Addiction - A Big Time Rush Fanfiction….

A/N - Well here is chapter twelve yeah! This story is turning out longer then I planned but I'm okay with that I love writing it.
Also thanks for all reviews, I appricate each of them a lot :)

So, bare with me, there's a part where it talks about hockey I know nothing about hockey so I did my best. I know a few terms, but that's about it.
Also the teams I made up, are that completely made up so yeah. once more please bare with me lol.

I plan to update frequently for now but it'll be when I can. I will let you know if anything changes.
Well without nothing more to say;

Disclaimer: I own nothing from Big Time Rush it belongs to Nickelodeon as well as Scott Fellows!

Warning(s): This story/chapter talks about drug usage, drug abuse and mental health as well as fighting with friends.
If any of this triggers you please turn back now! This is written to draw more self aware and put the situation out more it can happen to anyone!

Chapter 12

That night Kendall was released from the hospital after a week. Getting home, Kendall was sighing in happiness as he was settled into the familiar orange couch of their apartment. Jo (his currently two-year long-term girlfriend) was sitting next to his side, helping him if needed anything. Mama Knight, Katie, Logan, Camille, and Carlos were all around the apartment doing their own thing but keeping an eye on Kendall from a distance.

It wasn't until about an hour after leaving that Kendall noticed someone was missing from their group. He thought maybe James was asleep, but he saw it was only eight pm, and the others were acting oddly. Someone would glance at the door, then look away, while worry showed on their face. Kendall decided to ask, and he shut the tv off, causing everyone to look at him quickly.

"Where's James?" Kendall questions with a raised eyebrow as he looks at his friends and family. "Why isn't he here? I haven't seen him…."

There was silence before them. Logan, Carlos, Jo, Camille, Katie, and Mama Knight shared a known glance at Kendall. Kendall eyed each of them again, and he was tired of not being in the loop already; why didn't someone tell him? He sighs and stands.

"Fine, if no one will tell me, I'll just go to bed - " Kendall started for his and Logan's shared room.

"Sweetie, wait." His mother's serious tone stopped him; he turned and looked at everyone. She says, "After your argument in the hospital, James came here, packed his things, and left." Mama Knight says quietly as she frowns.

Kendall frowns at this information, "What? Why would he leave?" Kendall wonders as a million thoughts start to run through his head. "Was he that mad at me that he left?" Kendall had to choke back the sob threatening to escape, and he lost a friend because of his stupid choices? Because he tore the group apart once he decided to take those silly white pills? At this point, Kendall told himself, never again would he take them. Little did he know how hard it was about to be to keep that promise….

It's not your fault, we promise. Mama Knight hugs Kendall. "James acted out of emotion, and I'm sure it's not because of you." She smiles at him.

"No, it's because of me. Logan pipes up, making everyone look at him. "He was mad at me because I didn't tell an adult when I found out about the pills Kendall had. He was yelling at me the whole time, and I got mad…and I shoved him, and it caused him to fall…." Logan explains as everyone looks at him in surprise (he might've left that detail out earlier because he felt guilty); he sighs and says. "I didn't get a chance to apologize before he stood up and stormed out. That's why he left, not because of Kendall, but because of me."

"Look, can we all just say that this whole situation has caused everyone stress, no offense Kendall," Carlos states as he looks at Kendall, who just nods slowly. "But standing here isn't going to solve anything; we need to find him and apologize and talk things out. We also need to be here for Kendall, too, Kendall would you want to help us find James?" Carlos questions with hope as he smiles weakly at this.

Kendall nods, "Yes, I would love to. Things need to be patched up, and I know they do."

Everyone nods, and that night the group starts planning to find James. They tried a few simple things, calling his mother and father, both didn't answer. So they figured they would call again, or the parents would call back. Once that was a bust, the group decided that if James hadn't returned tomorrow morning, Mama Knight would call the police, and the group would go out looking for their friend; they were all now getting worried and only hoped that James was alright.

…

James Dimond wasn't one to get angry often, and when he did, he liked to be alone to cool himself down and clear his head before he said or did anything stupid. The last time James had been this mad was back when he and the guys were in Minnesota, one of their regular school team hockey games. Duluth Dragons vs. Hamilton Cats. Now the two teams had a rivalry, everyone knew, and it was at this time James had gotten mad. Along with Kendall, Logan, and Carlos (Duluth Dragons), his team was winning, and the Hamilton Cats were not good sportsmanship. It was near the end, and they were about to score the winning goal until their leader (Timothy Angelo) crossed checked Kendall super hard. Usually, Kendall was strong, and he took the hits, but this hit had been ugly. Kendall went flying backward at the crosscheck and hit the goal pool only to fall and get tangled into the net.

Thankfully, people had noticed, and the ref called time out. At first, everyone thought Kendall was fine, but Kendall could barely even register what was going on around him when they arrived. Sure, he was wearing a helmet, but the blow from the helmet caused him to have a minor concussion, and they were sure that his right arm was broken from being tabled by the net. As his friend sat there groaning in pain with everyone making sure he was okay, James had looked over in that moment to see Timothy Angelo and his buddies laughing at Kendall's misery. It was then, and there James Dimond felt surging hate for the boy, and well, let's say that Timothy never messed Kendall, James, Logan, or Carlos again after that night.

But that was only one time James could think of that he had been outraged. Sure, there were rough moments in his life (like when his parents got divorced), but he had never been super angry. Not like he was now with Logan and Kendall. At first, James had been suspicious of Kendall's odd behavior and symptoms. Yes, he was the pretty one of the group; some might say "nonobservant," but he was, and James could tell something was off with his blonde-haired friend. Sure, it took him longer than Logan to figure things out, but James was at least more brilliant than Carlos in serious situations. He loved Carlos but always looked at life in a fun way (which is never a bad thing), but it was like the boy didn't know how to be serious when he needed to be. Then there was Logan, the intelligent group; at least James thought the brunette boy was up until now. Logan's name currently made James's blood boil; why hadn't he told Mama Knight or Gustavo or even Kelly when he found out about Kendall using the pills? It was a question that only Logan knew the answer to and one he shouldn't have even created in the first place. But what had set him off about the boy was their fight in the hospital. Logan had pushed him! Logan Mitchel was not physical with violence, so it shocked him when it happened. James had been so shocked that anger flooded through him, and he got up and ran out before anyone could say anything more. James then packed his things and left the apartment; James needed time alone to clear his thoughts and cool down. When his phone blew up with calls from Kendall, Logan, Carlos, and Mama Knight, he ignored them, putting his phone on silent. They would only want him to explain his actions, and he didn't want to right now.

"Dinner's ready if you are up to eating."

James jumped at the voice; he had been so lost in thought he hadn't heard the person come into the guest room he was currently staying in. Looking up, he smiles at the person.

"Um, I'll be out in a moment, thanks, Lucy," James states as he sighs. "Also, thanks again for letting me stay here tonight. I appreciate it."

Lucy Stone was one of their closest friends at the Palmwood's, and it was the first person he thought he could go to when all this went down. Thankfully when she moved apartment, this second one was a little bigger and had an extra room. Lucy was also friendly enough to let him stay and hear his problems out. She was friends with the guys, and she cared about them. It was a no-brainer when the rocker girl agreed to help James because the guys had welcomed her and been so helpful to her since she had been here. The Palmwood's were home, and they were like a dysfunctional family, and she appreciated every one of them.

"Your welcome, and no worries, anytime," Lucy states with a smile. "But remember our deal, you can stay here tonight if you work things out with the other guys." Lucy finishes as she flips her hair light and walks out to the den area of her apartment.

James grins and then sighs when she is gone. If only it were that simple. Sure, Lucy knew the whole story of what happened, but when she and James talked over dinner that night, Lucy tried to look at things from not only his point of view but Logan's as well. It slightly irritated him, but that's why he came to her. Lucy was smart and strong and independent, and James needed to hear someone else opinion on this situation, someone who was outside of the apartment, and Lucy was the perfect person. So, that night, after things were talked out, and when James went to bed, he sighed, promising to himself tomorrow to try and work things out with his friends…

A/N - Well there was chapter twelve!

As I have said, I know nothing about hockey so I hope it sounded okay!
Also I wanted to do a little pov from James. I thought it was time for it, and I wanted to make this longer but thought it was good this way.
I am happy with how this turned out so yeah! Until the next update! - BTRFanatic13