I was afraid to open my eyes. It had been years since I smelt this smell, felt this touch. He was here, his heart beating under my finger-tips, his deep breathing in my ear. My body stung but I wanted nothing more than to be one with him.

"Rest Lillian-"

"MMM" was my only response, not caring for what he said as I gripped onto him tighter. The sound of the door banging made us both groan.

"Your Grace-"

"Please a day do not harasses me for a day it's all I ask" Jon begged his arms around my shoulder tucking me further into his chest "If it's to do with the keep ask Sansa"

I didn't open my eyes but I heard the door close and the loud grumbling voices from outside "Thank you"

"Welcome" his lips graced my forehead "I will always protect you Lil-" he stopped dead in his tracks when his fingertip hit the back of my stitched wounds. Opening my eyes I frowned at the light but stared at him, his eyes trained on my scar, his eyes pooling with tears.

"Don't you dare cry Jon, this...what happened to me brought me back to you. I know you have some thoughts of what I've been through but I've survived and I'm sorry I let another Stark die" My thoughts went to Rickon, my tears flowing down my cheek.

Jon rough hands brushed my check softly "If I'm not allowed to cry neither are you" He smiled grimly "What happened to Rickon wasn't your fault. I saw what you did for him. He knows you tried" the tear fell I couldn't hold it "Hey this isn't your fault"

Shaking my head in disbelief I knew deep down I could have tried harder. I could have saved Sansa, Could have saved Robb and Rickon. I could have fought to keep all of us together. To keep Jon from the wall but I was weak.

"Stop...I know what you're doing, what you're thinking please stop" I sniffed burying my head into his chest "I love you Lillian and I don't want you to leave my side again, I don't want to walk this world, rule the north without you" Frowning I lifted my head staring at those brown eyes "I know I hurt you I know I pushed you away and I should have stayed. I was too stupid to see I had everything I could have ever desired sitting right in front of me"

Scoffing "Don't I know it" laughing a little "Ouch"

"Stop being mean I'm trying to-"

"I know but before you do I must know where Brent is."

"Ah he sent a Raven stating he was on his way back, should be here by now or early-" Sound of Loud banging hit my ears and knowing that bang from anywhere I smiled. Struggling to sit up I pushed myself out of Jon Arms and tried standing on my feet.

"Lily" Wrapping the furs around my body "You need to rest-"

"COME IN" I yelled gripping the bed. My heart could have exploded right there and then. My eyes watering as I stared at the two boys smiling back at me "MUMMY" they screamed together. Laughing I struggled to bend but bit back the pain standing to my full height clenching them in my arms. I felt whole. And I knew I shouldn't but I did.

"Miss you mummy" Derik kissed my cheek.

"Missed you both" I smiled lovingly kissing their chubby cheeks, their laughter filled me with joy. I could feel Jon staring. I could hear his thoughts and understand the distaste I could see from the corner of my eyes but I did not care, and all would be explained.

"Ouchie," Derik asked, pointing to my bandage.

"Yeah" I nodded, looking up I stared at my brother "Thank you" he nodded coming closer wrapping his arms around me "Sorry"

"I could kill you" his voiced laced with pain "I thought-"

"Love you too"

Brent pushed his lips together looking from Jon to me before nodding "Grant?"

"Apparently"

Brent let out a huff "Leave you too it, Shadow With Ghost send him in later" Nodding he shook Jon Hand and left with Jaymie. Turning to him his eyes were wide as he stared at these boys.

"Jon?"

"Um these are Brents?" He asked

Sitting down with the boys on the bed I shook my head "No Jon...Sit"

"Lillian-"

Inhaling "I need you to swear to me you will not push them away"

"These are a product of you being raped aren't they?" He growled

Lowering my eyes "Jon they're in the room, no they're not anything like that"

"Derik, what is your dad's name?" I asked my black curly haired boy, he smiled a toothless smile at me.

"JON STARK"

"Sorry?"

"Jon stark" he whispered, scared.

Jon looked at me "You knocked me up that night, I was with child thought I lost it after I was attacked ended up having the baby when Brent saved me"

"And this one" He pointed to Eddard

"This is Ned" I smiled at the sleepy boy laying his head on my knees as my fingers went through his hair. "He is Robb baby" I smiled softly. "Brent and I took him before the red wedding. I tried to tell him not to trust Frey but he wouldn't listen, stubborn. They had him days before traveling"

Tears welled up in his eyes "This is our Robb kid?" He asked

"lts the he gave to the world" I nodded

"Oh...Oh man that's um that's" his eyes went wide "He is ours of course I won't shun any of them. I will tell him who his dad is but I will treat him as my own I promise" I watched Jon eyes water and his voice filled with so much honesty it would shake the world.

"Yes"

"What?"

"You were going to ask me to be your wife. The answer is Yes 1000 times yes" Smile broke his face as his lips crushed on mine. Pain shooting up my body "Ouch"

"Sorry" I mumbled, feeling bad for hitting him.

His booming laugh brought goosebumps up my spine "I love you"

"Love you too"

"Hi Derik, Hi Eddard I'm your Dad"

The boys looked at me and I nodded watching them smile "Dad" Derik screamed happily tackling Jon in a hug. Eddard stared confused. Smirking, I kissed his forehead watching a smile grace his beautiful face as he stared at Jon and Derik.

Days later

"Jon I am over this bed please-"

"You need to rest," Jon signed, holding the boys on his hip. It has been 5 days and all I wanted was to rip Jon Clothes off and be one again but I also wanted to walk around and see everyone. Sansa has avoided me, heard Arya was here but yet to see it. My wolf wines could be heard out the window.

"Jon please "

Knocking at the door made my head snap up smile gracing my face, something it hadn't done in a long time "Sister I bring you a gift" raising an eyebrow Bran came in with Grant pushing his chair inside "Sure you're tired of this room" Smiling I nodded "Take her for a stroll Jon"

My eyes light up and Jon signed slamming his head in the pillow "Fine out"

"I want to see them all" I told Jon "All of them"

Signing he nodded helping me into some warmer clothes before placing me in the chair, furs tucked under me like I was a sick child. Rolling my eyes at the mother when Jon began to push and we moved my eyes glanced every nook and cranny the memories flooding in.

Jon stopped overlooking the courtyard and was busting with life. Winter was here I could feel it "Derik and Nedd are enjoying themselves" he pointed to them jumping all over Grant "Someone wants to see you"

looking up at Jon he smirked and began to walk, a loud whistle followed him and the crowd fell silent. Frowning, we headed into the dining area and the room filled with people, my eyes glancing at the banners. They were here. The north is divided but here.

Jon pushed me to the table, I sat next to Bran in his chair he wiggled his eyebrows, a small smirk gracing his lips. Jon cleared his throat catching my attention, turning to him his hand graced my shoulders "You claimed me to be your king, you stood here and made it official" Jon nodded "A king is nothing without his Queen and I couldn't think of a more fierce, loving and devoted Queen than Lillian Falls"

"QUEEN IN THE NORTH" My eyes widened at the sound. The room echoed together but my eyes trained on her. Pushing up from my chair.

"Lily-"

Shooing Jon away my sea legs began to walk pain shooting up at me "You really going to make me walk the whole way?" I asked annoyed

"You were doing so well" Arya Smirked.

"Hug me now" I demanded her arms wrapping around me "I am so sorry"

"Don't be" Pushing back "QUEEN OF THE NORTH" The whole crowd cheered and Hollard, the room erupting with music and claps. Jon came back to his hold on my shoulder making it known he wanted me sitting. Smirking at his protectiveness, my body didn't argue.

Taking a seat my eyes fell on someone in the shadows. My jaw clenched as he bowed his head at me. I didn't give him anything other than a cold glare. If I had a list he would be on the top "You okay?"

"Tired," I nodded.

"Eat please" nodding. I picked up the food taking a bite watching him leave the dining room with nothing but a whisper in Sansa's ears.