"Yes...I-" It became hard for me to breathe, oh why can't I just say it? "I'll let you help me. Shads..." I feel so safe being wrapped up in his arms, like everything was going to be okay in the end. He held me closer and then it occurred to me, this is Shadow. Shadow is the one holding me, he is the one comforting me, he cares, he wants to help me. I wish, with all my heart that my friends will change back to their old selves and be as sympathetic and caring as Shadow is. We were all so happy. I was so happy.
I miss the way we all were, I miss being happy, it feels like it's been so long since I really felt anything else besides...well...empty and depressed. Depressed? Is that too strong of a word? Or too little?
Tails, my little brother. With the way he's changed we can't even connect or truly talk to each other anymore and I hate that. I hate it so much, I just wish I can have my brother back. When it was just us...chaos we were the only family we had. We clung to each other because neither of us had a real family and when I adopted him I swore I would always be there for him because he's my kid brother. Too bad he didn't swear the same to me.
Maybe I deserve it? In the beginning when I first started doing my heroic things I didn't know what to do, it was so new and so different. People began to view me differently and treat me differently as well. What else was I supposed to do besides bow down to their whims? I didn't know I would have to change, that I couldn't be me because as a hero I have to sacrifice everything for everyone at the expense of being human and being alive.
But I had Tails with me, he gave me suggestions of what to do in battle or in public, he supported me, and the encouragement he gave made me feel ecstatic and on top of the world. Never once did he order me, never once did he belittle me because I didn't understand half the inventive and intelligent things he said and did. In fact he helped me understand and taught me the basic skills a novice would have. I can still see him before he changed. His bright blue eyes swimming with knowledge and his mind drinking up every bit of information he was given, his sweet smile and how innocent and kind he was before. He was so little
Is it my fault? Did my mask, my fake persona rub off on him and he slowly turned into what I hated most about me? Chaos what if I raised him wrong? I tried everything for him. I can still remember, it was so long ago... We had no money at first, I barely got legal custody of him due to my age and me being a known trouble maker as a kid. I saved up as much as I could and spent it all on him, there were days where I starved and gave everything to him, of course I never told him. I could never make him feel guilty, it wasn't his fault and he was so innocent. Of course I managed to mess that up, how can they expect so much of me but not expect me to be unhappy with being a hero?
"Good. No more of this, 'I'm fine' or 'Nothing's wrong' talk. I'm here to help you as a friend." Shadow's words brought me out of my thoughts of Tails, "I swear I'll always be here for you, so don't worry or think otherwise hedgehog."
"Thank you Shadow." A tear rolled down my face, I wiped it away while laughing shakily. "I''m sorry. I'm stupid to be crying."
"You aren't stupid, it's bad to bottle up your feelings like this. It's okay to cry and let everything out." This broke what little walls I had left that Shadow couldn't see through and I cried. I wept quietly into his shoulder and he brushed his hands through my quills and down my back soothingly. Sobs escaped my lips as I truly let go of my mask for once.
No longer do I feel so alone and distant, I know now that I have one person I can trust after a long time of faking. Shadow, he's so real. I've always admired and respected that about him. To others he is cold and impatient when he's the opposite. I fear that everybody else wouldn't understand, it's the fear I still have of my expectations that haunt me like this. People dubbed us rivals, and that's what we turned into.
I can see now, I was loosing my life and my control over it because I wanted to please everyone and I forgot myself. Though I may have found out a portion of the problem, it's not like I could just fix it like that and everything will suddenly change and get better. thank chaos for Shadow being here for me like a true friend. Unlike everybody else he saw something was wrong and chose to find out what it was and comforted me, I will always be grateful and I will forever cherish this moment of intimacy with Shads.
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Heavy (I think it's a little heavy) violence and swearing coming up. Also blood is involved.
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The rain poured down heavily with loud claps of thunder coming after electrifying lightning, Rouge had stepped into the kitchen to make herself a cup of coffee and read up on her latest magazine on the richest jewelry around the globe. She took a glance outside and nearly shivered at the thought of how cold it must be, she only walked into the living room which was lit up with candles with small flames and she took one look at the two hedgehog's she cared deeply about.
Rouge felt her chest swell with delight at the sweet scene playing out in front of her. Shadow had dozed off next to Sonic who was curled up next to him and wrapped up in blankets, the two held each other and every few minutes one would nuzzle the other one and it was such a soft scene Rouge fluttered away to put her coffee down and go search her room for a camera to capture this endearing moment.
However the ivory bat never heard the knocking on the front door despite having high quality hearing, the noises of the knocks were drowned out by the loud thunderstorm. Another set of knocks were heard again and Rouge had yet to hear.
The doorknob jerked and twisted and the unlocked door had been pushed open with a jarring creak and closed lightly as a rain-drenched figure walked in taking slow heavy steps, the cold wind blew out the candles and doused the room in darkness. Bright flashes of lightning lit up the living room and cast an illuminated shadow for a moment standing over Sonic and Shadow.
With her piko piko hammer in hand Amy's green eyes stared down at the sleeping hedgehogs before her. They were so vulnerable and Amy could do just whatever she wanted to do to them. Her eyes glinted coldly as she looked at Shadow and Amy crooned mockingly to Sonic after moving closer to the blue blur.
"Sonic~ Wake up, my love." Amy placed a hand on his shoulder and lightly shook him awake.
"Shads...?" Sonic mumbled as he began to stir awake, he sat up and was met to a terrifying sight he will never forget. Green eyes wide with false joy and a psychotic smile to match stared at Sonic. Black tear stains ran down the face with hair messed up and dripping water droplets on the blanket. Sonic's breath caught in his throat and he froze in terror, he felt paralyzed
"Don't scream and don't move or I'll hurt 'Shads' here. Got that?" Amy demanded quietly, she had her hammer raised above Shadow's head and smiled wider when Sonic gave a sharp jerky nod, he pulled the blankets closer to him and he squeezed Shadow's hand hoping that the ebony hedgehog would wake up, not believing that this was real. That this was just some horrifying nightmare.
"Good. So did you miss me love? I found something of yours that I didn't like. A notebook of yours that I couldn't help but read." The color drained from Sonic's face and Amy had a triumphant smirk, she continued with her voice low. "I love you Sonic. I will do anything for you, even punish you when you lie to me and hide things from me. As my boyfriend I think it's my right to do this? Don't you think?" Sonic didn't answer and Amy growled. "Answer me." She raised her hammer threateningly. Sonic was shaking with fear and he nodded his head instantly.
"Yes. Yes. For the love of chaos don't Amy. Leave him out of this." Amy smiled with a fake sweet smile that made Sonic feel even more sickened than he already felt.
"I'm so glad we agree. Now..." Amy paused, "Get up. We're going to your house, you don't need Shadow. I'm everything you need, not this stupid freak." He did just so, it was hard trying to pry Shadow off of him without waking him but there was no way he was letting Shadow get hurt. The moment Shadow let got Sonic felt fear wash over him when Amy swung her hammer back and let it collide against Sonic's side with a sickening crunch. Once, Sonic dropped to his knees and held up his hands defensively, the pain he felt was torturing and he couldn't breathe let alone move in time to defend himself against the second hit, or the third.
Amy moved her arms back for another hit when a scream interrupted her and she was suddenly doubled over in pain from the swift kicks from Rouge to the stomach. The G.U.N. agent returned to see Sonic curled up on the ground looking frightened and in a world of pain. Rouge felt her rage snap and she went all out on Amy.
Shadow's eyes snapped open and he was awake and alert in a moment just in time to see Rouge do a spinning heel kick to Amy's back and she dug her claws into Amy while screaming profanities at the pink hedgehog. Shadow in an instant was by Sonic's side who began to cough up blood and Sonic was struggling to breathe, he was gasping for air yet never getting enough.
"YOU CRAZY BITCH!" Rouge yelled, Amy cried out when Rouge yanked at her hair. "HOW DARE YOU HURT HIM?! HE DIDN'T DESERVE THAT YOU UGLY HAG!" Amy lied on the ground crying and Rouge let up for a second. That turned out to be a mistake when Amy used that to her advantage and jabbed out her hammer narrowly missing Rouge who dodged it without a second to spare.
"HE IS MINE! I CAN DO WHAT I WANT WITH HIM!" Amy screamed, she attempted to swing her hammer at Rouge but the ivory bat is skilled when it comes to combat and is one of the best G.U.N. agents around next to Shadow. Rouge had had enough of Amy, it was time to put this little girl back in her place and teach her a good well deserved lesson.
"HE IS A PERSON. YOU DON'T CONTROL OR OWN HIM, HE HAS HIS OWN FREE WILL!" Rouge punched Amy several times in a row to the face and chest. Amy was down in seconds and had her hammer ripped away from her hands. Her ears were ringing and her world was dizzy and Amy watched in a heavy daze when Rouge cracked her hammer into pieces and threw them across the room where they clattered loudly.
Rouge panted and brushed the loose bangs that got in front of her eyes back and she glared venomously at Amy crumpled up on the floor. "Don't you even dare think that this is over with. If you even move from your spot I won't hesitate to kill you." Rouge swooped in next to Shadow who was telling Sonic to breath. Shadow's hands were shaking and worry was consuming him.
"Stay with me Sonic, we're going to get you help." Shadow said quickly, "I already called for an ambulance and they'll be in a few minutes. Please just stay with me."
"Shads...'m tired" Sonic choked out, he coughed again and shuddered in pain. Blood dripped down the side of his head and Sonic felt his world blackening around the edges. "...Shads..."
Bet y'all weren't expecting that. If you don't like it I'll remake it but I kinda like this chapter. It's the one you were all waiting for, I apologize that Knuckles isn't in there yet but he will be in the next chapter. Ahhh! I'm sorry to be leaving you at a cliff hanger but I have to get to bed. Hope y'all enjoyed. Please leave your reviews if you have questions, comments or concerns and I'll get to those by this evening. Byee!