Thanks for your reviews and thoughts, things might get more interesting in the next two chapters. Hope you enjoy this one, as much as you can with all the angst and questioning does Jane really like Maura or not. The answer you seek may be soon.
Things are different, they shouldn't be, but they are. It's been weeks since Maura and I made an agreement we'd just be best friends, nothing more, nothing less. She says it's okay, but I know they aren't. Her appearance is different, she's been wearing more pants than dresses, I don't think she would think I noticed.
She seems more tired all of the time, I'm worried. I don't know if she sleeps through the night or if she's struggling like me. I thought it was a mutual decision. I've been losing my best friend and that's what I've been afraid of. The whole reason I thought us just being best friends would work, how things have always been. Why does change happen anyways?
I miss the closeness that her and I shared. Maybe I was an idiot for not wanting anything more, maybe I made a mistake. A mistake that I should fix... why on God's green earth is this so damn complicated... I'm making things too complicated. I need a vacation, we both do.
"Korsak, here," Jane handed Korsak some papers.
"Wait, let me get this straight, Detective Jane Rizzoli is requesting time off? The world must be ending." Korsak chuckled. "About time I might add. You wanting time off... not the world ending sort of thing."
"Thanks for clarifying," Jane rolled her eyes with an amused smile on her face.
"May I ask why you're asking for a vacation?"
"I need time Korsak, to deal with things that I'm struggling with. I wouldn't do this unless it was important."
"Alright, but it's going to be really odd without you here."
Jane nodded her head, "Yeah, but maybe I won't be so damn distracted all the time if I take some time away."
"I have no idea what's gotten into you these days, finish the day and you can start your vacation."
"Thanks," Jane patted his shoulder before heading down to the basement where she went towards Maura's office where she was talking on the phone, Jane stayed hidden, she didn't like eavesdropping but she didn't want to barge in.
"I don't know how many more times I need to tell you. I'm doing fine and there's still no reason for me to leave Boston. I'd prefer it very much if you'd stop contacting me Jack, alright? No more phone calls and no more emails."
Jane frowned, she hated Jack and was surprised to hear that he was still trying to talk to Maura. When Jane heard silence she figured the phone call was over. She entered the office with a knock causing the M.E. to look up and sigh. "Jane I told you I'd call if there were any developments on the body."
"I'm not here for the case Maura, I actually wanted to talk to you about something. Are you alright? I can get Jack a restraining order."
"You were listening to my conversation? And no need to give him a restraining order, he's on the other side of the US. What did you come down here to talk to me about?" Maura asked as she went to write something on her paperwork.
Jane sighed, closing the door behind her as she sat in front of Maura's desk, just observing her for a moment, "Have you been getting sleep? You look... tired."
"I may have been having a hard time falling asleep at night, the thoughts don't seem to stop. Did you just come down here to check up on me?"
"Maybe," Jane shrugged, "Is that such a bad thing?"
"That all depends..."
"On what?"
"On the meaning behind it. You coming to see me down here is not often lately. If I didn't know any better, I say that you're avoiding me."
Jane leaned back in her chair, "Funny because I could say the same thing about you."
"I hardly think it's humorous Jane, I've been working harder, doesn't mean I'm avoiding."
"If you say so."
"Was there anything else you wanted to tell me?" Maura asked, slightly irritated, she really didn't have time for whatever this was, or wasn't.
"I'm going on a trip... up to Maine, possibly."
"What for?"
"You know how you and my mother both agree I'm so tense all the time and need some time off every now and again. Especially with the whole me jumping off the bridge thing and losing well... you know. I decided what the hell not like things are going well here, and no before you say something, I'm not running away, Jane Rizzoli doesn't..." she stopped herself when Maura raised a brow.
"Jane Rizzoli doesn't run away? Well what do you call what you did the other week, deciding that you didn't want to give us a try, because I'd consider that running away." Maura crossed her arms.
"I made a mistake Maura, okay? I admit that. I gave up before we really ever gave it a shot."
"Oh so you regret just dropping me like I meant nothing to you."
"Maura, you know you mean absolutely everything to me. That's why I did what I did, but I'm sorry if I made you feel hurt and unimportant."
"Honestly, you made me feel cheap Jane, we had sex a few times and then decided that I wasn't good enough."
"Maura, that's not true, you were good enough I just I had doubts and fears, just as I'm sure you've had about us. I don't really want to fight with you. I just want things to be okay," Jane rubbed the back of her neck. "That's why I want you to come to Maine with me when I go this weekend."
"I thought you were doing this for yourself, to get some time."
"You've hardly been holding yourself together Maura, I just thought we could go, relax and get our friendship back on track."
"Oh, well I'm flattered Jane, really, but you should go by yourself it's obvious you should work on yourself before working on our friendship."
"I want you to come though, I've been working on myself somewhat these past couple of weeks. And I've come to a decision."
"Which is?" Maura looked at her friend in complete curiosity.
"I've been an idiot and I shouldn't let a good thing slip away. I want to redeem myself and prove that you are worth everything this whole world has to offer. If you don't want to come though I do understand, just thought I'd offer."
Maura nodded her head, "I appreciate the gesture Jane, honest I do. You should do this for you and once you come back, get everything sorted out, making sure this is what you really want."
Jane sighed, standing up from her chair. "Okay. I should let you get back to work and everything. Dirty Robber tonight, you and I?"
"I'll consider it Jane, you should probably get a start on with your packing. I know how much you hate packing for trips."
"You may be onto something Maura," Jane nodded.
"I'm always onto something," Maura responded with a smirk.
"Just know the offer for the Robber is still on the table if you decide to change your mind."
"I'll let you know if I do."
Jane didn't say anything else, she gave Maura a look over before heading toward the door.
"Jane..." Maura spoke softly, Jane almost missing it. She turned to face her friend. "I'll miss you when you go on your trip."
"I'll miss you too Maura, a lot," she gave her friend a nod before leaving the office.
Maura leaned back in her chair, letting out a huge sigh. She really did want to join Jane on her trip, she wanted to get things to go back their new normal, she missed the closeness they shared but Jane did only state of wanting their friendship back on track, she said nothing about more than friends. Maura thought that going away with Jane would be a bad idea. The M.E. couldn't help but be curious of what might happen if they were alone in Maine together though. "I think I have an idea," Maura turned to her computer to look up what activities her and Jane might be able to do. The one thing Maura knew she couldn't do though was get her hopes up.
Jane's going away and Maura may actually join her. Ooh lala. Will things get better between our girls (let's hope so). And Jack is still trying to get Maura back (how desperate, am I right?) Let me know your thoughts I do appreciate them. Thanks for the support to this story.