A/N: wow thanks for the awesome reviews. Yes it's very sad and I believe it's gonna get a little bit more sad before we get that calzona end game we all love. Anyways here you go friends...
Arizona POV
Being in this trailer with just Callie has become too much. Callie is right in front of my face and I hate that I can feel my body reacting to her. After all I've been through because of her, I still want her. I close my eyes and muster all the power I have. Turning my body around I try and open the door. But it's quickly slammed shut with her hand.
"Callie why are you doing this? It's been so long. I don't want to talk to you. Ever."
"Tell me why you're here? You came to watch me race?"
Taking a step to side, I turn around and look at her. She's still as beautiful as ever, with her soft luscious hair. Her luring brown eyes. What doesn't help is that she's hot as hell in her racing suit.
"I'm here because April knows I watch Nascar."
I see her chest puff up, that I still keep tabs on her.
"So you do watch me?" She smirks
"Yes, but mostly to cheer on the other guy." I bluntly say.
"Wow, that hurt." Callie said holding her hand over heart.
"Right anyways I need to go." I say thinking I shared too much with her. I grab the door knob and seeing that this time Callie isn't gonna try and stop me. I make my exit.
Passing April, "Let's go April."
"What? Where are we going?" She says trying keeping up with me.
All of a sudden, I feel someone grab my hand and pull me back.
"You guys are coming with me. April you go with Jackson." Callie says leaving no room to argue.
"Arizona. You're coming with me."
Before I can even say something. I'm being led to a limo.
"Callie. I don't want to go anywhere with you?"
Nothing.
Folding my arms, finally giving in."Fine whatever's."
As always what Callie wants. Callie gets. I always give into her. No matter how many years passed. The rest of the ride is filled with tension. Can't say I'm not comfortable around her. This woman in front of me knew everything about me. She's scorned me from ever moving on. She's the reason why falling in love is too Damn hard.
Finally, we pull up to the hotel. Of course she would stay here. This is the host hotel. We pull around the building and go under a tunnel. The driver stops and opens the door, wow she must be a big deal if she gets to go through the private entrance. Of course if not it would start a riot.
"Thanks for the ride." I say trying to hop out.
"Please can't you spend your birthday with me?"
Stopping midway out the door, I look in the limo. Thinking she wouldn't remember, after all it's been almost 10 years.
Stepping out the door, "What you think I forgot?" Callie grabs my hand and pulls me to the private elevator. It's quiet and then something pops in my head and before I can even say something.
"Your friends already at my suite."
Wow she still knows me so well. Walking into her suite, I see April leaning against the kitchen island talking to who I'm guessing is Jackson. I've never seen April smile so big. Walking up to island I turn to April. "Hey you okay?"
"Yeah, are you okay? Wha-"
"Later. I'll tell you later." I say quickly and she nods at me understanding.
"Jackson, you guys good?" Callie says standing right behind me. Why must she feel so good? Why do I still want her?
"Yeah we're good boss. By the way, good pre race. I made about 2 bands, on it." He says showing his wad of cash.
"What have I told you guys. Stop placing bets."
"Well it's easy money. By the way you seen '007' face when you blew him out the water he was all-"
Quickly cutting him off. "Thanks Jackson." Callie says bluntly.
She puts her hand on the center of my back, and leads me to another room. Finally, she shuts the door and I walk around admiring the view from her room.
"I've missed you." I hear her say. Speaking to her right now would be too much. So I nod my head and continue to look out the window.
"I know I shouldn't have walked away that night. I just didn't know what to do Zoney."
"Don't call me that." I say trying to break any connection that we had from the past.
"Fine Arizona." She whispered. Quietness. All you can hear is the music playing from the living room.
"You know what! I'm not the only one at fault here!" She snapped and that grabs my attention.
"Excuse me?"
"You're the one who changed the game! You were always supposed to be my best friend! You were all I had Arizona. Don't you get that?"
"Of course I got that. You were all I had also. But I didn't think that would be the end."
Flashback
I couldn't answer Arizona through text that I just wanted to be her friend. That we shouldn't pass those boundaries that we set up to keep us both safe. Arizona deserved more than just a text. So I met her at our spot, and there she was sitting on couch crossed leg with a cigarette in her hand.
Breaking the silence and her train of thoughts "You smoke?"
"As of tonight yeah, I was so nervous. So I grabbed one of my dad's cigarettes." Arizona rushed out.
"Yeah I know it's gross, but I needed something to calm my nerves." She says putting it out on the corner of the table.
"Yeah..."
Nervously, Arizona starts playing with her hands.
"So we should.. Umm.."
Taking the seat next to her, "Yes we should talk."
"Arizona, you're my best friend and we can't pass that line."
"I get that Callie. But when we're kissing, it's the first time I ever felt whole. If that makes any sense?" She says shyly.
That's what I always loved about Arizona. That even though she was shy and that she was scared, she stood her ground. Hearing those words leave her mouth felt amazing. When we were kissing, I never wanted it to end. Arizona has always been my core. She's what kept me together, when all I wanted to do was crumble. So when we kissed it felt like coming home. That I'm finally home.
I must have been quiet cause I hear her. "Calliope? Did you hear anything I just said?"
"Yes." I said looking into her eyes.
"And?" She says looking back at me and I can feel the heat coming from her. My mouth is practically watering. I know what's about to happen, I'm about to cross that line. Looking down at her lips, I bite mines. Slowly leaning in, Arizona mirrors my actions and we're kissing again. Only thing different it's urgent. Like I have to have her, if not I'll die.
Quickly ridding all our clothes, I lay her down on the couch, spreading her legs. Her bundle of nerves staring back at me, begging to be licked.
"Callie, I need you." Arizona whined.
Softly blowing on her inner thigh and now on her clit, "I know, baby. I know."
The moment my tongue connected with her clit, I was done. Arizona was so sweet and nobody tasted as good as her.
"Fuuuck" she moaned. "Yes right there. Callie."
Hearing her coax me on, I slowly slid one finger inside of her tight, tight pussy.
"Yeesssss..don't stop."
Her inner muscles are squeezing my fingers so tight, I know she's close, I bite down on her clit and Arizona hits her climax. "Holy shit!! Fuck! Fuck I'm cumming."
Sliding up her body, I kiss those lips. Arizona is sucking so hard on my bottom lip, I can feel a little bit of blood being drawn.
"Wait.. wait." She stops and I move off of her.
"You okay?" I say with my wanting eyes.
"Yes, you just.. gave me an amazing orgasm, but you're still wearing all you clothes."
"Well you should change that then?" I smirked.
Arizona quickly sits up and pulls my shirt and sports bra off. Immediately after, she yanks my basketball shorts off along with my boxers, and out springs my cock. Arizona starts pumping my cock like it's the most natural thing in the world. Leaning down she sucks the tip and I think I'm gonna explode.
"Callie, I've never."
"I know." Because I know everything about her. I know she's never had sex with a penis before. I know this would be her first cock.
"I'm sorry if I'm not go-"
"Don't even finish that sentence beautiful. You're already making me feel good." To which she licks the base of my cock to the tip, making me squirm.
"Arizona, I'm not gonna last and I don't want to come in your mouth baby."
Letting go the tip, she sits up and kisses my lips. She sits on my lap and I can feel her clit pulsing against my cock. I need to be in her soon.
"Arizona are you sure? I know this is your first time. We don't nee-"
She cuts me off with her lips, all while she lines me up her soaked pussy and she slowly slides down.
"Im...sure..You're ... sooo..biiig." She says breathlessly against my lips.
Kissing her neck and that spot she loves. "You're almost there. Relax.. breathe.." With that I push myself all the way into her.
"Fuuuuuuckkk!" She moaned.
"Are you okay?" I said looking into her eyes.
"Yes, keep fucking me." Not expecting her to be such a dirty talker, my hips flex and I thrust deep into her. "Holy shit.. yes Callie.. just like that..."
Wanting to feel all of Arizona, I lay her down on the couch never breaking our connection. Her arms and legs wrap around me locking me in. Picking up my pace and Arizona starts moaning louder. Her nails digging deep into my back and it only turns me on more.
"Arizona, are you close? I'm so close baby." I say sucking on her neck.
"Yes.."
"Cum for me." I whispered against her lips. With that, Arizona let's go and reaches her climax. Squeezing my cock so tight I release everything into her. I roll over and pull Arizona in my arms. I held her all night.
The next morning, it hits me. I can't do this to us. To her. She deserves more. I can't give her much. I'm a fucking mess all I'll ever do is hold her back. I move to get up and that stirs Arizona from her sleep.
"Hey." She says groggily and I know in this moment, it just solidifies what I already knew. That I'm in love with her.
"Hey."
"You leaving?" She says sitting up.
I don't answer her. I continue getting dress.
"Callie? Cal?! Calliope!!!"
"Look Arizona. Last night was great. It was a mistake. I'm sorry." I say quickly rubbing the tears that are about to fall. "I gotta go. I can't do this."
That was the last time we ever say each other.
Arizona POV
"So what your saying it's my fault?!"
"Not all of it! Look I didn't think that day would be the last day I would ever see you. I really did miss you Arizona. I missed you everyday."
"You want me to believe that bull shit. Maybe 19 year old Arizona would believe you. But I don't." I say making my way to the door.
"Wait! Please! I don't want to fight with you. How are you?" She laughed knowing how dumb she was asking that question.
"I'm good."
"That's good." Callie says taking a seat and patting the one next to it. Yeah right the last time I sat by you, you left. So I take the seat across of her.
"Tell me everything."
"Everything? Why?"
"Arizona, please can you just not fight me. I'm just so fucking happy to see you."
"Fight you? All you ever did was fight me?!" I scoffed.
"So are you a doctor?" She asked.
Wow, she truly never cared to look me up after.
I nod my head.
"So how was med school? I bet you were the smartest person." She smiled sincerely.
My stomach lurches of the thought of what I had to go through. All these years. "I need to go. I can't pretend that everything is okay." I stand up again.
Right when I hit the door, she whispered loud enough for me to hear. "I always wanted to call you."
I stop and listen with my back facing her.
"All the messages you left, I wanted to listen to them."
I turn around and look her dead in the eye, with so much hurt and so much anger I thought I let go of.
"You didn't listen to them? Not one?"
"No." She whispered.
"Fuck you Callie. Leave me the fuck alone."
Callie POV.
Wow that hurt as much as I thought it would. I didn't think this is what would happen if ever saw each other again. Sure she would be pissed.
If this is the last time, I see her ever. She deserves to know how I felt and what happened.
"Today, I woke up and something was off."
"What?" Arizona says confused.
"All day, I had a feeling something was gonna happen. So when the security ran to the stands, I never look but today something told me to look and it was you."
"Mhmm."
"By the way why were you fighting Penny?"
"Penny? So you know her?"
Knowing I gave myself away and I shouldn't lie. Especially to Arizona.
"Yeah, I know her. She's Umm."
"Whatever Callie. What you do is not any of my concern."
"I know.. still. I'm just sorry Arizona."
"Yeah, aren't we all Calliope." She spits back.
"I promise I was gonna talk to you. I always do. It might take time but I always do."
Arizona nods her head, still listening to me.
"What happened?"
"I was gonna come see you before you left to Hopkins, but..." I paused trying to hold myself together. Arizona stands up again and she mistaken my quietness, and assumes I don't want to tell her.
"I'm trying Arizona, just give me a minute okay?!" I say frustrated.
"That day my dad stabbed me okay? He tried to fucking kill me."
Arizona eyes go big? "What?"
I stand up and rip my tank off showing her the scar. Her hands are instantly on me, my cock stirs just from her innocent touch.
"Calliope... did you go to the hospital?"
"No, I left and went as far as possible. Then I figured too much time had past and I had no idea how to make it right..."
And again these moments we have nothing to say but stay quiet.
"But I'm here now. And I want to make this right."
Quietness again. I want to say so much, but I know she needs time to think. So I let her, and I watch her. She's so beautiful and she's all I ever wanted.
After looking out the window for so long, she turns to me with tears in her eyes. "Callie, it doesn't matter. This.." she points between me and her. "Was so long ago."
"It does matter. You're my best friend Arizona. That has to count for something.
All of a sudden some man barges in,
"Mark what the fuck?!"
"You need to stay hydrated tomorrow's gonna be hotter than a motherfucker."
"Mark can't you see I'm talking to someone!?"
"Yes I can. By the way I'm Mark." He says reaching his hand out.
"Umm I'm Arizona."
Mark's eyes goes huge and before he can say anything, I push him out the door.
"I'm sorry about that."
"Look, you have a big day tomorrow. I should let you rest."
"Arizona, we need to talk."
"You should listen to him. You need to stay hydrated."
I pick up the water, and drinks it all in one go. "There I'm hydrated. Happy now Dr. Robbins?"
"Yes." She laughed for the first time tonight. "Callie you need to rest."
"Can you just stay the night?" I plead.
Arizona eyes go wide. "No I don't mean it like that. I just want to talk to you. How about we go get some doughnuts?"
"It's crazy out there. We can't go Callie."
"Okay, so we'll stay inside and order some."
Arizona POV
Callie draws a hard bargain and as much I know I should stay away from her, I can't.
"Okay."
"Okay?" Callie smiles.
"I need to check on April and see if she's okay."
"Of course."
I stand up and walk outside and April is leaning against the counter still talking to Jackson. She sees me and walks over to me.
"Hey, so what's going on?" I shoulder bump her.
"I should be asking you the same question. Why did you not tell me you knew Callie?"
"There's nothing to say." I laughed trying to play it off.
"Arizona?"
"Callie and I? We're high school classmates."
Callie pulls up behind me, "No we're not just high school classmates. Stop making as if that's all we were. You know we were more than that." She says as she continues to walk towards her team.
"Wow, she's hot."
"Yeah, tell me something I don't know." I say eyeing her up and down. Those curves still as delicious as ever.
"You remember the mess I was when I first got to med school."
April's eyes goes big and I cover her mouth. "Yes, I'll tell you about it later."
"Arizona, do you want to go? We can go."
"No, it's okay. I'm fine. I'll let you know if I change my mind."
As much as I know walking away would be best, part of me wants to know everything about her.