All im saying is this chalter has been a long time coming and im so sorry for anyone that came here soley for Jim and Spock smut.

Also i apologise if its not what you expected, but fuck it theyre awkward idiots in love.

"Well fuck me Spock, youre a quick learner-" Jim was cut off by his unifrom shirts being pulled over his head, catching just a glimpse of Spocks face and those blown out pupils before those green tinted lips were at his throat again and his body was forced back against the wall with bruising force."Spock-"

"Jim please-" Spock all but growled against sun kissed skin in protest. He did not understand why Jim was still talking, still resisting to some degree as his captains body pushed back against his own, away from the wall he had him pinned against, his fingers digging into Jims hips greedily.

Grabbing Spock's chin Jim smashed their mouths together in a messy mixture of tongues and teeth as he shoved himself off the wall, turning on his heels to slam Spock into it instead. Unable to hide the chuckle that left him as he saw the blatant look of shock and mild annoyance on the Vulcans face. A shit eating smirk graced his features as his eyes trailed down the man under his control, hands coming up gently, caressing taunt skin just under the blue shirt before he was pulling it over Spock's head. Blue eyes eating up the solid angular lines of Spocks torso and the generous amount of chest hair before Jim even registered his hand running through it, feeling soft dark hair between his fingers. "You really think i was gunna let you have all the fun Spock?"

"You are testing my patience Jim." Spock ground out, a noticeable frown denting his brow as he strained against Jims tight grip holding him still. Jim couldn't get enough of this side of Spock, undoubtedly vulcan but oh so human at the same time, so obviously frustrated at him, because of him. Hell he didn't think he'd ever get enough of it, seeing Spock so open like this Jim couldn't help but sigh as he took in that glorious tight jawed frown on his face, the un hidden hunger in his eyes burning his skin wherever they roamed.

"Testing your patience is my specialty Spock, besides, you're in too much of a hurry." Jim cocked a brow as he leaned in connecting their lips again at a much more leisurely pace than before. Feeling his cock twitch insistently in his trousers as he felt the growl rumble through Spock's chest as he purposely brushed their fingertips against one another fleetingly.

"You are intolerable."

Jim couldn't help but chuckle as he kissed the juncture underneath spock's jaw, the stubble there scratching lightly, leaving him a pleasant sting against his lips. He couldn't believe he was actually here, skin to skin with Spock, his mouth against his neck. He shouldn't be embarrassed about how he felt yet he was, it was more than just attraction, he was pretty sure he was in love with the man and he had no idea if spock even felt the same way. All the shit they'd went through and he still didn't have the balls to say the words out loud. Jim hadn't realised he'd stalled in his ministrations and just pressed his face into the crook of Spock's neck until he felt slender fingers carding through his hair and his name whispered into the golden strands.

"Jim…" Spocks voice was soft, such a rare thing that Jim found himself losing it even more as tears pricked in the corners of his eyes. He had no idea why he was losing his shit like this, now of all the times he chose to get emotional just as they actually had time alone to actually go further and it wasn't like he didn't want to, god did he want to, it was just that. He knew if he went through with this he wouldn't want to stop, he'd want to come back again and again, wake up to Spock's half smiles on a morning, cook for him, play chess with him while stealing vulcan kisses across the table. It was all so real so suddenly and he couldn't breathe, he didn't know if that's what spock wanted, and he was terrified that if he went through with this without telling spock how he felt he'd just leave. Walk out and never look at Jim again like he was right now-

"Jim." Spock brought a hand up to Jim's face cupping his cheek so gently it took everything he had not to break down right there. Spock was being so open just for him and he was still unsure if spock even wanted him in the same way, he shouldn't need to hear him say it but he did.

"Spock i'm sorry, it's not that I don't want to, cuz i do, i-"

"Jim, I will not leave you, in fact if I were to believe in things such as destiny i would say that we were always meant to be at each other's side." Jim looked up stunned at the absolute certainty in Spock's words. "We want the same thing Jim, I can assure you. I regret that I did not tell you as soon as i had realised-"

"Realised what." Jim was looking at Spock with curiosity, despite the unease and anxiety still rolling off him in waves, the feelings of which he had no doubt spock could feel clear as day as they still stood chest to chest, Spock's hand falling to rest at Jims waist squeezing him in gentle reassurance.

"I realised what Nyotas reasoning was, when she said you were a factor in our breakup. I believe i realised the day you died, but i chose to bury the emotions and label them under friendship, the only true friendship I have ever had, for the reason behind me losing control of my emotions. I was wrong."

Jim took in a shaky breath at the implications behind Spock's words.

"You are the only person who has ever made me lose control of my emotions Jim, the only person I am truly comfortable around as a half Vulcan, you do not expect me to be anything but myself, and have always encouraged my curiosity in regards to my human half, helping me understand that it would not be shameful to embrace that side of my biology because it makes me who I am. In other words, Jim, you make me feel... on a level I have not experienced before. I would go as far to say that I believe fate may play a part in all of this, if ambassador Spock's relationship with his James Kirk is anything to go by."

"Ambassador spock and me?- me from another universe?" Jim couldn't help but smile now, letting his head fall against Spock's shoulder he let out a small laugh, pure and unadulterated joy seeping into him as Spock's words sunk in. Spock did care, it had just took him a while to realise how much. Just like it had with him. And he didn't know how Spock had known that ambassador spock and jim kirk from another universe where involved but he knew he was telling the truth, could see it in his eyes.

"Never thought i'd be the one to make you believe in such illogical things such as fate and destiny Spock." Jim let himself melt as brown eyes smiled at him, Spock's mouth tugging upwards so much that dimples appeared and his eyes crinkled at the corners, Jim could have cried at how perfect he was, smiling down at him with such sincerity and- god he's so beautiful.

"When you eliminate the impossible, whatever remains, no matter how improbable, must be the truth. And even if fate has nothing to do with us being together in two different universes, it is the path I choose Jim, to be at your side, always." Spocks voice was so soft it was barely a whisper as Jim lifted his head, eyes closing as he pressed his lips against spocks, all doubt gone as lips moved against his at an agonisingly slow pace. You could call it soppy, call it overly emotional, his insecurity, Spock's words. All of it. He didn't care, because it had been exactly what he needed, and Spock, even if he didn't always get it right the first time round, always gave him what he needed in the end.

Parting with a sigh he looked up at Spock then back down at his swollen green tinted lips with an unrestrained groan as his arousal spiked all over again. "I fucking love you." And there it was, finally out in the open after all these years and it felt… it felt amazing. Like the air around him had cleared and he was finally seeing things with crystal clarity for the first time, the weight of his shoulders so great he felt like he might be floating.

Spock gave him one of those fond half smiles at the confession, his eyes had a warmth to them that Jim had never seen before and he found himself choking on a gasp. "And i you, Jim. Now, not to seem overly eager, but I would rather like to continue where we left off…"

Jim raised a brow at Spock then, could feel his shit eating grin tugging at the corners of his mouth. "You been looking forward to this?" Jim teased, letting out a shocked sound as Spock's mouth latched onto his neck again and a hand slid under his uniform pants grabbing at his ass in a very un vulcan and hasty manner.

"I thought that much was obvious Jim." Jim laughed as he felt the low grumble against his neck, wiggling his arms from around Spock's shoulders he quickly popped the button on his uniform pants, pulling his zip down and then tugging them down just enough so they dropped and pooled at his ankles. He felt Spock go ridgid against him as the man currently groping his ass possessively sucked in a deep breath as he pulled back and looked down. Jim could feel Spock's eyes travel over his thighs, he could feel his skin burning from the attention as dark eyes finally landed on his tented briefs. What Jim wasn't expecting was the animalistic growl to come ripping from Spock's throat. Spock's hands seemed to stutter as they came to rest at Jims hips. "Jim… I do not want to hurt you-"

Does spock have any idea how fucking hot he sounds right now, am i really making him that crazy? Spock smirked at him despite his strained body posture.

"You could never hurt me-"

"Debatable Jim, but either way I do not think it wise that i take the lead, at least not the first time, as i do not have any experience-"

"You want me too-" Jim blinked in shock, he wouldnt lie and say he was expecting to be fucking spock the first time because he absolutely had not seen this coming. He'd expected to be pounded into the bed, spock hovering over him making the most perfect noises as his face contorted in pleasure. A growl ripped him from those thoughts as Spock frowned deep, teeth partly bared as his hands squeezed at Jim harder. Shit- touch telepathy. "Im sorry-"

"Jim i do not wish to lose control with you without at least some experience as i would be at more risk of hurting you, please Jim. I need you to show me-"

"Jesus, fuck-" Jim stumbled over his curses as he made short work of Spocks pants his hands shaking in excitement as he pulled the zipper down, fingers grazing Spocks hard length as he pulled and let the mans pants fall to his ankles just as he had done moments earlier. Oh my god he's- he's definitely bigger than I expected. "I will, but not yet-" Pulling spock into a teeth clashing kiss he dragged the slightly taller man over to his bed pushing him down onto the mattress, licking his lips subconsciously as he took a second to take in how disheveled spock was already. A healthy green flush dusting his skin that had him absolutely dying to plant wet kisses over each plain of flushed flesh, Jim wanted to drink him up, such pale skin pulled taut over such an athletic frame, muscles rippled under his skin so perfectly and the toned stomach with those two soft lines that surely met in a 'v' shape as they disappeared past the waistband of his underwear made him groan. He sunk to his knees with no shame watching as spock propped himself up on his elbows with a delicate frown and glorious bed hair. "Trust me, if you haven't had this done before you're gunna love it… even if you have, not meaning to brag but I'm pretty good at it." Jim smirked as he hooked his fingers under each side of spocks waistband, eyes locked onto the bulge in the center as he pulled. Eyes widening ever so slightly when Spock eventually sprang free.

"Jim?" Spock spoke, a hint of uncertainty underlying his tone.

"Turns out Vulcans aren't all that different from humans after all." Jim smirked taking in the noticeable green tint to Spock's length and the only true noticeable difference being the double ridge to the head of his cock. Wrapping his hand around it he gave it a gentle tug, eyes locked onto Spock's face as he watched the man suck in a breath, eyelids fluttering as the frown on his face faltered. Fuck Spock- Jim didnt give the vulcan any warning before his mouth joined his hand, tongue lapping at the head as he sucked lightly and spock moaned. He full on moaned- jesus christ why did i have to close my eyes- Jim opened his eyes looking up at Spock with heavy lids and a mouth full as he sank deeper, taking more and more of the vulcan into his mouth till the tip touched the back of his throat and he moaned. His brain short circuiting at the realisation he was sucking Spock off, actually had his cock in his mouth bobbing his head up and down and he couldn't quite believe he was actually doing this. It felt like he was dreaming, floating along on the sound of his first officers breathy groans. And god it was just too perfect especially when Spock's hand wormed its way into his hair, fingers stuttering as they massaged his scalp egging him on silently until a thought fluttered into Jims mind and Spock's fingers closed into a fist in a harsh tug on his blond loches. Jim couldn't help the groan he made if he tried, his eyes rolling back and then closing at the delicious second of painful pleasure.

Another thought swam through his head momentarily before he was being dragged by his hair up and down Spocks cock, each push and pull demanding, every sting of his hair being pulled making him twitch and strain against his boxers with a groan. That son of a bitch- Jim took Spock out of his mouth with a wet pop as he gave the man a burning look.

"Reading my thoughts- that's cheating." Jim gasped as spock tugged on his hair again. Spock was just staring at him with this half smirk and Jim didnt know if he wanted to fuck the man into the mattress as some sort of punishment or if he wanted Spock to do the same to him. Either way would wipe that shit eating smirk of his first officers face.

"A trick I learned from you Jim, besides, you call it cheating, but you don't want me to stop."

Jim half scowled and laughed as he sent another thought Spocks way as his hands splayed out on the man's thighs, eyebrow raised cockily as he smirked.

"I did not say I wanted you to stop-"

"Nope but i had to wipe that smug look of your face somehow, besides, i have something better in mind. Reach into that draw, there should be a small bottle- thats it-" Jim would give it to Spock, he was quick on the draw and seemed eager, it just made Jim all the more determined to make this as pleasurable as possible for the vulcan, Spock obviously hadn't done this before and though it gave Jim a bit of a thrill knowing he'd be the first it also made him want to do it right. He wanted to have Spock losing himself, and God what he'd give to be able to make the man curse while being fucked. Popping the lid on the bottle jim poured some into his hands, rubbing them together briefly to warm the oily liquid up before he looked up to see a deep green flush across Spock's cheeks. "I can do it from this angle or you can turn over, it'd probably be more comfortable for you if-"

Spock turned over before Jim could finish his sentence and Jim couldn't help but suck in breath, sure he knew spock had a nice ass, he oggled it often enough while they were on the bridge or on various away missions but christ- "Fuck me Spock." Jim groaned, eyes glued to the perfect round globes of flesh, and his legs are- jesus fuck. "Your uniform pants don't do you any justice- can i ban you from wearing pants on the bridge?"

Spock turned his head with an amused brow raise. "Jim." His voice was tinted with amusement as the name left his lips and Jim couldn't help but smile.

"You're right, you're always right, Spock." Jim hummed lowering himself just enough so he could drop a quick pec of a kiss on the dimples in the vulcans back, the innocent action then completely side stepped as he lowered his head further and captured some of spocks well rounded ass between his teeth. Jim couldn't help groaning as he listened to Spock try and stifle what sounded like a whine, part of him wanted to keep going, to go further down, maybe even delve between his cheeks and show him just how talented his tongue could be- "Fuck." Jim pulled himself out of his trance when he realised he'd left a small trail of love bites all the way up to the small of his first officers back. Looking up, he could see the delicious curve in Spock's back as he lay resting on his elbows, head hanging low and breathing coming in just a little bit more laboured.

"Jim, I am not made of glass." Jim laughed at him then grabbing a handful of flesh and squeezing teasingly, who would have thought Spock would be so moody in the bedroom, so impatient.

"I'm just appreciating the view Spock, gunna have to teach you something about patience… but not today." Jim hummed as he stroked a line down with his forefinger before gently probing forward pushing past that first ring of muscle without too much difficulty. Making a strained noise as he curled his finger inside and felt spock tighten repeatedly around his digit experimentally.

"It feels strange but not entirely unpleasant." Spock breathed out quietly, sucking in a breath as Jim added a second finger.

"It gets better, trust me i just need to find-" Jim stilled instantly when he thrust his fingers in and felt Spock jolt as he curled them. He was pretty sure that was his prostate but the look of shock on Spock's face had him slightly paranoid he'd hurt the man.

"...Do that again. Ah-"

Jim growled as he leaned heavily over Spock, the heel of his palm digging into his mattress as he curled his fingers on repeat craving that little gasp he'd just made again.

"I told you it gets better, if you relax a little more it'll feel even better-" Jim groaned, his other hand itching to get rid of his boxers and free himself from the choking tightness. But he wasn't ready to pull away from Spock for even a second, he was hanging on every breathy groan and sigh and he was committing every sound to memory. Hitting record in his mind as he watched Spock's face contort in pleasure, the slight frown, the closed eyes and the green flush that had spread to the very tips of his pointed ears.

" Take them off. Now." Spock growled and Jim hissed as he pulled his fingers out and nearly tore his underwear in his haste to get them off. Flipping Spock over onto his back he pressed himself against the other man till they were flush and moaned into the vulcans neck as their cocks brushed against each other.

Breathing in Spock's scent he rocked against him, hips rolling steadily creating a delicious friction as as he breathed hotly into the flushed green neck, tongue darting out to taste that sweet spot just under Spock's jaw before placing a wet kiss on his neck, teeth joining ever so teasingly as he sucked a mark into his skin.

Spock couldnt help moaning then, he wasnt usually this vocal during sex let alone foreplay but Jims actions alongside his jumbled and frantic thoughts had him intoxicated. He'd never felt so overcome by such a base instinct before than he was right now, the need to touch and be touched for pleasure was something he thought he was above at this point. Of course he had urges, but he did well to keep them in check quite easily… most of the time. But the swell of emotion and Jims frantic mind flitting from one filthy thought to another had Spock feeling feverish, he'd never felt such strong emotions centred solely around himself before and it was maddening, but… He found himself developing a craving for the attention, the undivided attention and adoration, that burning lust.

Fuck Spock youre fucking perfect how-

Everything you're doing- i wanna be inside you so bad-

Im gunna make it good- i promise- i want- i want to make you fall apart

All those thoughtful hot and bothered thoughts changing till they had much more aggressive and assertive undertone in them as spock tightened his fist in jims hair as he left a trail of love bites down Spock's neck. A primal rumble coming from the back of Jims throat as Spock testingly opened his legs for Jim to settle properly between as he dragged his nails against the blondes scalp.

"Dont fucking test me Spock if you want it rough i can give you it rough"

"Then get on with it." Spock bit back, yanking Jims head up till their eyes met.

Bossy pointy eared bastard

It took Jim all of two seconds to pour out some more from the little bottle and lather his cock with it before he was lined up and pushing forward, eyes squeezed shut as he got past the first ring of muscle, the head of his dick encased in delicious tight heat.

"Fuck Spock- shit…" Jim groaned as he slowly pushed further until his hips were flush against Spock's perfect ass. Spocks face the personification of perfection as Jim started to move, angling his hips from the start to hit that bundle of nerves every time without fail. Eventually pulling one of Spocks legs up over his shoulder as he started to pick up the pace, watching Spock biting down on his bottom lip as his hands fisted in the sheets.

"Jim-" Spock could hardly breath, though the initial entry had been uncomfortable this was beyond anything he had experienced before. Every sensation almost overwhelming, Jims breath mingling with his own as their lips met moaning into each others mouths. Everytime Jim moved inside him it was like sparks flying when striking a match, and his face. Brow furrowed, damp with sweat and his lips quivering, those blue eyes heavy lidded and always watching with such a heated adoring gaze that made Spock feel almost on show, a vulnerability that just made something in him ignite the longer they went on. Emotions and arousal mixing through their contact, Spock quietly prideful over just how pleasurable he seemed to feel to Jim.

Until Jim shifted ever so slightly hitting that spot inside Spock at an angle that made the Vulcan gasp, all feelings of pride forgotten as Jim continued at his bruising pace, Spock instinctively reaching out and pulling the man down by his hair till their lips crashed together again as each thrust chipped away at his control. Their gasps and grunts mingling as Spock felt himself hurtling towards the finish line at a dizzying speed. He could feel Jim everywhere, all over his body, inside him, the hot breath against the shell of his ear, the stuttered groans against his neck.

"Spock-please tell me your close-" Jims voice was hoarse as he spoke, strained as he struggled holding off his impending orgasm.

"Jim- I-"

Before Spock had a chance to confirm anything the lobe of his ear had been sucked into jims mouth and teeth dug into the sensitive flesh before they grazed the shell of his ear to nibble on the point at the top.

"Jim- " Spock squeezed his eyes shut as hot pleasure pooled in his groin, unable to give any warning before he finally lost his cool and was coming hard with a low drawn out groan, letting his head fall back against the mattress as he listened to Jims ragged breaths and whines as he tried to hold on just a little longer above him, hips stuttering against him as he finally lost it seconds later. Spock feeling jims release, hot and sticky as some leaked out onto the bed sheets.

Jim all but collapsed into spock as they both tried to catch their breath, pressing a kiss into the crook of Spock's neck as he breathed the man in.

"M-sorry." Jim breathed as they lay there still joined at the hip in a sweaty tangle of limbs. Lazily sending his apologies for finishing inside the vulcan without asking first through his admittedly slow post orgasm thoughts. I should have asked if it was okay, ill get us cleaned up- sorry.

Its alright Jim, it is what I would have preferred, out of the two options this atleast creates less mess.

Spock could feel the man chuckling into the crook of his neck as the blonde finally lifted himself up, hovering over Spock with a fond smile as he continued to chuckle at the vulcan.

"Gunna sound gross Spock but you might want to try going to the bathroom before bed, unless you wanna wake up to a bigger mess, i mean i don't mind i can totally change my sheets no problem it's more so you aren't uncomfortab-"

A shame, i am strangely fond of the feeling-

Spock's eyes went wide and he immediately cut that trail of thought off as he saw Jim's eyes widen as the blonde turned a deep shade of red.

"I- will go clean up." Spock spoke a little too fast as Jim gently slid out of him and crawled off the man to sit on the side of the bed. Smiling again despite Spock's initial embarrassment and dissipating any awkwardness as he asked Spock to toss him a spare wash cloth from the bathroom when he was done.

Holy shit i've just boned Spock… we're a thing now? Bones is gunna lose his mind when he finds out.

Jim woke up groggily in his dark room feeling oddly sated and a little bit dirty, he could feel the dried sweat on his skin and he had to pause for a second to remember why he didn't get a shower before bed if he'd been sweating so much before it hit him.

Spock. Spock and me-

He felt the panic rise to a fever pitch inside his chest, his heart hammering against his ribcage before he felt movement behind him. Somebody, a very warm somebody wrapped an arm around his midriff and pulled him back till he was flush against a broad chest. A familiar smell hitting his nose made the tension in his muscles relax almost immediately, the only word that really came to mind in describing spock's scent was homely, it was a warm comforting smell with a subtle underlying spiciness to it that he couldn't quite describe but it was intoxicating nonetheless.

"I am still here Jim." Came the muffled sleepy grumble from behind him, he could feel Spock's lips moving against the nape of his neck as hot breath made goosebumps rise on his skin.

"Sorry…" Jim sighed, relief flooding his system as he leaned back into the delightful block of heat behind him. Closing his eyes Jim couldn't help the shit eating smile that tugged at his lips, feeling Spock's arms around him, the smart mouthed Vulcan was spooning him. He was being cuddled by one of the most hard assed people he knew and he couldn't Help but find it pretty damn amusing. "Didn't think you'd be a cuddler Spock, I kinda like it though... I won't lie."

"If you ever use the phrase 'secret softie' in reference to me again i will nerve pinch you." Spock mumbled out the threat lazily, a half smile tugging at the corner of his mouth as he felt Jim vibrate with quiet laughter.

Nah you wouldn't i'll put you in the brig for trying to mutiny if you do, just saying.

An unwise choice that would surely lead to you getting kidnapped on an away mission or another similar disaster occuring.

Are you calling me a disaster magnet spock?

I am.

Pretty rich coming from the guy whos by my side in every disaster situation that's ever happened.

There was a subtle but noticeable pause before Spock seemed to project his reply.

I hadn't previously considered this.

And just like that Jim was laughing in his comfortable sleepy hazeyness as he squeezed Spock's arm as it lay across his torso.

We can be disaster magnets together Spock it's fine, wouldn't have anyone else watching my back.

Hold the phone just got a real weird shiver up my spine, my Vulcan senses are tingling. Someones getting laid right about now.

-ADR

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Bones looked down at the message on his padd and turned to the red head that was stood half way across the med bay trying desperately not to laugh at almost every word in the few sentences shed sent. Giving her an incredulous look with a smirk he rolled his eyes at her as she quirked a brow and pointed down at her padd as she organised hypos.

Dont look at me like that im serious, the phrase is 'live long and get some' afterall, isnt it? ;)

-ADR

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You are unbelievable.

-LHM

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And you love it, i aint ever gunna be prim and proper with my words thatd make me seem way to normal. Was serious about that shiver though, probably nothing but ive got a nagging feeling somethings just happened.

-ADR

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Maybe you should stick to having gut feelings about food rather than mythical changes in the ships crew, hurry your ass up i wanna get back sooner rather than later.

-LHM

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Fine, but when we find out what changed im definately going to say i told you so. Im finished ass hat lets goooo i cant wait for bed.

-ADR

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Leonard waved to M'benga as they both walked out and shook his head at the red head as he smiled, wrapping a hand around her waist as they walked with a sigh, breathing in that sweet smell that was unique to just her.

"Bed sounds good." He murmered as he slipped his hand free from her waist as she gave him a sleepy innocent smile, ignoring all the stares he was getting as they walked down the corridors at a lazy pace in comfortable silence. Sparing eachother tired but affectionate glances and smirks every now and again whenever they found themselves the centre of attention. Knowing nobody could intrude on their bubble right now even if they tried.

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