Im backkkkk and yes im going there, im absolutely not sorry (i am a bit)
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Leonard opened his eyes with a groan lifting his hand up to the throbbing pain in his head surprised to feel a dressing of some kind on one side of his forehead. Wait why was he lying down? He squinted at the bright lights above him his eyes taking far too long to adjust as he attempted to sit up in what he was starting to realise was a bio bed as he heard the steady beep as it monitored his heartbeat. Everything was still lights and shadows maybe if he could sit up and see the room around him he'd be able to figure out what the hell he was doing here. But there was a hand on his chest pushing him back down gently, and he had to say it's no hand he'd ever felt before, definitely not Jims or M'bengas.
"Easy there chief, you hit your head pretty hard, don't rush when you're moving around. How're you feeling?" A honey smooth voice practically cooed at him, he didn't recognise the voice but damn if he wasn't going slightly red in the face knowing he'd probably caused the owner a lot of stress getting his heavy ass into the biobed from wherever hed fallen, wait had he fallen? How did he hit his head? Was this a nurse tending to him? Aint ever heard a voice like hers in the med bay before, yea i'd remember that smooth english accent anywhere if id heard it before, eloquent and common all in that one sentence.
"What happened." He grunted wincing as he slowly moved to sit himself up, feeling the biobed move to support his back no doubt helped along by the mysterious voice playing with the controls. He blinked some more finally looking towards the women who was scrolling through what must have been his MRI scans on a data padd. My god she must be new. He noted the crease in her brow and the tension in her shoulders as she looked directly at him, emerald eyes full of concern and Leonard almost choked on his breath. Wow. Talk about regal beauty, there's no way she's a doctor… but she's wearing the uniform. He couldn't help but stare at her lips as they started moving only some of what was coming out making sense as he struggled to focus fully on what was being said rather than how soft her lips looked.
"Wait, I fell and hit my head because as we were coming up to New Vulcan, there was an issue with the thrusters that lurched the entire ship?" Leonard rubbed his head lightly, he was so confused. He could feel a headache coming on.
Before he could say anything else there was a swish as the door to his private office slid open and Jim came rushing in. "Bones! came as soon as i could, how is he doc?" Jim looked at the red head with a short smile and a familiar gaze. So Jim knows her? Typical, course he's pining after my medical staff.
"He seems okay, he'll probably have some symptoms from being concussed for a while, just trying to get him up to speed with what happened. You might have experienced some memory loss but that should come back gradually there isn't any lasting damage to your hippocampus. "
"Remind me why we're headed to New Vulcan again? Sorry we had to meet like this im assuming you're new here, when did we leave yorktown? Must have been at least a couple of days ago to get here so fast." He looked between the two people stood in front of him his best friend and this red haired goddess or whoever she was and noticed something change in Jim immediately. As for the red head, she looked positively ill, all the colour seemed to have drained from her face. What had he said wrong?
"Bones… please tell me you're joking." Jim choked out his eyes going somewhat glassy.
"Do i look like I'm joking Jim, look cut the crap tell me what the hell is going on how much have i forgotten." He practically growled at Jim not expecting the reply to come from the woman beside his bed.
"You're missing about 6 months, what's the last thing you remember?" The strained british accent was thick with some emotion Leonard couldnt put his finger on as he looked between the pair sceptically.
"Yorktown, ship was a day or two away from being finished and I was in my room, jim was heading round for a drink." He watched as the redhead stood up walking over to the far wall near his cabinets and transferring the scans from the data padd onto the white surface with a flick of her wrist. Reading notes separately on her padd she paced in front of the screen with a frown denting her features.
"Hopefully its retrograde amnesia and you'll get your memory back with time, i can't guarantee anything obviously, you hit your head pretty hard cracked the skull very slightly from the impact but i fixed that, stopped the bleeding, checked for any internal bleeding. There may be some swelling but that'll go down with time and some good old anti inflammatory hypos." She laughed but the sound seemed forced. Before she pinched the bridge of her nose in what he assumed was frustration.
"I mean it sounds like you did everything i would have done, don't blame yourself sweetheart sometimes shit happens." For some reason he felt bad... he didn't know why she was so stressed that he'd forgotten the last 6 months but he almost felt the need to apologise.
"Yea, when it rains it really pours doesn't it. You're free to go, but you aren't coming back on active duty for a week so get comfy doing nothing for 7 days." He could see Jim tensing and untensing his jaw to her left giving her this apologetic look for some reason. What was she known to blame herself for other people's fuck ups? If so why? he'd obviously done this to himself more or less.
"Now hold on a damn second i'm the cmo in this ship darlin' you can't just tell me what to do-"
"Actually I can, Leonard."
"Under whose authority-"Damn that authoritative tone she's definitely done this before, maybe she's a doctor we picked up from yorktown? Annoyingly attractive as well, damn hormones, damn it woman you could have the common decency of being plain looking if i'm going to be working with you.
"Under yours Bones. And mine." Jim stated folding his arms before motioning at bones to get up and come over to the door near where he was stood. "Listen, I know you don't know her but you can trust me when i say you trust her, i trust her, she's been here since we left yorktown. Head over to my quarters and I'll fill in the blanks where i can." Jim whispered, giving him that familiar slap on the shoulder before Leonard turned to leave frown still present, how the hell am I supposed to believe that i trusted her if i can't even recognise the woman? And then Jim getting all defensive and going all captain mode on me? The hell was that about? Whatever, to Jims i guess. When did we hire another half vulcan anyway? No way a real vulcan would be so obviously frustrated that's for sure.
"You're not going to tell him you're together?" Jim looked at her like she was insane which only made her groan.
"I know its not ideal but it's better not to throw shit on his plate immediately with situations like this, i'll tell him eventually or he'll remember everything before I need to tell him. Or he'll figure it out on his own somehow. Look he's going to be fine Jim just act like you normally do with him, you know before i was here."
"I know he's gunna be fine, its Bones. It's not just him i'm worried about though, how're you gunna deal with the trail now, i know neither of you would ever admit it but you were kinda holding each other together. Yea, i'm not blind." Jim looked genuinely concerned for her as he sat on the end of bones' desk and looked down at her sat in the swivel chair.
"I'll be alright, i've got Nyota, you and Spock when you're not busy canoodling, atleast i hope- I don't mean to assume."
"Oh my godddd stop thinking that we aren't friends, that's an order. Wait canoodling- what are you talking about?" Jim fought the urge to blush as he looked around the room at anything but the lecherous smirk Alex was wearing.
"I don't know details but i totally know that you both enjoyed yourselves. Spock gave it away at the end of our first session. He was so green. You're gunna be getting more ass than me soon." She half laughed and Jim covered his mouth trying to suppress his own laugh.
"I hope you've cleared out any clothes lying around his room or he's gunna come asking questions."
Alex felt the blood drain from her face. "Oh shit Oh shit oh shit. What if he goes to his room before he meets you? Jim this is not funny!" She yelled at him while scrambling to her feet knocking multiple items off leonards desk as she practically sprinted towards the door. "Are you coming or not?"
"Fine but we are not running... we are speed walking."
"Fineeeee" Alex replied as they both scurried out of the med bay turning a lot of heads as they went.
"What specifically are we looking for?"
"I have a draw."
"Oh well shit how do you expect us to carry a draw full of clothes out without being spotted?" Jim gawked at her like she'd grown a second head.
"I dont know! Its not clothes though like we wear the same thing everyday if I need a clean dress or shirt or whatever i just replicate it. Its mostly underwear and baggy shirts."
"If you're keeping underwear in his room things are definitely serious."
"Of course they're serious im in love with the asshole!" Alex half shouted at Jim her tone meant to be playful but coming out a lot blunter than she'd anticipated before she stopped dead in the middle of the corridor putting a hand to her mouth shakily as desperate eyes looked up towards Jim, wearing a matching look of shock on his own face. "I can't do this, I can't see that look in his eyes again, he had no idea who i was, i was just some stranger, i need to go." She managed to choke out before she turned on her heels and ran the other direction back towards med bay. Atleast if she buried herself in work she would only have to see him when he needed a check up. Atleast for a week. She could hear Jim shouting her name but she didn't slow down until she was outside med bays doors taking a second to gather herself she stepped through the doors giving christine a short smile as she walked over to leonard's office. Not expecting the head nurse to follow her and close the door behind her as she folded her arms and gave the red head a mothering glare.
"What's happened?"
"He's got amnesia…From the fall. He doesn't know who i am-" Alex choked out a sob as she sunk down into Leonards swivel chair covering her face with her hands. "Im sorry, i don't know why im crying-"
"Oh sweety, come here." Christine crouched down next to her and took one her hands in her own giving her the softest smile she'd ever seen from her. " i can promise you right now that this is all going to work itself out, even if he doesn't remember he's going to end up falling for you again. I've never seen him so smitten with someone, you don't see the way he looks at you when he thinks nobody is paying attention." Christine gave her hand a thoughtful squeeze as Alex tried to wipe the tears from around her eyes sending a wobbly smile christines way as she tried to keep her emotions in check.
"Really? But what if he doesn't chris, i feel so stupid ive only known him 6 months but it feels like part of me has been stolen, i feel like damn teenager in love for the first time and i hate it because it fucking hurts." Alex clenched at the air making a fist with a frustrated frown before she joined christine's small chuckle with her own.
"Doctor Reid, for a woman with a life sized personality, buckets of charisma, and a quirky sense of humour you sure don't have enough confidence in yourself."
Alex sniffled out a laugh before making a waving motion with her hand. "You forgot my killer good looks and banging bod, but I'll let it slide." Christine couldn't help the choked laugh that left her as she had to cover her mouth and bite her lip when Alex joined her giggling through teary eyes.
"You and I both know he doesn't just like you for your looks honey, all im saying is ive been working with that man for years and I have never seen that look on his face before you came along."
Alex sniffled a frowned lightly. "What look?" God why is christine so lovely she's like the mother hen of medbay. Fuck you chris for being the loveliest human in here, thats my job!
"What look?" Christine scoffed at her. "The look that YOU give him when you think nobody is looking, the 'i couldn't be without you look', or the 'youre my favourite person' look. That look that tells anyone who notices it that you're absolutely smitten with each other and don't see anyone else, it's honestly, it's lovely. Everytime i see one of you looking at the other like that it makes me smile, it's so pure... You make him happy sweety, you really do."
"You're gunna make me cry again, stop making me emotional Chapel! I'll get Leonard in here to frown you out of the room."
"Oh really? That's gonna be difficult since the only time he frowns anymore is when he's filing reports." Alex honestly half expected her to click her fingers and shake her head from side to side as she made the comment with the amount of sass the eyebrow raise in the older womans face was giving her. She sighed admitting defeat as the older woman finally stood up.
"There's other reasons behind that." Alex mumbled lifting her eyebrows up exaggeratedly as she stared past christine at the door as if she was picturing something in her minds eye.
"Oh stop it, i don't want or need to know, and definitely don't lead with that while he doesn't know who you are. Talk to the man, that's the least you can do put the cards out in front of him for him to see, and make sure he knows he has someone to talk too."
"Alright, ill see if he wants to talk after my shifts over only a couple of hours left." She looked at the clock on the wall and mentally prepared herself for how difficult the upcoming days were going to be. "May as well sign off on some reports while he's out of commission."
Christine smiled at her giving her a firm nod as she left the room. The hours ticked by slowly but elsewhere on the ship someone had just witnessed the entirety of their conversation and was now sitting with his chin resting on his hands in the mess hall wondering why the hell he felt like he was missing a piece of himself as well if he couldn't remember the woman he was meant to be dating. He put the data padd down removing the ear buds and shutting down the cam feed into his office, the one hed only had installed in there to keep an eye on Jim when he'd got himself half killed on countless away missions. Instead he'd accessed it out of pure curiosity about the new pointy eared doctor and got far more than he bargained for. If we're seeing each other- if Christine's being well and truly honest in what she's said, i must have fell hard for this woman, and I can't even remember her damn name. This is fucking bullshit. Wait. Reid? She's gotta be in my contacts somewhere. Jesus we've sent a fair few messages between us, well over a thousand. Alright Leonard if you're gunna get a feel for the situation you gotta start from the beginning.
"Hey bones, what're you doing? Sorry about having to meet here i had a thing I needed to do but like it got cancelled so I thought we could eat and talk." Jim slid next to his friend pushing a bowl of macaroni and cheese in leonards direction and passing him the fork.
"Looking through messages between me and that red haired minx you hired." That is definitely not what you call a woman that you don't know attractive you moron, and in front of Jim oh here we go- "that's not how I meant that to sound."
Jims eyebrows shot up at that and he huffed out a laugh as he shoveled some pasta into his mouth. "Its alright Bones I get it, she's real easy on the eyes. You sure you wanna go through messages?" Jim almost sounded hesitant as he asked, Leonard only just clicked onto why after he stared at the man for a while.
"I've already found out we're seeing each other Jim, you don't have to worry about slipping up."
Jim visibly un tensed and sank down into the seat fully beside bones as he glanced at bones padd, reading the messages alongside his friend. "Thank god, how did you find out so quick?"
"I have a camera feed in my office, I got curious, i ended up accidently snooping in on a private conversation between her and chris… she's pretty upset."
"Oh yea the camera… and yea of course she is, a lot of shit has went down Bones in these 6 months and this is probably the worst time for you to get amnesia." Jim chastised him with a frown and leonard just glared at him like he was the stupidest thing he'd ever seen.
"Because I really meant to hit my head off a bio bed Jim, im sorry my timing wasn't better, whoa what's this?" He scrolled slower as he squinted at the messages in disbelief. "Did i get infected with the sex pollen?" There was some heavy flirting going on in these messages and Leonard was suddenly keenly aware of Jim glued to his side reading over his shoulder especially when he felt a huff of a laugh against his arm. And these messages damn they were talking so freely with each other and it's not like he couldn't see himself saying the things in front of him because he could, and that scared him the most. What if he fucked up this good thing he'd had by banging his head?
"I remember this you were freaking out because she got transported with you and you gave her a couple of hickies when the pathogen was at its strongest, you thought it was gunna ruin your working relationship but it didn't- whoa okay i should have expected that in all honesty."
Leonard felt half the blood in his body rush into his face and the other half rush south as he took in the image in front of him with silent approval. Before he scrolled down to get rid of the image from the screen and proceeding to put his face in his hands. "What have I gotten myself into." He couldn't get the image out of his head, those tiny gym shorts clinging to roundest ass he'd ever seen, and those strong lithe legs. For Fuck sake. I can just imagine how amazing her ass must look in the uniform dr- stop right there at least talk to the woman before you go lusting after her you pervert.
"It's actually kinda funny watching you be all embarrassed and flustered at the same time Bones, but i suppose you are seeing all this again for the first time. At this point ive probably seen more of her than you have."
"You what?" Bones scowled, confused at why that annoyed him so much since he genuinely couldn't remember anything about the woman.
"I walked in once, well afterwards, and she was heading to the bathroom in her birthday suit and you threatened to throw me out of the nearest airlock. And theres the time i tried to lock you out of the camera feed in your office-" Jim smirked smugly at him his cheeks going a little pink at the memory
"Get that image out of your head, if i can't remember then neither can you." Leonard warned eyebrow twitching at his friend in frustration, not that he was a pervert or anything, it was all pretty confusing. "Wait, my camera feed?-" He obviously had a history with this woman so was it bad that he wanted to know what she looked like? All of her…? I mean another part of him didn't want to know at all, that part was honestly kind of scared of the entire aspect of dating again, despite the obvious initial attraction. He was mildly terrified. He hoped she was at least nice unlike the ex wife.
"Im sure if you keep scrolling there'll be some more photos of her with less on..." Leonard glared daggers at him, he'd never admit that he was tempted by the idea. It was a natural thing. She's fucking gorgous of course i want to look, but it feels so direspectful in a weird way, shes a stranger right now its just not right. Don't think i haven't noticed you avoiding the question about my camera feed Jim i swear-
A message popped up on his screen just then and he almost choked on his own laughter.
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The next picture is something you took of me so unless you want me to give Jim amnesia as well stop scrolling right now. I appreciate that part of your perverted brain misses my ass already but id much rather Jim didn't see anymore than he already has.
-ADR
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Leonard turned to look at Jim with contemplation as if it wasn't the worst thing that could happen, hell maybe it'd make Jim forget seeing her naked.
"Bones, i do not want amnesia from a beating off Alex." He waved his hands in front of him while wincing as if picturing the repercussions.
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I forgot when you re view an image on this thing it comes up as a notification on the other persons end. Sorry, i found out on my own, but i recon giving Jim amnesia isn't that bad of an idea when according to him he's seen most of you already.
-LHM
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If you want to see a photo of me giving you head be my guest Mccoy. But don't you dare look while Jims over your shoulder or i swear to god i'll kick your ass as well.
-ADR
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"The lady's right you are definitely not seeing that." Leonard was beet red as he tried to think of a reply, Jim openly laughing at the turn of conversation.
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So we are really an item then? I'm not gunna scroll down because even though for a witch you're relatively attractive, i cant remember you. it'd feel like being an actual pervert and i ain't like that.
-LHM
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I know you aren't like that dont worry about it im not gunna jump you. I mean im gunna want to if you haven't remembered by the time you're back in med bay but i'll hold myself back. For real though I know right now you have no clue who I am but im gunna say this now, this thing isnt a fling. I don't do flings and I sure as hell know you don't. So if after a while you haven't remembered or aren't feeling anything just let me down gently chief haha.
-ADR
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Hey i'm interested in finding out just how you made me fall head over heels sweetheart, just take it slow with me because i wont lie, im scared shitless at how i managed to land a girl like you. Also why does the name chief feel kinda unsavoury?
-LHM
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I like to think of it more like i charmed you in with dirty jokes, pizza, with a sprinkle of inappropriate suggestive behaviour. And because on occasion it may have been used in an unsavoury manner, but I promise you've never complained.
-ADR
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Leonard actually snorted at that he could already see why he liked her, she was damn easy to talk to and actually had a sense of humour. and definitely a dirty mind.
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I don't doubt i've never complained, im gunna let Jim catch me up with big events that ive missed, then do you wanna watch a movie or something witch?
-LHM
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Im down to watch a FILM yea sure, you're picking the film im picking snacks.
-ADR
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Deal.
-LHM
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Leonard shovelled the macaroni into his mouth as Jim recounted the events of the past 6 months to him explaining everything from two disastrous away missions too reminding him that it was his and Alex's fault that Spock came into his quarters and stuck Jims fingers in his mouth. Leonard was doing his best to take it all in but obviously in regards to this relationship he apparently had with doctor Reid Jims retelling was gappy but he listened anyway, laughing when he was told about the morning where he was called onto the bridge on his day off and how Nyota had won a bet with a pool of over 200 units because she'd had an inside source giving her information. Of course he slapped Jim upside the head for being the one to start the betting pool in the first place if only to remind him that just because he didn't remember now didn't mean he was off the hook.
Information he probably could have done without at this point like how vulcans and half vulcans have very very sensitive ears, which he'd apparently discovered by accident on a particular away mission which he was scolded for by Jim despite being reassured Jim only found out that it had happened a couple of weeks after they were back aboard the ship. And then came the heavy news, like how Nyota and Alex has been kidnapped by some vulcan extremist all because of some history Alex had with another Vulcan years ago, how Jim had never seen Leonard so mortified when they finally got to her and she was singing while her scalp was being carved into and too drugged up to fight back. And Leonard could tell from the way jim told the story that it had messed Jim up as well, it had messed all of them up, even Spock... How they found out later how the same vulcan had poisoned her to make her miscarry and how she was stuck in her grief filled mind in so much pain it had reopened a 4 year old stagnant mind link with her ex whos ship had been attacked by the same asshole vulcan that had fucked her life up, the same reason they were now docked at new Vulcan. And Nyota had bore witness to everything and how they were fast friends before the incident but now they were nye on inseparable.
It was a lot to take in and Leonard found himself with a headache from it all. How can so much have happened in 6 months? And i can't remember anything? It was infuriating. He desperately wanted something, some snippet of information to jog his memory but nothing did, none of what Jim told him triggered even a little bit of his memory. Jim suggested him getting Spock to try and help him remember by going into a mind meld with him but Leonard couldn't even fathom how that would work, if he was going to mind meld with anyone it'd have to be with Alex, the woman clearly knew him on a much more intimate level than the others and though he didnt know her he still trusted her in his head more than he did Spock, not to insult the pointy eared bastard or anything it was just a gut feeling he was going off. But according to Jim shed only just started learning from Spock how to go into mind melds and how to meditate so it might not be the safest option.
"So you're telling me, she has been through hell and back and now she's finally going to get justice for what happened I've gone and got fucking amnesia?" Leonard couldn't help the frustrated rage bubbling in his gut as he practically hissed at Jim a vein popping up violently throbbing on his forehead.
"Bones, calm down this isn't your fault its not anyone's fault."
"The hell it isn't my fault, when the hell have i ever fell over and injured myself on this hunk of metal? Never. And ive got this fucking throbbing in my head that wont stop its not even pain its just-"
Leonard, calm down.
Leonards eyes widened in shock as he jumped up from his seat, putting his fingers to his temples unable to make a sound as he opened and closed his mouth like a fish. "Jim did you hear that?"
"Hear what?" Jim was looking at him like he was crazy and about to call another doctor down here to take him to med bay.
Leonard you need to calm down its okay, nobody's angry at you for having amnesia, stop blaming yourself.
You-where are you, how are you doing this? How are we doing this?
It's pretty new for me as well, I won't lie to you we've only ever been able to do this with physical contact but- i don't know i could feel you getting pissed off so i just reached out. You were giving me a headache. Get your ass to your quarters you need to chill.
What about the movie?
Put the movie on when you get there and give me 5 to get changed out of my uniform.
You're getting changed in my room?
You'd like that wouldn't you
He could feel the laughter buzzing through this connection they had somehow and frowned hoping somehow she could feel his grump through the connection. It was an easy thing to misinterpret damn it.
No im getting changed in my room then heading to yours and don't even bother asking what im wearing.
Where's the fun in not being able to ask? I didn't mean to say- erm think that.
Another wave of laughter rattled around in his head and he couldn't help but laugh at himself, its not like he'd ever had to control his thoughts before, he'd never been afraid anyone could listen in on them. But now apparently he was giving away his most private very ungentlemanly thoughts.
Leonard you won't be getting much of that kind of fun from me for a while so it's better not to ask or your imagination will run away with you. I know what you're like.
I wasn't imagining anything like that. Look this is hard okay im not used to having to filter things out normally it's only me in my head. So apologies if you hear anything… er you know something i wouldn't say out loud.
You were trying to picture what id look like in lingerie, so that's pretty close dont you think? And trust me i know its hard im almost as new to this as you. Just be glad you aren't doing this with spock.
I was not, but that sounds like hell.
You have no idea.
He chuckled down the mind link as well as out loud only just remembering he was sat in the mess hall with Jim still while he pinched the bridge of his nose in equal parts frustration and mirth.
"Bones are you alright?" Jim asked cautiously, concern obviously etched on his face.
"Yea yea i was just, Witch telling me to calm down, look i gotta go Jimbo, promise i'll be alright im just gunna go get some sleep." He stood and waved jim off as he walked out of the canteen. He just needed to relax that's all, all that information at once has just riled him up and threw him off his game. I mean i hope i can actually relax around her? This is probably going to be a bit odd for her as well. She's probably going to be more on guard than she normally is so she doesn't do anything… anything shed usually do just casually around me. I don't know, she hasn't really been awkward with me yet so im just gunna have to see how this one plays out.
As it turned out, they never really got to watch that movie which Leonard was quietly a little disappointed over whilst also being slightly glad about since he had no idea how he would have handled the situation at all. He wasn't usually nervous around women but this whole situation had him a bit tense feeling like he could cross line if he said one thing wrong and he didn't want to make any mistakes, especially not this early on, when it would probably be the most raw for her. Though a couple of back and forth messages had eased the tension tenfold, he even found himself chuckling as she apologised for any underwear he found lying around his room as she ferociously defended the fact that she was actually a 'really tidy person'.
Stretching out under his sheets he sucked in a breath, sighing as a familiar yet foriegn scent filled his nostrils, turning he buried his face in the pillow next to him and breathed in again in an attempt to relax. That sweet comforting smell stronger than ever as he instinctively reached out and dug his fingers into the cushion breathing in again as if squeezing slightly would make the smell stay around for longer. It was strange, the smell was so comforting and so confusing all at once, he wanted to surround himself in it, some primal part of him relating it to comfort and safety and affection, while his brain struggled with the concept that this was the smell of a woman he could only remember meeting today. But he felt himself un tensing, easing into the mattress with flitting thoughts of auburn curls flashing through his mind before something snapped inside him.
Squeezing his eyes shut he couldn't help but frown, he felt awful, not even awful for Alex, he just- he felt empty, utterly alone, and hurting. This warm and delightful smell had tears pricking at the corners of his eyes, and he still didn't remember her, he couldn't make sense of why he suddenly felt like this but christ he felt like something was missing, he didn't feel like a whole person. All he had to go on was the way he'd calmed at the scent and how somewhere in the deep dark parts of his mind he was utterly torn in two that the source of the scent wasn't here.
Now i know what heartache is, and im never in the mood to feel like that again. Please, I don't want to be hurting like this while i can't remember, i don't wanna be craving her here like i've known her months and months, I can't remember. Why you gotta be like this brain? You wanna start with the heartache just cuz she aint in our bed right now huh? She's only gone for a little while till you get your ass into gear and remember, maybe, if I remember. If i dont fuck it up… i dont fucking know who she is stop making me feel like shit, stupid fucking chemicals.
Little did he know that further down the corridor, in another room, the redhead behind his confused heartache was suffering herself as she cried silently into the pillow on his side of her bed.
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