Entry 01: 8 years without her
It has been eight years without her physical presence in Eriol's life that he is grateful yet not totally content with. He tried every good means to remain happy and finally he figured out 'it has to be' her to soothe him and make him keep feeling happy about being alive. He did a terrible mistake in love by being allured by the charms of an elder teacher. He was a kid back then still now his two friends teased him about that. He is afraid though; what if Tomoyo thinks him as a pervert for liking married elder women.
'Daidouji' He reminded himself since even though they were strangely close in many thoughts they still never spoke with first name basis.
They used to email each other to stay up to date with each other. But that ended 4 years ago. It happened suddenly, Tomoyo stopped writing back.
Looking back and re-reading the old emails he really saw how he described that teacher in one of his email; he wasn't actually over thinking; being a pervert in her eyes.
The emerald green diary in Eriol's hand has the key to Tomoyo's sufferings. His gentleman teachings did not let him open it after the emailing stopped from her end. Two years after that, Sakura personally visited him and gave him the diary. Now, he wished that if only he opened it and read and understood every part of her sorrows earlier.