Chpt. 19 CPOV:
I'm sitting in Ana's office at SIP desperately trying to get work done but I can't concentrate worth anything. My mind keeps running through all the things that could go wrong today; I'd be devastated if anything ever happened to Ana. As I watch her reading a manuscript on her desk, I can't help but think about everything that happened last night. It started with what was probably one of my worst nightmares yet, no matter what she did I couldn't wake up. When I did, I was overcome with emotion – Ana's arms around me nearly broke me. I couldn't believe I cried in front of her! I never cry! I've never talked with anyone about my thoughts that my mother didn't love me and that was why she didn't protect me. Dr. Flynn has tried to get me to discuss it, but I've always refused. I don't know if it was the dream or Ana holding me last night that had me opening up to her. She shocked the hell out of me when she admitted she loved me. How could she possibly love me? I knew in that moment that the feelings I had been having for her weren't just feelings…it was actually love. That didn't shock me as much as hearing Ana tell me she loved me. I didn't think anyone could love me, but looking in Ana's eyes I knew she loved me. I made love to her for the first time last night; for the first time admitting what I felt for her was love. Waking up inside of her this morning was the best feeling in the world, I can't imagine waking up any other way.
Delivery truck has arrived and is being unloaded –T
Very good –C
"Mr. Grey, Ms. Steele" Sawyer interrupts us.
"Please come in" Ana says.
"Everything is in place, now we just wait" he glances out the window I'm not sure at what…maybe just making sure nothing suspicious is there.
"Are you okay baby?" I pull Ana into a hug.
"No" she whispers. "I don't like not having control over anything-"
"Well sometimes you do" I smirk, trying to joke with her.
"Besides then" she smiles at me, but the smile doesn't reach her eyes. "I don't like not knowing what is going to happen, to have it feel like everything is spinning out of control."
"I know, Ana" I sigh. "I feel the same way."
"When this is all over tonight, will you take my mind off of everything?" she begs.
"I will keep your mind off of this for as long as you can handle me baby" I smile, trying to distract her even for a few moments.
"Ms. Steele, if I can use your computer I can turn on the video feed" Sawyer interrupts us.
We step aside allowing Sawyer to press a few buttons on Ana's computer which quickly changes the screen from her email into a several different boxes all with feeds from various cameras. He hits another button which allows the screen to project onto the wall giving us a larger but slightly distorted view. I glance at my watch seeing that it is almost five; I pull Ana tighter against me. My heart is beating so fast right now, I'm sure Ana can feel it as her back rests against mine. After several minutes of just standing there, Ana and I sit in chairs just waited. I hate waiting! I wish I could catch the fucker right now and get this over with. I hate seeing Ana in fear, but there is nothing I can do until Hyde surfaces.
"Mr. Grey, Ms. Steele we have movement" Sawyer pulls me from my thoughts pointing at the screen.
Ana stands up, squinting her eyes to get a better look at the figure we see approaching the rear entry of the building. Not satisfied with this view, she moves to the computer screen before confirming it is Hyde. We watch him quickly enter the building, moving through several hallways before reaching the main area outside of our office. I can see Taylor and several other members of security in various spots throughout our floor.
"The police are on their way" Sawyer announces.
With a warrant out for Hyde the police were called to pick him up. We were unable to notify them ahead of time since they typically don't take kindly to setting up criminals, since it could look bad in court. However since they are not part of this sting, it isn't a concern; they are simply being notified that we have him in our building. Suddenly, we see Taylor turning around walking away from the camera talking to someone. There is no view of who he is talking to so we can't be sure, but we suddenly see his feet at the bottom of the camera.
"Sawyer what happened?" I demand.
"I don't know sir" Sawyer tries calling for Taylor through his earpiece and on his phone with no answer.
We can still see Hyde on the camera, he is walking through the hallway, occasionally going through offices. We watch him search through desks and cabinets in several offices; it's not known what he is looking for but we never see him take anything. He doesn't take anything from the offices but throws papers around and knocks computers on the floor.
"Mr. Grey, Ms. Steele, please move into the corner" Sawyer instructs.
"Come on Ana" I pull her against me, seeing that she is not moving.
Ana continues to stare at the wall, watching the live feed of Hyde going through the offices.
"Ana!" I call to her.
"What?" she finally looks away.
"Look at me" I instruct, my voice in dom mode. "We will get through this, we will all be fine."
"But Taylor…." She worries.
"He will be fine" I say firmly. "I need you to concentrate right now, listen to whatever Sawyer or I tell you. Understood?"
"Yes sir" she says quickly.
I didn't want to do this, but she was so preoccupied that I had to pull her out of it somehow. I should have picked up on her words earlier; I've noticed with Ana that when things are spinning out of control for her is when she seems to need a scene the most. Although we are not clearly going to engage in a sexual scene right now, I can at least play the dom to see if that helps her; the rest we can deal with once this mess is over. If she needs to hear my dom voice to keep her in the moment then so be it; right now I need her focused so Sawyer and I can keep her safe.
BANG Suddenly we hear a gunshot.
"Christian?" Ana asks worried.
"Sawyer?" I ask.
"Working on it sir" he says before talking into his ear piece.
"Elizabeth is here" Ana says.
"How do you know?" I ask.
"It's the only explanation" she pauses. "Taylor was injured while we could see Hyde so it wasn't him. What if Elizabeth is in the building?"
"I believe she is right sir" Sawyer interrupts. "We have confirmation of a woman in the building fitting Ms. Morgan's description; I have two people trying to find her now."
Suddenly Hyde is gone from the cameras; one of our cameras is no longer showing a live feed. Sawyer rewinds the footage to try to determine what happened but the camera shows nothing, leading us to think that whatever took out the occurred from outside the hallway where this camera is angled. We have lost any visible feed of Hyde which infuriates me even more – I knew this was a bad idea.
"Barney! What the hell is going on?" I say as he picks up.
"It seems the lines are being cut from in the building sir. The battery backup should kick in shortly" he replies.
"It better" I end the call.
We watch as another guard is taken down, but just like with Taylor we can't see the person who is doing it. Sawyer announces that the police are moments away and have been alerted that shots have been fired by Barney who is watching everything unfold on his monitors. I pull Ana closer to me, she wraps her arms around my waist and I can feel her heart racing against my chest. I would do anything to take this feeling away from her, but for right now there is nothing I can do but try to protect her. This seems like more than retaliation for Ana firing Hyde but neither of us can find another reason for the hatred he obviously feels for Ana. Nothing in Ana's history suggested she knew Jack previously; we ran a thorough background check on him as well and there was no link other than SIP to Ana. If this isn't retaliation for Ana firing him what could it be for? What could Ana have done to this man in such a short period of time to have him react so badly.
"Christian" Ana gestures to the live feed, showing Hyde only a few feet from Ana's office.
"It's okay, Ana" I try to reassure her although I don't know what I believe my words.
"I love you Christian" she whispers in a shaky voice.
"I love you Ana" I assure her.
We hear and see a scuffle outside Ana's office, where Elizabeth Morgan finally comes into the screen. She is waving a gun around frantically as Hyde is yelling at her; they don't seem to be on the same page with what is going on and he looks very angry. Sawyer indicates for us to keep still and be quiet, although everything inside of me is telling me to run and take care of both of them. Sawyer is positioned just to the side of the door with his gun drawn.
BANG
We watch Elizabeth drop to the floor, as a shot from somewhere hits her in the leg. Hyde had a gun drawn but I don't think it was him who shot her as his aim looked higher from the camera angle. Quickly two of our security guards come into view but Elizabeth manages to get her gun and hits one of them as Hyde knocks the other unconscious with the handle of his gun. The door to Ana's office suddenly opens and Hyde is standing there looking furiously at Ana in my arms.
"Drop your gun or I will shoot" Sawyer tells him.
"Do it" Hyde replies.
BANG
Sawyer fires hitting Hyde in the shoulder, but Hyde barely flinches. It's as if he is high on something, or psychotic because he seems very out of it. Hyde just stands there glaring at Sawyer as he quickly makes a move for Sawyer's gun.
BANG
Sawyer drops to the ground hitting his head on the desk in the process, but I don't think Hyde shot him as he looks almost as surprised. I can see Sawyer was shot in the leg, he is unconscious on the floor next to Ana's desk but I can tell he is breathing from here. I can't see where the shot came from as Hyde is blocking the door but I can only guess it was Elizabeth. I'm afraid to look at the live feed and risk taking my eyes off of Hyde especially in his crazed state right now.
"What do you want?" I ask firmly.
"That beautiful bitch in your arms for starters. I want to fuck her until she is screaming my name so loud that you will hear it every night in your dreams!" he screams. "Then, I want everything you have Grey!"
"Not before you rot in hell Hyde!" Ana glares at him.
"How much?" I ask.
"Not your money….I want your life. I want you to suffer the way you made me suffer for more than twenty years" he yells.
"What the fuck are you talking about?! I've never met you!" I say, now convinced this man has lost his mind.
"You liar!" he screams, pointing the gun at Ana's head.
BANG
I squeeze Ana tightly not knowing where the shot came; I can feel Ana gasp in my arms. As I see Hyde fall to the ground, I slowly let out a sigh. Behind Hyde, Taylor stands with his gun drawn as Elizabeth lays unconscious at his feet. Taylor quickly handcuffs Hyde who is bleeding excessively all over Ana's office yet he continues to yell at me despite the gunshot wounds. Taylor hits him on the head with his gun and Hyde quickly passes out ending the screaming. We hear police sirens in the background as Taylor pulls Sawyer to his feet putting him in Ana's desk chair before wrapping up his leg effectively stopping the bleeding.
"It's over baby" I whisper into Ana's ear.
"Finally" she sighs in relief her voice no longer as shaky as before.
A couple of hours later we are cleared to go home as Hyde and Elizabeth are taken into custody and we have provided our statements to the police. Hyde is taken to Seattle Grace Hospital although the paramedics said he likely won't make it since he lost so much blood from both shots. Elizabeth's injury was much less severe and they expect her to make it; she is already going to be charged with attempted murder, accessory to attempted murder and breaking and entering since Barney was able to pull a shot of her entering SIP through a window in a file room. Sawyer is also taken to the hospital however the paramedics said the bullet just grazed his leg and he had regained consciousness before the ambulance pulled away. Taylor refuses to go to the hospital for the stab wound that Elizabeth inflicted; I convince him to at least let the paramedics bandage him up and stop the bleeding. The other two security team members are taken to the hospital for observation but will likely be released within twenty four hours.
"Sir, ma'am…we should head to the car through the back entrance as the paparazzi are everywhere" Taylor instructs.
"Taylor you can't drive" I say firmly.
"Sir-" Taylor begins.
"Taylor, you can barely stand up let alone drive a car. Absolutely not, it's not safe" I interrupt.
"I will drive" Ana speaks up.
"Ana, I-" I stutter trying to find the words.
"Christian it's fine. You need to help Taylor to the car anyway, with me driving we will be able to get out quicker" Ana explains her voice now strong and steady.
"Are you sure you're okay to drive?" I ask concerned.
"I'm fine…let's go" Ana leads us out of her office, carefully stepping over the blood stained carpet.
I make a mental note to have a crew in here and the carpet changed before Ana returns to the office next week. I don't care the cost; I will have the place looking better than it did this morning when all her employees arrive on Monday morning. They cannot walk in and see blood stains, bullet holes and shattered computers. Reluctantly, Taylor leans on me for support walking clearly in pain with every movement. As soon as we open the back entrance we are momentarily blinded by flashes from reporters as they yell questions at us.
"Mr. Grey! Mr. Grey! What happened here tonight?" One report yells.
"What is your connection to Ms. Steele?" Another yells.
"Was Jack Hyde an ex-boyfriend of Ms. Steele?" Another reporter yells and I'm tempted to punch his lights out but Ana grabs my hand squeezing it as we walk through the crowd to the car.
Ana quickly unlocks the doors, jumping into the driver's seat and starting the car as I help Taylor ease into the SUV. I hate to admit it but Ana was right, it would have taken more time if I had driven as Ana could never had assisted Taylor into the car.
"Mom? I need a favor" I quickly dial the phone.
"Of course dear, what is it?" Mom asks quickly.
"Can you come over to Escala as soon as possible? Taylor has been stabbed and refused to go to the hospital" I explain.
"Oh my…I will be there shortly" she disconnects.
"Sir-" Taylor says.
"Don't start Taylor" I interrupt. "I may not have been able to force you to go to the hospital but I am requiring you to let my mother evaluate you as a condition of your continued employment with me."
"Yes Mr. Grey" he smirks, knowing full well I would never fire him.
I quickly send a text to Gail alerting her to my mother's arrival in case she is at Escala before we get there. Ana does a wonderful job getting us out of the parking lot quickly considering the amount of reports and news vehicles that are desperately trying to block our exit. I send another email to my head of public relations requesting she draft a press release about the incident tonight. I need to talk to Ana but there is no way that our relationship will not be public now. I'm requesting the press release spin this was an irate former employee who turned on Ana in retaliation for the termination of his employment. I fire off another email to Welsh asking him to dig deeper in the connection between myself and Jack Hyde; previously we were focusing on his connection to Ana since his anger seemed to be focused on her however his allegations have me wondering if there isn't some connection between us.
We arrive at Escala a short time later and manage to get Taylor upstairs into the great room as Gail and my mother come rushing in. Gail immediately drops her professional face, running to Taylor's side to comfort him and check on him. Gail and Taylor have been dating for some time now, although both are usually very cautious and keep their relationship confined to their quarters however given the situation it's understandable that Gail's emotions take over. My mother quickly assess Taylor, who again refuses to go to the hospital and stitches his cut up which had apparently started bleeding again after we left SIP. She advises him to take it easy for the next ten days including no heavy lifting or physical activity. Taylor tries to argue however Gail quickly puts an end to it and reassures my mother that she will see that he follows her orders. She promises to stop by in the next few days to check on Taylor again before leaving for the night. I know she wants to ask me what happened but I promise her that we will stop by tomorrow and explain everything as right now we just need to unwind from the events of the day. I also want to get my dad's legal advice on the situation with Hyde and Elizabeth as well as any concerns he might have about my security staff who defended us by shooting both Elizabeth and Hyde.
As my mom leaves I take a moment to watch Ana; this entire time she has been operating in CEO mode which is very sexy to watch. She has been walking around the penthouse full of confidence, assisting my mom as needed and just now helping Gail move Taylor to their quarters before bringing them both a cup of hot tea. With everything going on and everything that just happened, instead of focusing on the negative she is putting everyone else's needs first. I realize this is likely a way to keep her mind off of what just happened but I can't help but watch in amazement at the way she handled everything.
"Ana, would you like to go to bed?" I ask as she puts away puts away the tea bags.
"I don't think I can sleep" she admits.
"Would a shower help? Or a hot bath?" I suggest.
"I don't think so" she frowns.
"What do you need baby?" I ask.
"The playroom" she whispers.
"Are you sure? It's been such a long day-" I start to say.
"Please Christian….I can feel myself crashing soon and I don't want to think of everything that just happened. I know I won't be able to sleep; every time I stop moving right now I keep replaying what happened. Please just make me forget everything for a little while" she begs.
"Only if you are sure this is what you want Ana" I say after a moment.
"I am" she says confidently.
"Go upstairs and meet me in the playroom" I say in my dom voice.
I start planning our scene in my head, trying to decide where to take us tonight. We have not been to my playroom in the last couple of weeks which surprises me when I think about it. I have been completely satisfied with Ana in my bedroom, or in my office, with no toys. We will maintain a certain level of BDSM in some of those situations but at other times it's been vanilla sex. I'm surprised to find that I enjoy both acts similarly with Ana; there are times I feel the need to have control in which BDSM is very rewarding but there are times when it is not needed and sex at that time is just as rewarding. I'm not overly surprised that Ana feels she needs a scene right now; I know for the both of us tonight was very overwhelming and the entire situation was out of control. We had no reason to suspect that Elizabeth would return to SIP tonight after she had already left for the day which completely took us by surprise. Before going up to the playroom, I pause and check on Gail and Taylor who both insist they do not need anything. I give them both the next week off, seeing that Ana and I will be flying to Taiwan on Thursday we will not need any of their services. I offer to send them somewhere to relax but they both refuse, stating they would rather stay at Escala. Taylor tries to insist he should accompany me to Taiwan but with Hyde and Elizabeth both in the hospital I don't see a need for security.
After talking with Gail and Taylor, I finally make my way up to the playroom where I am surprised to see Ana is waiting for me in the standard sub position completely naked. Given the amount of time that passed I expected her to have moved to the bed or at least the couch, her knees must be killing her. I quickly strip down to my underwear, needing to free my massive erection that was restricted by my pants the moment I walked into the room and saw Ana naked waiting for me.
"Ana, I'm sorry I took so long" I pull her hair back and tie it back so it's not in our way tonight. "Are your legs sore?"
"A little sir" she answers quickly, her eyes remaining fixed on the ground.
"You may stand" I request and she immediately complies. "Do you remember your safewords?"
"Yellow and red sir" she says.
"Very good, please remember to use them if the scene becomes too much" I remind her.
"Yes sir" she replies.
I walk around her, taking her beautiful body in slowly as I view her from every angle. I hear her breath hitch as she realizes I'm looking her over very slowly. I step behind her back, causing her to gasp as I take her full, plump breasts in my hands massaging them while grinding my hard erection against her ass. I feel her nipples harden at my touch, even before I begin playing with them, telling me how turned on she is right now. Her body is always so responsive to me, to my touch even just to my voice. I lead her over to the couch sitting her down before kneeling in front of her and pulling her firm ass to the end of the couch.
"Hold your knees" I instruct before lowering my mouth onto her sex.
"Ahhhhhhhhh" she moans as I begin exploring her sex with my mouth.
I take my time exploring her, tasting her; nibbling and sucking on her folds, circling her opening with my tongue and every few minutes nipping her clit with my teeth. Her body is quickly responding, her walls clenching whenever I come close to her core. Her juices are flowing at out of her, my tongue desperately tries to lap them up before they slide down her ass.
"Play with your nipples" I order before taking her clit into my mouth.
"Ohhhhhhhhhh Gooooooooooooooood!" she moans as she pinches her nipples.
She is still a little cautious when it comes to pleasuring herself however she is slowly becoming more comfortable during scenes. I love that innocent part of her; I don't know how I would handle a sub who was already established and comfortable with herself and the lifestyle. The couple times I tried to have a scene with a sub at the club it turned out to be a disaster; I wasn't able to maintain an erection to save my life. With Ana though all it takes is her entering a room and I find myself immediately getting hard. When I first decided to become involved in BDSM never did I think I would have fallen in love with someone who was my sub; well Ana's not your typical sub but she is a sub in the playroom. I love that we have a more typical relationship outside of the playroom while still maintaining our lifestyle in the playroom. I can't wait to get her to Taiwan; I have a couple surprises planned for her that I'm eager for her to see.
"Christian!" she screams pulling me from my thoughts.
"What do you need baby?" I smirk against her throbbing sex.
"I need to come! Please sir, please let me come!" she begs.
"Come Ana!" I command thrusting my tongue deep inside her core.
"FUCK!" she screams as she comes hard in my mouth.
I can feel her walls clenching around me, holding onto my tongue as if she is afraid I will remove it from her. Her juices flow, I pull her closer to me lapping up the sweet taste that I have become addicted to. After a few moments her breathing returns to normal, but I don't stop…instead I move my mouth back to her clit nipping it with my teeth.
"Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" she moans, likely in response to another orgasm quickly building even though this one has barely ended.
I slide a finger deep inside of her, immediately finding her g spot as she grabs my head and holds me tight against her sex. I love feeling her hands my hair when I'm pleasuring her; I love that she tries to take control by holding my head in place. There are times when I wouldn't let her do this, but right now I'm being very lenient considering everything she has been through today.
"Oh God! Christian!" she screams as I insert a second finger.
"Come baby!" I nip her clit again, this time a little harder than before.
"CHRISTIAN!" she screams as she comes around me once again.
I quickly slip out of my underwear, never breaking contact with her sex. Ana's eyes are closed; her head is back against the couch as the pleasure takes over her body. She is so beautiful when she comes, it's one of the rare occasions that she loses herself and forgets everything going on. For a few moments she is not shy about her body, which I really don't understand considering how beautiful she is. There is nothing I would change about her perfect body.
"Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!" she screams as I slam into her still throbbing sex without warning.
"You are so wet" I moan, pausing to enjoy the feeling of her walls gripping me tightly.
"Ahhhhhhh" she moans as I start thrusting in and out of her.
I nearly pull all the way out of her before slamming back into her forcefully; she moans in pleasure. I continue this pace for several minutes before I find myself holding my own orgasm back. Her walls continue to grip me and I can tell she is getting close to another orgasm, her body quickly recovering from the last one.
"Christian! Too much…..too sensitive" she moans as I gently rub her clit while rotating my hips as I'm deep inside of her.
"Shhhhh….just enjoy it" I tell her, pulling out before thrusting deep inside of her.
"Christian! It's too much!" she says as I pinch her clit.
"I want to feel you come when I'm inside of you" I say, moving in and out of her, staying deep inside of her.
"Noooooooooooo….It's too much. I can't Christian" she cries.
"Yes you can baby" I say slamming into her.
"Ahhhhhhhhhh" She moans, closing her eyes.
"Look at me….I want your eyes on me when you come" I tell her.
Her eyes immediately snap open and I can see the desperation in her eyes; she is clearly trying to hold back her orgasm. I increase the pace knowing that she is not going to be able to withhold the orgasm much longer; by the sounds of her moans and her heavy breathing I know I'm right. Her walls are gripping me tight, threatening to milk my own orgasm but I refuse to give into it until she comes around my dick. I need to feel her come when I'm inside of her tonight; there's something about that moment that solidifies our connection.
"Come baby!" I instruct.
"No…..I can't….please Christian" she begs. "Please…no more."
"Let me feel you come when I'm deep inside of you baby" I say. "I love how you feel when you grab me tightly with your sex, when you start throbbing when I'm deep inside of you."
"CHRISTIAN!" She screams and finally finds her release which triggers my own.
Her walls continue to clench around me, milking every drop of come out of me as I remain deep inside of her. I pull her onto my lap, bringing us both of the floor holding her close to me as we both come down from our orgasms. Her sex continues to spasm around my now softening dick which is buried deep inside of her.
"Are you okay?" I ask.
"That was very intense….I didn't think my body could handle another…" she giggles, clearly not feeling comfortable talking about it.
"Your body was so responsive tonight…." I tell her. "You felt amazing and tasted just as good too."
"Christian" she moans.
"Let's go to bed, it's been a very long day" I say, gently lifting her off of me. We wash up in the bathroom before heading to my bedroom where our naked bodies lay intertwined. I love that we sleep naked every night; I love having access to her beautiful body whenever I want and feeling her body against mine. When I told her I wanted her to stay with me until Hyde was caught never did I think we would end up where we are today. It's going to be a big adjustment when she returns to her apartment; I can't expect her to continue staying here now that Hyde and Elizabeth have been caught. There is no longer a threat and she did just purchase a new apartment. I'm comforted knowing that she is only one floor below me so I could easily see her whenever I wanted. Maybe we can come up with a schedule of days we are going to spend together; even if we do though, it won't compare to sleeping in the same bed every night.