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"Jack Armstrong. What exactly can I say? Yes he's nice, yes Maura seems to like him. I should be happy for her, right? It's been a week since me and Maura's late night escapade, that's what I'll call it. It's been rough hearing his name, there's this feeling I feel and I don't like it. It's been like this for every guy Maura has been with, there's something about this time that hurts more than the others.

Yes I know I had Casey, he made me happy, but even I could tell Maura didn't necessarily like him and I kept that in mind. Ma always insisted on calling him Charles. Casey was... well Casey, he had his purpose. He also made me realize that I would do anything for Maura, I mean everyone can see how close we are. It's just the way it's been.

Maybe that's why our relationships with men never last, no one can compare to Maura, it's nearly impossible. I wonder if she feels the same, she has an odd way of showing it if she does. This morning I went over in the morning like usual and there they were making out on her couch, Jack was topless and Maura was just in her bra and underwear. It was quite disturbing and embarassing, especially when I couldn't stop staring at Maura. My mind flashed back to that night, the night of that damn escapade that neither of us have been able to talk about.

Anyways, Jack jumped up from the couch pretty quickly, putting his shirt back on. His face was red, he was embarrassed as well, Maura didn't seem too phased by the situation. He said his goodbyes to us and whispered something in Maura's ear, causing her to giggle before she walked him out of her house. Albeit she was still just in her under garments. I stood there arms crossed and she just looked at me, with those beautiful eyes of hers. I couldn't help myself... my heart was racing, palms were sweating. I stepped closer to her, resting my hand on her shoulder. Before I knew it, I was acting on impulse and I tried to kiss her. Then our damn phones went off and work ruined our moment," Jane huffed as she was sitting on her couch in her apartment, beer in hand, rambling to Jo Friday what was going on.

Jane pushed herself off of the couch, "Can't believe I'm consulting in you like you're my therapist." There was a knock on the door. She groaned, not wanting any company. Once she answered the door, her dread was gone and she grew anxious. "Hey Maura, what are you doing here? I thought you had a date with Jack."

"He had to cancel, his daughter has come down with the flu."

"Ah I see, so I'm your back up then? Jack isn't available so here you come."

"Jane, you're my best friend, and it's not like that."

"Yeah sure it isn't Maura, you made no sudden movements to put on your clothes when he left this morning. What was that all about?" Jane crossed her arms, staring down at Maura.

"I was embarrassed Jane, you came in and I was with Jack, practically naked. I was still trying to calm my inner nerves."

"Why would Doctor Isles have nerves? We already seen each other naked, not to mention all the times I get changed in the car, nothing new."

"So you're telling me, that you don't have nerves?"

Jane laughed, "Guess you didn't see my face seeing you almost naked. Of course I have nerves Maura, you're so... and it's just... it can be conflicting sometimes. Fucking with my emotions, making my heart skip a beat," she sighed, rubbing her temple with her fingers. "Best friends shouldn't have an attraction to each other. Me and you shouldn't..."

"You and I, you mean," Maura corrected and Jane wasn't amused.

"We shouldn't be thinking these things about each other, okay? We shouldn't have had..."

"Sexual intercourse."

Jane's grunted, "Can't you just say sex, I fucked my best friend and then she didn't want to stay the next day."

Maura frowned, "So that's all it was, fucking me, as you put it?"

"Yeah, well wasn't it? Sure felt like fucking to me since you didn't stay in the morning, what else would you say it was?"

Maura didn't like the way this conversation was headed, she didn't like the tone of Jane's voice. "I don't want to talk about this anymore. You're right, we shouldn't have had sex. I have Jack and he really cares about me. Sure it's just a casual situation right now, but maybe if he wants it to become serious, then I'll let it happen. Unless you would rather..."

"Rather what?" Jane crossed her arms and Maura stepped closer to her, as their bodies were almost touching. Jane wasn't expecting Maura to lean up and wrap her arms around her neck, she definitely didn't expect Maura to kiss her. Jane took a deep breath, why did kissing Maura's lips have to be so soft. Jane walked Maura backwards until she was pressed against the wall. They both moaned before pulling back, catching their breath. "Why Maura, why must you do that?"

Maura stroked Jane's cheek, "You seemed to enjoy yourself a little bit."

Jane took a moment to get her inner thoughts straight, then what came out of her mouth made herself seem desperate. "Break up with him. Break up with Jack," Jane whispered and Maura frowned.

"I still like him Jane. And we have fun together. That doesn't mean I don't think about you, that I don't think about that day. I left because I was nervous, I left because I didn't want to face the fact that I could have possibly lost my best friend."

Jane sighed, removing herself from Maura's embrace. "We shouldn't do this, not if you still want to be with him, even just a little bit. Better yet, maybe we shouldn't do any of this," she went to go open the door. "I think you should go home, call Jack and see if his daughter is doing any better."

"Jane..." Maura looked at her best friend.

"Maura, go home. I'd much rather be alone right now," Jane spoke, trying not to let the tears fall. She didn't want Maura to see her cry, but this was a mistake, all of it, and it was time they forget about it and move on.

"Are you going to be alright?" Maura frowned and Jane nodded.

"Just go, please..." she watched Maura give a nod and leave her apartment before she closed the door. Jane leaned her back against the closed door, and slid down to the floor. Jo Friday coming to sit by her feet. "What am I going to do?" she sighed, rubbing her head.

As Maura left Jane's apartment the tears began to fall and they didn't stop until she was able to calm herself in her car. She really liked Jane, a lot, but she still liked Jack as well. He was a great catch, but maybe he didn't deserve her, she was in her best friend's arms twice, intimately so. Wanting to forget his existence for a moment, forget that Jack made her happy just so being with Jane didn't give her this guilt feeling. Her and Jack weren't exclusive they were just them.

But why was she starting to feel this pull towards Jane, her confidant, her best friend, and LLBFF, could she even go as far as calling Jane her soul mate. Maura shook her head. It was impossible, Jane couldn't possibly be. No that was nonsense, she thought plenty of people were her soul mate through the years, but then they didn't turn out to work. Jane was different though. Jane was everything Maura wanted in a person.

Maura knew what she had to do. If she wanted to continue whatever this was with Jane. She started her car and drove off towards Jack's house to break things off with him. At least that was what she planned to do.

Our poor Rizzles. I'm trying to keep this story in tune with season 5. That's why Maura has Jack currently.