hey everyone ! guess who is back lmfao. after 4 years. lol. I have changed an insane amount since the last time I wrote. I haven't read Divergent since 2018. Will see if this chapter ever comes to light. Sorry to all the people who read my really embarrassing shit from middle school and wished I didn't leave them on such a shitty cliffhanger.

I slam the front door to my apartment and sink into my knees. My pants are stained with tears and mascara, but I couldn't care less. I couldn't care about anything right now. All I could do was replay Nita revealing her shiny ring with that stupid wide smirk and Tobias' clear content in my head over and over again. I lift my head up from my knees after a while, wiping my face with my hands.

Everything's fine. Why do you even care? You're being ridiculous. It's not a big deal. Be the bigger person and be happy for them, Tris. It's not fair to Nita. Let him go.

I stand up and toss my purse onto my couch. I walk over to my closet and grab a set of pajamas. At this point my sobbing has reduced to some small hiccups, which I barely manage to control.

See, you're fine. There's no problem with him getting married to someone he loves. I don't care. It doesn't matter.

I step into my bathroom and glance up at the mirror. My face is extremely blotchy and red. I scrub the remaining makeup off my face as if scrubbing my face off will remove the events of tonight out of my head. It doesn't work (unfortunately), and I finish the rest of my nightly routine.

I settle into bed and am just about to shut off my lamp when I see a message notification.

Tobias:

"New Message"

I debate with myself to open the message.

Grow up, Tris.

I quickly swipe up on my screen to open the text message.

Tobias: "Are u alright Tris? You seemed really upset at the end of today :( lmk how you are right now ok?"

"i'm fine. don't worry about me. had a really long day today and im sorry for so abruptly leaving. I shouldn't have acted like that and walked out."

Tobias: "No no no. I totally understand. your mental health comes first tris :) congrats again"

I smile at his considerate text. He could really be so sweet sometimes. That's just how he's always been.

Tobias: "me and nita think you'll be a great pediatrician"

My smile drops. Of course Nita would love to have me as a pediatrician. She would send her kids to my office for a checkup every other week so she could show off her and Tobias' beautiful children. I shake my head to remove the thought of a little boy having Tobias' beautiful blue eyes and Nita's spiteful smirk.

Stop it! They're completely in the right to have kids. Why are YOU upset? You brought this upon yourself. You don't care. It doesn't matter. Move on.

I send a quick "Aw thanks guys" and toss my phone on the nightstand. I turn off the lamp and snuggle into my thick comforter. I am quickly lulled to sleep but not before my impulsive brain plants a small seed into my brain.

If I don't care, if this doesn't matter, and all these doubts are irrelevant, then why does it hurt so bad?

as you can see i stopped doing the "for four" shit and it's definitely shorter than a lot of my older work. I didnt proofread or anything before posting this; i just wanted to get something out for the ppl who really wanted an update. a very lame update a very long overdue one however. let me know how this is in a review if it's good or if i really suck now haha. kinda miss how determined i was back then :) ill see if I can update or get some chapters out if I find the time or motivation to do so in the near future. -blinky LMFAO