Hello my darlings!

In this chapter Gajeel will be fighting with his inner conscience, I like to believe he has a demonic side and an angel side almost like the angel and demon that sit on a characters shoulders! Of course when that happens in tv it's more comedic. Mine will be a lot darker! The good side will be in italics while the bad side will be in bold!

Now another thing, I'm gonna be honest with you guys, I have not written in such a long time and I want to do way better than this! I have come to the realization that I tend to rush things! Now I don't know why I did what I did but I did not plan to have gajeel confess so soon. I got so caught up in the whirlwind of the Gajevy romance that I rushed their encounter!

So I've always known the direction that I was gonna go with this story but realize that I did not take my time! So! I want to let you guys know that there will be better stories, ones that are in great detail and all that fun stuff! I want to explain that this is kind of a practice fanfic for me! I would love to finish this one, so I will, but from here on out it will be way better than it has been! I hope you guys are enjoying this I love to be reviewed, you guys have been so unbelievably sweet to me and it's the best.

Soooo anyways aside from my life events I hope you enjoy this better and much longer chapter of To Forgive!

Chapter 4

She felt as if she was floating, her mind was racing with so many thoughts she could hardly process his words. It was funny to think about, Levy Mcgarden, one could call her the queen of words, couldn't understand those three simple words. He loved her? He actually loved HER, out of all the girls in the guild he picked her?

He had said it and she had heard it. She felt the rough pad of his thumb resting against her soft, plump, pink lips. She couldn't remember ever being this close to him before, she studied every single piercing, his sharp jaw and high cheekbones, but most importantly she saw just how.. Beautiful his eyes were. They were a dark ruby red and half lidded as they stared at her. He looked on at her as if she was a national treasure.

She felt her body moving on its own, his own face began to follow her lead coming even closer to hers. She was so caught up in the moment she didn't notice the iron scales slowly forming on the man's right forearm, his right hand was resting on the small of her back, the iron scales were hidden from his view.

Gajeel felt it, the slight tingling sensation ran through his entire body down to the tips of his toes and fingers. His heart was beating hard and fast as he pulled to beautiful bluenette closer to him.

"Gajeel,"

Gajeel heard his name but decided to ignore it.

"Stop," The world seemed to stop at this point, Levy's eyes were closed as she leaned towards him. He felt her lips against his, and it was amazing. It was gentle and slow gajeels right hand ran up her side to cup her face, he wanted more of her, he wanted to savor every second of this moment.

"Gajeel look at yourself"

"Shut up" Gajeel thought to himself, as he deepened the kiss between him and the script mage. He pushed his tongue into her mouth which made her let out a soft moan, her hands fisting into his shirt. God she was so damn sexy, her moan only made him want her even more. He felt something stir in hs lower stomach as the two became more desperate for the others touch.

"Somethings wrong"

He opened his eyes slightly noticing the real problem, his hands had become claws his arms turning to iron, and it continued to travel up his elbows to his biceps. What was he doing!? He instantly felt a panic rise in his chest.

"STOP!" Gajeel yelled as pushed away from the girl quickly. Levy jumped at his sudden outburst bringing her out of her cloud 9 state.

"What's wrong!" Levy reached out for him noticing the horrified look on his face and the claws on his hands. The rain had finally come to a stop and all that could be heard was the breathing of the two wizards.

Gajeel held onto his clawed hands shutting his eyes tightly.

"I told you to stop, you can't control that just yet." Gajeel fought against his conscience. He wanted Levy, hell he loved Levy. But everytime he got near her all he wanted to do was take her right then and there and he refused to destroy the innocence of the moment.

His dragon side was taking over, Metalicana had told him long ago that this would happen when he wanted to mate. Gajeel had never expected it to be this way. He didn't understand. He had never felt this way before and it retyped him to the bone.

"I can't do this im sorry."

Gajeels clawed hands finally began to disappear. He had to get away from here.

"You know you want her Gajeel." Gajeels eyes widened in horror, what was that.

"What? but you just said-" He cut her off.

"I know! I know what I said.. Shorty, I can't do this, I can't be with you right now ok"

Levy didn't understand, they had just kissed and he had confessed his feelings, and what was wrong with his hands.

"Did I do something wrong?"

"No.. You could never do anything wrong."

"Then why don't you want me?" Levy was worried, he didn't look right deep down she knew something was wrong.

"It's not that I don't want ya I..I just can't have ya. I cant- I don't want to hurt ya. I don't know what I would do if I hurt you again."

His body began to shake, he'd never get away from this mess he didn't want to hurt her she was special, but he knew that he was pushing away his one chance at happiness.

"Gajeel, we just talked about this, you won't hurt me."

"But what if I did? I don't know what's going on with me and I can't put ya in harm's way."

"B-but Gajeel I Could help you, I love you"

"No, you don't understand..I just.. I need time."

Gajeel turned away from the shorter mage fleeing down the cobblestone path. Levy's always ms reached for the man she had just kissed.

"Gajeel wait!" But he was gone.

"What happened to me.." Gajeel laid his forehead against the shower wall remembering the days events. He watched the water move past his toes and swirl down the drain, his skin was red from the steaming hot water but he didn't mind the pain.

He looked closely at his right hand which was now back to normal, he saw the human flesh that covered his bones and the calluses that adorned his palms and his fingernails were trimmed short. If anyone had seen these hands they would have had no clue that they were the hands of a monster just hours before.

Gajeel thought about her, Levy, the object of his affections. He had kissed her, he had told her he loved her, in that moment he felt something stir inside him, something that he had never felt before. Gajeel could only confuse this new feeling as lust, when it was so much more than that.

Gajeel had felt lust before he knew the feeling all to well, In his Phantom Lord days it was almost too easy to find a girl and have a casual fuck session. During that time women always seemed eager to sleep with him and he with them. Since joining Fairy Tail Gajeel had hardly thought about women or even sex for that matter, that was until he saw levy in the pond that one day. Since then the girl was constantly on his mind, this was a whole new feeling for him. Levy wasn't like the other women he targeted, while the other women were busty, promiscuous and straight forward, Levy was sweet, beautiful and shy. When he had first joined the guild he had noticed her beauty but never truly cared, however, as time went on Levy became more and more lovely.

"Gajeel" there it was, it was the voice again, he recognized it as his but it was much darker.

"Lovely, more like delicious."

Gajeel shook his head, he felt as if he was going insane. His mind went back to later that day remembering exactly just how "delicious" she looked, her shoulders and cheeks were flushed a bright pink, her hair stuck to her face and her neck, the rain had done wonders for her. The white dress she wore did not help his wandering mind. I had become see through and clung to every single curve she had. He was also shocked at the fact that he could see her nipples straight through the thin fabric. The thought made his head spin, the things he wanted to do to that woman.

"No Gajeel, it's not that simple, you have to find out what is going on with your magic first, something is wrong and you can't put Levy in harm's way." He just couldn't let her get hurt again.

"You can't hold back forever...who knows..what if she wants you to touch her, what if she wants you to make her feel good? Hmmm?"

"Shut up," Gajeels entire body shook in frustration.

"Don't ignore your instincts Gajee, Mating is in your nature, that's just how it is."

Gajeel knew it was best to ignore his dragon instincts, however it was still a struggle. He made a promise to protect levy and he would do just that.

"You're a good man Gajeel." Levy's voice ran through his head, the sweet sound almost like the most beautiful music he'd ever heard. Levy knew him, she trusted him and he didn't want to ruin that. Maybe it was best if...he stayed away.