Aidzuki's pov
I wince at bella's tone.
"Sorry bella but it wasn't mine to tell. But i can tell you that it happened the night you guys went to the movies." I said to her. She relaxes a little.
"It's a wolf thing. Sam's orders gets obeyed whether we want to or not." Embry slumps in his chair. "Oh and check it out we can hear eachothers thoughts." He says cocky.
"Would you shut up! These are trade secrets, dammit! This chick runs with vampires." Jared gestures at bella embry elbows him and points his chin at me.
"Why do you guys keep mentioning pale faces around him. Haven't we revealed enough." He said lowly through gritted teeth. Jared cringed.
"Nah you guys are ok. I know about vampires cause of the cullens."They made oh faces.
"Why did they try to eat you?!" Embry said more like snarled. I shake my head and glare at him.
"No, they gave me a place to stay. They were so hell bent on appearing human they tried eating human food. Yeah that didn't turn out well." I pursed my lips awkwardly .
"Is that when the cullens found out about you? Do they know?" She pointed at the tan boys across from us.
They leaned forward and looked between bella and i.
"Know what?" I sigh and half heartedly glare at bella. I then turn back to them.
"Well let's just say you and the cullens aren't the only non-humans." I say and they look at me surprised.
"Holy- really. You?!" Jared exclaimed.
I simply nod.
"Well what the hell are you? Are you one of us?" Jared then narrows his eyes. "OR are you one of them?" He questions suspiciously.
I raise and eyebrow at them. "See I could understand being one of you but a vampire. Am I that beautifully deceiving?" I ask jokingly.
Everyone laughs at that. After calming down embry leans forward "Nah I think it's just 'cause you're pale." I pout at that. But i wanna be beautiful.
"Anyways I'm not even from here i'm from a whole other world I guess you could say. Also I'm more like you guys I'm just more wolf then human and i don't have a wolf form. You think I'd try to take on sam and Paul in wolf form if I was human." I ask.
"Wow I just thought you were brave. And that your teeth were just fakes." Embry said. My teeth were...huh?
"Wow bella you're a real supernatural magnet. Guess it's a side effect of running with vampires." Jared said.
Bella rolls her eyes. "Can't really run with vampires." Everyone looks at her. "Cause they're fast." She finishes. Emily laughs. Jared once again leans forward.
"Yeah well we're faster. Freaked out yet."
She slowly shakes her head "you're not the first monsters I met" I frown at her what does she mean by monsters. My expression goes unnoticed.
"Jake's right, you're good with weird." Is how Sam announced his presence. He meets my eyes briefly and i could see the annoyance though it was almost well hidden.
He walks up to Emily and envelopes her in his arms and they shared a short passionate kiss. Sam kisses her all over her face and she giggles. My attention is grabbed by the sent of jacob meaning he was coming. I look out the door and see jacob and that guy that almost attacked bella. They were
Talking then they laughed and Jacob shoved him a smile etched on his face.
Patrick...or whatever walk in and flops in a chair. Jacob just stands in the door way and stares at us...
Cullen much?
Kelvin looks at bella with a kind smile "sorry" Is all he says before looking my way he raised a brow.
"Were you really ready to fight me?" Really I don't get an apology. I pout but nod.
"Hmm good thing jake saved you then. Fake teeth only get you so far." He says and i feel my eye twitch.
"Watashi no ha wa anata ga oishigetta koinu o gizō shita monode wa arimasen. My teeth are 110% real!"I show them by pulling my mouth open with my pointer fingers.
"That proves nothing." Says Gareth.
"Nah man, he's legit. He's a freaking wolf boy" embry elbows...tony.
"I'm not a wolf bo- well." I make a face. "I am a wolf-"
"You're a wolf? how?" Sam stands straighter and asks much to my surprise. Wow he's actually talking to me. I guess the surprise showed on my face cause sam raises an eyebrow.
"W-well I come from a different realm hidden within this one though no one knows how to access it. Once someone leaves it's impossible to go back." I explain.
"Then why would you risk coming here? What about your family back home?" Asks emily. At the mention of my family and home I feel my body sag I look down when tears come to my eyes.
"Uh I think I'm gonna go talk to aidzuki and bella. Come on guys." Hearing This i get up quickly and speed walk past jacob and out the door but wait for bella and Jacob at the bottom of the steps.
Once they are beside me we walk in silence to the beach. It wasn't awkward but there was a slight tension and everyone was obviously deep in thought.
I was truly trying to focus on what I was gonna say to jacob, but it proved to be hard. Every time I settled on an opening it wasn't good enough I was hurt by jacob and i had every intention of saying so but this talk could go anyway in the end, which is what frightened me. I mostly wanted to know what sam had said to jake to make him never wanna see me again. My worse nightmare.
Not only that but he couldn't even tell me in person yet he could bella. And as i look over at him and see him looking at bella with a strange look like he was waiting for something I couldn't help the jealousy that bubbled in my chest.
We made it to the beach and continued strolling untill bella started the conversation.
"So you're a werewolf." She said. At least it's a place to start.
"Yeah, Last time I checked. Few lucky members of the tribe have the gene. Bloodsuckers move into town and the fever sets in." Jacob nods and exhales.
So all the heat and growing had everything to do with jakes transformation that and sams weird stalking. Maybe even his scent change which always seems to be the first thing I recognize when Jacob's around.
"Mono." Me and bella say at the same time jacob snorts a laugh and glances at bella for a brief second. The same thing he's been doing since we came out here.
Why was he doing this. Ignoring me and paying all his attention on bella like i wasn't here. He said he'd never do this to me. She isn't the only one here for answers?
"Well can't you just f-find a way to...stop. I mean it's...wrong." I look across at bella who was in Jacob's other side. I raise an eyebrow but it went unnoticed.
Jacob stops walking and faces bella his expressions held a little annoyance. "It's not a lifestyle choice bella, i was born this. I can't help it."
He shook his head and snorted "your such a hypocrite. When I'm not the right kind of monster for you." Now I turn to jacob. What did he mean by 'right kind of monster for you'? At this point I was glaring between bella and jacob.
What was going on with them. I know that they had spent time together while I was unconscious and gotten closer. But how much closer?
Jacob hasn't even looked at me. Hasn't even talked to me but he seems so comfortable telling bella everything. It brings me back to yesterday night when jacob visited bella and didn't want to see me. For a split second I thought that he was there for me.
Since we both confessed we never got the chance to be well...together. and i could see in his eyes that he neede me as much as I need him. And he fought against everything that wanted us apart. But something changed.
Did he not love me anymore? I shake my head. That thought scared me but it was all my thoughts led back to.
Was he mad that I left him in the woods the day he shifted? I just wanted him to learn everything he could about himself cause that wouldn't have happened had i stayed. Then again it could be something sam told him.
I wouldn't be surprised sam was always talking about us not working out. Whether we wanted to or not. Whatever that meant.
"It's not what you are...it's what you do. They've never hurt anybody. You've killed people jake" I looked shocked at bella. How could she believe that. It obviously wasn't wolves. I have a feeling it'd be alot...messier if it were.
"Bella! We're not killing anyone." He steps closer to bella. A little to close for my confort.
Bella looks taken aback "Then who is?"
"What we're trying to protect you people from, the only thing we do kill... vampires." I get worried after that statement. It couldn't be the cullens. That i know. Not even jasper.
Bella looks worried at jacob. She shakes her head "Jake you can't."
He huffs and rolls his eyes "Don't worry we can't touch your little precious cullens unless they violate the treaty."
Bella once again shakes her head "that's not what I'm saying. You can't kill vampires... they'll kill you." She looks at jacob in the eye.
He snorted "really? We took out the one with the dreads easy enough"
"Laurent?"
"His little red headed girlfriends next." Jacob nods once.
I look wide eyed at him. Red head. As in the red headed vampire who tried to make me their afternoon snack.
"V-v-victoria's here?" She stuttered a look of fear in place. I raise a brow. She knew her. I decide to keep my silence so they may finish. I still have to talk to jake.
"Was, we chased her all the way to the Canadian border the other night. She keeps coming back. We don't know what she's after."
"I do." She shallows and shakes her head. "Me."
After I hear that I'm no longer able to keep quiet like i planned. "What?! Why is she after you?" I nearly yell.
"Some time ago her mate ,James, was after me, he tricked me into thinking that he had my mother. I took the bait and went to meet him where he told me to. Alone. He almost killed me. But the cullens saved me. And killed james. And now Victoria is out for revenge on edward."
"Woah bella, whats where you thinking. You could've gotten yourself killed or one of the cullens." I looked worried at bella.
She puts her head down "I know that. But i was only thinking about my mom."
I shook my head. " Even if he had your mom he could've lied and killed her to." Bella rubbed at her eyes as she began to cry I was about to walk over to her but she was quickly enveloped in Jacob's arms.
"I'm sure she knows the risks of what she did aidzuki. You don't have to make her cry about it." Jacob SCOWLED at ME. I had to take a step back as i was shocked. I bit my bottom lip trying not to cry myself.
It was my turn to put my head down.
"Alright so what's gonna happen is that we're gonna go back to the Rez and you're gonna tell the pack and tell them what you told me ok" she nods and looks up at jacob with teary eyes. Jacob reaches up and wipes her tears away.
I resisted a growl that bubbled in my throat. Even more so when it look like bella was leaning up.
"Jacob i-i want to speak with you." Jacob seemed to snap out of a trance his back muscles tensing.
"Alone." I whisper the last part in hopes he'd here me.
I saw him nod "after bella is safe and the pack is aware of what is happening." He said looking over his shoulder.
I noded then realised that even if he was looking back that he wasn't looking at me. Still. I turn my head to the side. "Ok."
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Bella, jacob, and I pull up to her house and I'm the first to get out eager to talk to my ja- best friend.
Bella walks up to her house jake close behind "Don't worry we've got this place covered. She won't get near you or charlie."
Bella turns to face him. "You've got to be careful, she's fast. You don't know how fast she is." I roll my eyes. Jeez bella I have way more confidence in the wolves then you do.
"You know your lack of confidence in us is a little bit insulting." Jacob said sounded a little annoyed again.
I nod. Just what I was thinking. Kind of. She just looked nervous and laughed awkwardly and Jacob smiled.
I cleared my throat.
Jacob noded. "I gotta go."
Bella returned the nod. "You've got to go."
Bella turns a waves at me. "See you aidzuki." I nod and she walks into the house.
I watch as jacob walk past me gesturing for me to follow. Though I was a little upset at this i follow anyway since it's what I've been waiting for.
We go a little ways into the forest and stop jacob sits on a large rock while I settled for standing up.
"So what is it you wanted to talk about?" Is how he begins. I don't stop the growl this time.
"You're fucking joking with me jacob!" I raise my voice. His face changes to surprise.
"What is wrong with you? Are you angry at me? Since you... changed you, well, changed."I said a bit more calmly.
"I know. And it's for the better. You wouldn't understand, it's a wolf thing."He says.
"I don't care what kind of 'thing' it is jacob. Make me understand!" I cross my arms.
He sets his jaw and goes deep in thought like he was thinking of what he would say. While he was doing that I let my tail out and held it in my hands petting it softly something I did when hoshi wasn't around to calm me.
Finally he settles on something to say. "Aidzuki we can't...do...this." He gestured between the both of us. I froze as a chill went through my body.
"Wh- Wha-i-i-no." Was all I could say. My worst fear coming true. Jacob doesn't want to be with me. The one person that mind as well tear me in half and take it with him.
"W-why? Why can't we be together! I thought this is what you wanted." It's what I wanted I add in my head. I can feel my heart speeding up. Crushed but not yet breaking.
"I did want this." He whispers and i take in a sharp breath at 'did' "Sam tol-"
"SAM! he was against us from the start how can you liste-" He cuts me off.
"Because he was right. If we stay together we'll both end up hurt."
I feel my eyes water once again. "I'm hurt now jacob." I say just above a whisper. A tear slides down my cheek and i wipe it away a bit aggressively.
He closes his eyes tightly like he was trying to shut the world out or keep something in. "I'm sorry aidzuki. But you'll get over me. You'll see that this was never love but just...lust."
I shake my head in denial that this was happening. For kami's sake he sounded like he was reading from a script. He couldn't even look me in the eye.
"Like i said you would never understand." Jacob said.
I shook my head again. "Are you over it jacob? Over me?" I ask my heheart picking up pace again.
He was silent after that for a long while he just sat there staring off into the trees. He sits up straight rubs his hand on his pants. Slowly he nods.
I scoff.
"Bullshit." I say. More tears fall. He huffs but doesn't say anything else.
"So what sam tells you we can't be together so you go back to hiding your feeling and pining after a girl who will never love you more then a friend."
Jacob snarls angrily and i jump. I've never heard a sound like that from jacob at least not so... animalistic. "You have no idea what you're talking about!"
"I don't jacob. So everything you told me was a lie." My voice shook with emotion.
"I guess so." He shrugged. And i laugh through the tears. Something in me snaps. I'm unsure whether it's my mind or my heart.
"You guess. Well I guess I will leave you alone. I guess I'll watch bella break your heart over and over. I guess you never loved me." He flinches. "And I guess I'll always be hurt. Cause the one I loved is to much of a coward to love me back."
With that i walk towards bella's house which was still visible through the trees. My steps start of quick but start to slow down the closer I get to her house I smell a scent and look to my left to see a giant black wolf standing there watching me. I glare at sam and continue on my way.
He was listening the whole time. Kuso yarō. I had no doubt he had a hand in this. Whatever he put in his head made jacob deny his own happiness and take mine away. It's the truth no matter how selfish I sound. I go into her back yard and climb the tree and jump over to my room window opening it and jumping in.
My racing heart slows down and my tears begin and this time I don't stop them I fall onto the bed and began to sob and shake. I whine in pain when something in me breaks. Or more like breaks completely and a very Intense pain takes over my whole body.
I grip my chest and continue to sobs into the pillow. I ignore it when something nuzzles into my back already knowing it was hoshi. She licks the back of my neck in comfort.
"H-h-hoshi it h-hurts." I whine. She whines aswell and jumps down nuzzling my face. I can see she is in her cat form. All black with a galaxy themed stomach, paws, on her face, and the tips of her tail. Her star was a dull yellow on her nose indicating here term sadness.
I nuzzle her back and pull her to my chest. As I sniffle but continue to cry silently.
"It hurts."