Aidzuki's pov

After that moment jacob and i shared you'd think we would go back to normal or better then normal.

But...

Then you'd be expecting to much. Actually if anything it got worse. Not cause I fell out of love, not cause jacob realized he wasn't into guys, not even cause we had a fight. No.

Our problems come in the form of a wheelchair bound billy black.

I never expected him to react in such a way when he found out about our already frail but budding relationship. But then again we never expected him to find out so soon. Or maybe at all. It was an complete accident.

*** it's been two months since me and Jacob kissed and confessed our love to eachother. Gone was the awkwardness of that first kiss. Now just a memory that we giggle about.

Me and Jacob were currently on his bed in his room cuddled together. My head on his chest eyes closed as his heartbeat soothed me to sleep slowly. His hand was playing in my hair and his other one resting on his stomach mine on top of his.

I wrap my arm around him and hold him close so that there's no space between us. I sigh contented.

"Aidzuki" I look up into brown eyes.

"Yes" I whisper.

He doesn't say a word just leans down and connects our lips together in a long gentle kiss that starts up the tingles and makes me smile. I kiss him back passionately and I became so lost in the kiss I didn't hear the the slight squeak of billys wheels until it was far to late. Jacob's door opens and a surprised sound is heard. Me and Jacob sit up so fast we nearly fall off the bed.

Billy stares at us with his mouth opening and closing. He shakes his head and blinks as if he thinks he's just imagined his son kissing his male best friend.

"What is the meaning of this?" He finally says after a few tens moments.

Non of us answers just stares at the man with wide eyes. I'm not gonna lie I'm scared as hell right now. Jacob looks back at me and sees the look on my face and his face turns stoic as he turns back to his father.

Billy only narrows his eyes as he sees the look on Jacob's face. A look that says he's ready for a fight.

Jacob sits up taller and breathes in deeply. "I love him" is all he says and I look at him shocked. Not just me but billy to.

Billy snaps out of it first his expression now blank. "I'm calling sam" he then wheels out of the room jacob jumps up and follows him yelling out a 'why?'.

I stay seated on the bed staring off not knowing what just happened.

I hear yelling down the hall but I don't really hear anything. Not cause I can't but because I'm scared and my hearts beating fast. What's gonna happen now?

There's a knock at the door and then some words are said all I hear is. 'Make sure jacob doesn't do something he'll regret' and a 'ok' and a confused 'huh' from jacob.

Next thing I know my name is called and I freeze not knowing what to do. I don't wanna go out there. No! Suck it up!

I get up and tentatively walk down the hall. Why is it so quiet. Well it's not quiet there's sam telling jacob to shut up and Jacob saying ,more like growling, that it's non of Sam's business and what are you gonna do dad.

When I reach the living room billy looks at me with a sad face and says. " I'm sorry aidzuki but I've decided it's best if you and Jacob stop seeing eachother for a while. Please pack your things."

My eyes widen and I look at sam who look at me with his usual serious expression and to jacob who was growling under his breath looking like he was about to hurt someone.

No. That wasn't fair. I just got him. He was mine. MINE DAMMIT!

I feel a single tear go down my face as I close my eyes. I don't care if it makes me look weak. I was hurt. How could billy be that way? Doesn't he care about how jacob feels? Or that I have no where else to go?

But I don't fight it is can't.

So when I open my eyes I'm scowling without realizing it and it seems to surprise the others in the room. Billy, probably expecting a fight, opens his mouth. I don't give him a chance to speak before I do.

"Fine" I say calmly.

I turn around and walk off to the room I have occupied thus far and grabbed my things and putting them into my backpack. I yank the covers off my bed sending a snoozing squirrel tumbling over the edge. "Wake up. We're leaving".

That's when billy comes in and starts telling me that I wouldn't understand. That jacob can't be with a boy. Whatever he meant I ignored him and stalked out with Hoshi on my shoulder to the front door.

I opened the door and pause I look back at jacob who now looks sad as he looks back at me. I smile but he doesn't return it and I wasn't expecting him to. Sam looks at me strongly and slightly disgusted.

Then I'm leaving. Taking off at high speed as soon as I reach the forest.***

I'm currently stomping on the trunk of a tree I had knocked down in my anger. I don't know where I am but I do know I'm near the cullens empty house. I know cause I smell their lingering scents. Though the smell of them is stronger in the woods surrounding their property.

my stuff is in my backpack thrown carelessly to the side. The stuff I was forced to pack while I was followed around by Billy who was talking to me as if he was chastising a child. And then the looks I received from Sam who billy had called over 'just in case jacob got to angry' or whatever.

It's not like jacob would hurt him. Actually I dont see what him being angry has to do with anything. He just stood there glaring at sam and growling under his breath. It made me want to go up to him and hug him to calm him down.

I glance at my bag and for the second time that day my anger melted away exposing the deep sadness underneath. I slump down to the ground and whimper quietly.

I feel a wet nose poke at my hand and look down to see a dog Hoshi looking up at me. I shake my head.

"I don't wanna talk about it" I say quietly. He nods once and curls up by my side.

I can't believe this. I find out Jacob loves me to and he gets taken away. Or more like I get kicked away. Or out. Whatever.

I start to cry silently. I want him back. What have I done to piss off the gods so much that they have to punish me in such away.

I stand up still crying as my ears and tail emerge along with long claws and my canins elongate i snarl through my tears as I began attacking the trees once again. Scratching and punching and kicking. Taking huge trunks out of the trees around me.

I start hitting them harder and some fall completely. All I wanted was to be happy. All I needed to be happy was him. So why kami? Why can't I have him!

I turn to a bolder and my hands glow a faint black as I give a final punch that blows me back as a huge explosion happens on contact.

I lay there staring at the sky. I felt numb. And feeling nothing is great. Cause now I can think. I lost my family, I lost my home... twice, and now I've lost jacob. Only two months after we finally made up. It hurt cause I thought billy was family. I thought he considered ME family! It wasn't fair. Don't I deserve something to take away this pain.

I guess I was stupid to think so.

I groan and sit up to look at what had happened and my eyes widen as I stare at the huge crater a couple of feet from me. Did i do that? some of the trees have been effected and we're either broken or leaning outward away from the damage. The bolder itself was no where in sight.

What the hell.

Then i realize and roll my eyes. Oh. Space wolf puberty. Part 2.

I lay back down and turn my head as my hand flops down on a weirdly colored rock.

Wait.

The rock moves and then theres a head poking out at me. Hoshi. Turtle hoshi.

She looks at me then the crater the back at me. I just shrug causing her to glare at me. I'm tired. Very tired. I push her head back inside and look back up at the sky.

I feel a nibble on my finger bit pay Hoshi no mind. Sleep sounds good.

So good.

I yawn and close my eyes. Im sleeping as soon as they shut.

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When I wake up its to lapping at my face by a giant wet thing. I huff and turn over ignoring what can only be hoshi. Though not even a second later there's tugging on my black hair. I reach back and swat at her and my hand comedy in contact with a snout. I hear a snort but that's it. So when nothing else happens for a while I just decide to go back to sleep.

I guess I'm as foolish as akaiame-sensai said.

"OUCH!" I yell jumping up.

I glare around until I look down at a...a...

Pony.

That's new. Or is it. Eh.

I snap out of it and continue glaring at the tiny thing that looks back at me just blinking.

"Did you really just bite my ass" hoshi just nods her head once and continues staring at me.

I look incredulously at her. I lift my foot and slam it on her face. Then I do it again. And again. And again. Then once more.

When I lift my foot from her face she looks dazed and she starts swaying on four stubby legs. I turn my back to her and search to see if my stuff was ok. If I could find where the hell it is.

I tilt my head and began sniffing to see if I can catch the scent on it. When I do get the scent I follow it up to a tree but the trail disappears when I walk around it. So for the next ten minutes I'm sniffing around the tree completely confused.

But hey I've never claimed to be a genius.

As going around the tree again I hear a snickering sound and look over at hoshi who was just standing there. I narrow my eyes at her but continue my not so search. I hear the sound again and quickly look at hoshi who was now pursing her lips trying not to laugh.

"What!'' I say throwing my hands up.

The little pony(ha) then kneels and start making a strange sound that could only be a laugh. I glare at her and place my hands on my hips as she collapses in her fit of laughter.

I growl "What so damn funny!?"

The hoarse, still laughing, shifts into a monkey making the laugh more annoying then before. I tap my foot waiting for her to tell me why I'm so comical at the moment.

Still laughing hoshi points up and I follow her finger only to blush bright red when I see my bag up in the tree. My face only seems to bring a new bout of laughter as the monkey falls to the ground again.

I pout at her before turning back to the tree and using my nails to climb up it all the way to my stuff which I have to tug at since it's stuck on the branch. I nearly fall when I pull hard and it comes free but I managed to catch myself.

I soon as I hit the ground. I pause. My ears begin to move back and fourth as I hear something that sounds like very fast footsteps coming my way. I quickly retract my claws and hide my ears and tail as the person or... vampire!

I stare at her and she is most definitely a vampire. Pal skin, unnatural beautiful, but she has red eyes instead of gold like the cullens. She has curly red hair and what seems to be a scowl on her face.

Is she here for the cullens? Or their house? Did the cullens put their house on some vampire market? Hmm vamps are weird.

The vampire doesn't seem to notice me so I stay still in hopes that she never will. The cullens told me that some of the red eyed vampires were... not so good. And I've had enough drama.

She walks from the trees gracefully examining the damage I had created she stops at the crater and raises an eyebrow. I tense when she raises her head and she breathes in. Her eyes close and she smiles and suddenly she looking at me.

I don't like that smile on her face.

"Why hello there. What is a delicious little snack like you doing out here all by yourself?" I paled and she cackled and slowly stalked towards me.

I back up until my back hits the tree. "Uh w-what are you doing?" I ask and she stops and tilts her head in thought.

"Well I'm having dinner." Oh God. By the look on her face I'm guessing I'm dinner.

Not waiting for her to come closers I turn in the opposite direction to run only to be face to face with her. She grabs my hair and yanks it to the side.

In my panic I push my hands out against her chest and she let's go as she flies back. Not waiting for her to hit the ground I take off into the direction she came from.

Soon I'm dodging trees and jumping over rocks and logs as fast as I could making everything blur past me. I quickly take out my ears and they swivel around and as I suspected there are fast footsteps coming my way.

I stop for a split second and sniff the air and I smell a body of water to my left and head for it at top speed.

I expected a small river or lake but what I come across is a cliff I look down to see water running down between both the two cliffs. I look back to see the red head running at me with a smirk that says 'your mine' I look back down and I take a breath.

Then i jump.

I hear a curse as I fall and I wanted to smirk but then I realize that I'm still falling and might get seriously hurt or die. I take in a another breath then I close my eyes as water surrounds my body.

I kick to resurface but the water keeps dragging me down and there's nothing my hands could find to grab onto I continue trying to swim but the current just keeps dragging me down. A burning slowly fills my lungs as they demand oxygen.

My vision becomes blurry and I breath in some water my body start to thrash weakly until it just stops then darkness takes over me as I get washed away.

'I never thought this would be how it ends' was my last thought before falling unconscious.

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"How is he?" I hear a familiar voice say.

Was that... Jacob.

I try to open my eyes but I find that my eyelids are far to heavy as well as all my limbs.

"Well as you can see he's still unconscious jacob. He might never wake up it already been a month." I hear a female voice say in annoyance but it was overshadowed by concern. I hear a whimper that could only be jacobs.

"Leah! Don't say that in front of him!" Seth.

"Well no one else was going to! Mom's been putting it off for a while. And I tired of seeing false hope on Jacob's face when he walk in here. The guy was barely breathing when sam found him!" Oh so it was mister stoic who'd found me. I should thank him. He's still an ass.

"LEAH! that's enough" I heard the voice of sam. Damn how many people are in here! And why are they talking so loud!

With great effort I open my eyes and close them do to the light being to bright. I try again slower this time and my eyes adjusted I look over to see jacob sitting beside me and Seth on his other side a hand on his shoulder as he glared at the only girl in the room who I'm guessing is Leah as she looked down at the ground a sneer on her face.

Hm she reminds me of rose.

In the doorway to the room stood sam who stood tall while he looked at leah.

I look back to Jake but can only see his ear and part of his face cause he wasn't looking my way his long hair was pushed behind his ear cascading down his muscled back.

I reach out and grab a strand gently tugging on it. He turns so fast that Seth gets scared and nearly falls over. When jacob looks at me he visibly relaxes and he reaches out a caresses my cheek and smiles.

I smile and lean my head into his hand. "Aidzuki how are you feeling? Can you speak? What happened? Why where you in the water?" Jacob ask question after question and I couldn't help but smile as his yes kept scanning me as if looking for injuries.

I giggle and it sounds a little raspy but it shuts him up and he looks at me confused. Which makes me laugh a little louder. I stop and look back at Jake with confusion.

"Excuse me but who are you?" I ask with a confused smile.

The look on Jacob's face was so funny I couldn't help but laugh again.

"I was kidding!" I laugh and Jacob hits my shoulder.

"OW! Ass that hurt" I yelled. "Cause that wasn't funny I really thought you forgot me!"

I burst out laughing again "I know. I saw your face."

He hits my shoulder again harder then before. I yelp and glare "Sore wa itai yo. Ran'yō!".

Jacob chuckles but then gets really serious" What happened? You were blue and half dead when sam found you" he says.

"Well I jumped off a cliff beca-" I start when jacob interrupts.

"What!? Why the hell would you do that?!" He demands. I glare at him.

"If you'd been quiet I would've been able to finish and TELL you." I say. Jacob blushes and the nods leah snorts and Seth giggles.

"I was in the forest and I saw this pal woman with red eyes-" I was once again interrupted but by Sam this time.

"Seth. Jacob. Out. Now" they both look at him and Seth starts moving but jacob only shakes his head. I put my hand on his shoulder and sam looks at it with narrowed eyes. But i don't pay it any mind.

"I'm ok jake." I say and he hesitates but eventually stands and leaves the room. Sam walk in and closes the door before taking the seat jacob occupied a little while ago.

"This woman did she move fast?" He ask like as if he's interrogating me.

"Yes" I say simply.

"Was she strong?" He says like he already knows but needs to make sure.

"Like you wouldn't belive." I say narrowing my eyes. Why does he know so much about vampires? Does he know about their existence? Is it why he smells so strange?

He looks at leah so he doesn't notice my expression. They exchange looks and suddenly leah nods and she's out the room in the next minute.

Sam stands and looks down at me. "Thank you. You are at the Clearwater residence. You should thanks mrs Clearwater. She took care of you." I nod and sam leaves the room in a hurry.

As Jacob's and Seth are coming in I hear a howl in the distance. And it pulls at something inside me But i thought nothing of it. I've heard that howl before but I just think it's wolves calling to eachother and that's why I feel that way.

Jacob sits down next to me and takes my hand but I don't think that he notices he did.

He looked at me with an expression I couldn't quite understand.

"I'm sorry ki. That my dad kicked you out because of me. I missed having you around. Though you were only gone a day before you show up half dead." He chuckles tensly and I smile at him.

I place my hand on his upper arm like I always do and I see the tension he was trying to hide from me melt away.

"It wasn't just your fault. It's mine too. And also his. We treated it like something to hide and I'm sure that bugged him more then anything. Has he talked to you about it?" Jacob nods and furrows his brow as if he's confused about something.

"He said that it was for our own good. That it wouldn't last. Cause I'd change and meet a nice girl that means everything to me. And I'd leave you cause I might want children. But I feel that you're my everything. I was so angry when I thought I was losing you" he said his voice cracking at the end i looked at him with tears in my eyes. I meant everything to him.

"I feel that way to. But..." I said.

"But?" He echoed.

"Y-you said the s-ame thing about Bella to me. More then once. And I know you really love her. I see it in your face whenever we hang out together. And you always ignore me. I feel like I'm just plan B. And I'm here cause plan A is going no where fast." I don't know why I brought this up. Maybe cause it's been bothering me since we got together-ish.

Cause he might love her more then me.

"I do love bella. Alot. But i also love you alot. But... I'm not gonna lie and say that haven't thought about being with her over you. Cause I have. Many times. But not cause I love her more or anything like that" he blushes and looks away.

He sighs and slumps " I know it sounds cowardice but I only thought about it cause it would make everyone else happy. So that things would be easy. I'm not saying I can't be happy with her. But with you I'm already happy and we don't even have to try. With you I'm me. Or something cheesy like that." He laughs.

"What I'm saying is. Even if I love you the same amount the love is different. Like what bella says about me and Edward. Hey you know speaking of bella. She's doing better. Though she still seems a bit off. But anyway she's been coming around lately and keeping my mind off of you. Though that was impossible. She had to physically drag me away from you. I wanted to be here when you woke up." Ugh he's babbling. Whatever he is trying to say it's making him nervouse.

He inhales deeply and I roll my eyes. Baka. Just say it already.

"I promised bella that if you woke I'd go to the movies with her and some friends. It's two days from now but I'm not sure if I want to leave you here alone." He said looking around.

"Don't worry about it jake. I know it's not you blowing me off" heh " she's your friend. And she needs her friends right now. Namely her best friend. And that's you. Plus I heal fast. I don't need you to babysit. I'll be up and running by then and I have things to take care of. You know by myself." I admit. While talking to sam I remembered the black Light that surrounded my hands.

It seems my abilities are coming in fast and I shouldn't get the last one for awhile. Jiji didn't get his until he turned two hundred and twenty seven. When it came in he was able to move things without touching them. Telekinesis? I think is what it was.

Getting your third ability was somewhat important to my people. Whether it was controlling wind or just extra speed it was always celebrated. The celebration I went to was for my Jiji there were people everywhere. We first watched Jiji perform his powers in order of manifestation. Then there was a feast. Then people danced, sang, and drank. Well the adults did the kids just ran around playing.

But I'll never have that. I won't be able to have a lot of things since my realm is most likely a waste land now but I came to terms with all that. Even the fact I'll never have the mate meant for me. And that jacob might be the only thing that comes close.

Anyways what I was planning was to go train my new abilities. I was hoping to to use jacob as a test subject for my first ability. Now that I'm sure I don't have the death touch, though I don't know how it would have effected jasper, I could use jacob. But now that I know he has plans I could bother hoshi. I didn't want to be alone but I don't want to stop jacob from hanging out with someone other then me.

"Are you sure, you'll be fine. Cause I won't leave if yo-" I sit up fast and peck Jacob's lips before laying down leaving him blinking in confusion. I giggle at his face "I said I'll be fine." He blinks at me and nods.

"Now! Either shut up or get up here cause I'm sleepy." I turn my back to him and get comfortable. I wait for the sound of jacob walking away or crawling on the bed. Though I knew what he'd most likely choose I couldn't help but feel that he'd still leave me alone.

I gasp slightly when the bed beside me dips and an arm wraps around me and pulls me back against something soft and warm. Though jacob layer on top of the covers I could tell that most of the warmth was coming from him. I sigh and drift off into blissful sleep.