Lillian POV
Woke up panting covered in sweat my body shaking from the night cold air nipping at my skin. My head spun, Clenching the furs beneath my finger tips I dragged my arching body to a sitting position.
My face stun and realisation hit me hard and strong, reaching up I touched my face feeling the fabric under my hands, clawing the fabric off blinking rapidly breaking away the blurriness that held me captive.
Signing in relief that I wasn't blind, I looked around the room knowing whom and what room I was in. My eyes went straight to the bookshelf.
Lifting my hands winching every time. My hand traced the scars on my arm and stomach, my face even. My scars were no longer hidden.
Pressing my lips together I threw the furs off my body. Wobbling I dragged my body out of bed and to a Standing position. My knuckles turning white from the grip on the shelf. Pain shot up my body like face fire, my eyes rolled back, as my teeth dug into my swollen lips but I couldn't hold it in.
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" my throat burnt as my scream turned into rough dry cough. My eyes watering.
The sound of the bed chamber door slamming against the wall shook through my body. Gripping the bookshelves my legs wobbled and my skin glistened with goosebumps. Reaching out I snatched the candle off the nearby table, the wax burnt my hand and darkened the room more.
"Milady please I am but a healer. You need to lay back down you're not healed nor are you well" she tried to walk towards me her hands in surrender.
My body shook as pain radiated through it. I could taste blood in my mouth as I stared at this women. I could take her.
"Move" my voice wasn't steady or fierce but it carried volume enough to make her wince and stop in her path.
"Please Milady your grace will be furious I am under strict instructions to make sure you remain in bed"
"Your grace?" I hissed
"Yes Milady"
"Whom?"
The moon light shined down on her showing me the small frown on her face "I'm sorry Milady I thought you knew" she smiled softly "Jon snow was just claimed king in the north two weeks ago"
"You're tricking me, I have been tricked many time before" I hissed
"Milady please you're safe" she was inches from me her hand reaching out to grab me, gripping her arm I swung it around, my other arm wrapping around her neck tightly.
Clenching my teeth I squeezed hard and could feel her digging at my arms ripping open my scars "P-P-Please" She gasped
"I have been tricked many times you think I shall let you go? You think I am willing to loose everything? To fucking trust you and the words you mutter"
"P-p-please" she coughed out
"Lillian" snapping my head to the door "Lillian"
My grip loosen only a little on the girl throat "who are you?"
"Let go of her she is but a healer she is not here to harm you. Please I am Davos Seaworth, Jon Snow is Here he is king" he pleaded "he only left your chambers to attend a meeting please you're killing her" I looked at this man with a white beard his hands held up in surrender.
Releasing the girl she crawled away from me gasping for air "get your King and hurry" he told the girl helping her to her feet. Moving my arm up the bookshelf I gripped the cold metal.
"Milady please I mean you no harm there is no need to wield that. I promise"
"How do I know when I turn my back you won't attack me or try to rape me" I spat angrily "by all means try many have and many no longer speak or breath"
"Milady please you're in pain you went through some serious trauma please Jon will be here soon…please Lillian"
I stared at the man in front of me he seemed honest but a lot of people I thought were honest have betrayed me. My grip tighten as the sound of running hitting my ears.
My room was grew brighter from the torches, three man and a women stood in my chambers my eyes went wide as my knees gave way. Collapsing to the ground hard.
"Lily"
"Is this a dream?" I asked painfully "are use ghost?am I even alive?"
Jon POV
Stood in hall going over the plans for food over winter when the doors slammed open "sorry your grace but it's Lillian she has awoken" dropping what I held in my hand I ran.
Turning corners and running up stairs, grabbing a torch I alight her room my eyes feel upon her backed up against the bookshelf her hand gripping a knife she would have found behind a book.
"Lily" her blue eyes fell to mine and realisation flooded her as her body shook, collapsing to her knees, tears gathered in her eyes.
"Is this a dream?" Her voice was laced with so much pain "are use ghost? Am I even alive?" She asked.
I knew the other had followed me "no we're not ghost Lily we're really here. Sansa, Grant" The tear finally slide down her cheek "I'm here Lily I'm here" walking closer I dropped to my knees before her "I'm not going anywhere I'm here"
Her eyes watched me, putting my hand over hers, releasing her iron grip on the knife it fell to the floor with a loud clang "leave us" I whispered staring into her eyes.
Her blue eyes were sad as she looked at me but blue eyes turned quickly into angry eye. I felt it hard across my face, the sting woke me. Turning my head back the pain stung like a bitch but i stared at her grabbing her hands my heart hurt more than that blow.
"Lillian I am so so sorry for everything…I understand if you hate me"
"Hate you?" She whispered her face frowning "how could I hate you?"
"You just hit me"
"Because you left me that's why not because I hate you I could never hate you Jon"
Wiping my eyes aggressively "because I left you went to kings landing and they did vile things to you and Robb is dead because I couldn't protect him and your sister I'm so sorry Lillian" My head fell.
"Jon" she whispered "I survived" My head lifted "I fought for you and my family and I survived like your dad always said the lone wolf dies but pack survives. We survive"
I nodded wiping the tears from my eyes, leaning forward I gently kissed her lips "What do you need?" I asked.
"Just Hold me" I pulled Lillian into my arms standing up her fragile body pressed into my chest. Laying her down on the bed I began taking my boots off. Jumping in I pulled her to my side and held her, my fingers drawing circles on her shoulder.
"Is it really grant?" She whispered
"Yeah, he saved my life and lost his daughter"
"What was her name?"
"Ygritte"
"Was she pretty?"
"Aye, brave and strong a lot like you but her hair was kissed by fire" I laughed "you're cold" I signed as she shivered.
"Aye"
Grabbing the furs on the bed I tucked Lillian in the door knocking "Come In" the girl that came to me "I'm here to redo her stitches"
Lillian looked at the girl nodding, sitting behind Lillian she laid her back against my chest and held out her arm. The girl came forward and went to work on the open wound. I didn't even notice my stomach fell from guilt.
"I'm sorry" Lillian whispered "I have gone through a lot and people who come in my chamber usually where out to kill me"
"You're safe now Milady" she smiled "your grace is here"
"Aye and I'm never leaving you again" I whispered into her ear "I swear by new gods and old"
The girl fell silent a small smile on her lips as she stitched away and checked over Lillian and than left the room quietly "where is Brent?"
"Went to get his wife and kids" I whispered my lips finding her head kissing it lightly.
"So he we be back soon?"
"Yes"
"Jon"
"Yeah"
"Don't ever leave me again because I won't forgive you ever again, you walking away was the hardest thing I had overcome"
I stared in her blue eyes "I promise Lillian I promise" laying her back down her head pressed against my chest "I'm going nowhere not without you by my side. I promise"
No more words were ushered as she began to fall asleep against me the sound of her small snore brought a smile to my face.
She was alive, she was here and I wasn't ever going to let her go again. Never she was mine. The gods would have to murder me, to make me release her from my grips.
I couldn't help but look at all the scars and marks, the recent ones from Ramsay and the ones that had been there a while.
"No one is ever going to hurt you again Lillian. No one"
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