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Chapter Two – Acceptable Visitation

I take a deep breath in. I know that once I tell the man this there is no way of going back and changing my answer but I am going to change a man's life whilst he's suffering. Usually I carefully plan these things out. I stand facing the doctor knowing it's the best thing for Re-Kuon.

"I need to have two people added to Tsuruga Ren's visitation list," I tell them. I'm glad that I have a copy of Kuon's passport, it may be the only way of making sure that his parents can freely visit him.

"Do you have the list?" the doctor asks me. "I've been trying to find a number which I can call for his parents or his medical history but there are only a few files in this hospital for Tsuruga Ren. Is there another name that he's -" the doctor begins and I nod before showing him the passport.

"Yes, Hizuri Kuon is his real name," I tell the doctor and he stares at the photo. This photo was taken a while back when he was still blond and I know that he and I have both been safeguarding it. The doctor takes down his name.

"Thank you. Is he any relation to Hizuri Kuu?" the doctor asks and I nod.

"He's his son. I need for Kuu and Juliella Hizuri to be added to his visitation. He's their son," I explain and the doctor looks shocked but he still notes down the name. He looks at me and smiles.

"Thank you, I'll make sure that they are added," he tells me, "Anything else that I can help you with, Takarada-san?"

"No, that's all," I tell him, "Thank you."

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I can't see. As much as I've tried to find my way in the darkness, force my eyelids to stay open, I can't see a thing. I wonder if I look different now. I wonder if I'm recognizable with the cuts and burns. I can't be an actor anymore, I can't even be a voice actor. I wish that I could because that would at least be connected to the acting world but I can't read….I feel sick. I won't be able to read another book in my life. I won't be able to write anything down in a legible manner. I won't be able to go out in nature and see the animals. I won't be able to safely drive a car. Most of my life is over.

At least she's alive though. I have to keep remembering that, keep remembering the reason why I can't see. She could have died so at least I was able to save the woman I love.

Sleep has been the only comfort to me but it's hard to sleep all day even when you're completely engulfed by sadness. I don't know if it's been minutes or hours that I've been in the hospital. I don't have that concept of time down. Maybe there's a way for my sight to get better. Maybe there's some kind of operation and they'll tell me about it when I next wake up.

I feel by the change in temperature that it's now night so if it was mid morning when I spoke to the president then twelve maybe more hours have passed by. I have no idea.

I hear the door open slowly and I lie back on the bed. I don't know what the doctors want to test but they'll most likely tell me. I feel nauseous that I don't even know what my own doctor looks like. I can't see anything anymore.

I hear a woman crying. It sounds familiar. Why would a woman be crying though?

That's when I hear a very familiar voice that I had only heard slightly less than a year ago, "It's okay. He's alive, it's okay Julie."

"But look at him," my mother says, "The bandages. They don't put bandages on someone for nothing, Kuu. I…I can't…what happened to our son?"

"Your son is awake," I inform them and hear them come closer to me.

I hear quick footsteps and then feel a hand on my shoulder. "Oh my god, darling," Mom says to me through her audible tears. "How are you feeling? Oh my little Kuon. What hurts?"

"I wish I could see you," I whisper and Mom gently lets her hand run over my head and through my hair. Good, somehow I still have hair.

"It's okay, darling. You can't help it," she kisses my forehead. "At least you're alive. Your father and I are here to help you. You look so handsome, so grown up."

I shake. I have only just realized that I haven't seen my mother or a picture of my mother since I was fifteen. That was nearly six years ago. The memories I have of her are from six years ago. I don't even know what my own mother looks like now and I hope the memories I have of her don't fade.

"Oh, darling. I know it's scary but I'm here for you, my love," Mom tells me as she kisses my forehead again and I can hear my dad trying to control his breathing but he sounds heartbroken as well.

I reach out for her and she moves back so I can touch her. My hand is clumsy on her body but finally I reach her cheek and she holds my hand there so I'm cupping her cheek. I let my thumb run over her face. I can feel her nose, her lips, and then I pause. I just put my thumb over her eye, I pull my hand back.

"Can you see anything?" Dad asks gravely. I don't want to hear him so sad.

"Nothing. It's completely gone," I tell him and hear Dad's slow breathing.

"They should cover your eyes with a bandage," he says before leaving the room and I can hear gasps and people questioning why he's here but he doesn't answer them. I hear him talk to somebody. "Why aren't his eyes covered if they aren't working? They should heal or at least the area around them. There might still be a chance of saving his sight."

"I'm sorry that we couldn't protect you from this," Mom says as she runs her hand over my forehead again. "I love you, Kuon."

"I have to be Kuon now, don't I?" I ask and Mom pauses. I know that she's a little nervous about this, about hurting my feelings, crushing my dreams. "It's okay. I can't act anyway so I can't be Tsuruga Ren."

"There are still some things that you can do," Dad says and I bow my head and shake it as I move on the pillow a little. I can hear the pain in Mom's voice and the way she knows that this isn't how I wanted this reunion to go. I haven't seen my mother for years and when she's there with me again, I can't see her. I wonder if my body is bad. I wonder if it even matters.

"Could you leave?" I ask them selfishly and I hear the shock that each of them has as they turn to me. I know them. I've watched them all my childhood, admiring both of them but mostly my father. I just want to be left alone for right now. I don't want to feel the pain from them being here.

"Are you sure you're going to be alright?" Dad asks. I know he doesn't want to leave a blind fool alone.

"I'll be fine," I tell them. "Please could you just leave me alone to get some sleep?" I ask and I hear Mom getting pulled away by Dad. I know she wants to stay with me but I can't deal with this. I have to die. There's nothing left for me in this world anymore. I should be capable of ending my own life.

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Everybody is staring at us…well they are more staring at Kuu than at me, he's the real celebrity here. It was hard enough coming through Tokyo after landing at Narita despite it being the very early morning here but the hospital is worse. Can't they just leave us alone? Yes, my lovely and amazing and sometimes dimwitted – I will not forgive him for not keeping Kuon there longer – husband is a legend in this country but I am still a mother. We could be as famous as famous could be but we are still parents wanting to find a doctor to ask them to let us see our son.

Kuu puts his hands flat down at the counter as he looks at a very excited nurse. I want to smack her but I'm sure a lot of people are wondering what we're doing there. My emotions are heightened and I've always been called a drama queen though hopefully it's been playfully.

I have to control myself. My baby boy is blind and can't work anymore, all these years when I haven't been able to hold him are worth what now?

"Which room is Tsuruga Ren in?" Kuu asks and the nurse looks between us. "Check the visitation list…"

"Only family members are allowed near Tsuruga-san at this time," the nurse says and I respect her for being so protective in my son's safety but just let us near him. You don't need to be so concerned about doing your job. Just let me see my little boy.

"It's okay," a doctor says and I look at him, "I'll take them."

We follow the man down the hall, I know that Kuu is talking to him but all I can hear is the sound of my own heartbeat, drumming so heavily in my ears that I'm scared it'll rip my chest. Kuu is still talking about something with the doctor but all that I can see is my baby. He looks like he's sleeping.

After so many years, I am finally able to see my precious Kuon but sadly he won't be able to see me. I look at the bandages that are covering his body and notice that there is blood there. My darling. I just want you better and I feel terrible that I can't help you.

I freeze as it dawns upon me that he did this for some girl that he wasn't even a boyfriend to. He did this to save someone else's life and that makes me cry. He'll never be able to experience their first date, he'll never be able to see her wedding dress or how happy she is when she sees him waiting at the end of the aisle promising to be hers, he won't see any children that he might have fathered. He won't even be able to pick out the ring that he wants to propose with.

He'll miss so much and I can't stop the tears from streaming down my cheeks.

Kuu looks to me and puts a hand on my shoulder, "It's okay. He's alive, it's okay, Julie."

I sob harder. I don't even know how to voice my pain but all I can focus on is what might be underneath those bandages, "but look at him, the bandages. They don't put bandages on someone for nothing, Kuu. I….can't….what happened to our son?"

I don't know how to comfort him. I wanted to be there for him in the past so I could watch him grow up but if he ever has kids then he won't know what they look like, he'll miss all of those firsts. The first smile. The first steps. He won't be able to see any of that. My pain is stabbing me in the chest and then I hear something.

"Your son is awake."

End of Chapter Two

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