That Night….
Dinner went pretty smooth. Victoria wasn't as rude to Julian since he had to leave halfway through to get ready to leave for Arizona. Megan was all smiles and laughs, and even looked like Lucas enjoyed himself. The dinner was delicious and the people I loved most were happy. After dinner Lucas went to his hotel and I asked him to meet us for dinner to be polite the next day. He agreed since Megan begged him to and we set up our plans. Rachel decided to head out to a bar to start her night and Victoria left to head home. Since the restaurant was only a few blocks from my apartment I told Calvin to have the night off. I was perfectly fine with it just being Megan and I. From the looks of it, she did too.
We stop for ice-cream at a nearby shop and walk towards my place in a comfortable silence.
She smiling quietly to herself and seems to be happy. Something that I haven't seen in a while.
"Why are you so cheerful", I laugh and bump my shoulder into hers. She smiles brightly at me and shrugs.
"I'm with you and you kind of make me happy", Megan gushes and has a bite of her chocolate ice-cream.
"Well good to know I'm on that list of what makes you happy", I crack up and eat another bite too.
"Yeah I mean you're like number two but that's still a big deal", Megan grins and I send her a dirty look.
"And what is number one".
She looks at me and smiles sadly, "Dad".
I look away and nod my head softly. At a time it was the two of us against the world. But that was five years ago and this is my life doesn't revolve around Megan's like Lucas's does.
"Yeah we'll I figured tonight we can have a slumber party in my bed like we used to when you were little", I mutter to try and change the topic.
"Sounds good to me", Megan smiles and walks to the trash can outside of my building to throw her cup away. I do too and get out my keys from my purse to open the door.
We get to my apartment and I open the front door. Megan walks in a head of me and I'm pretty sure she's headed to my room. I lock up the front door and kick my heels off. I walk into my bedroom to see Megan shedding her jeans and shirt to a t-shirt and shorts she has laid out.
"I'm actually glad Julian isn't here so we can sleep in the same bed", Megan says and jumps on top of my comforter. I roll my eyes at her as I slip out of my dress into pajama pants with a matching tank top.
"Well I am just glad you are here. I hate not seeing you at least once a month", I whine and crawl into bed next to her.
"Yeah I know the feeling", Megan frowns and takes a deep breath.
"Hey you know I'm just a phone call away", I shrug and grab her hand to hold.
"Yeah I know. I mean I have Aunt Haley, Aunt Peyton, Amanda, and even Jenny if I need girl talk. But it just sucks when I can't see you every day. Or I can't come home and tell you the most pointless stories of my day", Megan sighs and I try to ignore the stab in my heart.
"I know baby. But like I said after this next spring fashion line I probably won't have to do much anymore", I protest and try to be positive.
She nods her head but ignores the comment. I guess I would too. I used to promise myself I wouldn't ever treat my kids the way my parents treated me. But look at me now; it is true when they say the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. I just hope Megan knows how much I love her.
"I love you so much Megan", I utter and lean over to kiss her head.
"I love you too Mom", Megan whispers back and smiles lightly.
"Let's order a movie and go to sleep. I hope you don't mind hanging around Clothes over Bro's for a little bit. I know its Saturday but I have to finish these sketches for a client", I announce.
"Yeah that's fine with me, just as long as we stick with our plans tomorrow night", Megan smirks and rolls over in the bed to lay her head near mine.
"Of course we can, I was being serious when I asked your Dad to go to dinner with us", I nod. Seeing Lucas is always hard but not seeing Lucas is starting to get harder. Lucas was the love of my life and also my best friend at a point in time.
"Can I ask a question and for once can you be really honest with me", Megan bursts out and sits up in the bed. I nod my head and sit up with her. "Do you still love Dad"?
It feels like the air was kicked out of my lungs then as feel my heart skip a beat. Did I still love Lucas? Of course I did. But I have Julian, Clothes over Bros, New York, and I'm a different person. I chose this life, and he let me do it.
"I can't answer that Meg", I sigh and try not to let a tear fall from my eye.
"It's okay if you do Mom, he still loves you too", Megan whispers and then takes the remote from the night stand and turns the TV on.
Lucas still loves me? There's no possible way. I mean we haven't been together in five years. We barely have seen each other since, how could he still love me?
I can't even think straight now. But when Megan turns on reruns of Friends and laughs, I do too to try and act composed. In the back of my mind though all I can think about is Lucas, and the fact I get to see him tomorrow doesn't help at all.
The next afternoon…
I feel bad when I finally finish my last sketch and see Megan has dozed off on my couch. It's about five in the afternoon and we've been here since one. I knew she was so bored but there wasn't much I could to entertain her.
My cell phone starts ringing on my desk and my heart starts pounding when it says Lucas who's calling me.
"Hey Luke", I answer and look to see if Megan woke up from the sound of my phone. She's perfectly still is lightly snoring still.
"Hey Brooke, I wanted to know where we should meet tonight", Lucas asks and I smile lightly.
"Why don't you come to my place for dinner? I can make you and Megan a home cook meal", I reply. The sound of my stomach growling makes me reconsider that since all I want to do is eat now. "Actually screw the cooking I'll just order in some pizza and wings".
Lucas laughs at me and I giggle along. "Yeah that sounds like a great idea. I'll be there at 6".
"Okay see you then", I smile and hang up the phone. I check the time and decide I'm finish for the day. The sketches look great and I think my client is going to be impressed.
I walk to the couch and shake Megan. "Hey wake up", I whisper.
"I wasn't asleep", Megan startles and sits up. "Can we please leave?"
I roll my eyes and grab my purse from my desk. "Yes Megger".
I smile lightly to myself on the way out of the office. Spending the night with Lucas and Megan is something I can't wait to do.
Later…
It's six when the intercom goes off in my apartment. I quickly press the button to let them come in since I figure it's the pizza.
I grab about forty dollars out of my wallet and open the front door. I look up though and smile softly when I realize it's not the pizza guy, it's Lucas.
"Hey Brooke", Lucas smiles and reaches over to hug me. I hug him back and squeeze tightly. I inhale his scent by accident and silently melt inside. He still smells the same and its sending chills down my body.
"Hey Luke, the delivery guy should be here any minute. Megan's inside watching TV", I answer and try to ignore any previous feelings I was having.
"Okay great", Luke says and walks in. The buzzer goes off, signaling the arrival of the pizza, and I press the button again to let them in.
"She's in the living room", I nod and point to the foyer. He nods and starts walking towards the direction I pointed too.
I can't help but stare at him when he calls for Megan. Was he always that hot? Of course he was. Wait, why do I even care? I can't even think straight. But that's what loving Lucas Scott does to me. After all this time why can't I just stop?
I turn around just in time to see the pizza guy walk up to the door. I say hello and grab the two large pizzas and wings. I hand him the two twenties and tell him to keep the change.
I take the food towards the kitchen and sit it down. Megan and I had set up the kitchen table for dinner and I smile at the three place settings. I don't think I have eaten dinner at my house in months. Looking in my freezer I take out a bottle of white wine and get myself out a glass to have with dinner.
"You aren't going to share", Lucas says and I kink my eyebrows at him. I reach up and grab another one and pour the wine into it. I hand it to him since he walked over to me and smirk.
"Since when does Lucas Scott drink wine?"
He smirks back at me and takes a sip. "Lindsey likes to drink it so I kind of got used to it".
My smirk immediately falls at the mention of Lindsey, his new editor, and from what I'm told his new love interest. I haven't even met her yet and already dislike her.
"Oh yeah how are things going between the two of you", I reply and look towards the ground.
"We're taking things slow. Especially since she can't afford to come to Tree Hill that much".
"Well that's good to hear that things are going great", I smile and take a big gulp of my wine.
"What about you and Julian? He dipped out pretty earlier last night", Lucas mutters and raises his eyebrows. I roll my eyes at his act of suspicion.
"He had to go to Phoenix for work and we are great", I defend and Lucas rolls his eyes at me. I smack his arm playfully and laugh at the look on his face. He grins back at me and I end up staring into his eyes. We stop laughing then and the stare becomes a gaze. We're sharing our look, the one where we used to get lost in each others eyes, each trying to read our thoughts. Right now I'm glad he can't read mine, cause all I want to do is stand on my tippy toes and lean up to kiss him.
"Can we eat now I'm starved", Megan suddenly shouts and walks in the kitchen. I immediately take my eyes away from Lucas and blush.
"Yeah come on", I cheer and open up a pizza box. "I got your favorite Meg, extra cheese".
Megan gives me a confused look and points at Dad. "You mean Dad's favorite".
I turn to Lucas and he's chuckling to himself. All I have been doing today is thinking of Lucas, no wonder why I thought of the wrong pizza.
"See what happens when I spend time with your mother, she tries to make me fat", Lucas laughs and grabs two pieces to put on his plate. I smile at him as he winks back.
"As long as it's edible, I'll eat it", Megan says and walks over to grab a piece. She sits down next to Lucas and I take my seat on the other side of her with my wine glass.
I take another sip and then realize I drank most of my glass. I stand up to get the bottle from the counter and fill the glass.
"Hey can I have one", Megan shouts and I look at her questioningly.
"Have you ever drunk alcohol before?"
Her cheeks go red and she starts smiling, "No". That look makes me know she's lying.
"Megan Davis Scott, did you just lie to me", I yell and look to Lucas for back up. He's eating a slice of pizza slowly and avoiding any possible eye contact with me.
"You know that are fifteen year old daughter has drank before I did?"
"Wait how do you even know", Megan screams and hits Lucas's arm.
"Meg I'm not an idiot", Lucas stutters and shrugs. He picks up his wine glass and takes a sip. "And maybe Nathan told me how he caught Jamie and you drinking beers a couple of months ago".
Megan's jaw drops and she crosses her arms. "He wasn't supposed to tell you, he promised".
I laugh at her reaction and so does Lucas.
"Oh Meg I don't care if you do. Nathan and I laughed about it. As long as you're not drinking and driving or doing drugs I'm okay with it", Lucas reassures her and leans over to kiss the side of her head.
"Okay", Megan mutters softly. I grab another wine glass form the cabinet and pour some for her.
"Here you can have one glass and that's it", I say and hand her it.
She grabs it from me and sniffs it. She takes a sip and licks her lips. Her eyes go wide and she takes another. "This is delicious".
"That's because it's expensive", I add and we all laugh together. I look at Lucas and Megan and smile wide. Lucas catches my stare and smiles at me and then looks away. There was a time when the only thing I ever cared about was Lucas and Megan. I took care of the house, took care of Megan, and if I had free time I sketched. I loved my life. Lucas and I were happily married at a time, so when did it all go downhill? Why wasn't my love for Lucas and Megan enough?
Later that night…
By the looks of the two semi-empty bottles of wine I saw earlier when I refilled my glass, I can bet to say I had more than three glasses of wine, and so had Lucas.
After dinner Megan persuaded us to watch The Hangover and The Hangover Part Two since it's her favorite movies but ended up falling asleep during the last one. She probably did from the wine since I let her have a second glass when Lucas went to the bathroom and we went to make popcorn.
It's not until I look at the clock that it reminds me it's late. Megan is snoring on my lap but I haven't noticed since Lucas and I have been talking for over an hour. I really couldn't tell you what we have been talking about since I know for a fact I am a little drunk.
"When did it become midnight", Lucas says and points at the clock on my wall. I look at it in disbelief and stare wide eyed. "I wouldn't be able to tell you", I mutter but Megan's loud snoring breaks into our conversation and it makes us both laugh.
"She must get that from you", Lucas teases and I roll my eyes at him.
"You forget who used to share a bed with you", I smirk and lift Megan's head from my lap to stand up. "I'm just going to get a blanket for her. She probably doesn't want to be disturbed".
"No it's okay, I'll take her to bed", Lucas whispers loudly and leans down to pick Megan up. He gracefully puts her in his arms and begins to walk down the hallway towards my room. While he does that I take our two wine glasses and the empty popcorn bowl to the kitchen.
I put the bowl in the sink and place his wine glass there too. I go to the bottle of wine I had laid out and pour the rest of it in my glass, which wasn't that much.
Lucas walks into the kitchen silently and I smile at him. He leans on the wall frame and crosses his arms over his chest. I'm surprised he didn't have any trouble with lifting Megan or carrying her because I know he is drunk since his eyes are low and he has a stupid grin on his face.
"You didn't have to do that", I say to break up the silence.
He shrugs his shoulders and smiles. "I do it all the time. I don't mind".
I smile back and take a gulp of my wine. "You've always been the knight in shining armor when you wanted to be".
He looks away after my comment and sighs. "Well I guess being the good guy doesn't always work out for me".
"And why is that", I ask and take a few steps closer to him. He stands up straight then and looks me in the eyes.
"Because I was being the good guy when I let you go", Lucas softly replies and I'm now standing right in front of him. I lift my face to look straight into his eyes and frown. It doesn't feel like five years ago we were happily married. It feels like another life time, but in a way it was a completely different life.
"And now, looking at you, I wish I never did". He lifts his hand to my face and traces my cheek with his finger tips. His fingers on my face send lightning bolts through my entire body.
"Why", I breathe out and feel completely frozen in his stare.
"Because I will now and forever be in love with you", he utters and before I can even think he takes my face between his two hands and smashes his lips to mine in a tender kiss.
For a second I thought fireworks were going off in my apartment because of the sensation I was feeling in this moment. I kiss him back after getting over the shock of the kiss and bring my hand to his face to kiss him harder. Lucas gets the hint and pulls my body into his. He cradles my face in one hand and holds my body close with the other. I stop the kiss only to catch my breath and groan when he takes his lips to my neck.
He reaches the spot behind my ear I love so much and I moan loudly. "Lucas", I hiss out and I feel him bite softly on the piece of skin. I take his face in my hands and smash my lips down on his, wanting to feel them again.
He turns my body and pins me against the wall now and I feel his hands start to roam my body. Between our kisses I moan out "guest bedroom" and he picks me up, without breaking our kiss, to the room. He kicks the door shut behind us which makes me thankful that it's on the opposite side of the apartment from where Megan is sleeping in my bed.
In the matters of seconds I am on the bed with Lucas on top of me and clothes are being taken off. I couldn't tell you how we ended up completely naked with him putting a condom quickly on that I start to panic.
What the hell am I doing? I'm not supposed to have sex with Lucas. Before I can say this is a mistake or lets slow down he rolls back on top of me and kisses me passionately. My lips melt into his and I change my mind. I have to do this. There is absolutely no way I can stop this from happening.
He breaks away from the kiss and leans up to stare at me.
"I love you Brooke", Lucas moans out and then enters me. We both groan at the contact and he plants a kiss on my lips.
"I love you too", I whisper back and don't even think twice about my reply. In the core of my heart, I know that this is the way life should be. I will always be in love with Lucas. Nothing and no one can change that.
End of Flashback..
"I know I hurt you Luke, I do. But please, we made a mistake. I can't understand why you won't just forget about what happened", I mumble and stand up to face him.
"I can't forget it Brooke", Lucas whispers and finally looks at me.
"Why", I plead and try to hold the tears in.
He laughs softly and puts his hand to through his short hair. "You know why Brooke".
I freeze then and shake my head. "No I don't".
He looks at me in the eyes then and slowly walks up to me. Gracefully, he laces our hands together and for same reason as that night in my apartment I don't even attempt to pull away from his touch.
"Because people that are meant to be together always find their way in the end". Before I can even react to his statement, he leans his lips down to my forehead and kisses it. He lingers there for a second and I close my eyes trying to keep the tears at bay. As I open them when I feel his lips leave my forehead and watch as he walks towards the door and leaves, without looking back.
