APOV

I just finish nursing my baby girl when the nurse walks in with a beautiful arrangement of white roses, reminds me of the ones Christian sent me when I left him after the playroom incident

Nurse- "Mrs. Grey this came for you along this box"

She hands me a small wrapped box

A- "Oh, thank you"

There is no card in sight but I am pretty sure I know who is the sender. I am holding the box thinking if I should open it or not I am just afraid of getting sucked into his lies only to end up shattered worst each time. And just when I decide to open the box and get it over with the door flies open and Christian is breathless with a terrifying expression that scares me deeply.

C- "Ana, did you just receive that package?

A- "Yes, why?"

C- "I know I don't have any right to ask you to trust me, but please if there's something you know is how much I care for your safety and I need you to trust me one

more time. Please give me that box, I'll have security check it's safe before you open it"

Wow! This must be serious but he's right safety is what he cares the most.

I simply hand him the box and he says he'll be back ASAP. Why do I feel this suffocating pain every time he leaves. I wish I could move on without him like he did, even though I knew deep down this will happen when he finally realized I wasn't enough for him, I still was not prepared when it happened. I guess I hoped he would have enough respect for me to end our marriage before finding someone else.

CPOV

I rush towards Taylor he's the only one I can trust with this, he takes the package and asks me to wait in the lobby until he can check what's in the package, I nod and sit on the corner with my head on my hands for like what seems like a lifetime, I start passing the room when I see Taylor walk towards me but for some reason he evaded looking at me

C - "So? What was it"

T- "Sir, is safe to say Mrs. Grey shouldn't look at it, if you want to watch the video that is in that phone just make sure you destroy it after"

C- "What kind of video?"

Looking at me with a mixture of sadness and disgust he answers

T- "It's a video of all the activities that happened between Mrs. Lincoln, Megan, and yourself"

I feel my blood dropped to my knees, that twisted bitch recorded all to set me up. But of course I have only myself to blame, if it wasn't for my stupidity nothing would've happen

C- "I see, thank you Taylor. Take me to Escala please"

T- "Sir"

Like the coward I am I just left without an explanation to my wife. Honestly, what can I say to her she would only hate me more if I tell her the truth.

C- "You can have the rest of the day Taylor I won't be going anywhere for a while"

T- "Sir"

C- "Taylor, please have someone to tail Elena and dig some dirt on her I need to get her out of my life for good and I need leverage to make sure she goes quietly"

T- "Yes sir"

When Tylor leaves I go and serve myself a glass of bourbon trying to ease the shame and pain that are consuming my soul. How I wish I could go back in time and change everything I did, as bad as things were between Ana and I there no excuse for what I did. Maybe we would've end up separating anyways if she did not love me anymore but at least I should've tried to get some help like counseling or even arrange our schedules and go for a few days somewhere by ourselves to focus only each other. Fuck! it doesn't matter I can not change what happened and my head is pounding I should accept that maybe this is the universe making sure Ana, Teddy, and Phoebe get the opportunity to get away from me. I don't deserve them, never did. I should let them go, eventually they'll be happy. I will never abandon them I will make sure they are very well taken care of just not close enough to me and all my 50 shades of fucked up.