Chapter .2.
Wakanda
Bucky was worried Steve wasn't in his room. He had been woken up by T'Challa because they were all worried about Steve. Apparently he hadn't been himself and wasn't eating right. So they had to wake him up.
Now they told him Steve wasn't coming out of his room so that is where Bucky went to find him. But when he knocked down the door nobody was in the room.
"What is going on?" Sam asks answering Bucky's yelling
"Steve is not in his room", Bucky replies
"But he hasn't left that room!" Sam says pushing past to look in
The others had come over too. And they all saw the same thing Bucky did that the room had nobody in there.
"He didn't leave!" Clint exclaims
Sam looks around the room and sees the blade with some blood on it. And picks it up.
"Why would he need a blade?" Wanda asks confused
Bucky and Sam looked at each other with a thought of what the blade could be doing in Steve's room going through their minds.
"Have you seen him doing it?" Bucky asks Sam
"No I haven't. But I found a razor not too long ago but he told me he didn't", Sam replies
"What are you lot talking about?" Rhodey asks
"We think Steve was self-harming", Bucky replies
"He wouldn't do that would he?" Clint asks concerned
"We would see wouldn't we?" Scott asks
"We need to find him to see", Sam declares
"We need to speak with King T'Challa hopefully he will know where Steve is. Otherwise we will have to search for him", Bucky says
"We better hurry. With what he has been doing to himself we don't know what frame of mind he would be in", Sam tells everyone
"Everyone split up. We must find him", Bucky orders, "Before he does something stupid or dangerous"
Everyone hurries out to look for Steve all of them scared for Steve's life and wondered how they could miss this…
New York
As soon as the portal closes behind them Steve feels the change in the environment. And feels like several eyes were on him.
He looks up to see Natasha, sitting next to a woman with semi-blonde hair, Vision, Bruce, Thor, a man in a cape, a woman in a uniform, another eight women, a man, Sharon Carter was there but also Loki himself. Steve clutches Tony nervously.
"Steve the man in the cape is the one who opened the portal he is Stephen Strange the Supreme Sorcerer. The woman in the uniform is Captain Marvel aka Carol Danvers. The women are Hope van Dyne, Daisy Johnson, Jennifer Banner, Jane Foster, Darcy Lewis, Erik Selvig, Betty Ross, Lady Sif and Valkyrie. The woman next to Natasha is her adopted sister Yelena Belova. And you already know the rest. Loki is kind of good. Thor and Bruce vouch for him so I giving him the benefit of the doubt. Thor, Bruce, Loki, Lady Sif and Valkyrie have been back for months. And our soulmate Jennifer Walters, Brucie's cousin is away at a medical conference", Tony informs him moving them to the couch
"Steve are you alright?" Sharon asks softly
Natasha sees the blood on the neck, "I will get the first aid kit"
"Steve, Tony what happened?" Bruce asks coming over to look at the cut on Steve's neck
"Steve it is your call to tell them. But Stephen knows", Tony whispers to Steve
"Can…can you tell them?" Steve asks softly clutching still at Tony
"Of course love. Steve did this. He had been thinking of harming himself", Tony tells them
There were gasps around the room.
"Tony I have harmed myself", Steve says cringing at the explosion waiting to happen
"Where love?" Tony asks calmly even though his insides were in turmoil
"My arms", Steve whispers
Bruce gently pulls up the sleeves of Steve's top to see the cuts and notices there was many of them. Some where healed but some only half healed.
"I need to clean all of these", Bruce says, "Can someone get me my kit?"
"I will", Yelena volunteers.
"They will be fine", Steve protests trying to put his sleeves down
"Please love let Bruce do it. For me?" Tony asks
"Ok", Steve whispers not wanting Tony mad at him
Bruce, Jennifer and Stephen go over the arms and the nick on his neck. Natasha handed them the antiseptic and bandages, with Yelena returning with more supplies. Steve winces as they touch one of the cuts on his arm. Tony takes Steve's face and forces Steve's attention on him.
"It will be ok Steve. I promise. I am so sorry you had to do this alone. You know I am not mad right?" Tony asks
Steve doesn't say anything. He thought Tony would be mad at him. Tony sighs at the silence.
"I could never stay angry at you for long Stevie. Never. Do you doubt my love for you?" Tony asks gently
"You can't possible love me after everything I did", Steve replies a tear failing
Tony wipes the tear away
"I have always loved you Steve. I have never, ever stopped. Not for a second. I love you so much you are one of my soulmates. I love you so much. If something was to happen to you I don't know what I would do", Tony says honestly
Steve looks at Tony looking for deceit but couldn't find a trace of it in Tony's eyes. They only showed honesty and love.
"You still love me?" Steve whisper asks
"Yes. With everything I have. Do you believe me?" Tony asks
"I…don't know", Steve stutters
"It will take time but you will see that I do. As much as I love my other three soulmates", Tony replies kissing Steve's forehead
"We all love you Steve. Your like a brother to many of us", Natasha says softly, "We never wanted you to feel this way"
"I did this too myself", Steve mutters
"No you didn't! None of this mess is your fault love", Tony says firmly
"The fight at the airport…", Steve starts
"We were all hotheads", Tony responds
Yelena snorts and mutters something in Russian.
"That is agreed", Natasha mutters, "And some of you not saying names were dickheads"
"Like feathers and birdbrain? And the bug guy?" Tony asks amused
"Yes Clint, Wilson and Lang are all dickheads and hotheads", Natasha agrees
"I am going to hit Scott when he gets back. His ex-wife and I are deciding who goes first", Hope says trying to lighten the situation
"I didn't mean to drag him into this", Steve says to her
"He has a brain…", Hope starts
Tony snorts at that.
"Ok a small brain. But a brain and he can think for himself. He made his own decisions Captain", Hope replies
"But your parents Tony", Steve says
"That wasn't you. It wasn't even Barnes. It was HYDRA", Tony says firmly
"But I never…", Steve starts
"You where trying to protect me. But yes that hurt. But I am over it", Tony replies
"The fight I left you in Siberia. I took your best friend", Steve whimpers
Tony pulls Steve to him tight.
"Listen to me Steve. Listen to me. Are you listening?" Tony asks firmly
Steve nods eyes only on Tony.
"Not your fault Love. That was all Zemo. He manipulated us. I DO. NOT. BLAME. YOU", Tony says firmly
"But with your disabilities I left you there. I could have made your injuries worse", Steve whispers
"That didn't happen. Just a disabled suit. Vision was with me within the hour and so was Stephen", Tony informs him
"But your arm and leg…", Steve starts
Tony decides to show the arm and leg to prove to Steve he was alright. He thinks to the arm and leg and the camouflage on them disappears and shows the mechanical parts.
"See love they are working perfectly. I even gave them cool upgrades", Tony replies cupping Steve's face with his robotic hand
"I'm sorry", Steve says, "I'm sorry too you too Natasha"
"Like Tony said nothing is your fault Steve", Natasha says gently
"I should have listened to Tony", Steve says
"Steve you were stressed about Aunt Peggy dying. It was understandable how you reacted to the Accords in this difficult time", Sharon says gently
"From what was told to us it sees like all sides lost their tempers", Bruce says finishing bandaging up the arms
"And your where manipulated by that Zemo wasn't it?" Thor asks
"It was", Tony confirms
"Then it wasn't your fault Captain. We have all done things we regret", Loki says, "Some of us have a longer list then others"
"I regret taking off on all of your after Ultron. I am sorry for being away for over three years. I am sorry you have had to deal with all this on your own", Bruce says gently squeezing Steve's wrist
"I regret not seeing how much my brother was suffering. And for being a poor brother at that. I will always regret it. And I regret not being here to help with this Zemo character", Thor informs them
"I regret not helping the Ancient One, my teacher more. I regret I wasn't able to save the people I couldn't save", Stephen says softly.
"I regret all the lives I took while being a Black Widow for the Red Room and for not helping the others enough", Yelena states.
"I regret everything I did when I was on the other side. For making all the bad calls I did. For making Bruce run away after Slovakia. And not helping us all come to a peaceful conclusion about the Accords", Natasha says squeezing Steve's other wrist
"I regret not stopping my father from doing what he did to Bruce and all of you", Betty says softly.
"I am sorry for ruining my brothers coronation. The attack on Jotunheim. The attack on New York which I was being controlled from. And for everything I did. I regret it nearly cost me my brother, my father and my mother. And I regret that my attacks on earth nearly cost me my soulmates", Loki adds
"And you know my list love. I have many, many regrets. The top of those is ever causing you to doubt my love for you. And for your ever to hurt yourself because I wasn't there to help you", Tony says gently
"We all have regrets Captain. It comes with being human", Carol says, "I don't know you. But from what Tony, Natasha, Bruce and Thor told me I am looking forward to getting to know someone who is near equal to me"
Steve looks at them all as they say what they regret. They were all showing him so much care. It bought tears to his eyes. Even those he didn't know yet were showing him care and kindness and sharing what they regret.
He looked up at Tony and saw so much gentleness, kindness and love in his eyes that made Steve clutch Tony and sob. Tony just holds him tightly and whispers he loves him.
"I am not going anywhere without you", Tony whispers in his ear after a while
"Really?" Steve asks hoarsely
"Really love. If I have to go to a meeting your coming with me even though you have to put a cameo mask on. I am close to getting pardons. But I will start pushing yours through more firmly", Tony tells him
"We will all help you Steve", Natasha says
"If you feel the need to cut you come to one of us. Ok?" Tony says firmly
"I will try", Steve states
Tony nods knowing that Steve would have his bad days and not come to any of them. So Tony was going to have to have FRIDAY keep a watch on Steve. He would have to program some new protocols into her to do with Steve.
"So enough of the heavy do you what to know the story of why Thor, Loki, Bruce and the two Asgardians Lady Sif and Valkyrie are here?" Tony asks Steve as Steve cuddles into him
"I would like that", Steve says softly holding onto Tony's top
"Well Thor, Bruce, Loki you three have the floor. You too Stephen!" Tony says to them smiling, "Don't forget what Stephen did to Loki"
There were snickers in the room and Stephen looked smug.
"I won't leave that out", Stephen promises and smiles at Loki's groan
"And don't forget the story of Loki's reaction to the Hulk", Tony adds
Loki groans at the laughter, "Do you have too?"
"Of course we do brother. Where is the fun in not telling it?" Thor asks with a smile
"It was pretty amusing. I never seen someone try to run that fast out of a room", Valkyrie says smirking at Loki
"Wait to you hear this love it is VERY funny", Tony whispers to Steve
Steve nods and starts to listen to the tail while curling up in Tony's arms. He felt different then what he felt in ages. He felt not quite happy yet. But not quite sad. But he did feel safe in Tony's arms.
He run over Tony's and the others promises and hoped he wouldn't let them down. And this wasn't a dream. He hoped this was real. He hoped this was real life and not a fantasy he made up.
Tony rubbed his robotic arm down Steve's arm back and forward. Making sure to completely ground Steve to the present. He knew it was going to be a long road ahead. He just hoped Steve would lean on them for help. Especially Yelena, Loki and Stephen as they were soulmates.
That remained him he would have to put out a call to their last soulmate. Hopefully she would spend sometime here on earth helping Steve. Steve would need all the support he could get. And Tony was determined to do it.
He wasn't letting Steve out of his sight anytime soon…
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