Lucifer found himself sitting with Linda in her living room. The storm finally calmed down enough for the detective to go home, and Lucifer decided he really needed a session. "Thank you for seeing me last minute."
"It's no problem. I told you to call anytime if you needed me," Linda reminded him. Since their last session, she was treating Lucifer as an emergency patient. He'd been through a very traumatizing event. Yes, it had happened several lifetimes ago, but he was only just starting to deal with it now. Plus, one of the people who had hurt him had come back into his life. That was more than enough to trigger a possible breakdown. She wanted to be on hand in case that happened. "Did something happen?"
Lucifer nodded. "My brother, Michael, came to see me. My father knows everything. So does Michael and so does Amenadiel. Everyone in my family will know soon enough. I don't know what to do. I don't want any of them knowing." While he had attempted to tell his brother the truth once, it was out of desperation, and a part of him was grateful Michael hadn't believed him. A part of him was also angry about it, but he was also glad that no one found out.
Linda wasn't surprised that this would send Lucifer reeling. Many rape victims feared what happened to them getting out. Yes, Lucifer had chosen to tell a couple of people, but that didn't mean he was ready for the world to find out. His family finding out the truth would be a big blow for him, especially considering that finding this out could change a lot in regard to how they saw him. "Your brother told you this?"
"Yeah. Apparently Eve said something to Amenadiel. He went to Michael, and they both went to my father," Lucifer said bitterly. He was still annoyed that Amenadiel had gone to Michael instead of talking to him. He wouldn't have been happy with just Amenadiel knowing either, but he could've at least prevented anyone else from finding out. Well, unless his father was watching, but given that he hadn't found out until Amenadiel opened his mouth, Lucifer doubted his father had been watching.
"Eve told Amenadiel? Doesn't that seem a little unwise under the circumstances?" Linda asked. This woman had raped Amenadiel's brother. Why on Earth would she tell him that? It seemed like suicide to do such a thing. Linda supposed she shouldn't be trying to understand a rapist though. She didn't really want to know what went through the mind of someone who could do what Eve did.
"Oh, not in her mind. Eve thinks she did nothing wrong, which was probably what she was trying to get across to Amenadiel. She still considers me a willing participant. She thinks what happened was fun for both of us," Lucifer said in utter disgust.
Linda could feel the bile begin to build up in the back of her throat. This was why she didn't try to get into the head of a rapist. She had known therapists who did specialize in that, but she never understood it. She would much rather focus her attention on their victims.
"I wonder if she still thinks so now that she's been dragged back to face Divine justice," Lucifer said, mostly to himself.
"Your father had Eve brought back to Heaven? How do you feel about that? How do you feel knowing that those who hurt you will suffer?" Linda asked.
"I don't know! I'm still trying to deal with the fact that my father knows, and that it bothers him. It clearly does though. The storms are evidence of that," Lucifer said.
Linda surmised with that statement that the thunderstorms and earthquakes were caused by God. She had wondered if those things were caused by celestials, as they had been happening all over the world. She'd tried to get in touch with Amenadiel several times to get his take on them, but he never answered her. Dealing with the truth about Lucifer would explain why. "Your father caused the strange weather. That surprises you?"
"Of course. I never expected my father to care. Why would he? He tossed me out. He hated me. Why should he care if someone hurt me? Michael says he does though, and evidence does point to that. Michael even says Dad wants me to return to the Silver City," Lucifer told her.
Linda could see now why Lucifer was so upset. It wasn't just that his father knew, though that was enough to send him reeling. It was that he could no longer be certain of relations between his family. Things changed. He was no longer banished from his home, and he was faced with the knowledge that his father still cared a great deal about what happened to him. It was a lot to deal with. "Tell me how you're feeling right now, Lucifer. Are you feeling overwhelmed?"
"Yes! And confused. And… I don't want anyone to know. I don't want him to know," Lucifer said. He ended his response in a shaky tone.
"Do you feel ashamed?" Linda asked.
Lucifer looked down at his hands and refused to answer.
"Lucifer, the way you're feeling is normal for someone who has been through what you have, but please understand that you have no reason to be ashamed. What happened was not your fault. You were assaulted," Linda said.
"I was weak," Lucifer said.
"No, you weren't. You were attacked. That does not mean that you're weak. People like this figure out what to say and do to exploit other people. That's what happened. You told me how it happened. Adam and Eve exploited your fears to get away with hurting you. They made sure you couldn't defend yourself or ask for help. They are to blame, not you, and I believe your family will see that. Clearly, your father does. He is insuring that they pay for what they've done to you," Linda told him.
"Perhaps," Lucifer said. Honestly, he didn't know what his father believed. He heard of his father's reaction second hand. He knew his father was angry, but everything else really came from Michael. It wasn't that Lucifer thought that Michael was lying. He just wasn't sure he could believe anything that didn't come straight from his father. At the same time though, he feared seeing his father. His father knew everything. Lucifer wasn't sure he could face him knowing that. In the thousands of years since Lucifer was banned from Heaven, he never feared seeing his father again. He even envisioned punching his lights out several times, but he wasn't afraid of the possible encounter until now.
Just then, they both heard a knock, followed by the door opening and closing.
"Linda, are you here?" Amenadiel's voice rang out.
"Bloody hell," Lucifer whispered to himself.
Amenadiel made his way to the living room seconds later. "Linda, I'm sorry to barge in, but…" He trailed off when he caught sight of his brother. He hadn't known his brother would be there. He'd flown directly to the front door, so he hadn't seen Lucifer's car.
"Amenadiel, you can't be here right now," Linda said in a firm tone. This was why she rarely ever took house calls, even for emergency patients. She'd usually find a way to meet them at the office, because someone could just show up at her house at any time. But she'd made an exception today, mostly due to the weather. It wasn't terrible now, but she hadn't wanted to chance it getting bad again. Plus, Lucifer had sounded desperate on the phone.
"Luci," Amenadiel said, completely ignoring Linda's words.
Lucifer refused to meet his brother's eyes.
"Lucifer, look at me please," Amenadiel said. His brother hadn't been able to look him in the eye the last time they saw each other either. He knew Lucifer knew that he knew the truth about him, and that was obviously distressing him.
"Amenadiel, we're in the middle of a session. I really need you to go," Linda said.
"I'm sorry. I didn't know he'd be here. I came because I received your messages. I'm sorry I didn't answer before. I was in the Silver City and then I was looking for Eve," Amenadiel said.
"It's okay. We can talk later," she said.
"I'm not sure we can. I'm not sure there will be a later for much longer," Amenadiel said. He really feared his father's next move, and how soon it would be before he made it.
Lucifer rolled his eyes at his brother's melodrama. "Oh, don't be overdramatic. The storms are stopping. The world isn't going to end."
Amenadiel opened his mouth to say something, but then stopped. It really wasn't fair for him to put this on his brother. Lucifer was already going through enough. It wouldn't be fair to also put the possible extinction of humanity on his shoulders too. At the same time though, he thought Lucifer would want to know. Humanity was important to Lucifer.
Lucifer finally looked at his brother and saw the hesitance on his face. "What?"
"It's not your problem," Amenadiel said.
"Oh, don't give me that. Speak," Lucifer said forcefully.
Amenadiel sighed. "You can't imagine how angry Father is right now. Well, I guess you can a little. It has made itself known. I've never seen him so angry. Adam and Eve were humanity's first examples."
Lucifer flinched a bit at their names, but said nothing else.
"Father may just decide that their actions prove humanity shouldn't continue," Amenadiel said.
"Wait, are you saying he might destroy us?" Linda asked in an unsettled tone.
Amenadiel nodded.
"Don't be ridiculous. Humans are Dad's favorite creation. He's not going to destroy them," Lucifer said. Yes, his father had created storms and earthquakes in his anger that had undoubtedly caused damage to a few humans, but it was a far cry from consciously wiped them all from existence.
"Luci, whatever you may think, Father does not love humans more than he does you, and right now, I don't think he has even the slightest tolerance for humanity. He has point blank said that he might just destroy them," Amenadiel told him. This really frightened him, not just for the humans he'd come to care about, but also for his unborn child. His son was part human. Would his father wipe him out too? Even if he didn't, he would be doing so to the child's mother if he did this. Amenadiel understood his father's anger, but not every human deserved to suffer because of what Adam and Eve had done.
"He said that?" Lucifer asked in disbelief.
"He said that he was thinking of ending humanity, yes. He said it to Eve, so he could've been trying to frighten her, but I was worried he might do it even before he said it," Amenadiel explained.
Lucifer sighed. Well, it seemed he had no choice now. He'd been considering going back to the Silver City at some point briefly, mostly because of things the detective said, but he wasn't planning to do so in the near future. It was more like maybe in a decade or two.. Now he had to. He had to speak to his father. Another thing he didn't want to do anytime soon. He couldn't chance anything happening to the people he cared about. "Michael stated that I'd be welcome in the Silver City if I chose to return. Was he right?"
Amenadiel nodded. "You can go back anytime you want. Father has made it clear that no one is to stand in your way."
"Do… Do the others know everything?" Lucifer asked. He hoped not. He didn't think he could stomach going back if they all knew.
"No."
Lucifer got up. "I guess we should go then."
"You're going back to Heaven now?" Linda asked.
"I have to. My father may destroy humanity because of something that happened to me. I have to stop him," Lucifer said.
Linda nodded. She worried that Lucifer wasn't ready for this, but she worried more that the entire world would be destroyed if he didn't go.
Amenadiel summoned his wings and took flight first.
Lucifer followed his brother, setting out for the Silver City for the first time in eons.
