I know people have been asking for updates(to the point of annoyance) & I'm trying but there are some problems I need to adress.
So my stepsister's cousin died while making chapter 4, she was in the hospital for at least 3 days & died on the third. She was 9 years old & came over to play with my other stepsister all the time along with her sisters. She has a baby brother that won't know her as he grows up. Her twin had to stay over due to having an emotional break down due to things that remind her of her sister.
Not to mention my 17 year old cat, who has been in my family for most of my life & I was extremely close to had to be put down. She was getting old & it was finally showing, she was starting to have a throw up episode at some point & when I came home Easter Sunday her hind legs were skin & bone, they gave out enough that she had to drag herself around. We put her down the day after learning her kidneys failed during the night. It's hard to think she's gone, I sometimes look at my bed as if she's there sleeping like usual. She slept on my bed every night since we moved into our current house when I graduated... She passed away using my hand as a pillow again...
I got a chapter worked on but it's not going to be posted until I finish another to go with it. There's a likely hood of chapter 1 getting re-writen as I don't like how it went some, you can still find the original chapter on DA. Also please stop messaging me for updates, just because you can DOESN'T mean it makes me WORK FASTER TO GET THINGS DONE! I have other things I have to work on & people died. I want to remind everyone that came here from DA that requests are closed due to people SPAMMING me with notes on if it's done yet. I'm human & semi got a life, I can't just stop what I'm doing & magically NOT have writer's block. The grammar in certain messages confusess me, I know my stories are likely fully of mistakes but the they're mostly understandable.
I'm sorry if this is rude especially if English isn't your first language but stop telling me to update, stop asking me to make new stories & stop telling me to get onto A03 when I clearly said I'm on both sites. Sometimes it sounds like you didn't even listen to me. I'm trying to stay calm but I'm more likely to not update & not do anything so I can calm down because you're making me stressed & annoyed. I'm making this to remind you I'll start typing in caps & cursing if I get stressed & angry enough, please stop asking me for stuff that TAKES TIME!
I want to fucking quite but I continue because I want to make stories. Stop asking for updates & new stories, I'll do them when I can, I have writer's block, I write these as stuff comes to mind which makes it that much longer to finish, & I have other things that need my attention more than the stories. Be glad I even post on here, I hate Fanfiction's limited html for stories & I'm severly afraid of fucking antis possibly harrassing me for SHIPPING FICTIONAL CHARACTERS TOGETHER! THE PALADINS ARE FUCKING IN THEIR LATE TEENS & ARE NOT REAL PEOPLE!
I'm so tired... I'm just so tired... I want my cat back... It hurts...