Aidzuki's pov
It's been a day since we arrived back in forks and everything was semi back to normal. Edward started making trips to bella's room in the middle of the night again. And bella was grounded.
The whole ordeal left me tired so as soon as i sat in the car i was out like a light. Bella must have told them about my condition because the next time I wake up I'm in my own bed and Edward and bella are standing over me.
I sit up way to fast and pain shoots through my head and i lay back down. I glare at the pair at my bedside. "Damn bella what are you practicing or something. Word of advice, breath less. Take edward here for exam-"
"Ssshh aidzuki. We're going to cullens. I was wondering if you'd like to come. I know you miss them to." Bella whispers.
I stare at moment before nodding. "Ok we'll meet you outside." I nod again and got out of bed I was in the same clothes I was in when we left so I needed to change.
They jump out through my window and i hear them touch the ground. I'm scared that I might soon lose my hearing as well it seems to be the only thing that's the same. I don't have enough energy to summon my powers anymore.
I sigh and finish changing my clothes going to my window and looking down to see bella and Edward waiting for me. So I jump out and land alot less gracefully then i used to and i fall to my knees. I stand up and dust myself off. I avoid looking at either of them cause I'd hate to see the concern.
"Let's go" I say a bit to harshly when they just stood there.
We walk to the front where Edward's car was waiting. He sped to the passenger door and opened it for bella. I smile when she pecks his lips on her way in. Edward then appears on the other side looking at me.
"Are you gonna get in?" He asks when I just stand there.
I pout. "You're not gonna open my door and give me a kiss." I joke. He laughs and shakes his head.
I fake disappointment and get in. "I can't wait to see the rest of the cullens." I say with a big grin.
It'd be nice to focus on something other then jacob. That's right i said it. It's not like it helps to not say his name. I know he needs to come to his senses. And that all that was put in his head has probably confused more then he already was.
We pull up to the cullen mansion and as soon as the car comes to a complete stop I jump out and run for the the door. Even though edward still beats me there. He opens the door and i let bella go in first and I follow sticking my tongue out at edward.
I use my nose to locate the cullen family and it doesn't take me long to find them. They were all in the living room and i already felt their unblinking eyes shift to me. Is it weird to say I miss these particular creeps.
"You don't know how much I've missed you guys. Or bella for that matter. She took it the hardest. Speaking of which.." I turn to edward as he enters with bella.
"Hey just to let you know that whenever I get better. It's me and you boy wonder. Understand?" He only smiles and nods.
"Are you sick dear?" Esme asks me.
"I guess." I shrug.
"You guess? Dude you look like shit!" Emmet put in. I couldn't even glare at him cause I know it was the truth.
"I know and I think I know why to. Well suspect I do." I shrug again. Not really liking this topic.
"Anyways there's something I wanted to do. I'm sure alice has informed you all what's going on. But edward here is still...reluctant. so I think we should take a vote. For whether or not I should be turned or not." Bella announces.
And they all start to vote agreeing with her methods.
Carlisle, esme, alice, jasper, and Emmet all vote yes. And of coarse edward and rosalie votes no. But they all considered her family. I smiled as they embrace her but it turns confused when they all turn to me.
"What?"
"Well you're apart of this family to. Even though we've only known you for a short time. What do you say?" Alice says.
I'm surprised by this, it being completely unexpected. I fidget uncomfortably with all the eyes staring daggers at me.
"Uhm...well I think...that bella should do what makes her happy." I finish unsure. I wasn't one to tell someone what to do or not do. So I settled with that statement.
Bella smiled "thank you." She said and looked back at her brooding mate.
We spend a few hours celebrating and catching up untill edward decides that bella's had enough and tells them he was gonna take us home.
...
While in the car bella discusses her eventual turning in the car. "I was thinking we should wait untill after graduation. And... I want you to do it." Edward gives her an unreadable look and looks back to the road.
Bella was gonna say more but was distracted by edward slowing to a stop. I look up confused and see edward staring at something so I look to. My eyes widen to see a very pissed off jacob looking at edward with murderous intent. He doesn't do anything but run into the forest.
"He wants to talk to us." Edward leans in to say to bella. She nods and like we weren't in the middle of the road they get out and walk into the forest. I slump and sigh before also getting out. I follow as well wanting to see what was wrong with him. Jacob I mean.
I was upset with him but I still miss my best friend.
I follow just behind them untill they stop on top of a hill and Jacob at the bottom. He seemed surprised to see me there and I turn my face away from him. When I said I have an idea of what's happening to me i was seriously considering something impossible. It was jacob. He was the reason I was in so much pain.
He is...might be my-
"I see you're still alive for now." Jacob's voice interupts my thoughts.
"It's the reason bella's been keeping you away." Edward says.
"Why don't you stay the hell out of my head." Jacob angrily bits.
Edward starts to slowly approach him as if he were an wild cornered animal. " I know you have something to say to me... but i have something I want to say to you first. If that's ok?" He stops infront of jacob who glowers down at him.
"Thank you." I was surprised but then again I shouldn't be edward is from a time where politeness was taken seriously. "Thank you for keeping her alive when I couldnt."
"No you couldn't. And it wasn't for your benefit, trust me." Jacob said a bit calmer.
"I'm still grateful. But I'm here now and I'm not gonna leave her side untill she orders me away." Edward said wanting to make his message clear.
"We'll see." Jacob says.
I shake my head. Why couldn't he see that she was in love with someone who wasn't him. There are plenty of girls out there but for some odd reason he persists on chasing bella. It's like the time before all this where he had eyes for bella and only bella. At least that seems to be the case. But i wasn't fooled at all.
Edward nods and turns around prepared to leave when jacob stops him. "Hey, it's my turn to talk. I'm here to remind you of a key point in the treaty."
"I haven't forgotten."Edward says simply.
Bella looks confused and upset about being kept outside the loop "What key point?"
"If any of them bites a human, the truce is over." He says.
"What if I choose it. It has nothing to do with you." Bella said unbelievingly.
"No, no I won't let you." He says quickly. "You're not gonna be one of them bella." His tone was commanding.
She shook her head "It's not up to you."
Jacob's breathing started speeding up and panic filled his eyes "you know what I'll do to you bella, i won't have a choice."
Seeing him getting angry edward tries to usher her away "wait, is he gonna hurt me. Read his mind." She asks edward. He doesn't answer.
Bella walks up to jacob anyway "jake... I love you." I felt pain come back to me but I ignore it as i watch the scene. "So please don't make me choose." She whispers like saying it aloud was a sin.
"Cause it'll be him. It's always been him." When she says that it's like i could breath again. I had no doubt it was edward but hearing out loud was a different story.
His expression fell into sadness "bella..."
She stared into Jacob's eyes silently begging him to understand. When he just stares at her with a kicked puppy look she turns and walks back to Edward's side.
"Let's go." He says and we're all prepared to leave.
"You don't speak for her." Jacob snaps and grabs bella. And Edward pushes jacob away who flips and shifts in mid air.
He growls and readies to charge again. Edward raises his claws ready. Jacob snarls and runs at him.
"No!"Bella screams. And i wonder if she was ever tired of doing so. I've had enough of this sad display. So I quickly jump infront of them both.
"Jacob stop!" I yell. He skids to a stop in front of me.
"Jacob.. why are you doing this to her. She loves edward. And nothing you do now or ever will change that. Stop chasing something you can't possibly ever reach. You and i both know the reason you do this. And it's pathetic." My voice cracks by the end of my little speach And my brow furrowed.
"And if not for my sake." I feel my eyes burn with tears I've cried so many times already. "Then for hers. Please stop fighting this." And the tears began to fall. I wasn't sure whether I was talking about him and her or him and... me
"Please." I whimper. I raise my head to look at jacob. And for the first time in a long time I look him in his big brown eyes. And it's like the wind was knocked out of me when our eyes lock on eachother and a feeling I couldn't explain rushes through my whole body. And i don't know why but I just... stare.
And he stands across from me doing the same thing, just staring. His eyes were so wide I would've laughed but this feeling it was like something heavy was lifted off my aching chest. Like I was drowning and now I could breath again. Like I was pulled out of an endless fog.
"Somethings happening." I vaguely hear edward whisper to bella.
I was so shocked by these sudden feelings that I didn't even blink when jacob turned tail and ran. And for a second I considered following him. Following the pull I felt that wasn't there before. Atleast not this strong. A strong pull towards him.
Jacob, did you feel that to...
Jacob's POV.
I was taken aback when I was no longer looking at Edward's face but the face of no other then aidzuki. Or was that him?
I was so shocked I stopped In my tracks and looked surprised at him. He looked aweful. I've never seen him look like this before. Like... a skeleton. He was very pale and he had worse bags under his eyes then i did.
What happened to him. My wolf whines and whimpers.
"Jacob.. why are you doing this to her. She loves edward. And nothing you do now or ever will change that. Stop chasing something you can't possibly ever reach. You and i both know the reason you do this. And it's pathetic." I couldn't find it on myself to be offended, I know it was p. I will deny the reason till the end of the world though.
"And if not for my sake." I watch his eyes water and i feel guilt deep in my chest. "Then for hers. Please stop fighting this." I flinch when he says that.
He doesn't understand. If I do we'll end up even more hurt then before. It's why I couldn't possibly let bella leave here knowing she chose him over me. She was supposed to be my salvation.
"Please." He whimpers. He then looks up at me and I meet his teary eyes. And suddenly I'm stuck in two beautifully blue prisons drowning in the raw emotion in them. Was he... glowing. It was like an angel, no, a god has come down for my worship. And i would do so gladly. Something snaps then refastens like the moon breaks orbit and decides to revolve around the sun instead.
I hold in a shiver as images fill my head of a life with a black haired blue eyed beauty I've known almost my whole life. But never has he been this beautiful before. I come back to see the center of my world staring at me.
I've never felt so happy, confused, guilty, light, or in love-
"Somethings happening." I hear a distant voice which snaps me out of my daze. More like a dream.
Wait. Love. No that's impossible. This couldn't be real. Did I just- but sam said-.
My thoughts became so jumbled up all i knew was this wasn't, couldn't be real. I shake my head to clear the rest of the fog to see aidzuki still staring now grey lips parted and eyes wide in wonder. And bella and Edward were also looking at me.
It was all to much. I need answers.
So without thinking I turn away and run as fast as my legs could take me having to fight the urge to turn back around and take my, my, my mate? With me. This was a mistake.
He shouldn't have been there. It just had to be old feeling. Right?
Plus I hadn't seen him in a long time so it has to be that. right? 'No fool he is our mate! Go back now.' I was shocked to hear my wolf speak to me after so long. He never speakd. Not since I first fazed
I shake my head. 'No that- i- it's impossible. Sam said- i need answers.'My wolf growled then went silent.
The way he looked at me. I wonder, did he feel it to.
...
Ran through the forest all the way to sam's house not stopping til I was outside his house in the backyard. I fazed and immediately ran up to the back door knocking loudly.
I didn't stop to think about the fact that I was naked my clothes having shredded when I lost control if my anger and fazed. So when sam opened the door on alert and looked shocked to see me standing there naked I couldn't help the heat I felt in my face.
He held up a finger and with pursed lips he disappeared back into his house. I only waited a few minutes before he came back out with some tan joggers and threw them at me.
I caught them and quickly put them on and then stodgy straight up and sam crosses his arms over his chest and waits patiently for an explanation.
"Sam we- I need to talk to you." I start.
"I know jacob."He smiled. I blush out of embarrassment for the second time in the span of fifteen minutes.
I turn serious and seeing my face sam gets serious to. I was preparing myself for what i was about to say and what might come after. Which could be about a million things. Which is what made me more antsy then ever.
"Jacob i don't why you're nervous. You can talk to me about anything you know."Sam said after I didn't say anything. I nod and look at the ground a gesture my wolf didn't like all that much. But looking at sam's face only made this harder.
I take a deep breath. "I think- I -well-i know i... imprinted." I finally get out.
Sam blinks at me. "Is that what you were so nervouse to tell me jacob cause that's good news." He then smiles and shakes his head.
"I told you this would happen. You should be glad cause now you can get over that boy. What was his name...Aiden." Sam said with a smile still in place.
I shake my. "It's aidzuki. And that's the thing sam-"
"What your still not over him? Jake you can't deny an imprint it could kill you. And what about this girl? I think you should leave aidzu-." Unable to take it any more I growl and he shuts up. He now stands there with narrowed eyes.
He goes to say something but I don't let him so much as take a breath. "No, I won't leave him alone anymore. I can't, cause I imprinted on him." I blurt out.
Sam's narrowed eyes turn Into wide saucers. And it would be comical seeing sam like that any other time but right now I'm not sure how to take it. He thinks for a minute obviously taken aback by the news. He looks at me "Jacob that's just- it's not possible."
"Well that's why I came here cause it seems to be possible now." I say a little snarky.
Then we are both left to stare at eachother. Sam's gaze causes my nervousness to come back as i start to fidget waiting for him to say something. Anything.
I know now that I've imprinted on aidzuki I won't be avoiding him anymore. That and i can finally stop using bella as a crutch. I chased her cause in the back of my mind I knew she'd never want me. Cause I've only ever wanted aidzuki and i thought I could use her as an excuse not to love him. And it's sad that an imprint is what made me realize that. That i gave up on him.
I did the very thing he asked me to never do again.
I plan to make it up to him for as long as I live. For hurting him. But it's not that I ever stopped loving him. I just forced myself to think I did so it'd be easier to forget. Untill I'd fall asleep and i was plagued by dreams that I allowed myself to indulge in.
Dreams of chasing him, his fluffy black ears and long soft tail out for all of nature to witness. Teasing blue pools bright with happiness looking back at me. That smile that made warmth literally explode in my chest present contrast to the heartbreaking frown I know he left me with. And his laughter. So light and care free.
But all good things can't last so I stopped sleeping if only to erase all traces of him from my being. But i guess I was just being dumb. Being a coward. Like he said.
Sadly I couldn't say I'd take it back. I thought I'd save him the heartache if I were to imprint on someone else. But i didn't. And now I'm left with pieces I don't think would fit together anymore.
I have to tell him.
I was about to run back into the forest and back to my imprint. My mate. My love. My everything. When sam interupts. I'd forgotten he was there. Let alone that I was in his backyard.
"Jacob." I turn back around and look at him impatiently.
"I know you're excited. But I think you should rest first. I know you haven't gotten any sleep since..." He trailed off.
"Excited? Sure. But i want to make things right. Because I believed what you said to me i hurt him!" I wasn't blaming San simply trying to relay why I needed to go.
"I know jacob, and I'm sorry I Mae you two separate. But doing it while you're tired isn't a good idea. Plea-" I interrupt him.
"No sam." I say without any venom. I didn't expect sam to roll his eyes and sigh.
"Jacob, that's an order." He didn't say it with his alpha voice just sternly which meant if I didn't listen he would resort to using it if need be.
I grit my teeth hard wondering if I'd be able to run faster then he could order me. But i decided against it. Maybe I should sleep. Clear my head and refresh my body. I'd be no good to anyone a jumbled mess.
Aidzuki's pov
Bella somehow pulls me out of my semi-blissed out haze and we walk back to the car. Edward kept throwing me weird looks but I couldn't even focus on where I was walking as i bumped into the car door and fumbled to open it.
Once we were inside the ride home resumed. I stayed quiet in the back while bella and Edward whispered to eachother smiling. Something about a meadow.
Why did he run? I hope I didn't say anything to hurt him. But even if I did It was something he had to hear.
And for some odd reason the image of jacob running away kept playing in my head every time the feeling of rejection would become stronger. Man I'm a mess.
I look up just in time to see us pull up to the swan residence and had to do a double take. Was i really deep in thought that long. Not like anything is to far here in forks but i don't remember most of the ride. I wonder what Jacob's doing?
I was surprised when that thought came out of nowhere. Since when did I think about him so much since that day in the woods. Well I always have but it's much less...negative.
Not to say it's positive either.
"Hey aidzuki. Are you there? Earth to aidzuki." I come back to see bella waving her hands in my face.
I grab them when she doesn't stop after I look at her. "What?"
"Edward and i are going somewhere. I'll see you later." I saw that they wanted to be alone so I didn't argue. I winked and bella blushed.
"Have fun." I say before getting out the car. I watch them drive away thinking about how in love they are and the looks, smile, kisses they share. How did jacob think he could come between something like that.
I sigh, well bella, atleast you're happy.
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