Chpt. 36 APOV
I wake up before Christian which is surprising considering he is always awake so early; instead he is lying next to me with his hand on my breast. I giggle that even in his sleep he is drawn to me. We have been alternating our sleeping locations lately; some nights we are in my bedroom downstairs and other night we are upstairs in Christian's room. It seems to depend on how tired we are and whether or not Christian has work to do before bed. If he has work to do, we end up sleeping in my room since his office is right next to my room. However lately we have been spending most nights in his bed which is significantly bigger than mine and even more comfortable which I didn't think was possible. He has the softest sheets on his bed; even the comforter is soft and luxurious. I can't even begin to think about what a fabric this soft must cost.
The last couple weeks have flown by; Christian has been working on several big projects lately so he has been putting in longer days at the office. I'm almost done with my self-study assignments and expect to submit them early next week which is at least a full month before graduation. I'm proud of myself for getting the assignments done before graduation despite everything that happened. I started physical therapy a week ago which seems to be helping as I feel steadier on my feet. I'm looking forward to getting rid of the walking cast altogether but I know I'm going to be dependent at least on a cane for some time.
"Hmmmmmmmmm" Christian moans in his sleep, grabbing my breast tighter.
I giggle again at this; it's clear he is asleep as he quietly snores but his hand is firm on my breast. We have really become closer recently; once I admitted that the feelings I had for him was indeed love it was as if everything else just fell into place. My memory has almost completely returned; there are a few things that I still struggle with but for the most part I'm able to remember everything that Christian and I shared as well as everything that has happened in the last few years. I run my hand up and down Christian's firm stomach enjoying the way his abs feel under my fingers. He doesn't respond, doesn't move so I continue my exploration of his body while he is sound asleep. My hand grazes his erection every time I move my hand down his firm stomach. There is one thing I have wanted to try but haven't since the accident; glancing at Christian who is still snoring I decide to take advantage of his body. I gently move his hand from my breast and move under the covers. I straddle his legs, careful not to sit on him or wake him up. I can see his erection through his boxer briefs; I gently pull his underwear off his erection as it springs right up. Christian's breathing hitches but he gives me no indication that he is awake; although something tells me he is now awake. I instead focus on my goal, which is right in front of my face at this point. I take him in my hand, guiding him into my mouth gently sucking on him and exploring him with my tongue before taking him in my mouth deeper.
"Ohhhhhhhhhh Ana" he moans, obviously awake now.
He pulls the covers off of us, tossing them to the side and I see him looking down at me as I take his entire erection into my mouth. I take his as deep as possible, almost to the back of my throat before I feel myself almost gag. I return my attention to his head, sucking him hard as my hand strokes the base of his erection.
"Ana….baby….I want to taste you" he moans.
I look up at him confused but quickly understand what he wants. I sit up and slowly pull off my silk night gown giving him a perfect view of my breasts. I awkwardly pull my underwear off before turning my body around. I can feel myself blushing at this movement but at the same point I'm incredibly turned on by the thought of this. Christian gently guides my body onto his, straddling my thighs around his face before pulling my ass closer to him.
"Ohhhhhhhhhhh" I moan as his tongue finds my sex.
I grasp his erection and guide him back into my mouth; Christian's hips immediately thrust upward pushing himself deeper into my throat. I struggle to take him, but manage to swallow as he hits the back of my throat. He groans against my sex, his fingers digging into my ass and his breathing is more rapid than before. I can tell he is getting close to coming and this is the only part of what I'm doing that makes me a little nervous. His hips thrust more and I struggle to continue sucking around him as he moves so quickly.
"Oh God….don't stop Ana" Christian says, his attention now fully on what I'm doing.
"Ahhhhhhhh….Ana I'm going to come! If you don't want…." He says as I pull him in deeper, fondling his balls as I swallow him one last time.
This quickly triggers his orgasm and I feel him explode into my mouth. I don't think about it but swallow him, continuing to suck every drop out of him. I wasn't sure what to expect, but he doesn't taste nearly as bad as I expected. It's sort of sweet tasting…
"Ahhhhhhhhhh" I moan as Christian pulls me against his mouth, openly kissing my sex.
I lift myself up slightly, giving Christian better access to me as he continues his wonderful assault on my sex. His tongue explores my sex; I feel his teeth nibble on my folds before a finger enters my core. I blush deeply, realizing that I am grinding my sex against him, needing more from him as the orgasm quickly approaches.
"Christian…." I moan.
"I got you baby" he says, pushing another finger into me.
"Ahhhhhhhhhhhh" I moan as he curls his fingers forward hitting that wonderful spot as his tongue continues to explore my sex.
"Come baby, let me taste you" he says.
"OOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" I scream as I find my release, pushing myself further onto his fingers.
I moan when he quickly removes his fingers from deep inside of me, but he immediately replaces them with his tongue. I can feel his tongue deep inside of me, my clit rubs against his chin which has me aroused even more. Christian's hand gently pushes on my back, urging me closer to his now rock hard erection. I guide his erection back into my mouth, licking the come as it slowly drips out of him. I feel him harden and lengthen even more in my mouth just as Christian's tongue thrusts into me deeply.
"Hmmmmmmm" I moan around his erection.
"Baby, I need to be inside of you" Christian gently lifts me from him.
Once again, I awkwardly move around, this time so I am lying next to Christian and immediately his lips find mine. He rolls me onto my side, his erection probes my sex as his hand grips my ass tightly. He rocks my hips roughly against his erection; I can feel my juices coating him as he rubs my clit against him.
"Christian….I need you" I moan.
He pulls me on top of him, gently pushing my hips down so he slowly, slowly slides into me. Its pure torture how slow he is sliding into me but feels exquisite. I gently rock against him, moaning as he slowly moves in and out of me. The pace is keeping the orgasm just out of reach, keeping me on edge; I try to move faster but Christian's hands remain firm on my hips controlling the movements. Our breathing is heavy, we are both moaning loudly as the need to find our release hits an all-time high. Christian gently lifts my hips slight above him and I moan in disappointment as he almost pulls out of me completely. He pauses for a moment, rubbing just the tip of his erection around my opening driving me crazy.
"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" I scream as he thrusts into me deeply.
"You feel so good baby" Christian moans.
Christian pulls out and thrusts hard and deep several times; I find myself teetering on the edge, desperately needing a release. Christian's mouth finds mine and his tongue now mimics what he is doing to my sex. I moan loudly as the orgasm finally hits; Christian finds his release moments later screaming my name as he pours himself into me. He stays deep inside of me, making no effort to move as I rest my head on his chest listening to his racing heart beat begin to slow.
"Wow" I finally catch my breath.
"I love you Ana" Christian kisses me passionately.
"I love you too" I say.
"Let's get washed up and grab some breakfast" Christian suggests.
"Sounds good, I think I've worked up an appetite" I joke.
After a quick bath, Christian carries me downstairs to the breakfast bar where Gail is just finishing our breakfast. I have just started working on steps in physical therapy but I know it's going to be some time before I can master the steps to Christian's bedroom as there are just way too many of them.
"I was thinking we could go to Aspen this weekend" Christian says over breakfast.
"Really?" I smile.
"We won't be able to ski or ice skate since it's so warm and I don't think your leg would be up to it, but there's plenty to do in Aspen during the off season. There's lots of shopping, plus an entire house we can have to ourselves" he smirks.
"That would be nice, I've never been to Aspen before" I say excited.
"We could fly out tomorrow morning, stay for a few days and then leave whenever you want. I've rearranged my schedule at work so my important meetings are now later in the week in case you want to extend our trip" he explains.
"That sounds wonderful! Did you already make reservations for us?" I ask.
"We don't need reservations" he says as I look confused. "I have a house in Aspen."
"You have a house in Aspen?" I say surprised.
"Yes, I bought it a few years ago but haven't been there recently" he explains.
"You're too much" I laugh.
"What?" he asks.
"You act like having a house in Aspen is no big deal" I giggle.
"It's just a house baby" he says.
Christian spends the afternoon at the office wrapping up a few things before our trip tomorrow. While he is at the office, I pack a small suitcase with several extra sets of clothes as I'm not sure what we will be doing. Gail says the house is fully stocked so I shouldn't bring any toiletries with me; Christian has said he will just buy anything that I need while we are there but I want to minimize that so I'm sure to pack everything I think I might need. Gail packs a small bag for Christian which I learn is pretty typical for her whenever he goes away on a trip.
My mom wants us to come to dinner tonight…do you feel up to it? –C
Sure –A
Pick you up around 5? –C
See you then –A
The rest of the afternoon passes by quickly; I'm looking forward to our trip to Aspen tomorrow. I haven't traveled much, except from crappy neighborhood to crappy neighborhood when my mother would jump from guy to guy. I did a little research online about Aspen from my new computer so I knew what to expect when we arrive tomorrow and the pictures look absolutely breathtaking. My cell phone ringing pulls me from the beautiful pictures of mountains…
"Hi Kate!" I say after checking caller ID.
"Ana, how are you?" she asks.
"I'm good, I got my casts off last week so I'm finally a little more mobile" I laugh.
"That's wonderful…how are things with Christian?" she asks.
"Very good…in fact we are going to Aspen tomorrow" I gush.
"Aspen? Wow, it's beautiful there you're going to love it" Kate says.
"I was looking at pictures online, it looks breathtaking" I agree.
"Are you going to the Grey's tonight for dinner?" Kate asks.
"We are" I confirm.
"Oh good, so are we" she says.
"Listen, I need a favor" I ask.
"Of course, Ana anything" she quickly responds.
"In my room, on the top shelf of the closet is a gift bag, would you mind bringing it with you tonight?" I ask.
"Sure, no problem….what is it?" she asks.
"Christian's Valentine's Day present…obviously a little late" I giggle.
"I found it, I will bring it" she confirms.
"Can you just leave it in the car when you get there? I will grab it when we leave, I don't want to give it to him at his parent's house" I request.
"Sure" she answers. "There's something else…."
"What is it?" I'm concerned at Kate's sudden voice change.
"I've asked Elliot to move in with me" she says letting out a deep breath.
"Kate, that's wonderful! I'm so happy for you!" I exclaim.
"I want you to know that you are still welcome, the room is still yours…this doesn't change anything with you living here" she assures me.
"It's fine Kate…really…I'm thrilled for you!" I say.
"I'll see you tonight" she ends the call.
Elliot moving in with Kate doesn't bother me but it does make me wonder at what point I'm going to be able to move back to Kate's apartment. I think I need to get a little more comfortable with steps before I can manage Kate's apartment independently which shouldn't be that much longer probably a couple months at most. I'm sure Christian will be glad to get his spare room back once I move out; I'm still amazed that he had the entire room redone for me. Since we are going to Christian's parents for dinner tonight, I take extra time picking out an outfit for tonight. The walking cast can fit over a pair of jeans but it's not very comfortable so I'm still wearing dresses and skirts for the most part. For dinner I opt for a black skirt that come to me knees with a light pink top.
"Ana?" I hear Christian call from the foyer.
"In my room" I call as I pull on my skirt.
"Hmmmmm….I could get used to seeing you like this" Christian says quickly closing the door behind me.
I blush realizing I'm wearing a skirt and bra right now, having not finished getting dressed.
"I wasn't expecting you" I kiss him before reaching for my shirt.
"I should come home unexpected more often" he smiles.
"I'll be ready in a few minutes" I say.
"I'm going to grab a quick shower and change before we go" Christian says grabbing my ass before he leaves the room.
I quickly finish getting dressed, lightly curl my hair and apply a little make up before moving to the great room to wait for Christian. I'm barely seated when I hear him come down the steps, carrying my wheelchair.
"I don't think I will need that tonight" I point out.
"I wanted to have it in the car just in case you get tired. We won't bring it in unless you feel you need it" he says.
"Okay" I take his hand to head to the lobby.
"Hi Taylor" I say as he takes the chair from Christian.
"Ana" Taylor nods.
The ride to the Grey's is relatively short, when we arrive I see several cars already in the driveway so I assume we are the last to arrive. It takes me a few minutes but with Christian's support I am able to walk into the Grey's house.
"Ana! It's so wonderful to see you" Grace greets me giving me a gentle hug.
"Ana, you look wonderful" Carrick says.
"Thank you for having us for dinner" I reply.
"Oh dear, you're welcome here anytime. Please come in, we are just about to sit down" she guides us into the great room.
"Ana!" Kate quickly jumps us and kisses me on the cheek.
"Hey Ana" Elliot puts his arms around my shoulders.
We sit down and chat for a while, Elliot talks about his latest construction project in which he is trying to install green technology in a century old building for a new client. Listening to him talk it's clear that he has a clear passion for environmental friendly technology; most of which he hasn't had an opportunity to implement yet. I chuckle at Elliot as he continues the conversation while Grace leads us to the dining room.
"Where's Mia tonight?" Christian asks when Elliot finally stops talking.
"She already had plans to meet up with some friends" Grace explains.
"I feel like I haven't seen her in ages" I say.
"She's been busy lately, she just started a position as an assistant chef" Carrick smiles.
"Wonderful news!" Christian exclaims.
"She's very excited but doesn't want everyone to know because she's afraid you will come hound her when she works so I'm not allowed to tell you where she is working" Grace giggles.
"That's Mia" Elliot says and we all laugh.
"The Coping Together Gala will be the first weekend in June, please be sure it's on your calendar Christian…I expect you to be there" Grace says firmly.
"It's already on there" Christian smiles.
"Ana, Kate I expect you both to accompany my sons to the gala" Grace says.
"What is Coping Together Grace?" Kate asks, as I wonder the same thing.
"It's a wonderful organization that provides support, treatment and assistance to parents who have drug or alcohol addictions. They provide services to the family as a whole instead of focusing only on the individual with the addiction. They provide individual and family counseling in addition to their detox and rehab services" Grace explains. "Every year we host a gala to raise money for their services. Insurance only cover so much; the money we raise funds treatment for those that have no insurance or for what insurance doesn't cover."
"It sounds wonderful" I say quietly.
"They do amazing work" Carrick confirms.
"We will be there" Kate says for the both of us.
Over dinner I can't help but wonder how my life would have been different had my mother not gotten involved in drugs. I try not to dwell on it but had she not met Stephen I don't know that she would have started using drugs. Had she not met him, he wouldn't have abused me and I wouldn't have scars all over. I wouldn't be afraid of people touching me or having to be extra cautious when shopping to insure that clothes don't reveal my scars.
"You okay?" Christian whispers as we move into the great room after desert.
"Yeah, sorry" I smile weakly back at him.
"I think we are going to head home" Christian says moments later. "I'm taking Ana to Aspen in the morning so I we need to get home and finish packing."
I know he's lying; he saw my bag when he came home and Gail packed his bag but nonetheless I'm glad we're heading home. I'm feeling very tired and need to get out of this funk.
"Have a wonderful time" Grace says hugging me goodbye, her arms remaining above my waist at all times.
I realize at that point that she must know about my scars; it's the only explanation for why she has hugged me twice now without touching my lower back. The first time I thought it was a coincidence but now I realize it's purposeful. I know she was the doctor on duty when I came in after the ambulance so I can only assume she saw the scars. Realizing Christian didn't like his scars touched she must assume the same about me. Again, something I wouldn't have to worry about if my lousy excuse of a mother didn't meet Stephen.
"Ana?" Taylor approaches me as Christian says good bye to his parents.
"Is everything okay?" I'm concerned because Taylor is talking to so quietly.
"Yes" he smiles. "Mr. Grey, ah Elliot, gave me the bag and it is up front with me."
"Oh, thank you. Can you…I need to get it to Aspen…" I say quickly as Christian is walking towards us.
"I'll take care of it" he promises as he opens the door for me.
"Everything okay?" Christian looks between me and Taylor.
"Yes sir" Taylor says.
"Just talking Christian" I smile.
"Where do you want to sleep tonight baby?" Christian asks when we reach Escala.
"Your room" I say.
"As you wish" Christian quickly picks me up and carries me to his room.
Christian gives me a t shirt of his to wear, we quickly get washed up and in bed.
"You got quiet at dinner tonight" Christian pulls me against him.
"Just hearing about Coping Together made me think…" I sigh.
"How your life would have been different if drugs weren't involved?" he asks.
"Yes" I pause. "I can't help but think how different my life would be. Stephen's addiction, and later my mother's…"
"Shhhhhh….I know baby" he kisses me on my neck. "I've often wondered how different my life would be had my mother not been addicted to drugs as well."
"Is that why your mother is so involved in this charity?" I ask.
"Yes, she has been involved in this one for the last several years…almost since the beginning. Without the funding from the gala I doubt they would be as successful as they are" he answers.
"Does it really raise that much?" I'm surprised.
"Usually at least two to four million dollars" Christian says.
"Holy shit" I mumble.
"Every guest pays for a plate, the cost of the plate is donated as my mother convinces most of the services provided that night to donate their time and supplies. Then there are the auctions: the first dance and silent one which both raise substantial money. Of course there are donations that are received by guests at that time" he explains.
"Do you go every year?" I ask.
"Yes, my mother insists on it" he sighs. "It's a good cause so I don't mind going. This will be the first year though I have a date."
"Really? You never took any of your…submissives?" I ask.
"No, I never saw them outside the playroom. Our arrangement was strictly confined to the playroom" Christian explains.
"Oh" I yawn.
"Let's get to sleep, tomorrow I want you to join the mile high club" he kisses me on the neck.
"Wait…what?" I ask shocked.
"The mile high club…I plan to make love to you in the clouds" Christian smiles against my neck.
"But…how….the bathrooms are so small?" I ask confused.
"Bathrooms?" Christian pauses. "Oh, we're not flying on a commercial plane sweetie. We will be taking my jet."
"Your jet" I say.
"Yes…well it's GEH's jet which is technically mine but yes my jet" I can hear the sense of pride in his voice.
"And there's a bedroom on it?" I ask.
"Yes" he answers.
"Have you ever….?" I stutter.
"No" he answers quickly.
"Oh" I blush.
He pulls me tighter against him and we fall asleep like that; in each other's arms. I like the idea that he hasn't been intimate with anyone on the plane…I think it would be weird to have sex with him where he fucked another woman. It makes me appreciate that no one else has ever been in his bedroom and that he no longer has the playroom. Besides the fact that the punishments would scare the shit out of me, I think it would constantly remind me that he was with other woman every time I walked in there and I don't think I could handle that.