Sorry this chapter took forever. It's been almost a month, but life just sucks right now. My uncle died and there is not allowed a funeral because of the no gatherings rule. My favorite horse, my baby Charlie, he is now gone forever :( School has been moved all online which means I get to stuck back at home with the bad wifi and graduation is probably cancelled as well my as post-graduation job because traveling is not allowed in some places. I'm sure you all are also probably suffering because of the corona-virus so make sure to stay safe and healthy. I'll try to update more frequently, but I make no promises because it was difficult enough to write this. The only positive is that I got a new laptop. A gaming laptop and I have this game my friend encouraged me to get called Dead by Daylight. I am terrible and die a lot, but any of you want to play it with me then I will send you my steam name lol. Its kind of addicting. On the positive the next Airawende chapter will feature Maedhros and Langon. So you can look forward to it.
Time was now almost meaningless. I felt confused often and Tar-Mairon was an off-putting presence around me. He only increased my confusion about the state of things, and I was not sure if this was intentional or not. Ungo stuck around a lot trying to help me with baby fluffy. He was trying to make words now. Little noises that sounded like words anyway.
I hadn't felt the same since I saw the embers burning deep within my eyes. I felt changed. I felt like an abomination. I didn't like what they did to me. I haven't seen Airawende in what feels like years and I hope she fares better then me. Somehow, I think that neither of us are faring particularly well, but at least we, or I, am uninjured. Tar-Mairon lifted the effects of the mental stitching after he showed me my eyes. He seemed quite pleased.
"You are lost again" Ungo said with his tongue lolling out of his mouth as he cocked his head sideways. I shook off my reverie.
"there is just so much I still don't understand" I sighed.
"We both are finite. Of course, you don't understand things you encounter here" Ungo licked my leg. His logic was unfortunately and unusually sound in this case.
"Isn't there anything more then this?! Then here!?" I wailed frustrated. He panted in that way dogs do when they breathe and it was suddenly very irritating.
"You want to explore outside this fortress?" Ungo huffed resting his head on his front paws.
"Perhaps sometime soon you might" I startled slightly and looked up. Tar-Mairon was standing slightly behind me. I quickly glanced back at Ungo who had risen to his feet. He must have been surprised too, but he was literally facing me so how on earth did he miss Tae-Mairon's approach.
"Will we go to war now?" Ungo shook his fur out making him appear much bigger than he was. Tar-Mairon offered me a hand and I let him pull me up to my feet. The room spun slightly at the speed, but I was slowly getting used to it.
"Soon, I think" Tar-Mairon responded musingly running a hand over Ungo's fur.
"Oh no!" I cried "What if you die Ungo?" I demanded gripping his fur tightly.
"I will kill many, but many will not kill me" He growled prowling away from me. My fingers slipped through his fur and I frowned. I glanced up at Tar-Mairon again and shrank back from his fire eyes. After so much time his eyes still frightened me.
"no concern for me, little one?" He asked with mock hurt in his golden voice.
"I don't think you can die" I muttered feeling slightly rebellious. He laughed brighter then normal.
"Come Haldamire. Bring your pup. He needs to play and fight with his own kind if he is to survive" He ordered. I whistled and heard his claws clacking on the floor of my room as he sped out to us. He couldn't slow himself down and instead careened into my legs. He was so much bigger than he used to be and I failed to keep my balance at the force. Luckily, Tar-Mairon had fast reflexes and caught me before I fell completely over and righted me. I glared at little fluff as he looked up at me with an adorable expression. He was too cute to stay angry with.
I didn't want my little fluff to be fighting with other wolves, but I also didn't want him to be too weak to survive on his own here. I also may have been slightly excited to see the other wolves. Such beautiful animals.