Lucifer approached the detective's desk with two cups of coffee in his hands. He held one out for her. "Morning, Detective."
Chloe smiled and took the offered coffee cup. "Morning. Thanks. Your appointment with Linda is today, right?" Chloe asked.
Lucifer stiffened a bit. It had been a few days since he'd told the detective everything. She suggested he talk with Linda about it. He agreed, but he did not look forward to it. "Yes, at eleven. Unless you need me here. I can always reschedule."
"Lucifer, you don't have to do this if you're not ready. I think it will help you to talk this all out with Linda, but it's your decision when and if you're ready for that," Chloe said.
"I don't want her to look at me differently," Lucifer admitted. Linda wasn't just his therapist. They were also friends. He didn't want her to start seeing him differently because she found out this last truth about him.
"She won't Lucifer. She won't think any less of you. I don't. I think you went through something horrible, and I hate that, but my opinion of you hasn't changed. If I think less of anyone, it's my own species," Chloe said. It was a little hard to wrap her head around the fact that the first humans were rapists. How could she not think less of her species when that was their history.
"Don't. Not all humans are like that," Lucifer said. He couldn't deny that there was a time when he thought the same thing. It took a lot of human interaction before he stopped looking at them all like Adam and Eve.
"Enough are. Anyway, I just want you to realize that you have nothing to be ashamed of. Linda will agree, but you have to decide whether or not you want to tell her. You shouldn't do it just because I told you it's a good idea," Chloe said.
"She would say it's a good idea too. Perhaps it is. I admit, it felt better after I told you," Lucifer said. Telling her was the most difficult thing he'd ever done, which said a lot seeing as he'd been alive since the beginning of time, but it felt like a weight had been lifted off his shoulders afterwards.
"Getting things out in the open can often help sometimes. I think part of the reason you rebelled is because everything got so pent up. You couldn't let it out," Chloe said.
"Perhaps. Well, I should only be gone a about an hour and a half. I'll be back as soon as I'm finished," Lucifer assured her.
"Don't feel like you have to. It might be better for you to just go home. I think today will take a lot out of you," Chloe said.
"Well, I don't want to leave you alone. We're partners," Lucifer said.
Chloe chuckled. "I'll be fine. We don't even have a case right now. I'm just doing paperwork right now."
"Will you allow me to help?"
Chloe looked at him like he grew a second head. "You want to do paperwork?"
"I would take my mind off things," Lucifer said."
"Okay," Chloe said before handing him a couple of files.
Lucifer took them and sat down.
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Lucifer was beyond nervous as he sat in Linda's office. It was time for him to tell her, but he didn't know how to make himself do it, and he was quite worried about her reaction. It was different with the detective. She'd essentially already known, and he was too emotionally raw to be able to stay quiet about it. This time, he was making a deliberate, rational decision to tell someone.
"Lucifer, you seem very anxious. Is everything alright? Are things okay between you and Chloe?" Linda asked. When something was bothering Lucifer, it typically had to do with Chloe, and given that they had been having trouble in the last few weeks, it seemed like a realistic leap to jump to.
"Uh, yes, they are alright. The detective has actually been there for me quite a lot lately. I confided something in her, and she has suggested that I tell you about it," Lucifer said nervously.
Linda could tell from his body language that this was not something Lucifer actually wanted to tell her. She was pretty sure he told her just about everything, so it worried her what he might have to say now. "Lucifer, you know that anything you say is confidential, right?"
Lucifer nodded. "It…It's just hard to talk about. The detective's the only one I ever told."
"Take your time," Linda said patiently.
"You know the story of Adam and Eve, yes?"
Linda nodded. Of course she did. Everyone knew that story. She realized now that she and Lucifer had never really discussed that before. He talked a lot about his rebellion and being sent to Hell, but that particular incident wasn't discussed.
"Well, it's a lie! And I'm not just talking about the apple part. The forbidden fruit was always a metaphor," Lucifer said.
"For sex," Linda guessed.
Lucifer's hands began to shake and he looked down at his knees. "No, not exactly. That implies it was consensual.
Linda gaped in shock at the implication of Lucifer's words. He was telling her that what happened with Eve wasn't consensual. It was rape. Linda knew Lucifer. She knew his fierce belief in Free Will. He wouldn't take someone's consent away. But that only left one other option. Lucifer wasn't the offender. He was the victim.
While Linda didn't understand how any human would be able to overpower Lucifer to assault him like that, one look at her patient, and she knew that was what happened. Lucifer was shaking and he was avoiding direct eye contact. She could see the shame that came with the stigma of rape. "Eve raped you."
Lucifer nodded. "They both did. Adam held me down for her, and he did it himself long before he involved her."
A thousand things were going through Linda's head. She thought back on every session she had with Lucifer. All of his issues could be explained by this. It was no wonder she often felt like she was taking one step forward and three back with him. It was because she had yet to identify the real problem. No real healing could start until it was identified.
It took Linda a few minutes to figure out how to respond. This was not what she was expecting. "What happened wasn't your fault, Lucifer. That's the first thing you need to know."
"I didn't fight them," Lucifer said quietly.
"You shouldn't have had to. When a person says no, that's it. You shouldn't need to use violence to stop someone from hurting you," Linda said.
Lucifer shrugged. Realistically, he knew he didn't do anything to deserve what happened to him, but he couldn't help but blame himself.
"Does your father know?" Linda asked.
"Not that I know of. He hadn't discovered it when he threw me out. He still believed I tempted Eve. I let him. I was afraid he'd be even more angry with me if he knew the truth," Lucifer said.
"I'm going to cancel the rest of my appointments," Linda said.
"You don't have to do that," Lucifer said. He wasn't so broken that he needed take up Linda's entire day.
"I'm doing it. I think you need more than an hour. Don't worry, I had nothing dire on the calendar. It's not the first time I've had to do this. It's fine," Linda assured him.
Lucifer nodded reluctantly. If he was being honest, he didn't think he'd be ready to just leave in an hour anyway.
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Amenadiel flew to the gates of the Silver City and went inside. He'd been sitting with what Eve had said to him for days. He tried several times to tell himself that it couldn't be true that Eve raped Lucifer. She seemed convinced it wasn't true. But she said Lucifer said it to her. Lucifer didn't lie. Still, Amenadiel fought against the idea because Lucifer could've fought against a human easily. However, back then, their father was even more protective of humanity than he was now. Now, they just weren't allowed to kill humans. Back then, they were warned against any physical harm to a human. It was possible that Lucifer took that to mean he couldn't defend himself against them. He could've run though, or flown. Why wouldn't he?
After days of contemplating it, Amenadiel decided he had to know the truth one way or another. He was going to go to Lucifer, but he wasn't sure his brother would be honest with him. Lucifer would never lie, but he would avoid the truth. There were plenty of ways to hide what happened without telling a single lie. So, Amenadiel decided to go to the person who had originally accused Lucifer of tempting Eve. Michael.
Amenadiel soon approached his brother's quarters and knocked on the door.
The doors were opened moments later by an identical version of Lucifer. "Ah, Amenadiel. Have you tired of humans already. I thought you'd last longer."
"I need to talk to you," Amenadiel said before brushing past his brother on his way inside.
"Oh, yes, come in," Michael said dryly before shutting the door.
"Listen, I know this is going to sound strange, but I need to ask you about what happened when Lucifer confided in you about Eve," Amenadiel said.
"I've always found it beyond idiotic that he'd refer to himself by his job description," Michael said.
Amenadiel ignored him. "Did Lucifer tell you he'd tempted Eve?"
"Of course, he did," Michael said.
"Were those his words or did you assume based on what he did say?" Amenadiel asked. He had to know exactly what Michael knew. It was the only way he could get to the bottom of it and figure out what to do next.
"What does it matter? It was literally thousands of years ago," Michael said.
"It matters a lot. What happened might not have been what we thought. I'm assuming you're familiar with the term rape?" Amenadiel asked.
"Yes, that's when humans force other humans to fornicate," Michael said in disgust. Humans could be quite awful. He didn't understand why two of his brothers insisted on living amongst them.
It's possible that may have been what happened," Amenadiel said.
"You think Samael compelled Eve in such a way?" Michael asked.
"No. I have reason to believe it's the opposite," he said.
"What? Don't be ridiculous. No human could force an archangel to do anything. Clearly Samael is trying to excuse his actions," Michael said.
"But we weren't allowed to hurt humans. Father would've been furious if we did. Maybe Lucifer didn't feel he could defend himself," Amenadiel said.
"Did he tell you this?" Michael asked.
"No, but Eve said he accused her of raping him. Maybe she misunderstood or something, but I thought I should talk to you. What did Lucifer say happened that night? Did he say it was consensual?" Amenadiel asked.
"Of course, he…" Michael trailed off as he remembered the conversation. His brother actually didn't say. He admitted to visiting Adam and Eve. He'd described his last interaction with them, which included details of their physical contract. But he'd never said who initiated it. When Michael thought back, he remembered his brother being quite upset, but he assumed that was because Samael knew their father would be angry. "No. When he told me what he'd done with them, I stopped listening. I started yelling at him, and then I went to Father."
"So, he never said how it happened?" Amenadiel asked. He was really hoping not to hear that. He was hoping for confirmation that it was consensual. Instead, his doubts got worse.
Michael shook his head. "You believe those barbarians launched an attack on our brother?"
"I don't know, but if this is true, everything that anyone believes is based on a lie. It means not even we know Lucifer," Amenadiel said.
Michael stared at him for a moment before heading for the door.
"Where are you going?" Amenadiel asked, though he had a pretty good idea.
"This was my doing. I need to fix it," Michael said as he continued on his way.
Amenadiel rushed out after him. "Michael, wait. We don't know if this is true. It's just a theory."
"Then the truth can be forced out of those human pieces of scum after I inform Father of this theory," Michael said. If this was true, Adam was involved too. He recalled his brother mentioning Adam at least being present.
"Michael, Father's rage will be uncontrollable if he even suspects this is true. All of humanity may pay the price," Amenadiel warned seriously. He could see his father destroying all human over this. After all, Adam and Eve were the beginning of it.
"Good riddance!" Michael yelled as he approached his father's home. He never cared for humanity. If they'd done this to his brother, he was more than willing to see them extinct.
"I'm not saying Father shouldn't know, but we should wait until we know for sure," Amenadiel said. By now, they'd made it inside and were headed for their father's office.
"No," was all Michael said before letting himself into his father's office.
A dark haired man peered up at them looking less than pleased. "Michael, Amenadiel, what is the meaning of this. You know you are to knock before you come in."
"I'm sorry, Father, but this couldn't wait even long enough for me to knock," Michael said.
"What's wrong, son?" God asked, noticing his son's distress.
Michael sighed. "I believe we all may have made a grave error."
God listened as Michael explained what Amenadiel told him regarding Samael and the first two humans. By the time he was done, the entire universe would feel effects of God's rage.
