Author's note:
It's been a long time I know, but I didn't know what to write and didn't want to publish dumb stuff.
But here I am, I guess. Enjoy the story, and vote comment and share.
WARNING: This chapter may have triggers for Past abuse, PTSD and other things.
'Oh god, I feel like I want to barf. What if after knowing everything, he breaks up with me; I don't want that. Wait; isn't it 5 minutes past 8. What if he decided he didn't want to come. Oh god no!!'
The sound of the door opening interrupted me from my panic-filled rambling. When I saw it was Severus some of my worries calmed down. He immediately noticed my pain-filled eyes and wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tightly.
He whispered soothing words to me and wiped the tears from my eyes. Sweet Circe! I had started crying without noticing. " Harry love, please stop worrying. I promised you I will be with you forever and always . You have nothing to worry about. Whenever you are ready, you can start talking. All right." It took a while for harry to gather himself and slowly started telling everything.
(WARNING: This paragraph may have triggers for Past abuse, PTSD and other things.)
" I was a-a-a bused by my relatives. They didn't care what age I was; for them, I was an unwanted freak. A thing they didn't want. I know I look healthy but while it's true I started healing myself in 3rd year.
I felt like crap about myself and well,... I started going to therapy and built up my self-esteem over the course. I had been diagnosed with Anxiety, PTSD.
I got myself mentally well by doing things I felt like doing.
That's actually how I found out about my sexuality and started exploring new stuff. Now, while I am healed sometimes I still go through stuff."
Throughout his confession, Severus had an understanding look on his face, looking shocked at some things. He shifted closer made me lay on top of him.
With the finger carding through my hair, I continued. " But that's just not it. I have seer abilities; I mean there's not much, but sometimes I know basic stuff. I don't know that much about what big dangerous thing's going to happen though. That's usually why I end up in my adventures." Harry didn't dare look up, in fear of seeing disgust, dismissal or something like that.
When Severus tilted my chin up to see my face I was slightly startled. When he kissed me on the lips, it felt soothing to him. The action felt like Severus was desperate to hold Harry to himself. Protect Harry from the world. For Harry, it was like Heaven.
" Harry, I don't know about you. But my feelings haven't changed at the least. You are brave, for healing from the torture of those animals. You are beautiful, on both inside and out. Your mind is truly a wonderful place. Your actions, thinking and every little quirk of yours is beautiful." said Severus to him. Feeling so happy, that the man I loved, who generally was not this outspoken, laying out these words felt refreshing to him.
(TRIGGER WARNINGS OVER.)
I know it's a short chapter, but this was what I could come up with.
Again, so sorry, I am just having too many things in my mind right now.