Author's Notes:

Hey guys! This is my new story, "If I Would Have Killed Myself". Hope you enjoy reading as much as I enjoyed writing! It's currently one in the morning on Sunday lol. So, I think I will upload a new chapter every Sunday! If you want to know where I am currently in the process of writing this story, I'm starting season three! Yeah, you heard me right, it's been THREE whole seasons lol. More details will be in the final notes kkk. I love you!

Good Reading!

Prologue:

Sakura

I couldn't do it anymore; everything just kept getting worse and worse. I had no more purpose, no dreams, no goals.

All that I dreamed and wished for in the past just seems like an unreachable fantasy. I felt so stupid, i actually believed that i could do something with my life.

I was looked at with disgust and hate every time I walked around the village. I got death threats, I was called useless, and trash. All of this for what? You may ask well because of some rumors that had been spread around the leaf village.

So this brought me there on the edge of a cliff. My friends were wailing and shouting at me to stop but I didn't listen. What was hope was there for me there was nothing for me in that pathetic world.

Why stop? So I could just endure more pain and suffering. I was tired of wearing that annoying fake smile on my face i was tired of being judged for doing nothing wrong,

I wanted to just end it all rather than survive another day being insulted and broken down.

"Sakura-chan! Please all of us love you! I love you! What about Sasuke have you given up on trying to bring him back" I heard naruto's voice,

I didn't care about Sasuke-kun anymore; why should I care? It's not like he loved me anyway. I was tired of fishing for romance, that love that was never ever going to happen.

"Hey forehead! Don't leave me! Who I argue and bicker with who will be there to push to do my best who will.." Ino spoke and started to sob uncontrollably.

Shikimaru gripped onto her hand and they almost reached me. I took a deep breath and a teardrop leaked from my eyes. "I'm sorry there's nothing left for me here. I love all of you. I can't keep suffering like this, thank you for always being with me! I love all of you!' I spoke with a nostalgic smile on my face.

"Sakura-san! Please reconsider.. We all admire and care for you deeply. Please do not do something that you will deeply regret later. Please reflect on all the things you will miss if you take this action. We will help you surpass the obstacles you are facing but please do not do this" Lee begged.

All the teams were there standing right in front of me. That blabbermouth Naruto had probably told them my plan. Naruto, I thought I'd miss him most of all. He had always been there, we've always been together.

He loved me deeply just as I loved him. His love for me was a bit different from mine at first. But in my final moments I realized just how special he is. "Naruto, thank you for everything,'' I beamed sadly.

"S-sakura-chan… Please stop, don't speak as if this is the last time you'll ever see me." It was Naruto's turn to cry. He didn't hold back, he let it all out. I hated seeing him like this. His tear-soaked sapphire eyes pierced through my soul.

''I'm so sorry…" I whispered, looking towards my friends before jumping. The air whipped my hair and I crashed. I crashed into the river's roaring waves. My whole body was in intense pain. My bones were crushed because of the impact of the water.

This was the worst pain that I had ever felt in my whole entire life. Then everything went black.

Naruto

She jumped, that idiot jumped."Sakura-chan!" I shouted sobbing my eyes out. The rest of the team looked blankly at where the pinky was last standing in utter silence and shock, still recovering from what the hell just happened.

" I'm going in after her,'' I declared." Naruto are you fucking crazy that's dangerous let's get some help or go down the hill where it's safer' Shikamaru yelled at me snapping out of his state of shock.

"No i'm going in now it'll take too much time,'' I protested then i felt i hand on my shoulder. I looked back and the Hyuga smiled kindly. 'Naruto-kun please don't go, it's very dangerous and it's probably too late anyways' she linked her arms with mine.

That girl had barely even spoken to me before and that's what she chose to say. "Shut up! How can you say that she's alive and I'll save her. If you have nothing good to say just shut the hell up! Isn't Sakura your friend? Why are you saying this!" I yelled at her.

Hyuga seemed surprised by my reaction and her pearl eyes met the floor. "Don't you dare yell at Hinata-sama she was just being considerate" of course her stupid bodyguard cousin neji would come to the rescue.

'What the fuck ever!' I yelled jumping into the water after the pink. I grabbed two Kunais from my pocket and stabbed them into the rocky mountain sliding down. I reach the bottom and jump into the ice cold water.

I looked around . This river had extremely high water pressure. I bumped my hand into a sharp rock. It was extremely painful but I didn't give up. I kept looking and found a blob of pink, I swam towards it.

It was her, it was sakura. I grabbed her and swam out of the water. I laid her on the shore examining her body. I'm not a doctor or a medical ninja but it seemed like she had a few broken bones. She was also bleeding heavily. Her body was cold and my body froze.

Did she d-die?! No no this couldn't be true. I removed my sweater and put on her carrying her bridal style. I walk up the mountain to where our friends are. Ino gasped and ran towards me. "Sakura!" she shouted "Naruto you're bleeding! Put her down, I'll try to treat her wounds as best as I can!"

I listened to ino and laid sakura down onto the ground. Ino started to heal her with her medical ninjutsu. "Sakura is not dead." Ino announced and we all sighed in relief. 'But, she's fatally injured, she is unconscious right now and there's no telling when she'll wake up' ino explains to us in her voice breaking.

Sai came close and placed a hand on her shoulder. The Yamanaka took a deep breath and continued. "Right now the best thing to do is take her to the hospital." Ino noted then she looked towards me.

"Can you take her there, Naruto ? Sai and Shikimaru go speak with lady Tsunade" Ino instructed her blue eyes on Sakura-chan. "Team Gai! Lee, Tenten, and Neji please go find Kakashi-sensei and fill him up on the Situation"

"Team 8! Kiba and Shino inform the other sensei's of the situation. Hinata and I will go speak to Sakura's parents. Everyone got it!" Ino demanded. "Hai!" Everyone agreed. "You make a wonderful captain beautiful," Sai told Ino, probably trying to comfort her.

The Yamanaka blushed and smiled shyly. "Let's go!" Shikimaru said to Sai and everyone went their separate ways. I carried Sakura-chan and found the quickest way to the Hospital.

"Help!" I shouted as soon as I reached the hospital. "Naruto-san!" the receptionist exclaimed. The woman examines me and gasps. "Sakura-san.." she whispers in shock. "Bring her to the Emergency Room immediately" she informed some nearby doctors.

"Naruto-san you have a fatal injury as well please go to the emergency room!' the lady orders examining my bleeding head. But I didn't care about that, there was only one person on my mind: Sakura-chan.

As the doctor treated my injuries I reflected. I bet this was all sasuke's fault that damn Sasuke had caused her so much pain. A pain so strong to the point that she'd want to fade from this world and fade from existence.

I didn't understand that stupid fucking Sasuke. Why was he like this after everything we went through together? I never knew Sakura-chan hated her life like this. I felt guilty I was always with her but failed to notice the unbearable pain she felt.

I was all smiles around her, failing to pay attention to the hate and pain that was slowly eating away her heart. The poison of emotions that eventually infected her whole body.

—-

I was feeling better and asked the nurse to take me to Sakura-chan's room. The lady hesitated but then let me through.

As I reached Sakura-chan room I noticed a crowd of people around her. There was Tsunade-obâchan, Sakura's parents, Team Gai, 8, 10 and their senseis.

Sakura-chan's mom Mebuki-obasan was sitting in a chair next to her bed holding onto her daughter's hand weeping loudly. Sakura-chan's father Kizashi-ojisan wasn't his usual smiling self. He seemed depressed and his eyes were swollen, probably from crying along with his wife.

Ino was chatting with Sakura-chan's parents. Hinata was next to her, staring quietly and nodding as Ino explained stuff. Kakashi was speaking with Tsunade-obaachan and the others were chatting amongst themselves.

Kakashi spotted me and rushed over. "Naruto! How are you? How's your head injury! You're so reckless you idiot" Kakashi spoke all at once. "Kakashi-Sensei slow down! I'm fine, how's sakura-chan?" I asked.

Kakashi avoided eye contact, I knew something was wrong. "What is it Kakashi-Sensei? Tell me now!" I shouted. The others in the room stared at me. Sakura's parents noticed me and rushed over.

Mebuki-obasan threw her arms around me blubbering. 'Thank you! Thank you so much. Thank you for saving our daughter." I stared at her eyes wide. "N-no Sakura-chan's my friends, there is no way I wouldn't save her." I smiled embarrassedly.

"Still we could have lost our baby. You saved her life. I had no idea that she had these thoughts in her head. Our love is in a coma right now but-" Kizashi-ojisan spoke and I interrupted in shock.

"C-coma?!" I exclaimed. "Yes Naruto, she might wake up in a few months. Her injuries will probably almost fully heal by the time she'll wake up," Tsunade explained. Hinata's eyes met mine. I glared at her and she turned away saddened.