WARNING: Rated M for Explicit Graphic Depictions of Violence, Graphic Depiction of Rape/Non-Consensual Sex, Graphic Sex, Graphic Physical and Mental Abuse, and Mental Instability. Please read at your own discretion.

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Chapter 5

"I.. I can't completely control the shadows within her.. Even though I am almost positive they are mine.." The shadow mage mumbled barely above a whisper as he removed his perplexed stare of horror from his hand.

It had taken a lot of control and willpower just to force a small amount of shadows from her body, something Rogue was not used to. He pressed his back firmly against the wall, letting it hold up his weight while he watched Rufus once again clean and stitch Lucy's mangled abdomen.

Rogue's head was spinning as his mind tried to formulate any possible way that he could imagine that would make his magic cling to the fairy and defy him. He had never had his shadows blatantly disobey him before so the thought of being out of control of his own element left a bitter taste in his mouth.

He was almost always in control of his magic. However, the shadows that lay dormant in the fairy's body were flat out refusing to obey him.

Even though he was upset and distraught, the ebony haired mage was relieved that he was able to pull out at least a small trace of foreign magic from her body, but it still pissed him off that he didn't know exactly how it had infiltrated the fairy's fragile form in the first place.

Though Rogue whispered to himself, Sting's enhanced hearing managed to catch his partner's stunned words as they flowed from his distraught lips. The saber's guild master turned from watching Rufus work to gawk at Rogue, his eyes honing in on his partner's troubled face. The blonde-haired slayer couldn't help but wonder what he even meant, how could the shadows be his, but not be able to control them? Is it even possible for magic to rebel from its wielder? Was that even possible?

Of course, Sting had sensed the dark presence that was radiating off Blondie right before she started to completely flip shit, but he was so vigilantly caught up in keeping her still that he didn't even notice that it was, in fact, Rogue's shadow magic that was surrounding her. Though, the magic was obviously much darker than his partner's usual shadows.

The blonde male sighed as he walked over to the very upset shadow dragon slayer.

"You mean to tell me somehow this fairy has your magic in her, but you don't know how it got there, or how to get it out? Your shadow magic can kill her if they stay in her for too long, Rogue. This is some serious shit, man. We can't just let her suffer like that." Sting spoke in an unusually calm tone as he looked back to the already suffering blonde. It was just cruel that on top of her being used and beaten, she was also being plagued by Rogue's shadow magic.

"Do you think Lucy would be better if Rogue stayed away from her?" The silver haired mage stepped around the bed to face both dragon slayers while she fiddled with her skirt. Maybe if Rogue was out of Lucy's general vicinity, she wouldn't be affected by his magic?

"It's not that simple. These shadows were lying dormant in her body before I even found her." Rogue pushed his hand into his ebony hair while he leaned his head back to rest against the wall. He was starting to get a migraine from trying to process and put all the pieces of information together.

He had realized while running to the infirmary that the pull he felt toward the blonde fairy was his own shadow magic that had been lying dormant her body. Now that the haze had been lifted, Rogue could feel his foreign magic running through her. He knew it had to be slowly driving her to insanity every time she slept; it's a wonder how she was even able to still sleep right now after an attack like that.

"I have no memory of anything every happening of this sort before. You have never really been in contact with this woman except a handful of times. Do you have any idea why your magic would be residing in her?" Rufus had finished patching Lucy back up and turned to face the other occupants of the room while they tried to make sense of the situation. The shadow slayer just shook his head lightly to let Rufus know that he didn't have an answer yet, he was just as jumbled up as the rest of them.

Yukino twisted her hands through her skirt as she let her memories from the Eclipse Gate disaster filtered back into the front of her mind. When she and Lucy had worked together to summon the entirety of the Zodiac spirits out to try and bring down the gate, Lucy did mention beforehand that they did have an altercation with Rogue from the future. Maybe their Rogue didn't do anything to Lucy, but that Rogue from the future did something to her?

The Sabertooth's celestial mage couldn't help but feel pity for the blonde, she must have had such a terrible time trying to come to terms with having to see herself pass away. Then on top of that to be used, beaten and now tortured by the same magic that killed her, as well? It was almost too much for Yukino to bare, let alone even imagine the emotional roller coaster Lucy will be on once she wakes.

The silverette clinched her skirt tighter, letting the clothing slip through her fingers while the overwhelming desire to be there for Lucy and help her through the inevitable rough times in her rapid approaching future rushed over her.

A bright golden glow radiated through the small infirmary room when a celestial gate appeared and opened on its own. In the blinding light of the gate, a spirit could be seen making its way from the celestial realm, his fiery orange mane glowed as the gate started to dissipate as soon as his feet hit the infirmary floor. He brushed off his well-tailored suit then pushed up his glasses as he took in the small infirmary room full of alerted eyes until his gaze landed on the shadow dragon slayer.

"Leo!" Yukino tried to reach out for his arm but was too late as his lithe form moved across the small expanse of the room at an incredible speed. Loke's arm glowed before his fist connected with the stunned slayer's face, the force of the blow causing Rogue's head to collide with the wall. The stone groaned against the impact as the ebony haired slayer removed his head from the crumpled and dented wall.

"What the hell was that for you damn spirit?" Rogue growled low in his chest whilst he got ready to call his shadows forward in retaliation, but paused for a brief moment when Loke straightened himself up and looked him straight in the eye.

"I should have thanked you first for saving my princess, but seeing your face made me act without thought, and for that I am sorry." The lion spirit ignored the warning growls as he turned from the irate shadow dragon slayer to make his way to the sleeping fairy on the infirmary bed. Loke kneeled on the floor and rested his hand on her open palm.

Rogue clinched his fist together while he tried to keep his emotions in check, but was finding that hard to do when he had just been sucker-punched in the face, then apologized to. Sting, Rufus, Orga, and Yukino all looked from the dismissive spirit to the fuming slayer and couldn't help but burst into laughter, the tension seemed to melt away when the shadow mage began to bottle his emotions back up. It was always hilarious to see the emotion on Rogue's otherwise stoic face. The three stopped laughing when Loke started to speak up again.

"I just couldn't control myself. I know you aren't him and you're the one who saved my princess, but I still hate that you are essentially the reason she has been suffering from emotional trauma." Loke remained kneeling by the unconscious celestial mage while he addressed Rogue's earlier question. The spirit rubbed his hand along the side of Lucy's face as he recalled how careless he had been yesterday.

He should have never taken his eyes off the bandits, maybe if he had been paying attention none of this would have had to happen, maybe Lucy would have made it safe back to Magnolia. Maybe she wouldn't have been in this bed, hurt and broken.

At first, Loke had been debating on popping into Fairy Tail to let them know what had happened to Lucy and to also let them know of her whereabouts before they sent out search parties looking for her. However, he had felt her sudden distress and decided to forgo his earlier plan to instead pop into the Saber's guild to check on her for himself, first.

He let his arm drop from her face to fall back to his side, how could he let this happen to his loving key holder? After everything she did to get him back into the celestial spirit realm, he still wasn't able to protect her like he wanted to.

"I have no idea what you are talking about." Rogue glared at the back of the lion spirits head as he tried to control his still raging temper. How was he responsible for this fairy's emotional trauma? If anything, the person who did this to her was more at fault then him, hell if he hadn't had been in the right place at the right time, she would be dead at this very moment.

So where does this spirit come off saying he is her problem? Sure, she had his magic in her body, but he was not responsible for that what so ever. Even though he wanted to get it out of her, he didn't know how it got there.

Is that what he was referring to? Did he know something about his magic in her body that they didn't? Rogue was about to voice his question out loud but shut his mouth when the lion continued to speak.

"Listen, Lucy has been having a hard time since she watched herself be killed by future Rogue. She has been having horrible nightmares ever since that day, and they only seem to be getting worse. I usually come out on my own magic to calm her down, but it seems you had it under control. What exactly was that that you removed from her?" The lion spirit turned to face the dragon slayer. Loke watched as the realization hit Rogue in the face and couldn't help but wonder just exactly what was going on in his head at the moment.

Rogue was taken aback as the missing pieces fell into place. Sure, he himself had never done anything to the blonde fairy, but his future self had tried to kill her, actually he had basically succeeded except the Lucy he killed was the one from the future as well.

The shadows he felt in her body were his, but they also weren't, taking into consideration Rogue was nothing like his future self. The dragon slayer from the future had been cruel and malice in his actions, making the shadows in the fairy darker, something Rogue wasn't used to controlling.

"So, the shadows in Blondie are most likely what is causing her to have nightmares, right Rogue?" Sting yawned from across the room, causing Loke's head to jerk when his gaze shifted from Rogue to Sting. The magic he pulled from Lucy was Rogue's shadows?

So, this whole time, Lucy had actually had Rogue's magic in her… But that didn't exactly make sense. Wouldn't someone be able to tell that she was radiating a new type of magic from her body? Loke groaned as he rubbed his temples above his glasses, why did everything have to be so damn complicated all the time?

'So you mean to tell me that future Rogue has forced his magic into her somehow, and that's why she is having nightmares? Well, that's great. Then you can just remove it from her, right?" Loke asked as his green eyes scanned the room, taking in the awkward glances from the occupants before looking into Rogue's defiant scarlet eyes. Tension started to build when the silence grew, and his question drifted off without an answer. The leader of the zodiac moved from his position next to the bed and stalked his way back over to the shadow dragon slayer, only stopping when he was standing a foot away from Rogue.

"Let me ask again, because obviously, no one heard me. You can remove it, right?" The lion spirit crossed his arms while he watched the dragon slayer's eye narrow as a tick appeared on his temple. The other four occupants slowly back away from the two when the threatening magic power in the room started to rise and swirl around inside the small vicinity causing them to sweat-drop as Loke's arm started to glow while Rogue's shadows surrounded them.

"No. I can't, they are my shadows, but they are not in my control." Rogue said as he brought his shadowed covered arms up ready to defend if need be, his black hair fluttered around his face as magical power steadily started to rise causing the other four mage's hair to stand on end.

However, the magic halted then dissipated completely when a small whimper sounded from the other side of the room, almost drowned out by the earlier tension. Loke let his arm return to normal while he turned to face the direction the small whimper had come from.

A grin had started to form on his lips as he was about to start spouting affectionate nonsense, but stopped when his face fell completely while shock overtook him as he took in Lucy's form, she looked like she was about to shrink in on herself as she tried her best to cower away, her eyes were locked on to the man Loke had been facing just a second ago.

Rogue let his magic die down slowly when the sound of soft whimpering met his ears. His eyes moved from the once hostile lion as he turned to the now trembling blonde propped up on the infirmary bed. Rogue listened to her heart slam forcefully against her ribcage for the second time that day. Her eyes, wide and overflowing with tears stared straight at him while she tried to clumsily scoot to the furthest side of the bed away from him.

Yukino quickly moved to the other side of the bed to keep the blonde from hurting herself as she struggled to move. Lucy's face was contorted into a mix of pain and terror as her eyes locked onto the shadow dragon slayer's crimson orbs.

The shadow mage felt his heart sink when he looked into her teary brown gaze and took notice of how the light was void from her eyes. No, she wasn't terrified from the magic pressure he and her spirit had been displaying, her look of complete terror was completely focused on him and him alone- and that made Rogue feel a jolt in his own chest when he watched her struggle to move further away from him.

"Lucy…" Loke stretched his hand out to her while he moved forward to sit on the side of the bed, Lucy flinched back when his hand neared her uninjured arm. The spirit hesitated, then slowly moved his hand away from her, rejection shot across his face.

"Please… I just... I don't want to be touched, not right now." The blonde fairy whispered not taking her eyes away from Rogue, Loke nodded noticing her scrutiny of the shadow dragon slayer, then moved in front of her to where the ebony haired mage was out of her line of sight and her gaze was forced on him instead. She immediately dropped her gaze to the bed as her shoulders shook uncontrollably.

"Lucy, please look at me." Loke begged as while watched her shoulders shake when she tried to hold back tears. Yukino silently gestured for all the men to leave the room, in hopes of giving the blonde a little bit of privacy. Maybe if all these men were gone, she would open up a little.

Orga, Rufus, and Sting nodded and made their way to the exit, Sting gave Yukino one last pointed look before making his exit.

The shadow mage, however, remained rooted in place while he watched the blonde fairy twist her fingers into the bed sheets as she tried to keep her heart-wrenching sobs to a minimum. He didn't really know how to comfort someone besides Frosch and it was frustrating him that he felt a need to go comfort the shaken celestial mage.

Just as he was about to walk forward, Yukino walked around the side of the bed and stood in front of him, blocking both his path and view to the blonde.

"Rogue, you need to leave. Please, she is scared of you." The saber female whispered to him, he looked over her shoulder once more at the fairy, the same small frail body that housed his dormant dark shadows, well dormant for the moment anyway.

His brows pulled together while a frown marred his face, dare he say that he was actually worried about the little fairy? He knew firsthand how damaging his shadows could be to people, and it worried him that not only where these shadows attacking her, but they were living in her.

"I will be back if I feel the shadows make an appearance again. Please try to figure out what happened last night." Rogue turned on his heels and made his way to the infirmary door. He took one last glance before slipping through the door frame, shutting the door behind him.

"Thank you." Lucy looked up from the sheets as she held in another small sob. She had wanted him to leave, to just to go away as soon as her eyes met his.

When Lucy had woken up, she had felt the all too familiar magical power from the shadow mage, however, there was a small difference this time, instead of them being in her dreams, they were right there in front of her, in reality.

The blonde had been completely petrified when she tried to sit up and turn only to be met with those piercing red eyes, her body had frozen while every sense in her being screamed for her to run, to get away from him, that he was very very dangerous, and he would hurt her.

Lucy had struggled until she felt a searing pain in her side and up her shoulder. The pain was an immediate reminder of the pathway where she had collapsed. Suddenly memories flowed through her conscious mind, replaying everything that had happened up until she collapsed. She clenched the side of her head with her good arm as the memories and his gaze became too much for her to handle.

She was about to scream out in frustration and insanity when she could feel someone trying to get close to her. Lucy felt horrible when she flinched away from Loke's outstretched hand, but she just couldn't, and didn't want to be touched. She was on the verge of snapping completely until Yukino had made everyone leave except her and Loke.

Lucy noticed as he lingered longer than the rest, almost intent on staying. She was extremely grateful when Yukino blocked his path and gaze from her making him leave the room as the others had. Lucy was brought back to reality when she felt a dip in the bed to her lower left side. She felt Yukino take her uninjured hand in her own and stroked her skin soothingly.

"Lucy, can you tell me what happened last night? Rogue found you on an abandoned pathway about fifteen minutes from a group of bandits. The same bandits that he went on an S-class mission to bring into custody." The blonde's head swung up, startling the silver haired woman at just how fast she sprung up. Lucy felt her head start to swim with all the new information.

Were the bandits really in custody?

HE found her?

Had she technically completed an S-class mission?

How much did she miss while she was unconscious?

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