After work Jane decided that she'd go to the Dirty Robber, Maura didn't say she'd come, but Jane rather be here than at home. She really didn't feel like packing at the moment, the weekend was two days away anyways so she had time.
Jane was sitting at the bar, eating some fries when someone sat down next to her, it was her mother. "Ma, what are you doing here?"
"Thought I'd drop by to see my daughter, Maura told me you'd be here. She told me something quite interesting, at first I could have sworn that she was joking. You're going to Maine?"
"Just for a few days Ma, figured maybe I should listen to you and Maura at some point and take time away. Get out of Boston for the weekend."
"Well that's amazing sweetheart, but you sure being in another state alone is such a good idea? Especially considering that you're depressed..."
"Ma! I'm not depressed. And I invited Maura to come but she said she couldn't. She said being away could be good for me."
"I just hope that you're careful. I don't want anything bad to happen to you."
"I will be Ma, you don't have to worry about me, promise," Jane finished her beer asking for another one.
"Maybe I could convince Maura that going with you to Maine would be in both your best interests."
"You really don't have to do that Ma."
"I just want you to be happy Jane and you know as soon as you and Maura decided just to be friends you both seem absolutely miserable. You know Maura was always cooped up in her room these past few days, or I found her meditating a lot."
"It was kind of a one sided decision Ma, she didn't want to be just friends and I did. Maura wanted more and it scared me. Everytime I get something more it always ends up falling apart, like Casey for example."
"You know I was never too fond of Charles."
"That much was obvious Ma, and maybe it didn't work out for a reason."
"The reason being Maura."
Jane groaned, "No Ma, because we both couldn't leave our jobs, I couldn't just be some housewife and I definitely didn't want to keep on moving around with him. I hate moving. And I didn't want him to give up his career for me."
"I still think Maura had something to do with it she was going to help you raise your baby, that seemed pretty serious."
"She was just being a good friend, being supportive. That's what best friends do. I don't want to be scared Ma, Maura means the world to me and she always will. I can't lose her."
"And you're not going to, I believe in that. You two are perfect for each other, and that's coming from me, the woman who wanted you to get married to a man and give her grandkids. The good news is Maura is a doctor and well you attempted to give me a grandchild."
Jane sighed, "Yeah and we both know how that turned out. I was excited for something and it didn't pan out, I lost my baby and my partner in the span of a couple of months. See why I'm not sure Maura and I should get together. Something is going to happen to her and it's going to fucking destroy me Ma."
Angela rested her hand on Jane's, "If you live in this constant fear Jane you're never going to be happy and that's all I want, is for you to be happy."
"I know Ma, but you can't blame me."
"I guess that I can't. But you're going to miss out on some pretty amazing opportunities."
"Yeah Ma, I know. Maura's my everything," she smiled for a moment before frowning, "I can't believe I'm discussing this with my mother."
"At least you're discussing this with someone, you always keep things in and it makes you even more miserable. Just go talk to Maura sweetie. I'm sure she's at home meditating."
Jane smirked, "I wouldn't be too sure about that," she nodded towards the door where Maura just entered, holding what seemed to be a suitcase.
"Good evening Angela, Jane. I hope I wasn't interrupting," she sat down on the other side of Jane.
"What's with the bag Maura? Did you pack for me?" Jane looked amused.
"No actually, I thought about what you said and I think going to Maine would be a good idea."
"Maura that's great and all, but you really didn't have to pack."
"Oh did you decide to go on your own?" she frowned.
"No, no Maura that's not what I meant, I'm not leaving for two more days. But good to see that you got a head start, better than me. Did you want me to buy you a drink? And maybe Ma can..." Jane gave her mother a look and Angela got up from the barstool.
"I know when I'm not wanted. You girls have a good evening," she patted them on the back before leaving the bar.
"I'm glad that you decided to come with me to Maine."
"I thought that I should, leaving you alone right now probably isn't for your own good. What if you did something while you were all alone I wouldn't forgive myself if something happened to you."
Jane frowned, "Let me guess Ma talked to you about my 'depression' that I don't have. Maura I would never do something like that."
"Must I remind you about three incidents which makes me not believe that. Shooting through yourself, jumping off that bridge, going after Hoyt."
"You named three reasons that dealt with my job Maura. Those weren't suicide missions because of depression, those were me trying to protect people I didn't think about getting harmed. I really hope your fear that I'll do something isn't the only reason you're coming with me to Maine. It's not is it?"
"Of course not Jane, I swear, I also want to spend time with you and get things back on track with us."
"Positive?"
"Do I lie Jane?"
"No I guess that you don't, so you want me to order your drink?" she asked and Maura nodded. Jane ordered a red wine for Maura. "Here's to us."
"To us," Maura tapped her glass against Jane's bottle of beer, both taking a sip of their drink. "Jane..."
"Yeah Maura?" Jane looked into her best friend's eyes, not expecting Maura to lean in, or herself to lean in either. Their lips pressed together slightly, Jane's heart racing for a moment. When Maura's hand rested on her thigh that's when Jane pulled away. "I uh... I should probably get started on that packing, putting it off any longer would delay the start of our trip. And it's already going to take a while for me to be fully packed."
Maura frowned, "Alright, well you enjoy your packing."
"Don't look so upset Maur, I don't have time to get carried away right now, plus there's time in Maine for more of that. I promise, this isn't over," she put down her money on the bar before leaving the Dirty Robber.
Maura sighed to herself, sipping at her wine. "I guess that's some progress. Our trip to Maine can't come fast enough." Maura allowed herself to get excited, even though she tried not to be, hoping that things would be okay between them from now on.
Once Jane got home she started to pack, she had gotten a new motivation to get ready for this trip now that Maura was coming with her. She couldn't get her mind off her kiss with Maura, the spark was still there and Jane felt sort of dumb for feeling insecure and scared of what would happen if things didn't work out.
She looked over at her beside table where she kept a picture of her and Maura and one of her and Frost. She picked up Frost's photo and sighed, "Life sure is odd without you here Barry. I miss you like crazy and if you were still here you would be excited about me and Maura I bet. Losing you made me realize I'm kind of lost without you, Maura means the world to me but I'm finding it hard to be happy when I'm so scared of losing her. I hope you're up there looking out for us down here, you're such a great guy and a fantastic partner. I haven't been able to have a partner as amazing as you," she frowned. "I really miss you Barry Frost. I'm actually going on a relaxing trip, and no one had to force me to do so. It was going to be a sort of a healing trip, I hope I'm making the right decision in inviting Maura with me, but I guess there's no harm in trying to heal with company. I honestly don't think Maura's completely over your loss, but she's been so focused on me. I'm just glad you both made up before your death, if you and Maura didn't become friends again I'm afraid I would have lost her the moment you died. What I'm trying to say is I thank you and I sort of think of you as a guardian angel for me and Maura, even though we both know her stance on the afterlife. I think about you all of the time. I really miss looking over across my desk and seeing you there. I sort of feel empty at work these days. It's real tough without you, rest easy bud," Jane put his picture down, running her fingers through her hair. She sat there for a few moments in complete silence, getting her emotions together before starting to pack.
Progress seems to be happening for our ladies, Jane actually opened up to Angela, what a super surprise. And our Rizzles shared a kiss. Jane had a nice talk to Barry Frost's photo, got some insight more of Jane's feelings. Tell me your thoughts, always appreciated.