Chapter 23: Ella gets no lovies
I was pretty sure I was cursed. Forced to suffer from people close to me cock-blocking me until I died. I should probably just give up and join the nunnery or something.
I was perfectly happy being pretty much naked in the buff arms of my sexy boyfriend, about to get freaky with him... and my stupid cock-blocking best friend chose that time to call me.
I groaned loudly in frustration and pressed my face into Jasper's chest. He huffed a little laugh and handed me my phone. At least he was still hugging me and I got to feel our bodies pressed together.
Small mercies.
"You better be dying right now, you cow." I spat out as a loving greeting.
Jasper, the naughty vampire that he was, was holding his laughter. He was clearly having the time of his life. Fucking cocky bastard.
"Yeah no. Don't have sex with Jasper."
Well fuck you too. I could bone my super hot boyfriend if I wanted to!
"And can you tell me why? Because if you're about to confess your passionate love for me, I hate to break it to you but I just don't see you that way."
"As if. Your head is way too big if you think I would ever even consider dating you. No offense, but ew."
Ahh, best friends. You just had to love them. Just tell me how you really feel, why don't you?
Jasper lost his battle with his laugh and his body shook as he giggled. That's the only way to describe it. It was so fucking cute. My manly, macho boyfriend... giggling like a 7 year old girl with a secret.
But it didn't matter how adorable he was. He had to be punished. I poked him in the ribs. He had the decency to pretend that it affected him as he flinched dramatically. I then proceeded to press a soft kiss on his shoulder to show my appreciation for the kind gesture.
"Okay so why are you being mean to me? I have needs, you know."
"Should I really be present for this conversation?" Jasper asked playfully. It was such a good look on him. The boyish mischief twinkling in his eyes made me feel all warm and happy. It was a big improvement to what he had looked like just a moment ago.
I never wanted to see him looking so uncertain and hurt ever again.
And Alice Cullen was officially on my shit-list and I was going to make her hurt if she dared to show her fucking pointy face in my boyfriend's vicinity ever again. The little pixie had better to hit the road because I was very keen on finding out what guns would do to a vampire.
"You are going to stay right there mister. I haven't had my fill of your gorgeous nakedness yet."
Also he was nicely warm and while my room wasn't that cold, I was only wearing my panties and it wasn't like we were in the middle of an unnaturally early heatwave.
"I really didn't need to know that you are naked already."
"Oh shut up. You know you will be getting all the details in the very near future. Sharing is caring, babe. And believe me, I would have so much to share with you if you could just stop making my life miserable."
Jasper guided me to the edge of my bed and sat down with me straddling him. Angela had better get to her point real fast because there was something wonderfully hard pressing against me and I was very eager to get way more familiar with it.
I just knew we'd become best friends.
"Okay ew I can hear you panting like a dog. I'm serious, Ella. You can't sleep with him yet. I know he's hot and I can practically smell your hormones through the phone, but it's a bad idea to think with your vagina right now. We, and by that I mean you, need a lot more information about vampires before you start bumping uglies with one."
Jasper raised an eyebrow. I sighed in frustration. I was so not going to get the lovies tonight. I put my brainy bestie on speaker and tried to reign in my hormones.
Angela loved me and she was only thinking about my well-being. I had to understand that and not get angry at her for stopping me from exploring my boyfriend's naked body. I should be patient and forgive her for this horrible crime.
"You're on speaker now babe. So what sort of information you need before you give me the green light to bone my boyfriend?"
Jasper's thighs flexed deliciously under me and I had to cover my mouth with my hands so I wouldn't let out any of the noises that were just itching to be let out. His thighs were so strong and yummy and they were warm and cozy and I just wanted to bounce on them.
God I was so gone for this guy.
What were we talking about again? Oh yeah, Angela was on the phone.
My mind was fuzzy. I liked it.
"You know, this is just how I pictured my night going. Talking to you and your boyfriend about sex and interrogating him about his biology. Thank you so much, babe."
Sheesh. My girl was in a sassy mood.
I really should have cared more, but like... I didn't. Not really. And yeah, maybe it was just me feeling like the sexual tension was seconds away from killing me and I so desperately wanted to have naked fun times with Jasper that I couldn't bring myself to care about whatever had Angela so worried.
There was a reason why she was the brains of this operation.
Jasper's naughty fingers danced over my spine, barely touching my skin and yet giving me an all-you-can-eat buffet of shivers. Like my scalp even tingled from his touch. How was that possible?
"You could have also not called me when your spidey senses were tingling. I feel like this is on you, Ang."
"Now that it has been established that Angela is somehow part of our intimate life, can we get to the topic at hand? Angela, you had questions about vampire biology?"
I pinched Jasper's chest. He had no right to sass my bestie. Only I could be bitchy to Angela. Bestie priviledges. Also we wouldn't even be in this situation if Angela hadn't given her blessing to my crazy plan to blackmail a vampire. Jasper should be very grateful to her.
He just wiggled his eyebrows and pinched my waist softly in retaliation. And yes, it may have turned me on a little bit. I kind of liked it when he squeezed my body. Made me feel safe and wanted.
"Yes I do. First of all, how do you turn into a vampire? Is it a blood-sharing thing?"
Okay, I was officially confused. Why did she want to know details about how to turn someone into a vampire when we had been talking about having sex with a vampire? Like how did those two things connect? Hell if I knew. I just blinked stupidly.
Jasper looked a little confused too, so I didn't feel too bad about my lack of brains.
"No. We inject venom into humans. Like snakes. I have venom glands in my mouth. We do not give blood to humans in order to change them. That's a myth."
"Do you only transfer venom by biting someone? Does your saliva have venom in it? I assume not since Ella hasn't mentioned being turned into a vampire and I happen to know you two have been quite actively swapping saliva."
I could practically see Angela sitting primly at her desk with a printed out list of questions in her hand. And she probably had written it all out the moment I told her I was in love with Jasper. My girl was nothing if not well-prepared for anything.
"Pretty sure, yeah. The venom courses through my entire body, but I only have glands in my gums and the stimulation of my teeth biting into something releases the venom."
Jasper's fingers were still running across my skin gently, but he was paying close attention to Angela and I kind of loved him even more for that. I didn't have a fucking clue what Angela was going on about, but she clearly was worried about something and I loved and appreciated that Jasper took her concerns seriously. Even if I wasn't.
I tried to shake my horny ass out of the gutter. The class was clearly in session and apparently it was something that I really should pay attention to.
"Okay. So you are sure that your sperm doesn't have any venom in it? Do you even still produce sperm?"
And now I was back on track. I had wondered about this. Was it possible? Could his super sperm turn me into a vampire accidentally? Because um, yikes!
Like I was kind of on board with becoming a vampire some day. It seemed inevitable if my relationship with Jasper was going to continue and I had no fucking intentions of not continuing it. But it wasn't that simple and it felt like something I would need to think about before just jumping right into it.
I loved Jasper. I wanted to spend an eternity with this infuriatingly wonderful guy. And I was counting on that Johnson family curse to make that dream into a reality.
But not yet. I would very much like to spend a little more time as a human first, thank you. Even if my life was kind of miserable because of my family. But I had awesome friends and a platonic soulmate. I wasn't ready to give that up yet.
"I... have never actually thought about that. Affairs between vampires and humans haven't been that well researched. In most recorded cases the vampire just ends up killing their partner. Twisted vampires looking to break their victims as a sport. And most vampires aren't too keen on speaking about their love lives with their partners before they were turned. I suppose it's considered a bit of a taboo to sleep with humans."
So... it was frowned upon to fuck your food? I would have never guessed that. What a shock! Because centuries old stuffy oldies surely were the most open-minded group of them all!
"So it's a risk. I hope you understand that it's a risk you can't take with Ella. What about STD's? Do you have any of those in your system?"
Oh for fuck's sake! He was a vampire! One of the undead! I doubt he'd be able to get sick. I groaned out loud.
"I can hear you scoffing. El, you do know that STD's also transfer via blood, right? And Jasper has surely been drinking from multiple people during his long life. If you sleep with someone, you'll also potentially sleep with everyone they have ever had sex with and that same principle holds in the case of drinking blood. So Jasper, do you have any STD's?"
I did not know that. Or maybe I knew that and had forgotten all about it. But like, the entire name 'STD' kind of... refers to sex and nothing else. So it really wasn't my fault that my dumb ass didn't know that.
Thank god for Angela. Even if she was the biggest cock-block ever.
"That's a valid point. Vampires do not get sick, but I suspect it's entirely plausible that we can still carry diseases within us. I need to look into this. And before you even mention it, I also don't know if condoms will prevent any potential venom making it through. This is also something I need to study further. Thank you for bringing this to my attention, Angela. I haven't really interacted with humans, other than hunting them of course, since I was turned so this has entirely slipped my mind."
Aaaand it was official. No sexy times for Ella for god knows how long. UGH! And I couldn't even be mad at my bestie because holy fuck she probably saved me from like a syphilis or something.
Jasper better figure this shit out fast. I was not going to wait until I was dead to have sex with my boyfriend. He was way too tempting for me to do that. And he was pretty much just as horny as I was. Proven by the fact that he was still very much hard under me.
"Well this sucks. But you two will figure it out, right? You two smarty-pants can solve this in a jiffy. Now that you've successfully killed any chance of me getting laid, I'll see you tomorrow? Love you babe."
"Yeah, I'll be waiting in the library to polish the fake story about how you two got together. I'll see you in the morning babe. Get dressed. I don't trust you to keep it 'in the pants' if you're not wearing any."
I probably should do that. And take a bath because I was all sorts of sticky at the moment. And it was kind of late already, so it was bath-time anyway. Oooh maybe Jasper could join me!
Mmmh just the thought of being in a warm bath, pressed against his slippery body...
No, that was a bad idea. Bad Ella! Do not think horny thoughts right now. No sharing baths until it was certain that Jasper's spunk wouldn't give me AIDS or turn me into a vampire before I was all good and ready for it.
"It was... nice? Talking to you, Angela. Wait, that sounds so wrong given the topic of our conversation... Uh... I'll look forward to formally meeting you? Ella... little help?" Jasper stammered. He would have been so red right about now if he was still alive.
God how was it possible for him to be so adorable? My awkward Major Whitlock, the leader of armies, defeated by his inability to make small talk.
"Good job, baby. You got this!" I kissed his cheek sloppily, making him smile a little again.
"I'm also looking forward to it. But just because you weren't a complete bag of dicks just now doesn't mean that I approve of you yet. We'll have a proper talk real soon so I can see if you are worthy of dating my best friend."
Jasper, bless him, looked intimidated. I didn't blame him. Angela was a bad bitch. The best girl ever. He should be afraid. Angela was smart enough to take down a vampire, should she so choose. I just knew it. I loved her so fucking much.
"Bye Ang!" I ended the call. I pressed my forehead into Jasper's shoulder for a little while and just sighed.
"Okay so now that my bestie officially ruined any chance of sexy times tonight, we'd better get cleaned up. I'll go raid Brody's closet so you'll have something dry to wear and you can use my shower in the meantime. Then I'm going to take a long bath and you can do whatever. Except, you know, leave. Because you're spending the night and we are going to cuddle with our clothes on and I'm going to make you feel all fluffy and loved so you'll forget whatever nonsense that stupid bitch put into your head. Sounds like a plan?"
There was literally no way in hell that Jasper was going to go back to the Cullens. Not on my watch. This day had been rough on him and I'd rather make nice with Ariel than let him anywhere near Alice without me backing him up. I was so ready to hold a grudge until the end of time. Nobody was allowed to make my boyfriend feel like shit.
"How generous of you to pretend that I have a choice." He said cheekily. He was being playful but I didn't have to be an empath to see how pleased he was with the idea.
We could deal with the Cullens and my parents and everything else tomorrow. Tonight belonged to just the two of us.
A little break from the outside world sounded just perfect.
000
I usually hated mornings because it included waking up way before I was ready to. Most of the time I would much rather just continue sleeping well into the afternoon before getting up and making myself pretty. But not this morning.
I was up an hour before my usual alarm. I didn't feel sleepy at all and I was up and ready to barricade myself into my bathroom with all the beauty products I had before Jasper even had the chance to say 'good morning' to me.
I was a girl on a mission.
I liked looking pretty all the time. I took great care of my outer appearance on a regular basis. I had never went to school looking anything less than perfectly put together. But this time my usual standard wasn't going to cut it.
Because I had to outshine Alice Cullen in every possible way.
It was a big day for me. I had two different motives for getting extra dolled up this morning. One, I would announce my relationship with Jasper to the world. And I knew there would be gossip and suspicion and a lot of questions. As far as anyone knew, Jasper was still dating Alice.
We had interacted at school a handful of times ever since he agreed to be my date and my homework slave. So it wasn't like nobody had ever seen us talking or something. But I hadn't even hinted a possible romantic connection between us to my friends and that would raise eyebrows.
I would be compared to Alice. Because that's just what people did. Luckily I had plenty of experience with that. Perks of being the black sheep of the family.
People will wonder why Jasper would leave someone who looked like Alice for someone like me. Like yeah, I was really pretty. One of the prettiest in our school. But Alice was a vampire and while Rosalie was the beauty of the two of them, Alice was super gorgeous.
You know, if you liked that pointy bitchy look.
But yeah. I had to make everyone look at me and think 'oh yeah that makes sense' because the story we had planned was that Jasper had been helping me with school and we just were super attracted to each other.
It wasn't that far from the truth but we would never tell anyone the actual truth of our relationship's starting point. Angela was going to be the only one of my friends who knew that I had blackmailed Jasper to be my fake date to the wedding.
That would be so fucking horrible if people found out. I loved my friends, but there was absolutely no way that I would ever reveal such information to them. That would fucking ruin me. Nobody needed to know that I had been desperate enough to blackmail Jasper into dating me.
So I had to make sure that nobody would question our story too much. So anything less of utter perfection was not going to cut it.
People were shallow like that.
But maybe even more importantly, I wanted to rub it in Alice's stupid little face that I had totally stolen her husband from her. Because I was a vindictive little bitch when I wanted to be and that blood sucker had it coming.
I didn't have the muscles to beat her up. She could literally snap me in half like a twig. I was in excellent shape and had the body that many women would kill for, but I wasn't going to win a cat fight against a fucking vampire.
So the next best thing was to destroy her mentally and emotionally. Alice Cullen was about to start feeling real shitty about herself. I was going to make her feel ugly and worthless and like she wasn't good enough to hold onto her man.
Which was true.
Because she was a vile cockroach that needed to be squished under my stylish and expensive boots. She fucking dared to call my boyfriend a monster? Fucking dared to make him feel shitty about his beyond sexy scars? Uh, no. That was unacceptable.
Alice Cullen had failed because she was a miserable hag who couldn't understand how beautiful Jasper was, both on the outside and on the inside. The guy was so fucking dreamy and protective and kind and growly and funny and tall and comforting and sneaky and all sorts of wonderful things.
She fucked it up with the quite literal definition of Mr. Perfect and tried to blame it on him?
Unacceptable.
She was going to find out that Jasper dumped her sorry ass because a much better option came along. Jasper was going to fucking drool after me and she was going to witness it all. She was going to realize that even with her vampire mojo, I was the hotter one.
But also I was totally going to get my hands on a fucking shotgun and shoot her stupid little face.
"You are starting to scare me a little. What are you planning, lil' darling?" Jasper called from the other side of the door, bringing me out of my slightly murderous thoughts and into the present.
"I'm not planning anything at all. Can't a girl just make herself feel pretty?"
I could hear his chuckle through the door and it made me let go of the anger brewing in me. Just a little bit.
"Of course you can. Your dolling up doesn't explain the very strong lust for violence that's washing over me right now, though. Are we going to kill someone today, my sweet girl?"
Gosh, he could sweet-talk to me like that all day every day.
"Why do you always assume I want to murder someone? I'm the sweetest angel to ever walk this earth."
I eyed myself critically in the mirror. My bruises were finally so faded that I could switch to my lighter foundation. I liked my freckles and I liked to show them off. They weirdly gave me a confidence boost. So they were on full display, giving my skin some much needed colour.
The make-up was impeccable. My eyebrows were perfectly shaped and my lashes were perfectly curled and separated and long and pitch black. My cheeks were rosy and my lips were painted deep red. I usually preferred nudes when going to school, but this was a fucking event.
My hair was perfectly fluffed and shiny and smooth. I carefully ran my fingers through it to make sure it was just as silky as it looked. Well, for the next 30 minutes or so. It would get tangled in no time, but I was planning on dragging my hair care weaponry to school with me.
I didn't usually keep my hair down and straight. If I had my hair down, I liked to have some curls in it, but today I felt like showing off my beautiful and very expensive hair. I touched my barely-there roots with a bit of matching eyeshadow and made a note to book my next hair appointment asap.
I looked good. I felt like even mom would approve of me. Okay so she'd probably approve of me even if I looked like a pile of shit today because... well, she was about to find out that Jasper had stayed the night and we were a thing.
Just like she wanted.
Nodding to myself in approval, I opened the bathroom door and marched straight to my closet. Time to find my best clothes that wouldn't look out of place at school. A part of me wanted to have this whole Disney Princess moment and walk into Forks High in a fucking ball gown, but that was just going to raise some eyebrows. I was making a spectacle, not a joke out of myself.
"How is it possible that you steal my breath away every time I see you?" Jasper asked softly, hugging me to his chest from behind. I sighed in happiness and leaned against him for a while before continuing my mission.
We could be all lovey-dovey after everyone knew I was his girlfriend and a vast improvement from his ex.
"I really do get jealous when you give your full attention to something other than me... but since I love you and I know how important this is to you, I'll allow it."
Oooh, he was speaking in that low and slightly growly voice that sent heat right into my core. Fucking sex powers. I could not get lost in his hotness right now!
"I love you with all my heart, but we need to focus now. I will be demanding all of the kisses after we have made our grand entrance."
"Should I run to the house and get changed?"
I looked at him, all dressed up in my stupid brother's sweats and t shirt. It wasn't the most stylish of outfits by any measure, but it suited him shockingly well. The shirt didn't really fit him, because while Jasper was all sorts of ripped and buff and had wide shoulders, he was not as bulky as Brody. But then again, Brody was like comically beefy. Jasper looked way better.
"Nah, you're good. You look kind of cute and even though you smell like my gross brother, you'll be just fine in those. I don't want you to go to that place alone in case that fucking lunatic pixie is there to bother you."
"God you are cute when you're protecting me." He said, sounding absolutely smitten and holy shit it made my cheeks warm up.
Okay, it was time to focus. I could go all gaga over Jasper after we had dealt with my psycho parents and my nosy friends and the rest of the school. Until then, I had to keep my game face on.
We finished getting ready in peaceful silence. The forecast promised a cloudy but warm weather, so I picked out one of my new denim skirts and paired it with a pastel pink blouse that was something between high fashion and Hot Topic. Relatively casual, fancy and pretty as fuck and suited me perfectly. Mom had gotten it for me as an early birthday present and I seriously didn't even want to know how much it cost.
I looked so good. I smiled at my reflection in the mirror and felt really good about myself. Nothing boosted my confidence quite like knocking it out of the park when it came to my appearance. Jasper pressed a sweet kiss to my head and wrapped a secure arm around me.
It was time to face the music.
My parents.
Again.
000
It shouldn't have come as such a huge surprise that the first person we encountered was Brody. It was a school day and I was actually ahead of my usual schedule so Brody hadn't fucked the right off to play Faye's personal chauffer yet.
Okay, I admit it. I did snort pretty loudly at the dumbfounded look on Brody's face when he saw us walking out of my room. He was holding his phone in his other hand, probably talking to Faye, and brushing his teeth with the other.
No idea why he decided that the hallway was the best place to brush his teeth, but I had accepted that my brother was a moron many, many years ago.
It was pretty hilarious how he dropped his foamy toothbrush to the floor and still clutched onto his phone so tightly. If I didn't make it a habit to be grossed out by my brother, I would have thought that his dedication to Faye was kind of adorable.
But nothing about Brody could ever be adorable, so there's that. He just looked like an idiot.
"Morning." I said casually after getting myself back under control.
"Holy fuck my eyes are burning! Are those my clothes? Why is Jasper wearing my clothes? Did you sleep with my sister? Fucking eww!"
"Brody can you please keep your voice down? It's too early for the theatrics." I heard my mom call from downstairs.
I also heard Faye's high pitched voice from the phone, but I couldn't hear what she was saying. Jasper however smirked like he was highly amused, so that was a good sign. He'd have to fill me in on the way to school or something.
"Not that it's any of your business, and you're one to talk with the way you keep boinking Faye every fucking day in this house, but Jasper got caught in the rain yesterday and his own clothes are still wet. Also yes, we are dating for real."
"Well obviously I knew that. It's impossible to look at you two and not see how disgustingly infatuated you two are with each other. But seriously I don't want to know about my friend defiling my sister so for the love of god, DO NOT BORROW MY CLOTHES."
What a drama queen. Why was my brother so annoying? Ugh. I rolled my eyes.
"Sure thing, I'll bring a change of clothes next time." Jasper said. He sounded kind of smug. I was tempted to look at his face to see if he was sporting that smirk of his, but I was in need of coffee and since Jasper had not driven to my house, we would probably be walking to school. It was useless to ask Brody to drop us off.
And there was no way in hell I wanted to hitch a ride with either of my parents. Yikes.
"Whatever dude. We're still on for wednesday, right?"
Oh great. Now they even had plans together. It was so wrong that my brother was friends with my boyfriend. I was still convinced that nothing good could come out of it. Like what if Brody's icky nature rubs off on Jasper? God, what a fucking nightmare.
"As much as I love to watch you two become besties, I want coffee now. Let's goooooo!" I said. Okay, so I whined. But coffee was important! I needed the energy if I wanted to survive the day full of judging stares and whispered gossip.
We made our way downstairs to the kitchen and I leaned against Jasper's frame for just a moment before facing the music. Emotional support and all that. I just hoped mom wouldn't make a huge fuss about this later. She wouldn't do so now because Jasper was around. Appearances were everything.
"Morning..." I mumbled as we stepped into the room. Dad didn't even acknowledge my presence, which was nothing new, and just kept his nose buried in a news paper.
Mom did look up. She always had to check what I looked like. Her eyes widened as she saw that Jasper was with me. I could practically see her brains working overtime to make sense of what she was seeing.
Then her lips stretched into a satisfied smile. Yay, she was happy that her little plan had worked. Or at least she thought that her plan had worked. I would like to think that I got myself a boyfriend on my own, but she clearly thought otherwise.
"Jasper! What a wonderful surprise!" She said in a sickly sweet voice.
Now that was the tone of voice that I still desperately wished to hear more often when she was talking to me. Was it too much to ask for her to approve of me on even semi-regular basis? A sick, twisted part of my brain suggested that maybe now that I had done something right, she'd finally be happy with me. I knew I was stupid for wanting to believe that, but what could I do? She was my mom.
I loved her.
Fuck. Now I was feeling all sorts of angsty and that just wouldn't do. Jasper squeezed my waist softly and that was greatly appreciated. It was time to get my coffee, perk up and then go to school and just be a bad-ass bitch.
"I hope I'm not intruding. I was caught in the rain yesterday and Ella said it was okay for me to stay the night." Jasper turned on his charm to full blast and I was pretty sure I saw my mom's eyes get that greedy maniacal look in them.
I could just imagine all the trouble she'd get me in once that overwhelming urge to flaunt Jasper to our dear relatives took over her. I hoped that she'd at least remember that everyone thought we had been dating for months already.
"It's perfectly fine, dear. We love it when our children bring their... friends over. Right honey?"
Dad just let out a vague 'hmm' sound and continued on his reading. Gee, thanks dad. Why couldn't he even pretend to be just the tiniest bit of interested in the lives of his children? Like I didn't ask him to boink my mom and enter this family. I felt like that was on him and he should take some responsibility for his actions.
But I guess it was better that he didn't give a shit than if he was more like mom. One of those was more than enough.
I grabbed a cup of coffee and an apple while mom looked over my choice of clothes. It was routine by now and I just patiently waited for her to be done with her assessment while slurping my delicious drink of the gods.
"You look so beautiful today, Ella. See what you can achieve when you put a little bit more effort into things?"
A back-handed compliment if I ever heard one, but it still made my tummy flutter in happiness. I got that stupid smile on my face and I was pretty sure my face was glowing from the little praise. I did good. Mom thought I did good.
That didn't happen every day.
"She's always beautiful. But I agree, you look absolutely gorgeous." Jasper said. There was a bit of a bite to his tone when addressing my mom but he was all soft when he complimented me.
And yes, I blushed. I couldn't help it.
I loved compliments. And I especially loved compliments from Jasper.
"Thank you. We need to get going, though. Angela is waiting for us."
It was already 7.30 am and we were almost running late. My first class of the day wasn't until 9am but we had a lot to go through before that. Or more like Angela and Jasper had a lot to go through and then they had to explain it all to me so we were all on the same page.
Lying was so fucking complicated. But it was so much better than telling the truth.
"Of course. Jasper, you are always welcomed to our home and we hope to see you soon." Mom said while giving me a very pointed glare. Message received, mother dearest.
I was not allowed to screw this up.
Which was kind of insulting really. I didn't have a scandalous history with dating. I had never been dumped so it was stupid of her to assume I would start that habit now.
Okay so I had never gotten far enough for someone to dump me, but that was so not the point here. I was going to be just fine and dandy with Jasper.
"The more time I spend around you mother, the less I like her." Jasper grumbled as we left the house. I took a hold of his hand and pressed myself against his side.
"I know my mom is a lot, but she isn't going to hurt me so you don't have to be so growly with her."
Jasper scoffed and raised an eyebrow.
"She's done nothing but hurt you the entire time I've known you and from what I can tell, she's been doing that your entire life. There is literally no way in hell I'll ever accept that. I would kill her in a heartbeat if you gave me your permission."
Oh. Conflicting emotions.
On one hand, I was getting all wobbly at the knees because he was so protective and always wanting to keep me safe and happy. Shit like that did things to me. Wonderful things. Maybe they shouldn't have, since murder was still bad and all that, but like... who could blame me for swooning? He was willing to go full Major Whitlock on anyone who made me feel bad.
Call me psycho all you want, but that shit was romantic as fuck.
But on the other hand, he was talking about my mom. I understood why he didn't like her. Angela highkey hated my mom too. She graciously didn't bring it up that often because she knew it kind of hurt me in a fucked up way, but I knew what she thought of my mom. She had slipped often enough when I was a wreck because of my fucked up family.
But she was my mom. And I knew it was stupid to love her even after everything she's done. I didn't want anything bad to happen to her. I was an idiot like that.
"I appreciate that. I love that you're so willing to protect me. But we are not killing my mom, okay?"
And who knows, maybe she'd get better now that I finally had a boyfriend. I wasn't the odd one out anymore, so maybe things would be fine from now on.
I hoped so.
Author's Final Notes:
A new year, new me. Maybe. Let's hope so. My New Year's resolution is to update more than I did last year. Which shouldn't be that hard, considering that I updated this story like 3 or 4 times last year. Oops. I'm very carefully optimistic that my tight-rope walking on the edge of burnout is tilting in the healthier direction. At least this week has been good for me, so I'm going to try and keep it up.
So in this chapter we had a lot of conversation and Ella preparing for battle. She has her armour on and she's ready to take on the world. More of that in the next chapter where we will see how other people react to the newest and hottest couple at Forks High School. Also we will be visiting the Cullens and there may be a firm exchaning of words between Ella and Alice. Stay tuned for that!
I hope everyone is doing well and had a good start to this new year. Let 2022 be much better than the past 2 years. I'm sure we are all so done with this stupid pandemic. But still, let's not be hasty and keep things safe. I'll see you all next time!
