I am so sorry for being away for so long, at first I thought about putting this story on hiatus but.

Then the news about Naya reached me, I am devastated. God gained another angel far too soon and we sure will miss her prescence here on earth, how are you all holding up?

If you ever want to talk, don't hestitate to write me :)

'' God it's so fucking hot.'' Brittany groans out as her mother parks her car in Maribel and Lio's driveway, Susan clicks her tongue and shakes her head.

'' Language honey.''

'' You hang too much around Maribel, you start clicking your tongue at me too.'' Brittany mutters rolling her eyes as her girlfriend burst out laughing, Susan laughs and slides out of the car smiling as the girls join her.

'' Want me to start full blown scolding you again? Just like I did when you were in high school?''

Santana laughs squeezing her girlfriends waist as she quickly shakes her hand and covers her mouth as she snorts. '' Oh I remember the day you had the final play for football with the boys, you were so nervous and rude that your mom scolded you and Puck in front of the whole team!''

Brittany shakes her head as her mother burst out laughing too and walks up to the front door ringing the doorbell, she smiles as Maribel almost immediately opens the door and grunts as she pulls her in a bone crushing hug. '' Whoa you saw me yesterday mama Lo.''

'' Too long ago.'' Maribel mutters as she leans up on her tiptoes, she kisses Brittany's cheek and looks over her shoulder raising an eyebrow as she sees her daughter and Susan wiping away their tears from laughing so hard. '' Do I want to know what happened?''

Brittany pulls out of the hug and turns to her girlfriend raising an eyebrow as she bites her lip in amusement. '' They just mentioned the final play where mom scolded me and Puck for swearing too much.''

She pulls her girlfriend closer as she chuckles and leans down kissing her cheek. '' Somebody is about to get cut off.'' She mutters smirking as she immediately stops laughing, she looks up at their moms rolling her eyes as they smile knowingly and takes off her shirt pulling out of her girlfriends arms. '' I am gonna take a dive.''

She runs out into the yard and smirks. '' Sup bitc…'' She cuts herself off as she sees Alma Lopez looking at her with a smirk and stops in her track, she yelps as she slips and braces her fall with her right arm groaning. '' Shit!''

'' Language Britt!'' Maribel and Susan call out as they walk out biting their lips in amusement as everyone burst out laughing, Santana covers her mouth as she starts laughing and looks at the table trying to find out what shocked her girlfriend.

'' Abuela!'' She squeals out in surprise immediately running over to her, Alma laughs and stands up hugging her granddaughter.

'' Ola Santanita.'' She looks over her shoulder and smirks at the blonde still sitting on the ground. '' Ola clumsy.''

Puck laughs walking over to his best friend and hold out his hand, he helps her standing up and kisses her cheek. '' You okay B?''

'' Why didn't you text me?'' She asks softly as she watches Alma talk with Santana, Puck chuckles and squeezes her shoulder softly.

'' Lio took all of our phones, he wanted to see your reaction.''

'' Yep and it was priceless! I recorded it.'' Lio says laughing as he walks up to her, Brittany groans and drops her head.

'' Well thanks papa Lo.''

'' Go say hello B.'' Lio mutters softly knowing how nervous she is, Brittany bites her lip as he softly pushes her in Alma's direction and sighs softly.

Alma looks up smiling inwardly as she sees the nervous smile on the blonde's face and let's go of her granddaughter, she steps around her and opens her arms. '' Come here B.''

Brittany quickly puts her shirt back on and steps in her arms grunting as she wraps them tightly around her waist, she wraps her own arms around Alma's shoulders and looks down at her smiling nervously. '' Hey Alma.''

'' Why so nervous B?'' Alma asks softly as she looks up at her, Brittany bites her lip and shrugs her shoulders. Alma clicks her tongue shaking her head and leans up onto her tiptoes, she kisses her cheek and smiles. '' None of us is mad at you, so just be your crazy self the girl our Santanita fell in love with and the girl who keeps us entertained even if she doesn't do anything special.''

'' That is the third time I hear a clicking tongue in ten minutes babe, gotta be a new record.'' Santana says chuckling, Alma laughs as she watches Brittany flip Santana the bird and shakes her head. She turns to the three other adults and smirks. '' God I missed the craziness of this group.''

'' Oh yeah we did too Alma.'' Susan says walking over to her, she quickly hugs her and kisses her cheek. '' Nice to see you again.''

Santana walks over to her girlfriend as their parents talk with her grandmother and wraps her arms around her waist, she leans up on her tiptoes and kisses her softly. '' I love you.'' She mutters as soon as they pull out of the kiss, Brittany kisses her forehead as she cuddles into her and smiles.

'' I love you too, baby.''

She pulls out of the hug as the heat becomes too much and takes off her shirt. '' I really need a dive, join me?'' Santana shakes her head and chuckles.

'' Not yet.'' Brittany nods her head and turns on her heels, she sprints to the pool and jumps on top of the diving board.

Santana shakes her head as she watches her easily do a back flip into the pool and chuckles. '' Show off!'' She calls out as she sees her emerge again, she rolls her eyes as her girlfriend just shoots her a wink and turns to the group.

She walks sits down next to Quinn and raises an eyebrow as the group all look at her with smirks on their faces. '' What?''

'' Girl got laid.'' Cedes mutters softly so the adults at the table with drinks doesn't hear them, Quinn laughs as Santana's eyes widen and pats her back.

'' You have the same dopey grin on your face like you had almost everyday in high school San.''

'' What dopey grin?'' Brittany asks as she walks up to the table, she sits down on her girlfriends lap smirking as she groans and wraps her arms around her shoulders.

'' The I just god laid grin.'' Sam explains laughing as he watches them both blush, Quinn smirks as she sees Brittany's back and runs a finger over the scratches she sees there.

'' Ow!'' Brittany yelps pulling away hissing, she turns around glaring at Quinn and slaps her hand away. '' The fuck Fabray!''

'' Language Brittany!'' Susan, Maribel, Alma and Lio call out clicking their tongues, Brittany's head snaps up as she hears them yell her name in unison and groans.

'' I am an adult ya know, I am allowed to swear.''

'' You are still our daughter, we are allowed to scold you.'' Susan counters easily smirking as everyone starts chuckling, she catches sight of her daughters back and rolls her eyes nudging Maribel. She nods her head to the girls and sighs. '' Thank god the rooms are soundproofed.''

'' Ma!''

'' Mama P!'' Brittany and Santana yell out blushing bright red as they hear her comment, Susan laughs and shrugs as everyone burst out laughing holding their stomachs.

'' What?! Just saying, I sure as hell don't want to hear the two of you going at it.''

'' Okay no!'' Brittany mutters holding up her hand, she shakes her head and sighs. '' We are not talking about this, just shut up mama.''

'' Are you girls using protection?'' Alma asks raising an eyebrow, Brittany groans and drops her head on her girlfriends shoulder hiding her face in her neck.

'' Kill me, please.'' She whines, Alma laughs walking over to them and pats the blondes back.

'' I would love to become a great grandmother but that can wait for a little, I just turned sixty.''

'' Sixty?'' Henry asks in shock, Maribel laughs and nods her head.

'' Yeah she had Lio when she turned 19, the same age I gave birth to Santana.''

'' So you are forty?'' Henry asks tilting his head, Maribel nods her head and smiles slightly wrapping her arms around her husbands waist.

'' Yeah our family started young.''

'' What shall I say? I just turned 37.'' Susan mutters as she sits down next to her daughter, she chuckles as she sees her burning red ears and pats her back. '' Quit blushing honey, you know that we are just joking.''

'' How old were you when you gave birth to B?'' Henry asks smiling as he turns to look at Susan, Susan looks at her daughter and smiles.

'' Sixteen, she was a welcomed surprise. My husband, her dad was twenty so my parents were against it but he showed them that he could take care of us.''

Brittany sits up biting her lip as she hears her talk about her dad and reaches out taking her hand. '' He is still taking care of us mom, I am sure that he is the reason for all the good things happening in our lives.''

'' What was he like?'' Rachel asks trying to get them to talk about Brittany's dad a little bit more, Susan turns to look at her and smiles glancing up at the sky.

'' Just like Brittany is now, she is like his twin. I can see so much from him in her it's scary sometimes, they both love with their whole hearts but if someone hurts the people they love they will make sure that they will have nightmares for years and need to run for their lives.''

'' He was a die hard friend and when we got into a fight he made sure we were laughing by the end of the day, he was an amazing doctor and always put the happiness of other before his own.'' She adds smiling slightly, Brittany bites her lip as she hears her mother talk about her dad and looks down at her hands.

'' He always had the best good night stories and taught me how to play football, he is also the reason why I am so comfortable with myself. Sure I am still uncomfortable when meeting new people but he always said.''

'' Don't listen to other people Britt-bear, you are amazing and being a little bit different then other girls makes you even more lovable. You will always be my little girl and if someone gives you a hard time just think about my words, people who don't accept you for who you are aren't worth your time. You will find yourself a nice girl or boy and a nice group of friends who will love you like we love you, you will be so successful in life and you will always be my little dancing lily.'' Susan says interrupting her softly with tears in her eyes.

'' Aw mom no tears please.'' Brittany mutters her voice thick with tears, Santana wraps an arm around her girlfriends waist and reaches out taking a hold of Susan's hand.

'' I think we all would've loved to meet him.''

'' He would've loved all of you because you all make Brittany happy.'' Susan mutters smiling as she reaches up running her finger over her necklace with her husbands name. '' He would have been best friends with your dad and I am sure he would've loved you, if he was still here he would probably be sitting right over there.'' She nods her head to the fire pit and smiles. '' With Britt and his guitar, he loved to sing and play.''

Brittany chuckles and nods her head. '' Oh yeah he did, every time I had a bad day at school he would barge into my room singing random songs.''

'' Is that why you almost cried the first time San called you her beautiful dancing lily?'' Quinn asks curiously, Brittany nods her head intertwining her hand with her girlfriends and bites her lip.

'' Yeah only my dad called me that and hearing it from San surprised me, and she called me that the first time on the third anniversary of his dead.''

'' Seriously?'' Santana asks shocked, Brittany nods her head and smiles slightly.

'' Yeah.''

'' I remember that day, the name just laid on the tip of my tongue after watching you dance with Mike for that musical.''

'' Looks like your dad was in your life that day once again B.'' Henry mentions smiling slightly, Brittany nods her head looking down at her hands and bites her lip.

Susan stands up as she sees her struggling against her emotions and wraps her arms around her shoulders, she kisses her head and sniffles. '' He will always watch over us honey, I am sure he is walking around up there with a bright proud smile because of everything you reached in your life already. I still see his smile every time you won a dancing contest, if I didn't hold him back he would've stormed onto that stage to give you a bear hug.''

Brittany hugs her mother and breaths out a shuddering sigh. '' Yeah I know, he always complained about it afterwards when you were cooking.''

'' Hey B?'' Maribel asks softly, she smiles as she glances at her over Susan's shoulder and bites her lip. '' Do you have pictures of your dad? Your mom showed us a few but I am curious how much you look like him now.''

Brittany nods her head and takes out her phone, she pulls out of her mothers arms and unlocks it. She opens the album she made with pictures of her dad and scrolls down selecting the last picture they took together, she holds it out for Maribel and bites her lip. '' That is the last picture we took together, it was at a school dance a week before the accident.''

'' Whoa now I know what you meant with them having the same eyes Susan, his are so bright too.'' Maribel mutters looking down at the picture and back up at Brittany, Susan takes the phone from Puck after Maribel handed it around and looks down at the picture nodding her head.

'' Oh yeah Britt was and still is his mini me, she was such a daddy girl. I am not saying that she didn't love me but.''

'' She had a better bond with him.'' Alma says with a small smile, Brittany takes her phone from her mother and shows her girlfriend the picture. Santana gasps softly as she sees two pair of bright blue eyes looking into the camera and smiles as she sees Brittany's big grin with a few missing teeth, she runs her thumb over the picture and looks up at her girlfriend and hands her the phone back.

'' That picture is so cute baby! How old were you there?''

'' Seven.'' Brittany mutters looking down at her phone, she smiles sadly as she sees her dad's bright happy smile and sighs softly. '' He passed away a week later.''

'' How did he pass away?'' Alma asks softly.

'' Mami.''

'' Abuela.'' Lio and Santana warn softly, Susan shakes her head wiping away a tear and sighs.

'' It's okay.'' She says softly, she looks up at Alma and sighs again. '' He got in a fatal car crash on his way to an emergency at the hospital, a drunk driver t-boned him just two streets away from ours.'' She closes her eyes sighing sadly as Brittany excuses herself and follows her with her eyes as she sits down at the pool side, she turns back to the group seeing them all look at her daughter and bites her lip. '' I knew it was him because B let out a heart wrenching scream only seconds after the crash, he died instantly so he didn't really suffer from his injuries. To this day I still don't know how she felt it, I felt dread filling my body but it looked like something inside her snapped and it hurt so bad that she didn't calm down for days.''

She turns to look at her daughter and wipes away a tear. '' I had to give her a small dose of sleep pills to calm her down and to put her to sleep, I cleared it with doctors before doing it and they told me that there is no other option. They gave me the option to give her the pills and let her stay at home, or to sedate her and leave her in the hospital until she returned back to herself.'' She gulps tears streaming down her face and closes her eyes as Maribel and Lio both pull her in a hug. '' I know that she still struggles with the loss and that she didn't visit his grave for years now.'' She sees everyone look at her in confusion and smiles sadly. '' He is buried near New York, we lived there before moving here. '' She explains quickly.

Santana looks at her girlfriend and stands up as she sees her shoulders shake knowing that it's a sign that she is crying, she walks over to the pool and sits down beside her.

'' I miss him.'' Brittany mutters tears streaming down her face as she feels her girlfriends precence near her, she buries her face in her neck as she pulls her in a hug and sniffles softly wrapping her arms around her waist.

Santana kisses her head wrapping her arms around her shoulders and sighs softly. '' I know you do baby.'' She runs her runs her hand down her back and sighs sadly as she feels her sob softly. '' He will always be right with you baby.'' She places her free hand on her heart and softly presses down. '' He will be right here.'' She runs her hand up her body and taps her forehead. '' And right there.''

'' Do you.'' She bites her lip as sad blue eyes lock on her own and sighs softly. '' Do you want to visit his grave?''

Brittany shakes her head and looks down at the water. '' I don't think I can.''

'' What if we go together honey?'' Susan asks her voice still filled with tears, she crouches down beside both girls and pulls them in a hug. '' We can ask Mari and Lio to join us, I think you need Lio there with you.''

Brittany gulps and shakes her head. '' I can't mama, there is a reason why I always had an excuse every year.''

'' You are scared to break down completely.'' Susan mutters knowingly her heart breaking as she sees tears slide down her daughters cheek, she kisses her head and tightens her hold on her daughter. '' But sometimes you have to let go honey, remember the song he sang for you when you called him during his fifth night shift in a row?''

She hums softly as she feels her daughter nod her head and clears her throat.

He called her on the road
From a lonely, cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
But when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
Said, "Daddy when you coming home?"
He said the first thing that came to his mind

Brittany exhales a shuddering breath and shakes her head. '' Mom stop.'' Santana's heart breaks as she hears how small her girlfriend sounds and looks up at Susan, she sees the sadness in her eyes and bites her lip slowly nodding her head as she understands the silent message to let her girlfriend cry it out.

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh, I'm already there

Brittany shakes her head and pulls herself out of her mothers grip, she quickly jumps up and tries to make a dash to the kitchen door.

Lio jumps up having seen the movement and jogs to Brittany intercepting her, he tightens his hold around her waist as she hits her fists against his shoulders and shakes his head as she mutters. ' Let me go' over and over again. '' Nope you are staying here, let go mija.''

Brittany shakes her head and tries to break free. '' No.'' She mutters brokenly. '' Let me go.'' She says sniffling. '' Please.''

Santana jumps up as she sees her girlfriend crumble for the first time in the years that she knows her and quickly walks to her, she bites her lip as Puck joins them and quickly wraps her arms around her waist from behind. '' We will be here to catch you Britt-Britt.''

'' Yeah we will be, let go B.'' Puck whispers kissing his best friends head as he joins the hug knowing how much strength she has, Maribel walks over to Susan as she sees her watching the scene in front of them with tears in her eyes and wraps an arm around her shoulder.

'' Did she ever cry about Brett?''

Susan shakes her head and wipes away her tears. '' Not really, sure she shed some tears but she always fight against all emotions except love and anger.''

'' Yeah I can see that.'' Alma says her heart breaking at the scene in front of her as she joins her daughter in law and Susan at the pool side with the rest of her granddaughters group of friends, Quinn nods her head in agreement and bites her lip.

'' Is there anyway to stop her from fighting, she is just hurting herself more if she continues like this.''

'' His voice.'' Susan mutters biting her lip, her eyes widen as an idea pops into her head and she quickly jumps up jogging to the table. She grabs her phone and quickly unlocks it, Maribel follows her and raises an eyebrow.

'' What are you doing?''

'' I have a video from him talking to B, it's just a short one but I think that it will help.'' She scrolls down her list with saved videos and taps it as soon as she sees it, she walks over to her daughter and holds her phone up locking eyes with Lio.

'' Do it.'' Lio mouths as he sees what she tries to show him, Susan taps play and bites her lip as she watches her daughter freeze as soon as Brett's voice filters through the phone.

I am so proud of you my little girl, I love you until infinity Britt-bear.

Santana tightens her hold around her girlfriends waist as she feels her legs give out and locks eyes with Puck tears filling her own eyes as she hears the first heart wrenching sob leave her mouth, Lio kisses the blondes head and tightens his hold on her and cups the back of her head as she buries her face in his chest. '' It's okay mija, we are here. '' He mutters softly.

Susan leans against Maribel tears streaming down her cheeks as she watches her daughter finally let go and bites her lip. '' Finally.'' She mutters softly, Maribel wraps her arms around her smiling as the group join into their hug and kisses Susan's cheek.

'' How long did it take?''

'' He passed away when she was seven, the last time I saw her cry like this was during his funeral.''

'' So fourteen years.'' Sam mutters in shock after doing a quick count, Susan nods her head and watches the three surrounding her daughter using all their strength to keep her up.

'' Yeah, far too long ago.''

Brittany buries her face in Lio's neck as she hears her mother talk to the group and bites her lip. '' Thank you.'' She rasps out her voice rough from crying, Lio shakes his head and runs a hand through her blonde locks.

'' No need to thank me B, I will always be here for you just like everyone surrounding you right now.'' He slowly let's go off her smiling as she immediately turns around cuddling into his daughter and kisses her head. '' How do you feel?''

'' Like I lost a lot of weight.'' Brittany mutters shrugging, Lio pats her back and smiles.

'' That is because you bottled everything in, please don't do that again you hear me?''

'' I'll try.'' Brittany mutters, she straightens up a bit and kisses Puck's cheek. '' Thank you Noah.''

'' Anytime Britt.'' Puck says after kissing her cheek, he leans down picking her up bridal style and walks over to the lounge chairs knowing her legs still don't work. He turns to Santana and kisses her cheek. '' Love you girls.''

'' We love you too Puck.'' Santana replies almost immediatly, she sits down next to her girlfriend and pulls her in her arms kissing her head. She smiles as she cuddles into her and runs her fingers down her back under her shirt, Brittany buries her face in her neck and sighs yawning.

'' God I have crying.'' She mumbles tiredly, Santana slides down the chair tightening her hold around her waist and kisses her forehead.

'' Take a nap, mi amor.'' She says softly smiling as the group and their parents walk back to the table talking softly, Brittany nods her head and slides her hand under her shirt up her stomach.

She places it above her head and kisses her pulse point softly. '' Luv yu.''

Santana smiles as she hears her slur a little and scratches her blunt nails softly over her scalp closing her eyes as she purrs contently. '' Love you too Britt-Britt, proudly so.''