Ashes in May Ch. 17 Hospital Days: May and Pikachu
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Nearing her room, he could her voice, it was raspy and pained, but it was no doubt May's. "Don't touch me! Please, j-just call Gary or Ash and leeeave me alone…p-pleaase…" it was clear from her voice that she was crying. The moment May laid teary eyes at the brown-haired boy she whimpered like a kicked puppy and extended her arms desperately begging Gary to hold her. Gary didn't hesitate to sit next to her and pulling her into his arms, only getting more whimpers and rapid sniffs from the distraught girl. Even though the pain in her body and heart was nothing but agony May felt safe in Gary's arms, there were like Ash's, strong and powerful, yet gentle and warm. "Shhh, I'm here May, shhh, I'm here with you, and I'm here for you."
They stayed like this for a while May sobbed loudly into Gary's chest clinging to his shirt as if it would ground her, during which the doctors took advantage of the time to administer her medication. Pikachu simply patted her legs as he knew that things would only feel worse for her by adding that fact that Gary technically died twice and that his pal is M.I.A. somewhere out in that typhoon. May didn't know when she ended up falling asleep because the next thing, she knew was waking up seeing Gary sleeping uncomfortably in one of the chairs near the bed with Pikachu in his lap. Much like how Gary had woken up in pain and sore just about everywhere she wasn't all that far behind. When she had first woken up most of the physical pain had been drowned out by the pain in her heart and soul. If Gary hadn't gotten there when he did, she might have just lost it completely. May gave a struggled swallow feeling her jaw muscles tight and just didn't have the will to open her mouth. She stared up at the ceiling in a daze. For a while, she simple glanced over the crisscrossing lines of each tile and counting all of the small holes and seemingly letting herself fade as she did so.
She felt and empty for those moments and as odd as it sounded it was comforting, at least until a sense of white-hot fury overcame her. She felt miserable, her body was torn and mangled like a rag doll and everything throbbed. May had a huge concussion due to the impact upon landing. Her arm was in a cast and her ribcage bandaged. Her arm had taken most of the damage, though all things considered wasn't by much compared to the rest of her. To be honest she couldn't understand most of what the doctors had told her except that she had been taken to surgery almost immediately upon arriving at the hospital. Doctors said that while in surgery she had heavy blood loss due to how a bad the internal bleeding was, add that to the blood coming from her vagina. They talked a lot about a lot of things concerning her health but all she cared about was her baby.
When they told her the baby was lost…it felt like the air disappeared from her lungs. Her stomach clenched and her heart burned. For a few minutes she sat still eyes wide, her fingertips and toes felt numb like they had been dipped in ice water. As the first tears ran down her cheeks May quickly spiraled cried and scream for what seemed like hours while Gary held her. Now she was here looking blankly at the ceiling with new tears welling up in her eyes. The liquid was like acid over her sensitive eyes. Tears leaked out and fell while her breathing gradually became exasperated, some whimpers escaping her mouths followed by sniffing. Her chest shook causing the wounds on her abdomen to sting with pain, but it didn't stop her from crying. Soon her whimpers woke Pikachu and Gary who came to her, carefully sitting on either side of her, "May, we're here." Gary wasn't sure what he could say to help; looking at May's pale devastated face while she cried broke his heart in many ways, he didn't know it could break. The devastated girl grasped his hand leaning her head back eye shut as she sobbed. This wasn't fair, this could not be happening! Her baby was gone, just like that. "...Gary…" Gary held her head against the crook of his neck moving onto his side so that May could lean on him, "I'm right here May, shh…" The brunette bit her cheek to try and calm herself a bit, "H-How…how could this ha-happen? Why?!" "…" Gary looked so defeated, he could not do anything to help, he was useless. Pikachu gently nuzzled her side watching sadly how May brought her hand to her belly wanting to protect her child that was no longer there. Her crying was ugly and utterly heart wrenching, outside of the room many nurses held their breath, others wiped away tears. Such a young girl should never have had to experience such a loss.
It burned deep inside her every time she thought about her baby being gone from within her. How she would never get to feel the baby kick or play kick mommy's organs. 'No,' she thought, 'Because I lost them.'
May gripped her gown in tight fists as if to will her child back but knew that it was not meant to be. "My baby, I-I lost my precious baby!" May exclaimed her voice cracking. You could say that she could move on since it had never been born or that it had only been a month into the pregnancy, but to May she didn't just lose a fetus she lost her child, her baby! Sadness was wreaking havoc in her as a new thought came to her that all but made things worse for her. May gasped looking as if she had done something unspeakable, turning to Gary with a plea. "Gary, this is all my fault…" she whispered, the words just barely audible, yet to the boy and Pikachu, it was all too clear. "May, what are you talking about? This isn't your fault at all. (He leans his forehead against hers speaking to her softly). Why would you think that!" At this May push Gary away with a grunt, "You don't get it!" "Then, help me get it, May. Please, I want to help, but I don't know what you're feeling. All I know is you're in pain," the boy takes her by the shoulders looking deep into her sapphire eyes, "May, I love you, please tell me how I can help you?" The young woman buried her face in her hands growling in anger, "Gary, I was pregnant! I was a mother even if I couldn't hold my baby. I was supposed to keep them safe! (Sobs) Protect them, I failed my baby. I let them die, it's my fault!"
May continued to fault and degrade herself, and as she did Gary baled his fists so tightly that his nails dug painfully into his hands. At first, he was going to let her vent but then she said something she'd never thought she'd ever say, and he snapped. May hugged herself as she had a blown meltdown, "They were right and so was Drew! I'm nothing but a slut that let herself be used and fucked useless, useless even at the one thing a mother is supposed to do, protect their kid! I'm shitty and pathetic!" Pikachu looked up at May completely floor by her horrid words, words that were so far from the truth that he was speechless. The male brunette however was not going to stay silent and let her say those fucking shitty ass things! Gary saw red and his abdomen tightened as he took her shoulder's firmly rather abruptly. Thunder cracked through the sky above as light from a lightning bolt illuminated the room. May winced at the sudden shock of pain but looked up at her closest loved one. "Shut up! . . . Shut up! Shut up! SHUT UP!" he yelled over her; angry tears streamed from his cheeks. From outside of the room the nurse and doctors watched all wary of the situation between the two debating on when an intervention was necessary. Gary's let his hands fall to his lap in fists gritting his teeth to control his rage, or maybe trying to keep his heart from breaking further. "I-I'm sorry You just woke up from almost dying during surgery yesterday and I know with everything that's happened is traumatic. Y-your hu-ert," Gary said his voice cracking for the first time since he was thirteen, "Believe me this is fucking hell! I know that venting about how messed up this all is, is part of getting better! Damn it, May, I want to say shit too, but I won't let you cross the line."
The coordinator was now the one floored alongside the electric type, speechless. "Damn it, May don't say those things! I won't say I understand what you're feeling, but I do know that you are not useless, pathetic, or a slut to be used…" Gary cried his voice quieting as he spoke, "Please don't degrade yourself, May. To Ash, to me, you are astounding and incredible. Never would we ever think of you any less than extraordinary."
From outside many wiped tears from their eyes and others bring their hand to their chest. If only things had been different, if only.
The young man had leaned forward placing his forehead against hers. Both teens shut their eyes letting their tears run bringing themselves into a tight embrace. "…It was only a month, Ga-ry, I never even got to hear their heartbeat…" This only worked to break them even more, yet for now, crying was all they could do.
[That Night]
Things had calmed and the two had become silent for hours barely even replying a yes or no when the doctors or nurse would ask them anything. Gary and May had tried to distance themselves May staying in the bed while Gary remained in the uncomfortable hospital chair. Neither of them could look at each other or even sit next to each other, yet they refused to be in separate locations. Pikachu had to admit that he was very stress and just wanted to know how to fix this problem. He wanted to help his family, but he didn't know how so he decided that the most he could do, was comfort them in turns. He would nuzzle against May's side gently his fur tickling her skin ever so often, then when May would fall for a nap, he'd move over to Gary to sit on his lap. He knew that it calmed the tallest human to stroke his fur, so he would let Gary pet him. It wasn't easy for him to be so far apart from his partner, to be seeing his closest human friends break like this. He himself was a very happy-go-lucky Pikachu and always like to be optimistic, but it was just too hard when your own worry and heartbreak match that of his friends. To top it all of Ash was nowhere to be found giving a spike to his worries. Sure, humans could take care of themselves, not a well as Pokemon, but he digresses; the point is that he and Ash had never been apart from more than two days at the most since they met. When they went on missions, they sometimes had to be separated be it because it was the plan or by accident, but now it was been five entire days with his trainer being gone.
Pikachu lifted his head to look across the room at an old clock. He couldn't really read it, but Ash had told him that when the small arrow pointed straight up it was either midday or midnight. Clearly, it was now starting the next day, it was now Ash's sixth day missing. It scared him, so much. Pikachu missed his buddy and wanted him to be there to tell the others that things would be alright; he could only keep pretending for so long. So, when he was sure May and Gary were asleep, he crawled under the bed, where he curled up into a ball as tight as he could letting his tears run. "Pi, pi, kaaa…" Pikachu softly hiccupped eye shut tight yet tears still rained down. He hoped Ash was safe, hoped that he wasn't getting tossed around in the waves out in that storm. His quiet sniffs and his hiccups were all he could hear at the thought of Ash being dead. He cried quietly under the bed in the cold tile floor then out of nowhere he was picked up in gently hands then place between two warm bodies. "We miss him too, Pikachu," came an angelic voice. Following closely was a deeper and smooth voice, "You're not alone, Pikachu. You don't have to cry by yourself."
Pikachu nodded curling up to May, warm tears soaking her hospital gown while she rubbed his back lovingly. Soon, May spoke again only this time her voice was even more soothing as she sang a lullaby that eases Pikachu's and Gary's hearts as her own. A song her mother once sung for her.
"Rururur...Come watch them twinkle and dance.
Hear their song, it's already begun. Let them tell you of glee and love and
Let us hold you, hold you tight. Under the moonlight and the stars,
Let's stay together, through the night. We'll take your fright,
Have you sleep in peace, have your heart feel at ease.
Rest in our arms for a single night,
You'll be alright my gleaming starlight."
Okay, then this chapter is incredibly small by my standards, nevertheless, I personally think this chapter was great. I WOULD LIKE TO ASK THE POKEFANS WHO READ THIS IF YOU COULD LET OTHER POKEFANS KNOW OF THIS FANFIC. PLUS, I LOVE WHEN READERS ARE INTERESTED IN WHAT HAPPENS NEXT. IT TELLS ME THAT I'M HEADED IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION.
ALSO, I NEED YOUR HELP! see, I've been bouncing a few ideas of how I can have the confession between them to happen. I was wondering if ya'll could send in some suggestions and I could come up with a certain confession. For example, my main idea would be that Ash confessed to May first then tells her that he got feeling for Gary too. Idk really, but I would like to see what ya'll wonderful creative and imaginative readers might think of.