Righteous Cry For Help

"You know your mother always used to bring Obito and me, dinner when we worked overtime" I turn to Kakashi. He's laying on the couch with an empty glass in his hand, on the table sit a couple of empty bottles. Were both pretty buzzed at this point, Kakashi more than me.

"Every time, no matter how busy she was with other things. She always found time to make a homemade meal for us. Sometimes she even made food for everyone at the station. Especially during the holidays..." He chuckles.

"I miss her cooking the most" I admit. I close my eyes and begin to remember her. "She always hummed when she cooked" he adds.

I open my eyes and look at Kakashi. "Her favorite was 'dream a little dream of me' she would always sing it in the morning... She always told me that she would sing it to her future children as a lullaby"

"She did" sometimes I can still hear her. "She was great..." he whispers. I sit up on the couch and pour myself another drink. "She wasn't all that great... Not towards the end anyway..." I say.

He shakes his head, "What your mother did was wrong but... she's in peace now"

I look at him surprised, "You knew?" He smiles sadly, "Yeah, I knew your mother killed herself... Although your father made sure no one ever knew."

"He buried her like she was some dirty secret... But your mother was strong. Your mother created warmth in a home made of ice. She found happiness in a cursed place. She deserved so much more than the ending she got..."

I had never thought about my mother this way. I had always thought of my mother as someone fragile. Shake her too hard and she will break. She did break but I often forget how much she was thrown and shook before she did.

"You know I've seen a lot of pretty woman in my day" Kakashi begins to boast. I feel my eye twitch.

"All kinds of women with different shapes-"

"Kakashi-" I close my eyes and try to calm down.

"But your mom was the most beautiful one..." I open my eyes and look over at him. He's looking off into the distance. "...Brightest smile I've ever seen..." he whispers so gently my ears strain to hear it.

Before I have a chance to say something else my phone begins to ring. I take it out of my pocket and answer it.

"Hello"

"Sasuke where are you? I've been trying to get ahold of you" I hear Suigetsu's voice through the phone.

"Is something wrong Suigetsu?"

"I have a present for you. Where are you?"

"...Icha Icha Paradise..." I hesitate.

"The strip club?" I hear the humor in his voice.

"Just get here quick," I say and hang up.

I often wonder what God thinks of me. Is he proud of his creation... or am I one of his children that have been lost to Lucifer. I don't know if I'm good or bad. I don't know what's right or wrong. I no longer feel remorse for the things I do.

I sit in a chapel. One with huge stained glass windows. I whisper a silent prayer but I'm not sure if I believe in the words anymore. I shut my eyes and try to summon the little bit of faith I have left. I hope he hears me.

'When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears, and rescues them from all their troubles.' Psalm 34:17

I sit here for hours, waiting. For something, for a sign. Maybe I am no longer welcomed here. I am an intruder. A sinner. But surely god forgives all?

Maybe I am no longer loved... not even by him. What if he can no longer hear me? I shut my eyes. Have I been abandoned by the only one who has ever loved me?

"Kiba" I hear a gentle voice call out to me. But when I open my eyes I find no one.

"I still can't believe your at a strip club"

"I told you Suigetsu it's because I have some business with the owner. I'm not here to look at the girls." He stops walking to look at one of the dancers. I grab him and we keep walking.

"Whatever you say Sasuke."

We walk to Kakashi's office and go inside. Kakashi is sitting up on the couch. A fresh bottle of alcohol is on the coffee table. I watch as Kakashi pours himself yet another drink. I would tell him to slow down but who am I to say how much he can drink.

Suigetsu walks up to him slowly, "Are you... Kakashi Hatake?" he says star struck. Kakashi smiles and leans back on the couch, "Yes I am."

"Wow, it's great to meet you. I've heard a lot of stories about you. Is it true you-"

"Suigetsu, obsess over him later."

"Right," he says as a look of seriousness takes over. He sits down on the couch where I previously was and puts the papers he brought with him on the table. He shuffles through them until he finds the one he is looking for. Its a photo, he hands it to me.

Its a blurry picture of a car but then I see it. It's a traffic photo, the person driving the car is Kiba and Sakura is next to him in the passenger's side.

"Look at the time stamp"

My eyes widen, this was taken at 7:45 PM the night Hinata was assaulted. It falls into the two-hour range that we don't know what happens.

"I thought Sakura said she said stayed home and Kiba and Naruto left?"

Kakashi goes to stand next to me and snatches the photo. "Big surprise Sakura lied," he says as he looks at the photo. "This isn't enough to arrest Kiba" I state dejected.

Suigetsu shakes his head, "the kids never saw him but it is enough to question him."

"Its also enough to get a warrant to search his car" Kakashi adds. I smile, I take out my phone and dial Ino. But it goes straight to voicemail. Her phone is never off.

"What are you two waiting for? You know how long it takes to get a warrant from a judge. Let's go" Kakashi says suddenly sober. We both gather our stuff and leave.

I drive back home after seeing Neji. I feel so guilty for leaving him. But I had to do it. I love Sai. I don't want to lose him. I stop at a gas station and go inside. I am tempted to buy a bottle of whiskey. It's alcohol that got me in the situation I am in.

I sigh, it's my own fault. Liquor or not I shouldn't have done what I did. No drugs make you cheat your own actions do that on their own. I let a silly childhood crush and loneliness take over me.

I pick up some snacks and take them to the counter. As the cashier rings up my things he whispers something. I strain to hear. But after a second I understand. He's asking if I want to buy pills.

I am about to decline but in the last second, I buy some. I leave the gas station and get back in my car. I look at the two pills. I begin to drive again. I put down the window.

I should throw these out. Besides for all I know they could be poison or they could just be aspirin. I look at them in my hand. What if they are poison? But what if they're not?

What does it matter anyway?

I don't want to feel like this anymore. If I take them I will forget about my worries. I quickly put them in my mouth and swallow them. I don't feel anything. Maybe they were just aspirins and that guy ripped me off.

But as I continue to drive I begin to feel light. I put down all the windows and let the fresh air consume me. I begin to laugh. Because suddenly everything begins to seem so funny. My life has become a joke.

I continue laughing. I begin to press down on the accelerator. It's such a rush. I lift my head and close my eyes as I feel the wind in my hair. I haven't felt anything like this in so long. It feels like everything is alright. It feels like happiness.

I drive twice the limit but I don't care. I take the long way home. I don't want to go home. I don't want this to end. But sooner than I would have liked I make it home.

I get out of the car and almost fall. I giggle as I stumble to my door. I open the door and crash face down on the couch. I sigh in content. "Ino" I ignore him. "Ino" I still don't stir. "Ino get up" I finally raise my head. I look at Sai and am about to snap at him for ruining my moment.

But as I look at him I notice how disheveled he looks. I've never seen him look like that. I look around the room and notice how empty it looks. I sit up on the couch. Did we get robbed?

"Sai where is-"

Without a word, he points to a pile of boxes near the door. "Your brother said that he will come pick them up tomorrow"

"Sai I don't understand...?"

He sits down next to me and pulls something out of his pocket. He hands it to me.

My eyes widen. Its intimate pictures of me with Neji. I snap my head to him. It isn't till then do I notice the tears his eyes.

"...Please tell me its not true..." he whispers. I don't what to say. My silence screams the answer. He nods his head.

"Sai I-"

"You can keep the car... And everything else I gifted you. It would be wrong to take it back..."

"..."

"I... I don't want to see you again. Please leave"

I turn to look at him one last time but his face is stone cold. Without a word I stand up and leave the condo. Even after I shut the door I stand there for a couple of seconds.

I come to life again when I hear things being thrown and broken from inside. I take one last look then walk away.

The walls are white and the lights are bright. I blink a couple of times but nothing changes. The room feels cold. It reminds me of his study. I smell something but I can't put my finger on what it is. I look at the ceiling for a couple of seconds.

I finally will myself to move my head and look around. It feels so unfamiliar. I hear the tick of a clock but I don't know where it is coming from. I look at my hands.

Why do they feel so heavy? Why does everything feel so heavy? Why do they look so different? Have I always been this pale?

I look away from my hands and look at the bedside table. Sunflowers. That's what I've been smelling. Fresh sunflowers like mother always picked. "Hinata you're awake?" I raise my head and turn to the voice.

"Kiba?"

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