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Sunday morning. Usually around this time, I'm attending the 9:30 church service with my Bonnie singing the Lords praises, but instead, I'm in bed. All alone. I would've gone to church to get me out of my depressed mood for an hour and a half, but if I would've gone I wouldn't focus on a single thing. I would just be thinking about Bonnie and about us and that isn't how I want it to be.
It's been nineteen hours and two minutes since she walked out and I miss her every millisecond. It's all Evan's fault, she was perfectly fine before she left and suddenly she's all riled up and angry when she gets back. She said that she could handle it, that she understood and then he manipulated her into thinking otherwise. I don't know what he said to make her actually believe that I use our love to manipulate her in any such way because that couldn't be more false and it hurts that she would even think of me like that, brainwashed or not.
I sigh at the hole in the wall knowing that I better patch it up before Bonnie comes back. I know she'll come back. She's my soulmate, she has to come back or else I don't know what I'll do with myself at this point. Never have I ever loved another woman as much as I do my Bonnie and just picturing her walk away from me the way she did yesterday played on a constant loop in my head. I begged, pleaded, but she still said her goodbye. How could she do that to me?
I get up from the bed thinking that I need a shower to clear my head. I close my eyes as the water pelts my skin until I wrinkle and I get out using one of Bonnie's lotion to moisture my skin. I love her natural scent so I have to settle for this until she gets here. I get changed then go back into the bathroom to properly wash my face and finally brush my teeth then exit the bathroom but I pause at the threshold.
"Bonnie?"
"Stefan,"
"Wh-what are you doing?" I took a step closer to her. Was she-
"I'm packing some of my things."
"You're seriously leaving me?"
"Yes, I meant what I said-"
"Bonnie please don't do this." I moved up to her. "I love you, I'm sorry just unpack and we can start over."
I lift her and sit her on top of the dresser and gaze into her eyes before I kiss her and I know that it'll be only a matter of time before she kisses me back and then all would be right in the world but she doesn't. She doesn't kiss me back breaking my heart even more than it already was.
"I'm sorry," she hopped off and headed back downstairs.
"Just tell me one thing." I follow her and grab her arm before she made it out the door. "Are you staying with him?"
She let out a breath, "Stef-"
I shook my head backing away heading back upstairs. I cannot believe how blind she is. A part of me now regrets walking away, but I just couldn't stand to look at her at that moment.
"You'll get her back, man. If I know Bonnie, she'll come back." Tyler told me.
Two days since I've last seen my baby and I tried, I always try calling and texting but she never responds, and though I'm still upset I still make sure to tell her that she's beautiful in one way or another. "Technically we didn't break up she said that she needed some space."
"That's how they let you down easy, Stefan."
"I can't believe she actually left me. When I saw her packing I don't know I guess a part of me was hoping that she was unpacking."
"Maybe I'll get Caroline to talk to her? You know see what's up, see where her mind is at."
"I appreciate it."
After work, I head back home and I can't help but hope that she's there waiting for me. If I knew where Evan lived I would've been on my way there but I don't. I can't believe she's actually staying with that kid it just goes to show that I was right. He tricked her into believing all the stuff she said to me during our fight and told her to stay with him and I know it because otherwise, she would've gone Elena's. There's no way that his place would be the first place she thinks of going to after our fight, he had to put the idea in her head and why did she actually go to him, I don't know, but what I do know is that I will never let that happen again.
When I hear my phone ding, I jump at it hoping that it was Bonnie, but instead it was a text from Tyler.
Care just talked to Bonnie. She says that she misses you and felt like she made a mistake but she meant what she said. There's still hope buddy. Find her and apologize but don't force it she'll come when she's ready (Caroline's advice).
I know it's a long shot, but I texted Bonnie with a time and an address to meet me. She didn't reply but I could only hope that she'll be there.
I decide to use the time to shower and put on that white shirt that she loves me in. I'm about to head out when I spotted the necklace on the dresser. Why didn't I notice it before, I have no idea, but I'm going to give it to her. It doesn't matter if she wants me back or not, I bought it with her in mind and it belongs around her neck.
TBC
