A/N :
Hello, all sorry it took me so long to update! I'm not going to lie I was so afraid to write for Angel and really tried to take the time to get into his head. SO please do not hate me I am trying to keep him true to himself, without changing him too much. I hope you all enjoy and please make sure to review.
Angels Bedroom
small spaces of silence
in between borrowed breaths
arms tighten
at the whisper of a name
all the words of the heart
the unanswered questions
are at this moment
blue rolling waves
Angel takes a deep breath and leans over to sit his book down on the bedside table. Memories of Buffy instantly flashed into his mind. Every touch, kiss, every single declaration of I love You. He missed her more than he even thought possible, everything around him reminded him of their time together, and in this moment, he was going back over those events and questioning if he had made the correct choice in turning back the day. If he had made the selfish decision he and Buffy would be cuddled up in his bed after a night of passion and talking about the next step, they would have taken in their relationship. If things had gone the way he wanted, he would have made her his wife within the next year but all that was stolen from them to keep Buffy alive. Before he could go deeper into his thoughts of his lost future with Buffy his phone started ringing.
Angel looked over at the clock who would be calling him midday, possibly Cordialia she could care less about time or day if she felt she needed something she would call and wake him, but it is not like it really mattered because he was struggling to sleep ever since he had turned back the day. He got out of bed and headed to answer the phone. "Hello...?" There was no response on the other line, so he tried again "Hello...?" "Angel..." If his heart had been beating it would have been pounding a million miles an hour was this just a dream was, she really calling him or was this just some twisted dream? "Buffy, are you alright?" There was a pause. Was there a big bad that she needed his help to go after? Was she having a hard time forgetting like they vowed? "Everything is defiantly of the good here...I was just calling to let you know that I appreciate all your help with my indigenous problem that I'm just really grateful for all the help." "Oh well it's no problem I'm just glad you are safe." Great line Angel glad you are safe I am such an idiot "Well I need to go thank you again for the help Angel" And with that she hung up and he was left standing there listening to the silence.
Buffy's Room
Buffy sat down back on her bed upset with herself for not coming out and telling Angel the truth about the pregnancy. At the last moment she changed her mind about telling him... that really something she wanted to tell Angel over the phone? It felt like something that you should tell someone face to face. Buffy put her hand on her belly "Mommy promises to tell daddy about you. If I am being honest, I am just worried about how Hes going to take the news." Getting under the covers of her bed Buffy lay back down holding Mr. Gordo to her chest. Her mother's words came back to her would she really be ready to take on the responsibility of motherhood it was a question she really did not have an answer to. She was sure with Angels help and the support of her mother and the scoobies she could do it but without them she did not like her chances. As Buffy lay there, she heard a slight knock on her bedroom door "Come in!" In walked a worried Willow "Hey Buffy I ran into Riley, and he told what happened are you okay? What did the DR say?" Buffy bit her bottom lip. She was not sure if she should share her news with Willow or not or keep it to herself until she spoke with Angel, but she needed to talk to someone besides her mother about what was happening and Willow could give her a different perspective. So, she took a deep breath and said, "Willow what would you say if I told you I was pregnant?" The red heads eyes looked as if they were about to pop out of their sockets "Well I would... I guess I would let you know of your options, and I guess ask who the father is?" Buffy took another deep breath "What would you do if I told you the baby's father was Angel." And with that Willow scurried next to buffy and took a seat next to her on the bed "As your best friend I demand you spill! Now!!!"
