Chapter Ten

Tyler was drinking wine with Nikki as Brie was now outside talking with Joshua and Joe. Suddenly they saw Roya rush down the stairs, she walked over to them and picked up Tyler's glass. He watched shocked as she downed it in one long gulp and then refilled the glass.

"Girl, what's wrong?" Tyler asked

"Are you okay hun?" Nikki asked

"I need more wine...or more booze in general." Roya sighed as she was trying to get a hold of herself but her mind was still racing. She made out with Jonathan in his bed. It was unexpected from him. She knew he was super drunk and probably had no idea what he is doing right now.

"What happened?" Nikki asked

I made out with my best friend and loved it, Roya thought to herself as she didn't know how to admit what just happened. It was scary admitting that she enjoyed it but even scarier that she was also thinking about Joshua during it. Fuck my life, Roya sighed heavily. Tyler was right, the attraction she had for them was real and she had just been denying it. The conversation with Joshua about the vibrator put so many naughty thoughts in her head about him and now this. Making out with Jonathan felt amazing. And took so much willpower for her to pull away from him.

"Earth to Roya, you're kind of scaring us. What happened?" Tyler asked

Roya looked to make sure that the others were still outside talking, "...I made out with Jon."

Tyler's eyes nearly popped out his head as Nikki nearly choked on her wine.

"What?" Tyler nearly screamed

"Quiet! Please." Roya said

"How did it happen?" Nikki asked

"Jon is super drunk right now and while I helped him to his room, he asked me stay with him. No big deal I have slept in the same bed with him before. Then as we are talking I notice he keeps getting closer and closer to my face. Just as I was asking if he was alright, he kisses me. I wanted to to pull away but I couldn't. So then he continues to kiss me and it starts getting really hot and heavy. He rolled me on top of him, he was grabbing my hair, touching my hip, he put his tongue in my mouth," Roya paused as this was not helping. Tyler was getting sweaty just listening to her as he started to fan himself, "But then he grabbed my thighs and I snapped out of it."

"...I need to look for a bottle of vodka for you and get some damn ice for me. Girl,... lawd, I...how did you find the will to leave that man's side? I would have so let him have me. Busted my legs all open for that sexy beast. I'm sorry...this isn't about me." Tyler commented

"So I have to ask, did you like it?" Nikki questioned as she was still processing Jonathan's bold move. She understood why he did it plus he was drunk.

"Honestly I..." Roya stopped as the back door opened and Joshua, Joe and Brie walked in.

"What's up guys?" Joe announced

"Nothing! Just girl talk." Nikki replied

"Good things I hope." Joshua stated as he walked over to Roya

"Always good things." Tyler smirked as Roya narrowed her eyes at him.

"I take it Jonathan is down for the count?" Joe asked

"Yup out like a light." Roya nervously replied. As she was looking at Joshua, he smiled and suddenly thoughts about their conversation in the bedroom and kissing Jonathan came to mind. She was ashamed of herself. Even when she just made out with Jonathan, she was still turned on by Joshua.

"You okay?" Joshua asked taking her out of her thoughts

"Yeah, just getting tired." she replied

"It is getting late." Joe commented

"Yup. Well Brie and I are going to get breakfast in the morning if anyone wants to join." Nikki stated

"Count me in. Oh and Roya you should join." Tyler said as he needed more details from what happened between her and Jonathan.

"Yes! That is a great idea." Nikki added as she too wanted to know more of what happened

"...Sure." Roya sighed. As they all said their goodbyes, Roya and Joshua went to their rooms to turn in for the night. The idea of sleeping off the rest of the night sounded great in theory but Roya knew that she wasn't getting any sleep tonight. She changed into her night clothes and just laid in bed staring at the ceiling. The shock of what happened was slowly dying down, but the realization of how she truly felt about the twins was becoming a reality for her. She had always loved them; at first it was purely brotherly love but as they got older she started seeing them as more than just her friends. She tried putting all those feelings aside because she liked both of them and she would never be able to choose between them. So she just ignored it and pretended like she didn't love them that way.

Good job Roya, because now it's biting you on the ass, Roya sighed as she sat up in bed. She didn't know how she was going to face Jonathan in the morning. If she was lucky he wouldn't remember anything. But just the thought of having this conversation made her head start to hurt again. Sighing she got out of bed and decided to get some air. Making her way outside, she regretted not grabbing a hoodie or jacket. The temperature had dropped since she was out. But she was too lazy to turn back for it plus she wouldn't be out there for long. Sitting down she breathed heavily, what the hell am I going to do? She thought. This was definitely something she wasn't ready for right after the Darren situation. I don't know what to do. I enjoyed kissing Jonathan way too much to just pretend it didn't happen. And these naughty thoughts about Joshua won't go away. Her mind raced trying to find answers. Unknown to her, someone else was trying to figure out their own problems and she was the center of it. Joshua sighed as he looked at her through the window. He came down for some water and saw her sitting outside. Earlier he was talking to Brie and Joe about how he felt about Roya. Joe knew how both twins felt about her and deep down figured she was in love with them as well. He and Brie suggested he do what he felt was right. The problem was what he felt was right involved throwing Roya on the bed and eating her out until she screamed his name multiple times. Watching her he could see that she was cold. Despite his better judgment he decided to go and talk with her. Perhaps a friendly chat would do them both some good.

Roya heard someone walking up to her and her breath caught when she saw that it was Joshua. Great, as if I really need to see him in grey sweat pants right now, she thought.

"Here you go." he stated as he walked over and tossed his red hoodie over her shoulders, "You okay?" he asked as he sat down and started rubbing her shoulders.

No, I just made out with your brother a few hours ago and now your rippling muscles are flexing right in front of me. Fuck my life, Roya thought as she just nodded.

"Since it's just the two of us, I want to apologize if my statement about your vibrator embarrassed you; I didn't mean to say anything inappropriate." he admitted

"I wasn't embarrassed honestly. Caught off guard maybe; I mean it was something very different from you." Roya smiled

Different in a good way I hope, Joshua thought, "What brings you out here?"

"A lot on my mind." she admitted

"Want to talk about it?' he asked

"No. Not right now. I appreciate it though. Just needed a moment to relax." Roya replied

"Well, sitting out here doesn't seem to be helping. And it's cold so come on. I know how to help." Joshua commented as he took her hand and helped her up. He lead her back into the house and sat her down on the couch. Turning on the television, he then placed a blanket over her shoulders before heading into the kitchen area. After a few, he returned with a hot cup of chamomile tea and honey. Roya smiled, he remembered it was what she always drank when she couldn't sleep.

"Thank you." Roya said as she took the cup from him.

"Anytime." Joshua stated, "So comedy? Horror? Drama? What would you like to watch to take your mind off whatever is bothering you."

"Want to see what's on Hulu? Maybe find a series?" Roya suggested

"Works for me." Joshua said as he picked up the remote. When Roya finished her tea, Joshua adjusted the blanket around her so he could have some and she could put her head on his shoulder. Roya felt her heart race as he put his arm around her shoulder. Focusing on the show, she did her best to not react oddly to it. After all it was just friends sitting close right? No harm.

After a few hours the television was watching them, Roya was sleeping on Joshua's chest and his head was rested on the back of the couch. Suddenly Roya slowly started to rise up, the motion causing Joshua to jump a bit in confusion. His face was now right in front of hers.

"You okay?"Joshua asked sleepily

"Yeah, just started to get a cramp in my neck." Roya replied as she rubbed the back of her neck. Without even thinking Joshua started to rub her neck for her, the movement caused him to unintentionally move her face closer to his. She was so busy enjoying the sensation that she didn't realize how close she was to his face. Joshua was fully awake now as his eyes started to take in every inch of her face and then focused on her lips. Roya suddenly locked eyes with him, she could see the intensity in them. They were filled with want and lust. She knew by now there was no fighting it, despite trying to pull away she couldn't. Joshua had already given up on any self control, he was good with the idea of taking things slow, but Roya's lips were calling him. Soon he licked his lips and then pressed them to hers. Slow at first but hunger getting the best of him as his body had been craving this for too long. His hand was still on the back of her neck as he pulled her closer to him. He needed more, trailing his hands down to her lower back, he grabbed her waist and pulled her on top of him. Tossing the blanket to the side, Roya was in complete bliss as the passionate kiss was becoming heated. Unconsciously she reached a hand up and pulled the hair tie out of his hair. Now running her hand through his hair and occasionally grabbing it. Joshua groaned deeply as he could feel himself getting hard.

"Fuck." he breathed as his mouth left hers and found her neck. His tongue was every bit of magic that she expected. Thoughts what else his tongue could do started to flood her mind. Moving his hands down to lower back, Joshua caressed her before his hands moved lower and grabbed her ass. A sexy smirk crossed his lips as he had wanted to grab it for so long. Slightly lifting her, he laid her down on the couch and positioned himself on top of her. As he continued to kiss her, he slowly started to grind his lower half into hers. Roya groaned into his mouth as she could feel how hard he was getting. Joshua playfully bit her lip as his hands found their way under her shirt. That's when reality caught up to her and she asked herself a major question. Are you really ready to possibly sleep with Joshua right now?

Suddenly she stopped moving and grabbed his hands, "...Stop." Her voice was low but he heard her and complied with her request.

Leaning up, he looked at her closely, "I am so sorry Roya. I shouldn't have taken it that far. But, I have honestly wanted to do that for a long ass time." Joshua admitted

"Joshua..." Roya paused as she locked eyes with him.

"Roya,... I like you a lot. And I honestly have for a long time. I apologize for acting like this but it's how I actually feel about you." he stated

Shit, Roya thought. How was she suppose to respond to that? I like you a lot too...oh and I like your brother a lot as well. AND I made out with him as well tonight.

"I need to go. I'm sorry." Roya blurted out as she slid from under him and headed for her room. Joshua sighed heavily, he made a mistake that would probably cost him.

"Good job Josh." he scolded himself as he sat there with a massive hard on. All he had to do was take it easy and let things happen naturally but he couldn't pace himself with her and let his desires get the best of him..