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This story takes place long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away ...
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Broken , Chapter 5
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Who was Jedi Master and member of the the High Council, Anakin Skywalker?
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…. a man in love whose heart was broken …
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Jedi Council convened, the most important meeting since thousands of years. Although Anakin was not a member of the Jedi Council, he was invited to attend.
The first act, which did not surprise all but many, was the decision of the leading members of the Jedi Council, Grand Master Yoda and Master Windu, to rise Anakin to the rank of Master and offer him the seat on the High Council. Anakin wasn't surprised, but felt honored. Since it came suddenly, there were thirteen seats in the High Council now.
The Jedi Council has met every day for the past few days, and meetings have lasted late into the night. The whole situation had to be discussed and further actions. The death of the Chancellor created a vacuum, the Jedis had to take leadership until the elections could take place, so that no unrest could arise. The first priority was to eliminate the Nute Gunry. This was Anakin's job. Fortunately, they knew where the Vice King was, it should be quick. Next up were the reforms in the Order itself. Everyone was aware of their own guilt. This blindness, even arrogance and wrong decisions created the whole situation. They couldn't believe that Darth Sidious had acted under their noses for so long and almost reached his goal. He made a lot of damage.
What no one expected, but what was decided behind closed doors in the Council chamber, was that Jedi may marry and have families in the future, that they may do other activities outside of the order if they wish. The Force sensitive children would not be taken away from their parents, the parents were free to decide whether to leave their children to the Jedis. Entry age has been increased.
The votes were pulled through in a very short time.
Despite the decision to allow Jedis to marry, Anakin was questioned about his marriage. He was simply telling the truth, and Obi-Wan, as an accomplice, too. There were no consequences, nothing more.
Anakin and his former Master went to Mustafar where Nute Gunray was suspected. He was actually there with his entourage. Since he didn't want to surrender, the Jedis made the short process with him.
Anakin knew the due date was approaching and became restless. He wanted to get to Naboo as soon as possible. He applied for a longer vacation, which he was entitled to, especially after what he had accomplished. Anakin said goodbye to Obi-Wan, got into his fighter, and was gone.
When he arrived on Naboo, he first contacted Padmé's parents. They didn't have good news for him. Padme gave birth earlier than expected. She was in a coma in the hospital, the baby lived only a few days.
It was such a shock that he only managed to lean against the wall and sink. The pain was indescribable. He lost his child and was about to lose Padmé too. He didn't know whether she would wake up again. He got into his fighter and flew to Varykino, a place full of beautiful memories. Will he only be able to live in memories now? He doubted himself. Did he make the right decision to kill the Sidious? ... but Sidious said they would figure out how to conquer death together, so he lied to him, he didn't have the skill to teach him . It was right ... ..but why did his child die, why is his wife in a coma? ... and if she wakes up, will her relationship be the same as befor? Will she be able to forgive him for not being with her when the baby was born? The marriage has been tense for two years and more and more frustration has settled on both of them. Did she even want this child? He was almost never there that they could raise it together. Maybe it's better that way. Oh Gods, NO! He was terrified of his own thoughts. Suddenly he couldn't breathe, it hurt so much. His heart hurt so much as if someone was pulling it in two.
There were days when he wandered aimlessly through the forests and meadows of the Seeland, his brain was void, was not able to catch any thought, but the heart full of pain.
He visited Padmé every day, stood beside her bed for a long time and then left again.
One morning, a month after giving birth, Padme woke up. She was alone. She had trouble with seeing and could not speak. She only saw the outline of the nurse and doctors who took care of her. After a few hours it got better ... and then Anakin came along. She didn't really want to see him. He was gone all the time, now that the child is there he doesn't have to come, she can handle all of them, she thought.
"Hello Angel."
"Please not," she said sternly.
"Not …what?"
"Why are you here now? I've already mastered everything without you, I don't need you."
It was like a knife straight into his heart.
"Where is my baby?"
"Our baby is dead."
"Dead?"
"It only lived a few days."
She started crying silently.
"It's all because of you. I was constantly in stress and fear, it affects the unborn baby, no wonder it died. Go and leave me alone. "
"But…."
"Just go, I don't need you here now. Go! "
He feeling numb and wondering how that could have happened. He was her great love, she was his and still she is … .but something told him that this is the beginning of the end.
After few days Padme came home to Varykino. She didn't want to be picked up. Not good, he thought, but there will be an opportunity or two to speak to her.
"I've been waiting for you here, but I'll move out if you want."
"No, as long as you are on Naboo you can stay here. I suppose you are leaving for a mission soon… Master Skywalker. "
That hurt and the chances of a reasonable conversation diminished. Yes, she wanted to be hurtful, thought it should hurt him too, just like he hurt her ... .. all the time.
Her parents did not want to leave the child buried until she wakes up. Pontifex Agolerga had come to carry out the ceremony with which the little soul is shown the way to the angels. The child should find its final resting place in the garden of the villa. They never found the time to talk about the names, the child was buried without. There was no Naberrie or Skywalker on the grave slab, just a small engraving of a shooting star.
After the ceremony the family sat, ate drank as was the custom, here and there someone whispered something in the neighbour's ear ... that was all.
When everyone had left that evening, Anakin went upstairs, went into the bedroom and started packing his things. Padmé came into the room.
"You're packing ... again ... Master Skywalker."
"Do you want me to stay?"
"No."
"Then…. why are you surprised?"
"I'm not surprised, I just notice."
"I thought I could still talk to you rationally, Padmé, but you are obviously not interested."
"What is there to talk about?"
"You accuse me of leaving you again."
"You left me long time ago Anakin. For the past three years I've been alone almost continuously. You were always somewhere in the galaxy, except for a few days that you spent with me… in bed. "
"That is not fair, Padmé. I am a Jedi, I was a Knight, now a Master, I have a job to do. I had to do that. "
"Yes, of course ... Knight, Master ... your goals came always first. You never needed a wife. Why did you marry me, you would have gotten me into bed without marrying me ... I loved you so much. "
"Don't you love me anymore?" he almost cried
"Loving a ghost is an illusion."
"I am not a ghost, I am alive and stand in front of you."
"No, it can never and will never work like that. We just buried the only one we had in common, there is nothing left. Nothing left to say. Go now Anakin and don't come back. Our marriage ends here. If your conscience allows you, have a good time. Goodbye. "
These words out of her mouth, broke his heart definitely ...
He took his bag and left .. He sat in his speeder and tried to calm down, but he couldn't stop the tears. He lost everything, his child, his beloved wife ... his life, all that is worth living for.
He docked in the hanger bay and walked with his bag towards the entrance to the corridor. There he met Obi-Wan.
"Anakin, you look terrible. What happened?"
"If you have time come with me "
"I have always time for you. To you?"
Anakin nodded. He unlocked the door of his apartment and they went inside. Since he became a Master, he got a nice apartment, tastefully furnished.
"Take place, Master."
"How many times have I told you not to call me Master."
"And just as often have I told you that it is the power of habit to call you that."
He tried to joke and put a smile on his face, he just made a grimace.
"Something went terribly wrong. Tell me what is it Anakin. "
"The baby died and my wife sent me away. I lost her, Master. "
"As first: my sincere condolences."
Obi-Wan was silent at first, not knowing where to connect. As long as he sat there without a word, Anakin unpacked his things and went on:
"She made me responsible for all of our misery, for the failure of our marriage. I would never have been there, not there for her when she needed me. I was just doing my job. Was that wrong Obi-Wan? "
"Anakin, I wouldn't freak out if I were you, not for now. Let the whole thing sink in first. This pain must first find its way into grief. This takes a while. It is said that time heals all wounds. Losing a child is the worst emotional shock, children shouldn't die befor their parents. Wait and she will calm down too."
Over the time, Obi-Wan saw Anakin lose more and more of himself every day. He didn't laugh anymore, his humor was completely gone, he always looked sad, even a little distracted. Obi-Wan watched him sometimes, he was apathetic and it seemed to him that Anakin was lethargic. He always walked with his head down. His hair was long and messy, and the first lines were showing on his forehead. There was no longer the gleam in his eyes. The once rebellious and almost arrogant boy was gone.
He took the missions on which he was sent without resistance, no protests like before, no arguments against it, no comments. He let go of everything, didn't feel like fighting. Many Masters noticed his condition, Grand Masters Yoda and Obi-Wan were the first and tried to find a way to help him. It did not help.
At twenty-four he had achieved his goals, he was a Jedi Master, member of Jedi Council, but ...
… he was a man whose heart was broken
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