Lauren's POV

Bo and I had gone many rounds last night. I had never seen her Succubus so much in one night like that. I gave as good as I got and so did she. The Doctor in me wasn't letting me sleep in like she was. She was cozy in my arms as I reflected on recent events.

It had been weeks since Bo and I had reconciled for good. I had applied to a local hospital and mainly swamped myself with work. It was working out ok as Bo was busy with her Fae responsibilities. She was learning so much and so fast that I could tell she was getting tired of it.

We had a small fight one night because I had come home later than expected. We agreed that I could work for the hospital but not overwork myself. We didn't need money that badly but having a Science mind, I had to stay busy at all times.

I was still running tests on Bo as well as myself. Although I had taken the antidote from being a Conduit, I was still showing some symptoms of Parkinson's. Evony had fired me from her lab at Bo's insistence. I think being human made her more sympathetic to what I had done to myself even when I wasn't going to turn her Fae again.

I was still working on curing her too but once she learned of my Parkinson's and the escalation of it, she wasn't so concerned about herself anymore. I watched her hire Doctors to look into it for her because she knew I would be overworking myself trying to cure her even if it didn't start with me, it was still my fault she was ill. I wasn't embarrassed about being fired as I was literally back to work the next week.

Evony found it funny that Bo was now in charge of all Fae because she had no idea what it would be like. They were always wanting something for themselves or from Bo. She had to put her foot down many times trying to get them to understand how she was trying to update the Fae with new laws and rules. They never needed to choose a side again as they were to never fight over anything. Bo had adopted to the talk first policy and if they couldn't talk it out, she would lay some rules so that the differing parties could find some common ground. War was never an option as we were all still unsure where Hades had gone or when he would be back.

We know he's out there somewhere. That's why she sent Dagny away to begin with. That was something else that weighed on Bo. How to protect her sister but not actually have her at her side as she does so. Anything could happen with the horseshoe. It could get lost or stolen in the human world. Dyson would go and check on them when Bo felt the time was right for him to sneak out of town without alerting anyone that he was coming. Sometimes Kenzi had no idea that he had come and gone back home as he checked on them. Bo couldn't go because her presence would be like bringing Hades as a welcome mat. If he wanted Bo, he would have to come to her and not her sister.

More time had passed and I had finally found a course of treatment for myself. At one point I thought I was going to die and I went to Evony with some paperwork and told her she must never open it unless worse came to worse. When she saw my face she knew I meant it. We were never the best of friends but we respected each other. I ran test after test and all seemed well. Until that night...

I had come home late and Bo and I had once gain gotten into our second heated argument. Bo was working in her office when I had come home. She heard me dragging my feet. I was so tired. That's what started the whole thing. The hospital had about a hundred Doctors or more and here I was slaving myself with work. I never told her about the Parkinson's because she would make me feel like I never wanted or want to feel. Like a invalid.

I never want to feel like someone's special case or project. I know it was wrong not to tell her but this was why I tried to walk away from her for good. I have seen people deal with these situations and it's not always pretty. It's a burden on loved ones and friends. Hell it's a burden on the treating Doctor's too. That's why I never told Lisa who Patient X was when she asked. Being the head Doctor, they would have fussed over me when we had patients to treat, human and Fae.

I was tired. I was struggling to keep my energy up even with hours of sleep that I managed to get. Bo had gotten to a point where she shut off all phones after a certain time of the night. Nobody would be interrupting us with anything that could wait until morning.

I dropped my medical bag in the hallway and walked towards the bedroom. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath looking at our bed. I was hungry but I was too tired to even lift my hands to feed myself. Bo had come into the room and noticed all of it. I was shaking and cold. She had gone to make me a bowl of soup and fed it to me knowing I wouldn't eat on my own accord.

When I mustered enough strength to go and check my vitals, Bo thought that I was going to work in my lab. I had everything I needed in that lab to check myself. She followed me and watched me check them. I had a small fever and was starting to sweat. She carried me back to bed. I had taken some Aspirin and finished off my soup. I brushed my teeth in bed and laid down to sleep with the echoes of Bo's anger ringing in my ear. I know why she was angry. I was a human running myself ragged and endangering my life with so much work. We had date nights but they were few and far between. We loved each other and it showed in our anger and frustrations.

Once the Doctor in me was settled that I had eaten enough and taken what I needed I finally slammed my head on to my pillow. Bo had pulled me into her arms and rocked me to sleep.

The next morning I felt Bo kiss me on my forehead and got out ot bed. She had agreed to meet with Kenzi over breakfast at home and went down to do so. Kenzi had called up the stairs that she preferred that I make breakfast. Bo told her no because I needed to rest. They were going to talk about moving Kenzi around so that she and Dagny's routine wouldn't be logged by anyone. At least that is what Bo told me they were meeting about.

Two hours later I was starting to feel weird. Bo had my phone with her so I couldn't text or call her. My throat was dry so I couldn't talk or scream. My legs felt like mush and my insides were slowly catching up. I was in a cold sweat and frankly as a Doctor I was starting to freak out. My head was spinning and I knew what was happening. My body was starting to shut down. Tears were streaming down my face as I started losing feeling in my arms as well as my legs. I couldn't talk. I couldn't walk. I was dying. I cried more thinking Bo was going to walk in and find me like this if I couldn't overcome this. I wanted to protect her from this and it was becoming a reality sooner than either of us had anticipated. There was nothing I could do as my thoughts started to become jumbled but wait for the inevitable. My breaths were like someone slowly wheezing. I was mouthing her name but nothing was coming out. The last thing I could remember clearly was Bo's tears falling all over my face and then being strapped on to a gurney and placed into an ambulance. I was done.

The white light.

When I woke up again I was standing on clouds. Everything was white and clean. A Doctor's dream. I wanted to laugh but I knew what this was. I was in this long line and for some reason it became shorter rather quickly. The guy introduced himself as Peter to me and said he didn't need to say more. I know I had strikes against me so why was I here and not you know, the other place? Sensing my confusion he did tell me that my life as a Doctor saved more lives than the ones I inadvertently took. I wasn't happy with that statement because the guilt still hung on me but I had to move on as it was the next person behind me's turn.

I was walked down a long hall. The lady next to me never said a word other than to follow her and don't touch anything. We walked for what seemed like hours. The hall seemed as if it would never end. Finally she gestured towards an empty room and told me to have a seat and wait.

When she closed the door, I shut down. I know it's not supposed to happen but I cried. I mean fall out on the floor you broke your favorite stethoscope tears. Bo. I wanted Bo. I left Bo. I died in her bed. We had kept the same bed because it was the first place we made love. It was the last place we made love. It was our safe haven from the pressures of the medical and Fae worlds. Bo was gone. I couldn't touch her. I couldn't call her. I couldn't kiss her. I remember lying in the bed the moment I knew I was dying. Tears had flooded my face and I hated it. I am sure my Mascara was running and I would look like a Zombie when she found me. I never wanted Bo to see me like that or for that to be her last image of me.

I felt a cold chill run up and down my new spine. I looked around and in pure white I saw a dark hole emerge.

"Lauren. It's a pity that injection didn't make you Fae or afford you the fountain of youth huh? Hades mocked.

I rolled my eyes. I knew what I did was stupid but how was he here? Much less how was he here and able to taunt me?

"Nothing to say huh? Well you know following my suggestions was your downfall. I know I'm good looking but you were too trusting Doctor". Hades laughed.

That was my fault. Why have my most pressing problem out in the open for anyone to see? Dumb Lauren. Dumb.

Hades circled around the Doctor rambling his mindless nothings. She wished she could get up and leave but was told to stay put.

"You left her prime and ready for the wolf". Hades laughed.

That hurt and I know what he was doing but the truth is I can't turn him off. I can't control what I hear anymore. Covering my hears only made him seem louder.

"Are you trying not to think about them having sex again? During your first relationship my powerful baby slept with him to heal when she had already learned to mass chi suck? You remember the Lich right? How Bo will moan and scream his name like she did the night they slept together in your precious lab? Hades laughed again.

I know this place was white to indicate it's purity but this guy was bringing me pure hell. I didn't want to think of those things. I had thought of them enough over the years. How I was never good enough to keep up with Bo's Succubus. Kenzi had pointed that out. Dyson had pointed that out. The Fae had pointed that out. My mind and own body had pointed that out. I sighed and closed my eyes. Maybe if I weren't staring straight ahead he wouldn't think I was listening to him.

Bo could have her moments but she was never this mean. This arrogant. Not even when she was with Rainer. The good in her had to be her mother or her grandmother Isabeau. We had all seen how ruthless Trick could be. But even he wasn't this cruel.

"Is there a reason you're here? I snapped and was shocked at how deep my voice was.

"Now now Doctor. If you thought you were vulnerable down there, you are dead meat here". Hades laughed once again circling Lauren.

"Hades I warned you about coming here didn't I? A deep voice came from behind me.

"What? I was just dropping in to see the good Doctor here". Hades laughed.

"I don't know how you keep getting in but I have no problem sending you back to Tartarus". The voice said. And like that Hades was gone. Out of my life again. Good.

But the bigger problem was Bo was still vulnerable. She had no idea where he was and here he was with me for what seemed like hours. His taunting were still ringing in my ears or what was left of them and I couldn't do anything about it.

"Dr. Lewis you will be fine here. We have brought you here so that you could continue your Science experiments. Forgive us for allowing Hades to intrude on your personal space and thoughts. We have kicked him back to Tartarus for years and he always finds a way back". The woman said. She never introduced herself as she said I wouldn't be here long. I wondered what here meant. Here in this room? Here in this place? But found it rude and confrontational to ask.

She was gone but not what Hades had said to me. It made me think of some things I had left behind for Bo.

Dear Bo.

If you are reading this the worst has happened. At this time the only thing I am sure of is that I will have died. In what manner I can't predict. That is the life of a human. We are so fragile and our lives can be over in the blink of an eye.

I am in no way saying that I expected to die on you so suddenly. I had hoped we would have decades together. I knew I wanted a life with you the moment you mentioned wanting a normal life. I wanted it all. The picket fence. Kids. That's why I told you the names I preferred.

It wasn't your fault that you were born Fae. It wasn't your fault that you killed all of those people. I wish I could remove the guilt of those deaths from your mind and heart. I wish we could have found each other long before you did those things. I would have never allowed you to think you were a monster. I would have never allowed you to be on the run, alone and feeling you weren't worthy of love.

Bo you were always worthy of the best things in life. I wanted to live a long life just to prove that to you. I know Kyle was your first because you really didn't know what you were doing and had nobody around you to explain or to help you understand why you were doing it.

Suddenly I found my thoughts being infiltrated by another woman's voice I had never heard before as she spoke:

Dear Lauren

I don't know where you have gone or why you decided to ask for a break but I do know, I am half a woman without you. Half a Succubus too. I thought things were going so great for us but I know now that that was me either being oblivious or arrogant about our problems thinking you would be waiting once I got tired of playing Cops and Fae with Dyson. I am so sorry about that. I had no idea it had all gotten so out of hand.

I wish you were here so I could tell you these things in person. When I found the folder about your past in your old apartment I never thought that I would find you again. Since you had many tours in Afghanistan I am pretty sure you knew how to run and hide your identity like you have been doing all of these years. The Fae must have gotten word of that along with cursing Nadia to keep you under their thumb.

I knew the moment that I found out that you weren't just working for them of your own free will that I would do any and everything in my power to free you. I honestly thought that I had succeeded until you told me that you recommitted to Lachlan. That bastard should have let you go. I was willing to let you go. It would have been tough but I would have accepted it. But then you came back with Nadia and I thought you were about to run that night you came to talk to me, slept in my arms and showed up in the throne room after Lachlan had been murdered.

If I understand you like I think I do, I know you wouldn't just up and leave without a goodbye. Somebody must have gotten wind of your past other than the Fae and convinced you that leaving with them was your only choice. And I was horribly right when I found you in Taft's compound. I didn't understand it then but I understand it now. Now that Dyson is out there looking for you. Know that I cursed both Kenzi and Dyson's asses up and down when they admitted that they knew where you were and then lost you.

How could they hide you from me? But then again Dyson helped hide Aife so that was not too far of a stretch for him. But this is not about him. It's not about Kenzi. It's not about Trick. It's not about the Fae. This is about you and me.

"Bo? I swallowed hard. Was Bo here and why couldn't I see her? How was she communicating with me this way. The woman pressed on as I continued to look around...

I know that I haven't always been fair to you Lauren. Probably because I love you more than anyone or anything else in the world. You're the reason a lot of people are still alive. You're the reason that I stopped killing my sexual partners. I know that was unfair too. But I couldn't help being a Succubus that way because I didn't even know I was one until you told me. You helped me control my hunger and I won't lie that I nearly wet myself in anticipation of our first time making love.

No matter how it happened or why it happened. I cherish that night along with the many other times we shared together. I may have had people in my bed but none of them had all of me lying on top of them, kissing them or snuggling next to them like I was with you.

I know why and how easily I fell for you. Everyone could see it. Kenzi even if she didn't want to admit it at first. Dyson feeling threatened by you was another example. Even the Lich knew it. That's why he and many others wanted you dead. They know the best way to get to my Succubus would be to kill you. But I swear if the Fae ever did, I would skip your funeral and come and get you myself. You will not die like that. Not on my watch.

I swallowed hard again as tears escaped my eyes. I did die. I left Bo. My Doctor mine started racing with what I could have done to get Bo to come to me as I lay helpless in bed. Pushed something off the bed. But we didn't have anything that would make a thud sound. I rubbed my brow as I heard what must have been Bo's words again...

Dear Lauren

Where have you gone now? Don't tell me you are off somewhere building a house with a picket fence and kids. That was supposed to be our life. That's why I asked you who would want to live that life with me. I wanted you to say, you would. When you didn't that's when I pretended to get up to go after Vex. Your aura was so hot. I know you wanted me as much as I wanted you.

That's why I told you to go back to sleep because I wanted to come back and have many, many more rounds with you. I wanted to celebrate making love to you because I knew I had already fallen for you and you had survived four rounds with me already that night. I wasn't going to be gone long. I just wanted Vex to pay for what he had done to LouAnn because if he could do that to her, over her falling in love with a human, I had no doubt he would stab me in the back for falling for you.

I will build that house one day. Even if I have to settle for putting a white picket fence outside of our condo. I know it wouldn't be the same but a life without you would never be the same.

I love you Lauren. I can't believe you're gone and there is nothing I can do to get you back like I did Kenzi. I don't even know how to get to you or who would. The Fae won't tell me because as Queen I'm supposed to have all of the answers. But what's a question without an answer? Just a question. That's all my life is right now. One big question of what I will do without you. I love you Lauren wherever you are...

Oh no. Bo doesn't know where I am. I am stuck here no matter what these people have told me. I am crying again. I truly am stuck here and haven't seen anyone that I knew. This was torture. Bo needs me and I'm stuck here and she can't even come and get me because I didn't die on the battlefield. It's puzzling that Hades can come here but his daughter can't. He was so charming he likely conned someone into finding a way for him to come here. Just to torture me.

I can feel Bo's present tears and worries in her words. The woman that read them had stopped talking. I only heard her when she read the letters. I failed Bo. I left her. I know how she feels about people leaving her. It's not so much us leaving her, it's leaving her behind so that she would be left with her Succubus. Massive powers that she had yet learned to master on her own. She would be left with only Hades and his manipulations. Kenzi was human. She would die. Dyson could die too. We saw that after her Bo's Dawning.

I should have fought harder. I need to go back. The mere thought of the damage she would cause would be enormous. I can't do anything. I can't help her.

"Ahh Dr. Lewis. Dr. Lewis. Dr. Lewis. There are so many people fighting to make that happen for you". The man's voice said. He was the same man that kicked Hades out.

I was tired. My soul was tired. I had amped myself up to the point that all hope was lost and here came a voice telling me otherwise.

"What people? I asked.

"It's not important but their arguments were so compelling and precise that it's time for you to go back". The voice said.

"Who's arguments? I asked. I didn't want to owe anyone anything and not knowing was something I couldn't accept. It was like having a medical question and no answer.

"Doctor. I said people have come forth on your behalf. On the Succubus behalf and because of her and what you mean to her and all of the living, current and future. You must go back". The man said.

"But I will die again and going back will be for nothing". I responded.

"So smart. I will not send you back as you were. You will be given the life span of the Succubus and she will never need to feed from another but you. You will also be able to heal yourself should you two be away from each other for too long given how you both are working to better your lives and the lives of others. An angry Succubus threatens my people and could cost them their lives a lot sooner than I have planned for them". The man said.

"There is still the impending matter of Hades". I said.

"He's mostly a coward. With your influence over the Succubus, he won't have a leg to stand on. She is more powerful than she thinks and you will give her the confidence to learn and excel with her powers. He needs Isabeau more than she needs him. She beat him before and she will again". The voice said.

I cried again. I can go back. I can go back to my life. To Bo. To my world.

Lips. Bo's lips are kissing me.

"You can go back Doctor. It's ok". The man said and with that everything went black to white to black again until I was back in Bo's bed. Our bed.

I took a deep breath and held on to Bo as she turned in my arms again. I'm home.


Hadn't planned on updating this one yet as I have others going on but I was thinking about Lauren's point of view and decided to update it now.