Okay this is just an intro chapter pretty much with the story, sorry for the lack of dialogue.
It was clear and warm skies, with a gentle breeze. A good day to go outside or to the beach, even for a stroll. A good day indeed, that you spent inside, in your room. In Titan's Tower. Home of the Teen Titans, a group of heroes in a manner of speaking more like a place for those who needed a place to belong. Who had strange and unique powers and abilities. A place someone could call home. A place that has become your most current residence for the past few months. It was nice, living here. Moving in was rather easy, Starfire the leader and alien princess with orange skin and green eyes was rather thrilled to have you join. Even though you saw it differently, it was nice place. She helped you settle in, giving you a room out of the many. It was plain, something you didn't mind, meaning you could make it into your own. Compared your previous rooms you've lived in. This one was rather simple yet spacious, you loved the large window it came with it. Allowing you to look over the coast, seeing the sun rise and set.
The decor of your room was a bed, desk, the basic necessities really until you added your own touch. You had a bookshelf filled with books, a laptop on your desk a gift from Dick, and the rest of your room was rather tranquil and peaceful. Your walls where painted in a cool blue-green with warm subtle red-orange mehndi designs. With hints of gold color shown in the right light. A large rounded straw rug right in the center, khadi tufted floor cushions, to sit or lounge.
Most times in the tower you would come to your room to just be at peace and mediate something you kept up after leaving the Monastery, having on soothing and rhythmic music to block out everything or you wouldn't play it. You would stand and stare out your window in deep thought. Your mind no doubt plagued by something. Mostly it was from the strange dreams. Dreams you couldn't really understand, you knew the surrounding in the dreams. A room in darkness, filled with misery and despair. A place you were force to grow up in, chained like a animal. The cold metal shackle around your throat, attached to the semi medium length chain that contacted to the wall. Only allowing you certain freedom to explore. A horrible place. That still made you shutter, even on warm nights. That place was the worst part of your life, what you where made to do, what you saw. The fact..the fact during those years...you never had name. Never had a place to belong. Your "family" didn't bother to give you one, you felt so lost. Disconnected. Alone. Hurt. Unimportant. All you had for comfort, the darkness and shadows. Which you greatly believed would be your salvation.
Having such feelings, still seem to haunt you to this day. But that wasn't jest of it, no. There was something else with the dreams, some sound of chanting it seem and this burning feeling. Along with baby cries. Flames all around. Along with evil eyes looking and a dark manically. A laugh that scared you, awake in a cold sweat. You couldn't really go back to sleep after that at times, so you would just mediate or stare out the window to fall asleep if lucky. A few times you left your room to just take a walk around, it did you some good to get fresh air. Those dreams always left you feeling lost and uncertain. Not to mention frighten. Confused. One thing was sure, with living here, you've noticed that evil presence hadn't been around compared to when you lived back in the Himalayas. It almost felt like someone or something was protecting you.
Which was good, it allowed you to have better control in a sense over your powers. Though without unlocking the rest of your chakra it was still a bit of a struggle. But you managed. Still absorbed negative emotions, which transformed your physical appearance. You never went beyond your skin turning a dark gray. Making sure you didn't feed into plunging more into your powers. Meaning you still had sense and control. Since Richie was your conduit to release any extra on or just to transfer he would join you. You came realize the amount you feed to him, he would grown. Since the two of you pretty much where already contacted, it was easy to do on a whim. But from what Starfire told you, you had figure out how use your powers without Richie. What if he isn't around and you had transfer your powers elsewhere. Since you didn't really like to use people, unless needed. And keeping it inside could only work for so long before it took you over. No matter how much you stored. If you became overloaded, you would just release it in one huge burst that wouldn't be good for those around.
So you tired to think of many other ways, but none really came to mind. Struggling, always seem to be a strain for you. You had to figure out the answer yourself. Dick wasn't around, nor was Damian. Whom you could at least talk with or knew when something was bothering you. You still felt guilty having left, left him. You often wondered about how he took it. What his attitude might have been. Through mediation you managed to feel a just a bit of his emotions, sensing his anger and confusion. Which pained you, you tired to send an email or message but couldn't get pass the first part.
Dear Damian...
What could you actually say really? Did you even have the courage to explain it all? What would his response be? Damian wasn't really the type who things very well, even if he seemed like it. It was his...bratty side. He liked order and no confusion a trait no doubt inherited from his father, but to a greater extent. From all the two of you had been together, you would tell him pretty much everything. And he would with you, when he felt like it. Neither really hid anything, but your unexpected move no doubt surprised him. With no explanation really. Did he go to Dick to wonder why? Your cousin was really the only one who pretty much knew why you went, a suggestion you where grateful for. Still didn't ease the guilt you felt about leaving Damian. Though it lingered on your mind, you had to look forward. Ahead now. This place was to help you or so you hoped.
Everyone here was rather...interesting. Starfire was very kind to everyone, like a mother/ big sister in a sense. Patient, a trait you notice and became fond of, also encouraging but would point out things one should work on, to help not to discourage. A pretty good mentor and teacher. She had everyone train everyday to develop and polish their skills and get better control. You could see why Dick fancied her, a few times you remember catching him talking with her either through phone call or video chat. Which he became embarrassed by, especially when you asked simple innocent questions. Whether he would marry her or if he loved her. Things a noisy sister would want to know, but you just wanted to know. Never seeing any harm about it. Maybe once she came over to Dick's place when you where there, she was nice back then too. You felt rather comfortable around her, even when you seem nervous and reclusive. Which she understood and gave you all the time you needed.
Because she did, it made easing into this new life better. The others on the team where fine. Blue Beetle aka Jaime Reyes, a teenage with some sort of alien tech that bonded to his whole body. A small blue little scarab, it was seem to be a separate entity. It seem pretty hostile or as Jaime put it crazy at times. What he could do with the scarab was in many words pretty cool. He explained to you, that it allowed him to suit up in the armor you first met him in. Which increased his physical stamina, strength, durability and so forth. Also giving him a wide range of endless weapons and arsenal. You saw a few, blades, canon gun, pincers, a sonic gun. Whenever you saw them, it was just amazing. He seem rather in-sync with his...little friend. A few times when you had to spare against him just for practice you had to stay on your toes, because you never really knew what would be coming out of his bag of tricks. And since it was practice he never went far to hurt anyone. Having to restrain his little friend from doing so. Besides that he was rather friendly and relaxing person. Welcoming you and tried to give you a quick run down. He found you quite impressive with your skills, for someone of your stature and you powers cool. He seem to like Richie, who shared the same affection. Because of Jaime's personality, the two of you hit it off rather well.
He often gave you space or would include you. Telling you relax and be less tense. Jaime was the exact opposite of Garfield or Beastboy, the joker or funny guy on the team. A green skin 14 year old, every part of him was green. His appearance was apparent, but he didn't seem to let it bother him. His powers, able to transform into any animal. He and Jaime had a very close friendship, both of them buddies. Garfield managed to keep light note with pretty much anything. He like Jaime with his skills and powers was a bit unpredictable consider how he could change into anything at whim. You didn't mind him, he was okay. Just wished he would try not to be so up in your face or being very friendly. He had a habit of turning into cute animals in hopes of getting your attention. Once he almost fooled you, turning into Richie who and you almost took him with you into your room. Because you didn't seem to pay attention, luckily though someone pointed him out, Raven. And of course he got in trouble, Jaime told him to ease up on you and leave you alone. He felt Gar a nickname he didn't mind going by, was going to scare you off. A few times Gar would catch you talking with your cousin or over hear you talking yourself about Damian. A few times he asked who he was, but you didn't tell him. Unsure really how describe Damian to Gar. Gar did become a bit suspicious questioning if Damian was a boyfriend or something. Pressuring to answer, which wasn't good and caused you to unleash a burst of your powers, never on purpose. Even when he would just pop out of no where and scare you, you unleash it. Starfire told Gar he needed to stop scaring you. You already damaged windows and furniture. At times Gar could give you a headache, but besides that he was a really great guy. He made you laugh, which was good. He got you to do things you never thought of doing. Introducing to you DDR, which you didn't understand at first but became better. A few times you and would join him and Jaime. When Gar found out you where a whiz in the kitchen mainly with baking, he beg you to make something and a few times asks you teach him. Which would end up with an explosion as he wouldn't take it serious.
Besides that, Gar was fun to hangout with. You became comfortable with him around, and enjoyed playing games. He along with Starfire was very encouraging. And had a habit of hugging you any chance he got. To which Jaime would have to tell him "Down dog." Gar was pretty straightforward with things, and had a strange habit of trying to track you down. And find anyway to hangout, even when you wanted you alone time. Doing yoga or meditation around him was rather hard, but he did bring something new to your life.
The one of the team, Raven. A sort of mysterious girl, who kept her distant and to herself. Rather mystical for one thing, seeing her use her powers. She always remained calm and collected, remind you of a certain someone. She was rather sarcastic, when needed of course. For some reason you always felt her eyes on you, your room was rather close to her's. An arrangement Starfire thought to be a good idea. She was alright with you, and would at times give you pointers with your powers. For some reason you got a feeling she seem overly concerned about them. Telling you to relax and focus. To keep your center. She even offered to mediate with you, all while still remaining rather cryptic. You assumed this was her way of extending a hand of friendship of some sort. Whatever the reason, you seem drawn to it. To her. It felt right and okay. It seem like she was trying to tell you something while wanting to keep it a secret. There seem also, if not mistaken some sense of worry and sorrow in her eyes whenever your gazes met. Another thing, for some reason with your powers they seem to work a bit better with Raven around, not to mention you could sense things explainable even to yourself about her, not to mention her negative emotions seem to feed into you. They where rather strong, that you would become overwhelmed faster than you thought. She also seem to be aware of your sleepless nights. Bringing them up whenever she caught you alone. This surprised you, though you where reluctant to tell her. And she seem to be able to sense it. Just telling you to not give in.
Eventually you did take her up on meditating together. She would take you to a secluded place so the two of you could focus. Telling you the simple things, to clear your mind and just relax. Focus on your center. Which you did. Meditation with her felt different than with those at the Monastery. With Raven, it just felt...different. You felt you felt yourself becoming closer. As if in-sync in a sense. A feeling of bliss, until your dreams became present. That you would break it. Scared to go back, Raven remained patient with you, telling you to not let fear over take you. To just stay calm. But, because of your little drawback, it was hard. You tired many times to get over that hump, but nothing seem to work. All and everything from your past and past actions piled up. Fueling your already fear, which began to twist into something else. And those eyes. Those eyes that looked down at you with power, scared you too. It was like a horrible daymare. Raven told you just to push passed it, and when you tired you saw some other sort of vision befell your eyes, in your mind. It was just horrible and scary. That it caused you to just explode and become for a second unstable. Luckily though Raven managed to help you control. Because of that, you never bother to push pass and limited your meditation preferring to focus on something else. To distract yourself from it. Bringing your smile back, and acting like everything was fine. Which seem to work rather well. And you would kept it that way.
Living with this new team, was becoming very enjoyable and fun. Despite the dark, malevolence presence that haunted your dreams and soul. That kept you up at night. Things where pretty good. And you wouldn't want it to change.
In a dark evil place, two pairs of eyes open burning with fire."...Find them."
