Author note: Did you know writing can be a full-time job at a time. Sometimes you have to be on your guard writing as much as humanly possible to get what you want clearly to show to everyone. Like I said the story is written in advance I have everything, but the end planned out.
For once I felt optimism and enthusiasm. I didn't feel upset or sad for once. I didn't feel the burden of the family legacy. That feeling of constantly and persistently feeling like trash and unworthy. The solid stone weight that I carry on me, weights I can feel on my soul were gone. I combed my synthetic hair looking into the mirror. To the metallic face in front of me. When Happstablook that's right Mettaton. He told me that he wanted me to call him that. After so many centuries of him being Mettaton, but I can't wrap my mind around it. He will always be Happstablook to me no matter the form he chooses to be, but I still love my cousin. When Mettaton asked me if I wanted a body like his I laughed thinking my cousin was getting my hopes up. His body was custom made and took a lot of work. I didn't really believe I would get similar treatment.
Looking at my face in the mirror noticing how good looking the body Alphys created for me. I was tall, the same height as Asriel in this robotic body. I never really noticed or taking the body as it was without really evaluating it. Or dress it up or really showing off. Ever since I got it I used it more for performances and when I am feeling too low to leave the house. Something about the suit gives me a boost something Mettaton mention is specifically for a ghost. I never bought outfits for this body or really thought about showing it off. I never really saw it as my own or really my idea so maybe I need to change that up.
Mettaton wanted me to have a robot body of my own too, so I could make more music. And that may be a body would be easier to make friends and navigate the world. Me making music with an ethereal body made things difficult to manage. Though if I have had the robotic body, I never felt a burst of hope like this. Never felt this of kind glee to do what I love with such zeal in a long while maybe it's meeting Frisk and making music with her. Maybe that's why I felt the change in the way I feel about everything especially myself. I've laid down some of the sickest beats I've ever played at The Drain Pipe. Or maybe it's that she gave me zest in a way I haven't had in a very long time. While I got this robotic body and it helped. Mettaton was right being more solid and less exposed soul helps. And luckily, I don't get stuck in my suit and I can be a ghost when I felt the urge. sometimes I just want to eat my ghost sandwiches or just be alone for a while.
When I do see Frisk next? I'm going to tell her how thankful I am to her for being supportive and helping me work through my feelings. She made it clear she wouldn't allow me to be self-deprecating or self-hating in her presence. Something no one, but one other had ever done. She reminded me of Papyrus when we hang out , and the time we first met.
"Thank you for having me over Undyne. I know you are busy being the captain of the royal guard. thanks for having me over and thank you for the tea it's making me feel better."
As ever my voice had a drone to it as most ghost in my family have. The lack of emotional response not affecting Undyne who was used to Napstablook particular mannerism didn't give it a glance assuming that's just how ghost monsters are.
"Not a problem blooky usually. I wouldn't let just anyone over, but I heard you were having a rough day and you were selling off your family business. I figured you needed to talk to someone.
"That's nice of you Undyne but you didn't have to honestly invite me over I would have gotten over it soon enough."
"Regardless the last time I saw you was during the grocery shopping and we are friends, right?"
"Oh of course Undyne."
Knock knock
"UNDYNE ARE YOU HOME? YOU PROMISED WE WOULD SPAR AROUND THIS TIME."
Oh, Papyrus comes on in taking a note of the prince of the underground. Papyrus was dressed up in his casual clothes that looked like something out of a marching band or an old fashion army uniform.
"OH, HELLO! PLEASURE TO MAKE YOUR ACQUINTANCE!"
"Have you two met before?"
"No, I've met his brother, not the prince."
"JUST PAPYRUS KIND SIR AND YOU ARE?"
"Napstablook. Ummm Papyrus. Sorry, it's hard to not call you by your title."
"IT WILL BE ALRIGHT IT TAKES PRACTICE. I'M SORRY TO INTERRUPT YOUR HANGOUT UNDYNE! IF YOU WOULD LIKE FOR ME TO LEAVE I WILL DO SO."
"What! No, you big lug?! No, take a seat you might be able to help."
From there we talked so long and kept his optimism infectious something I up to this point never realized that I needed. And he would take time out of his busy schedule to talk to with me and hang out with me. He became one of the best friends I ever made. That's when I noticed my attraction for him had changed and intensified but I also realized that its impossible for me to be with him if I'm not solid. Without a body, I can't hug him or kiss him or even shake his hand it all phases through me. Mettaton clinched it when he said if I was seriously interested in dating the prince and that I should at least considered going to Alphys to get a robotic body. That I could get it customized to the body I chose for myself.
And I did Mettaton didn't try to flirt with the prince he knew how I felt and respected it, but I had the hardest time expressing my opinion to myself. Personally I was too shy to tell him how I felt even though ten of the songs I've written for him have been playing at The Drain Pipe when I'm doing they pop up and I get questions and I get guess at who they are about and the part that hurts Papyrus is never their maybe he's figure it out and my feelings but even if he didn't there's no doubt he wouldn't be interested in me , I work so hard to make the underground move forward and enjoy their music. But Frisk said that it's obvious his feelings is mutual that to her Papyrus is probably just as shy about the whole thing. But Papyrus in the core is so bombastic and bright and his smile.
He's the one of the main reason monsters are happy and unafraid. Even with all the darkness that hangs the monster children that have disappeared. Not when you got the prince saving others and making sure the populace knows that everything is going to be okay. He's the bright light that the underground admires the only person that's a bigger beacon is Undyne who was just vicious in protecting us. One of the best combat medics and even better fight she's saved me from falling down more than a few times Misty Mire suffered through too many attacks and it's problematic but its why I'm glad she is around. But even she teases me about my feelings about Papyrus I know Alphys gave me a smirking looks about me getting a robotic body.
But after everything we've shared and done? I just feel like its to hard to ignore and to try to pretend like I don't feel this way about him. Like acting like you want Jerry around instead of ditching him like everyone does it's impossible to pretend and keep up the charade. And considering what he does and continues to do for me. I'm surprised I didn't fall for him when we first met. Monsters like him are hard not to love. Especially when he would take me jogging in my new robotic body, so I can get used to my new legs and arms.
Believe me, I tried my hardest to act like nothing had changed my feelings for him.
But Frisk is my wake-up call. She didn't have to help or advise me. She has never been out of her home before but that made it even clearer to me. She had more wisdom and the clarity of not growing up with the rest of us. To know that you need to at least try and take a chance. If I couldn't tell him now? I might lose him to someone bolder then I am.
If you can perform your DJ set without fear? Able to pump up the crowd and make them love to hear you play your set. How hard is it to tell your long-time friend your affections have grown from friendly to romantic? Just use the charisma and enthusiasm you have for music. Maybe dedicate a song to him when you see him at The Drain Pipe is a better way to show someone you truly care about dedicating something to them that your passionate about that you whole heartily put your soul into every time you hear it.
Honestly her advice I knew I was going to take to my soul and implement it. I took her advice about Safety Dance and Thriller. They became a hit with a lot of requests for both on top of the regular songs in my set. And the new songs I recorded with Frisk that i'm considering using for something else. Mettaton was considering a new movie and need a someone to make a soundtrack for him. Some of the songs I created with Frisk might fit the movie if not they can be used for another movie.
We spent so much time together over the centuries. We would cook together making some strange creations that we would later sample to our delight. We had the tendency to make everything with some fancy title sometimes as a laugh. Sometimes we sit together with a pot of tea and watch tv or listen to some songs from Mettaton and from above ground artist I had taken a liking to, but I knew would not really appropriate for The Drain Pipe's scene. While Itsy or Ike like he had taken to be being called, liked rock music and alternative, Muffet the secondary owner and his big sister was about giving the public what they want to hear. I knew that most of the people at the club show up to dance wildly not sway or slow dance like some of the song I have on a playlist I made personally. But they're more than that I've done thing Papyrus himself loves like running as both a ghost and in my metal body which was a lot harder and I had a bit of a time keeping up, but I did just to impress him and I did. We took a selfie that day the picture hangs in my renovated house in the living room. As tired as I was and weakened as I felt? My smile was bright a slight blush that I had on my face as Papyrus wrapped his humerus, ulna, and radius around my metallic shoulder. So close to me just a hair breath away if I turn my face? We would be kissing. The thought ran through my mind. Would he want to smooch a ghost, but I tried to stay composed and rid myself of the blush at the closeness of the moment. But in the picture, you can see the barest hint of blush in it. I know exactly the song I want to play at the club that I want to dedicate to Papyrus, but I know that if I try to play it when we're alone. Though I know I will chicken out while it might be easier every time I plan to tell him I've chickened out I just lose my nerve I over think it and get nervous and talk myself out of it.
But with Frisk's encouragement, I feel like I am worthy. Maybe just maybe. Other than with Papyrus I've never had a friendship just come about that naturally. Usually, any friendships I make take quite a while to get that level of easy I achieved so easy with them. Even with Undyne who was my neighbor for a few centuries. We were formally introduced and became friends only five decades ago. With meeting Sans, we met only because Alphys wanted to show off her innovation and the suits benefit to ghost welfare, in particular. Since they are both the most populous of the monster population, but they are they least accommodated. Before on the surface as my parents would always reminisce about it what it was like before the war they freedom of choice. Between Sans and I, we would talk only enough the chats were civil and he would tell me about his trombone playing, he even played it for me once when he had free time. He's been a great king considering everything that has happened with the those being kidnapped and the way the wizards defense seems to come about so random and used to be so devasting.
I was still young I barely remember what the sun feels like anymore much left the world above. My parents would regale all the ghost kids on what is what like for us and the freedom of choice. That they would take bodies as long as it was something they had an eye on. A scarecrow they thought looked nice, a tree, but very often a dead human body. Which is weird and caused a lot of problems. Since the moment you merged the soul with a dead human body you become a zombie. While you didn't feed on brains? Your diet changes to everything you eat to the extremes. If you eat something sweet its super sweet like that. Plus, apparently, the humans didn't like us taking their bodies in such a way it was one of the triggers for war. I never fit in with the other ghost, I was never interested in having a body. It's difficult to explain but I never assumed I would get one like this. That made feel like I fit in more than stand out. While still allowing me to not to be constantly be merged. Some ghost wants to be merged constantly like Mettaton on who didn't let anyone know that he was a ghost. Not out of shame but that's not what he is anymore, and he doesn't want to look back. There are ghost like me who have merged with their body but like to leave it. A corporeal body have the issue of not having all the things that make a ghost, a ghost you know? Flight, invisibility and passing through walls, all gone when you decide on a corporal body. And it hard to lose those things when it's all you ever known.
But Frisk is right about something, I need to push forward and be ready to take a chance before someone else does. For Lucinda sake, he has a fan club filled with adoring fans who are everything I'm not willing to go above and beyond to get his attention and they were a lot more outgoing and bolder then I could ever be. I can see them in my minds just demanding his attention the more prominent member just simpering and batting their lashes at him. Trying to get his attention and his time. I personally heard of few trying to be his apprentice hoping they would his earn affections through close interaction and those are the times I worry the most. I know I need to get a move on there is a sizable portion of his fan club of varied gendered.
But I hope I'm enough that what I feel is enough to sway him that he reciprocates my feelings. But still my nerves about doing this? It's something that keeps me awake at night it's something that fuels my nightmares.
In my nightmares, I have imagined the worse. The fear, everything my heritage has taught me to feel, the anxiety is at its peak and I can see it and like the disaster I can't look away. In my nightmare, it's so clear that in sends shiver in my soul. And it will haunt my day whenever I think about it. It's the same dream every time because it starts out so perfect I can't help but love how it begins. I meet up with Papyrus in the capital at the castle. he has Toby with him his smile was brilliant and made me my soul flutter. As much as he complains about the dog being a pest he admitted to letting the dog sleep in his bed and taking him out on walk on days off. Were just chatting and talking about plans of things we wanted to do together. Then we get ambushed to his fan club. Who as they always do when they see Papyrus acting hysterical and besides myself and I'm left in the dust while they take him and Toby and all I can do is watch. My soul is cracking but I can't stop watching and its breaking my soul. They are just able to capture his attention and I'm insignificant, a nobody the fan club is all he sees. They are flirting and with him complimenting him and I could see him just what they say and then I lose him.
But after talking to Frisk? after her friendship and counseling I knew what I had to do the nightmare had stopped coming finally because I knew deep in my soul that even if he didn't feel the same way I had a good friend in Frisk who cared enough and accepted me as is. The question is whether I would find her in her travel she said she would stay with the Dreemurrs until yesterday and right now I'm wondering where she is now. I don't have her number or anything so now I'm upset I didn't ask for a way to communicate with her its hard to find someone to jam with the way I was able to with her. The music she made with me was some of the best. Her recommendations have gotten the club packed even on Thursday after the set on Wednesday. Thursday is usually our slowest day and I have Frisk to thank for the rush her advice was right. Business is booming and the tips I get at the booth are beyond what I thought I would get, and I've gotten asked to DJ more parties the last two day more then in over a year working The Drain Pipe. And the CDs I offer at the stand are selling so much I'm out of stock now. If I see Frisk I know I owe her so much. Especially since she the reason I feel the strength to tell Papyrus how I feel.
Final note: Hmm I was wondering how this chapter would be received? Since I was hinting of this ship coming to be since its cute to me, either way, the story is coming along rather nicely. I accept comments and criticism! Please leave kudos if you like this story it helps for me to make the stories better and better written. Trust me as long as you can be respectful towards my work I want to hear it all.