okay, its been way too long since I updated. I know it and I am sorry. I do not know what I have done, but I took a second job and i'm still full time in grad school. Clearly my time management is not the greatest. lol
I blinked at the figure ahead of me. Did he just snap his fingers at me? A smile twisted my lips. My heart felt strangely faint and I could feel it in my chest beating. Something doesn't feel right, but I can't get rid of the smile. I think someone is calling my name. I look towards the figure again.
Langon
The name sounds in my head and it feels right. Should he be here? I swallowed feeling the chains on me like a noose. I could hear my name echoing in the room, but I did not respond. Was I frozen on this throne of horror. Did Tar-Mairon come see me. Langon looks like he wants to come close, but cannot.
A pang rippled through my stomach and I realized that I was very hungry. When did I eat last? Tar-Mairon always gave me food. Why am I thinking so slow? Its like my mind is processing at the speed of honey of dripping off a honeycomb. Why did I want Tar-Mairon? Why is Langon calling my name? Is that Airawende down there? I could vaguely remember us coming here together.
I grimaced and tried to raise my hand. I let out a panicked breath when my hand didn't move. It's like I was trapped, and my mind was slowly waking up, but my body refused to. I could feel my heart beating faster, the sound in my ears getting louder.
I wanted Tar-Mairon to see me up here and save me, but now that I'm up here, I desperately want to move. However, my body feels frozen and my mind seems to be changing too. My lips were even stuck in the smile they had just twisted to.
I wish I could grimace at hearing my name out of Langon again. What the hell does he even want? I wanted to stab him. I tried harder to move. I tried to throw out the fear starting to encroach upon my being at my state. What was I thinking? Where is Tar-Mairon? I would scream if I could.
I could hear a cacophony of noise approaching and the room seemed color and warmer at the same time. This place has always been filled with such conundrums that I could never seem to figure out or solve. I struggled as hard as I could, but remained in place like a statue on the throne. The sense of wrongness here seemed to be increasing exponentially. Noise seemed to fail and the only thing left to hear was my heartbeat pounding faster than I ever remembered it being able to. Loud and echoing. He was coming back and this was his throne.
Fingers seemed to be grasping my throat and squeezing my lungs. My eyes met his across the massive entry hall and my mind blanked.
I woke up feeling an immediate strain and pain across my arms and shoulders. I twitched my fingers and shifted with a shiver realizing that my arms were bound on either side of me keeping me suspended. My I looked down and choked on my breath. I must have been a foot or even two feet up in the air.
Struggling caused immense pain in my body and I couldn't help but wonder if either of my shoulder's was dislocated. Almost like a clock, I could hear a door behind me opening. How did they know I was awake or are they just checking.
"Haldamire." The familiar dulcet tones of Tar-Mairon sparked joy and hope making energy run across me. I let out what sounded like a squeak of excitement and couldn't stop the flush of embarrassment. Tar-Mairon! He would let me out.
"how disappointed I am" he said coming to stand in front of me. I was almost high enough to look at him straight on. My happiness fizzled out at his words. He actually sounded disappointed in me. I whimpered ashamed that I let him down but unable to figure out how.
I choked out an apology and gave him puppy dog eyes. He held out a cup to lips and ordered me to drink. I did. I'm not sure what I drank, but it wasn't water. He gripped the side of my head and seemed to inspect my eyes.
"Will you let me in Haldamire?" he said sounding like he was singing me to sleep. I nodded blinking blearing and whimpered again as I shifted jostling my arms.
I was sitting on an airplane listening to music as my mother read a book in the chair next to me. I pulled out my headphones and glanced out the window just in time to hear a ding as the fasten seat-belt light came on. Everything was still so far away, but it was getting closer. The incredibly bright city of Atlanta winked up in the darkness. It was only about 8pm, but in the winter it was already dark.
"Do you think Chris will be late to pick us up from the airport?" I asked my mother. She closed her book and looked at me. Her answer blurred out as did the plane and I found myself suddenly at the movie theatre with Chloe. She was too addicted to going to movies. I wasn't sure what we were going to see today, but I certain it was horror.
"so, uh, popcorn?" Airawende asked with a grin. She always asked because she always wanted to get popcorn, but she wasn't always willing to eat popcorn alone.
"I'm good, but if you want to" I said like always. She shrugged and we walked to the ticket taker before heading to our movie. The trailers were already playing. I turned to ask Chloe about the movie we were seeing, but she was blurring out along with the theatre until I found myself with my hands on a gun firing it.
I'd never held a gun before today. My sister took lessons and wanted to show me how to shoot. It felt heavy and wrong, but I was pretty good at hitting the center of the target. It was just paper, but it was in the shape of a person. I fired the last round and held the gun up inspecting it. The gleaming black metal.
I opened my eyes to Tar-Mairon. He looked different. I had never seen him less than perfect, but he seemed somehow winded. I remembered holding a gun and narrowed my eyes. It was like I had just done it, but I knew it was a very long time ago. A time before here.
"I don't…" I began, but Tar-Mairon shushed me patting my head.
"we may have preserved your life" He said giving me a gentle smile. Preserved my life? I stared at him baffled. Did that mean he was taking me back? Excitement ran up my veins. My eyes followed as fear seized me again.
"where?" I almost wailed as moved out of my vision behind me.
"patience, little one" Tar-Mairon's voice rang out before I was alone again.