided and I looked at the lady in front of me red hair but her eyes filled with ageing.

"Ramsay let me loose let hug her please" I begged guilt dripping within me.

"Say hello and than take her to her chambers" Roose Bolton stated my shackles were released and I stared at my red head little sister. Gulping back the tears we ran for each other the snow slowing our run.

"I am so sorry" I whispered once my arms had wrapped around her tiny body.

"Shh the hound told me it's okay" she whispered In my ear "I'm sorry for being a spoilt brat and I'm sorry for everything that happened to you" Sansa whispered.

Shaking my head "don't be"

"That will do take her to her chambers" Roose yelled.

Hands grabbed me pulling me away I tried to fight them off but the shackles found my wrist so easily, pulling me away from Sansa I was dragged through the snow.

Releasing my shackles I was pushed in my chambers "please Lillian behave for your actions might hurt sansa"

"What?" I hissed angrily

Ramsay lips pressed together and the door slammed shut the sound of keys locking it. Taking a deep breath I walked to the open window looking down I realised where I was the old watch tower. Turning on my heels they had cleaned it up and it was nice but it was the only room and to get out without using the door was the window.

Leaning over I looked down, the door opened "very big jump milady" turning to the female voice I recognised her from before I left for kings landing "I'm Myranda. Ramsay sent me to bath you" her smile was creepy and evil.

I glanced at the tub near the fire place filled with hot water "I can bath myself" I hissed

"Please ma'am I don't want to make master angry" she smirked

"And if you appreciate your life I would suggest you fuck off"

The sound of her laugh made me angrier "Lillian I have heard of you so many stories" she smiled "the girl who saved her siblings, water that doesn't freeze I always wondered what that meant the waterfall that never froze"

I glanced at her "I can tell you if you like it means that no matter the weather the challenge we won't alter we won't change, our word is our word and we remain the same no matter the circumstances" I stared her dead in the eye

"Hmm" she nodded stepping closer "heard you were raped"

"Heard you wanted to die by my hands?" I questioned

She snorted "I don't see what Ramsay sees in you you're his favourite girl even after all this time he still wears that locket" my jaw slammed shut I had forgotten my mother had one made for him.

"I suggest you leave" I stated "you don't want to play with me"

Myranda laughed as she left the room the sound of the door locking behind her as she jumped down the stairs the sound echoing right to my chamber at least I would hear whomever comes up those stairs.

Walking to the window the snow was falling winter was defiantly on it's way like Ned had promised. The day grew to night and the stars sparkled and the moon shined down at me.

I hoped Brent, jaymie and the boys were safe hoped they looked up at the moon knowing I too were looking. I missed my family my heart ached to hold my boys.

The sound of knocking hit my ears and before I could say anything the door opened and there he stood "I brought you food"

"No thank you"

"You need to eat Lillian"

"No"

"Lillian"

"Ramsay"

"Please" he pushed the hot plate towards me "I heard you didn't want to bath"

I stared at Ramsay "if you love her I would suggest you keep her the fuck away from me because next time I will kill her and don't think I won't"

He jaw clenched his eyes filled with rage "you will not harm her"

Laughing "I will Ramsay god I will so I suggest you keep her away because trust me I swear it on my name I will kill her if she come near me or Sansa again" my eyes filled with rage.

Ramsay jaw tighten and the tray that held my food now laid on the floor as we stared at each other "I had warned you to behave or Sansa will get the punishment"

Shaking my head "and I warning you this you want to keep the girl you love" I stepped to him "than I suggest she stays clear of Sansa and myself"

I don't know how long we stared at each other "I will make reek bring you more food and you have my word she won't come near you"

"Good try to keep this promise yeah"

His jaw tighten his eyes squeezed together "goodnight Lillian"

Nodding I watched him leave my heart filled with hatred but a touch of love. This man had been my best friend growing up and than with a blink he grew up, we grew apart and he wasn't Ramsay I remembered he was a monster.

Turning away from the door I walked over to the bed and took a seat I felt like I had rolled in mud for two weeks straight every part of me was covered in dirt but I didn't want to move I didn't want to step into the cold bath and wash myself.

Throwing my head back I bounced on the bed my eyes looking up

LF - JS

Turning I crawled over to the wall my hand going over the engraving. I had written this a long time ago. As much as I tried not to think of him tried to forget I couldn't.

"Jon if you hear me I need you, please Jon" I whispered "please save me from this hell and hold me tight" letting out a shaky breath I held back my walls that wanted to cave in.

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