Chapter 14
Walking back out into the main room, we walk to the bar and I am standing between his legs. He is nuzzling against my neck and placing soft kisses. I hear someone clear their throat and see one of the croweaters standing there. "Are you done yet? The rest of us want a shot at him." she asks. I laugh and say "No honey. He's off limits." I tell her before turning back to Koz. He kisses me one more time and the girl is still standing there. We both look at her and finally Koz says "She's not a sweetbutt. She's my Old Lady. My wife." he tells the girl and she rolls her eyes. "That's never stopped these guys before." she says and smirks. "I'm not them." he says and turns back to me. "We'll see." she says before walking off. I pull away from Koz and look at her as she walks away. "Hey." he says as he turns my face to look at him. "No. You have nothing to worry about." he tells me. I just nod and snuggle back into him.
A little later, I am sitting at the bar still, looking into a cup of coffee. Koz comes over and stands next to me. "Come on." he tells me and I look up at him. "Meeting." he tells me and I nod. We head out to his bike and head to one of the meetings that Gemma got us the information for. Walking in, we sit in the back and he laces his fingers with mine. "Anyone else want to share?" the moderator asks. "I will." I say.
I walk up to the podium and say "I'm Shayne and I'm an addict." They all say hello and I start. "I just moved here a week ago with my husband and I met a new part of his family. That's a good thing and they are supportive but there are some people that hang around the family that have been around longer than I have and the more I look at them, the more insecure I feel and the more insecure I feel, the more I want to use. I haven't but it's hard to fight it when I keep hearing all the same things running through my head telling me that if I use, maybe it would kill me and everyone would be happy. I know that's not true because I know how much my husband loves me and wants me but it's still running through my head and it won't stop. That makes me want to use even more. I won't though. Because every time it crosses my mind, my husband is there to remind me that I have everything I want and need. Thank you." I tell them and step down. I walk back over to Herm and took my seat next to him.
After the meeting, we head to the diner for coffee like we used to do in Tacoma. "I didn't know you were feeling that way." he tells me. "I know. I was trying to sort it out for myself." I tell him. "You know I won't cheat right?" he asks. I smile softly at him and say "I know. That's one thing that's never even entered my mind. I know they are going to try to though." I tell him. "And we will handle it." he tells me and I just nod. "I love you." he tells me. I look back at him and say "I love you too." We finish our coffee and head back to the clubhouse.
Walking into the clubhouse, we walk up to the bar and I order water while Herm orders a beer. Gemma walks up and asks "You okay baby?" I nod and say "Yeah. Needed a meeting." I tell her and she looks at me concerned. "Just dealing with my own demons." I tell her and she nods. She pats my shoulder and walks over to Clay. Herm pulls me closer and while we are standing there, the same croweater from earlier walks over and asks "Wanna have some fun Koz?" He looks at her and says "Not with you." and he goes back to kissing me. "But Koz…" she starts and I look at her and say "He's mine. He's never going to touch you so fuck off." I tell her and she looks at me shocked. Koz smirks and stands before pulling me to the dorm and says "Let's have some fun baby." and I start laughing as he pulls me to the dorm to bury himself inside me.