Aidzuki's pov
I looked over at bella when jacob was no longer in view and saw the pale slightly shaking girl. Her eyes were focused on the road ahead very intently. She was deep in thought about something possibly important.
"Hey bella are you alright?" I said.
I saw her come back to herself with a huff. She then sat a bit straighter "edwa-edward and i are engaged." She said less enthusiastic then I'd thought she'd be.
"That's great news bella! Why do you seem so upset? Did something bad happen?" I ask her confused.
"That's not what I wanted." She starts. "I love edward but i wasn't planning on getting engaged to him, not yet anyway."
"Then tell him bella. I understand where you're coming from, but this should have came up when he proposed." I said.
"I know it's selfish ai I do but...I wanted to be turned first." She inhaled deeply. "We both want the same thing. To love one another forever. He just wants marriage to soon. And i want to be with him as an immortal. I feel like I'm aging so fast and he's just... there. And will be an eternity after this generation dies. Without me." She whispers. I looked at her not wanting to pity her but i also can't seem to help it.
"Bella he's not going anywhere without you. You guys belong together. He will turn you whether you marry him or not. Right?" I said wanting her to agree.
"He wants to get married first if he's gonna be the one to change me. And i don't want anyone else to do it." She said gripping the wheel with anxiety.
"You're over thinking it bell, he's your soul mate. You said yes already. And i think you did it cause you know he's the one. It's ok to be nervous but don't fight it." I said looking out the window thinking if that helped or made things worse. I really wasn't present, to busy thinking about the growing distance between me and the rez.
But i'm not old timey like edward so I see bella's point of view but at the same time I'm from a different realm and mates are very important there, from what I seen. So why not take the chance to bond with them.
Bella glanced at me and drove silently. Her brow was relaxed but she still had a complex look in her eyes and her shoulders were a bit tense. I hope i gave her something more to think about. I felt guilty that i wasn't much help. She suddenly sighed.
"I don't ever wanna be apart from edward. Not ever again." She whispers to me before we pull into the cullens drive way.
They are both so dramatic but i know their feelings are real. I know they'll work it out eventually. They always do. If edward does ever leave bella again though, I'll find him and rip off his legs.
Speaking of which.
I feel like hurrying to get inside. I wonder if I could push edward out of my head again or if my mental blocks automatically went up when I started getting better. When I was weak my mind was also weak so he was able to read every thought I had. I didn't like that very much, I'm pretty sure he knows about me and jacob. Jacob was all I was either thinking about or avoiding thinking about.
Emmet comes from inside the house followed by some of the cullens. He strides over to my side and opens the door while giving me a side smile. He lifts me bridal style and brings me to where said cullens are.
"Oh sweet heart you look so much better than what was described to me. I was told you looked near death. But I'd say you look a bit ill" Esme says first. Alice nods, her hands clamped together under her chin while she bounces up and down excitedly apparently happy about my arrival.
"Yeah, now that I actually pay attention he does seem better. He doesn't look out of it like yesterday and his color is coming back. He also didn't need help staying upright." Bella said looking me over. Not like i had much color to return to me to begin with.
"We should get him inside he might be tired. Or even hungry, he's still very light!" Emmet said beginning to move into the house.
Now that someone mentions it i am a bit tired. Guess I still do need alot of rest and sleep. But maybe now I won't sleep all day like i used to.
"He's definitely getting better. I can no longer read his thoughts once again." Edward says coming down the stairs. He had the sleeves of his emerald green plaid shirt folded up. He must've been doing the finishing touches in my room.
"Rooms ready, so isn't the equipment. Carlisle will be here tonight to check your vitals and monitor you." Rosalie said she came down stairs after edward, jasper silently descending behind her a few seconds later.
I nod and yawn. I'm more tired then i thought, did somebody say bed?
"Welp seems like the prince needs to retire I shall bring his majesty to his chambers now." Emmet mock bowed and went up the stairs.
"Chop chop." I said already drifting off. It was the first thing I said since I arrived but i honestly didnt expect the energy crash. I wave to try make up for it but it was really half assed.
I was carried into a white room with pictures of baby blue flowers hanging on the walls. There was a desk, two dressers, a recliner, and loveliest of all a queen size bed with fluffy covers and pillows. There were also machines i'm guessing is the 'equipment' rose was referring to.
I realized this was the same room I stayed in the first time as Emmet layed me down on the comfy bed and fluffy pillows and blanket. I sighed content. I can't believe I was so lucky to meet nice people like the pack and the cullens, even if the pack had to warm up to me before showing their kindness.
Emmet laughs at my obvious enjoyment of their hospitality. I'm a little hungry but I'm mor tired then anything. I smile tiredly as i pulled the cover up to my chin. I drift off as the last things I hear was the closing of my new room door.
****8^)****
I wake up sometime later to a whispered "extraordinary". I yawn and open my eyes to see Carlisle at my bedside looking at the machine monitors in concentrated astonishment.
"Aidzuki... it seems your body is no longer rapidly shutting down but instead the opposite. Though you've made quick progress at first it seem the progressing has slowed down. Has anything else improved?" Carlisle looked at me unblinking. Like he's been waiting for the answer.
I took stock of my body like i have been for a while now. And noticed that the aches in my body are gone but I'm still a bit weak. Might be able to stand on my own, and even walk a little. But I'll ask doc first.
I take a deep breath and still my whole body as familiar scents flooded In from all around me. I sniffed the air for a couple minutes happy to have my sense of smell back. I smiled at Carlisle and he returns it.
" I can smell!" I said. And then blushed at how excitedly I said that. And how loud.
After laughing it off I sit up slowly grateful when Carlisle didn't move to help. I lean against the head board and sigh at the lack of aching.
"I think I could walk on my own doc. My body doesn't hurt at all anymore, I feel a bit weak but nothing I can't manage. I don't think I'd be able to walk for very long on my own though." I said glancing at him.
"Well I'd recommend walking with some assistance, that way you can walk longer distances. I'll ask Esme if she'd help since I have work and the rest go to school. I'm certain she'd be more then happy." Carlisle stands up taking off his gloves and throwing them away. I guess he's done.
"You should come down stairs and eat with bella. She will be returning home soon. Here I'll help you." I nod and shift to the edge of the bed and slowly start to stand on my own.
Once I was nearly on my feet I didn't take into account that I hadn't walked for days and should've been prepared for the face plant I was about to do. In a flash Carlisle caught me and stood me up straight.
"Thanks" I breath gratefully.
He nods and we start to move and i felt the dreadful pins and needles feeling In my legs the further we walked away from my room. When we got to the stairs we stopped and looked at eachother.
"Oh don't think I'm ready for stairs yet..." I said pursing my lips.
I make a weird sound when i'm lifted off the ground and end up at the bottom of the stairs faster then i could blink. I give Carlisle a unamused look when I'm set back on my feet. I lean heavily on him not used to moving that fast again.
We walked to the kitchen where everyone is. Bella was sitting in Edward's lap eating leaving an open seat beside them so I walked on my own over to it and sat down. I glance over to see bella eating soup with a grilled cheese. That looks so good right now...
I didn't even blink when my stomach decided to communicate it's opinion out loud. My eyes seemed to be trained on the spoon disappearing into bella's mouth, I swallow all the saliva that quickly built up in my mouth. Man I wish I could hunt right about now cause I really want some deer.
"...ummm, aidzuki are you hungry?" I heard esme ask.
"...hai..Watashi wa hijō ni uete iru.." I whispered distractedly.
"He said yes." Rosalie* cleared up for me.
I haven't had an apatite for a very long time and what I could eat I threw up. My body was like miss me with that nutrition. I snicker at my own joke mentally. Anyways now that I will probably be able to keep my food down my healing will speed up significantly.
But now that I'm trying to control myself from snatching bella's food away I'm positive I could eat a whole meal. Even at jakes place I didn't eat much and I pucked up what I did eat right before I started changing.
A Bowl is set in front of me and I look down at it. Cautiously I pick up my spoon and scoop up some of the delicious red liquid a gingerly place it in my mouth.
...wow.
I hold back tears as i dig in without mercy, not at all bothered by the stinging the hot soup caused. I was finished in under five minutes, grilled cheese included.
I slouch over satisfied glad that there wasn't any nausea at the end just a full stomach. I ignore the stares the cullens give me, they soon resume talking amongst themselves Wao, I think I at faster then jacob.
Which reminds me, I wanted to talk about possible visitation with the cullens. I don't know how long it'll be before my health starts to decline without jacob around. Since I am now fifteen and soon to be sixteen it's no surprise that I am being effected by my mate
Sixteen is the age where all of my people get their animal forms and the rest of their abilities. And a little bit after that the mate bond forms and mating will complete the bond. Though we don't have to mate right away. If jacob were to reject me when the bond forms he mind aswell put a bullet in my head.
"Hey guys...I wanted to ask you guys something and i just want you to hear me out ok?" I start a little nervous. This was the type of questions that gets people thrown out of vampire territories.
Everyone gives me their attention and suddenly I'm even more nervous then when I started. Thinking quickly I put down my mental blocks so I could see what edward thinks.
'Edward... I know you know that jacob is my mate.' I think quickly.
"Aidzuki? What is it you wanted to ask?" Carlisle says."If it's about staying here after you're better then of course you could." Esme smiles kindly.
Alice turns to me her face lit up like a Christmas tree. I shake my head. Her face falls.
"No! I'm not saying I don't wanna stay! It's just not what I wanted to ask." I clear up. Alice nods her face now inquisitive.
"I just need a minute...or five." I make a thinking face even though I don't have to try and fool them.
'Edward you still there!...Oh right i can't read minds! Anyways I wanna ask if there's any possible way that jacob can visit. I-'
"That's a good idea. But you'd have to tell them why." Edward says out loud.
"No fair! Why does edward get to know first?" Emmet says. More like shouts. Emmet may have a loud personality but he was quiet just like the rest of the cullens.
"Edward already knows what it's about. I'm just...revising. Matte, sekkachina kyūketsuki!" I mumble.
"Tell us why what?" Alice asks.
'Edward I can't tell them! First off jacob just admitted to himself that his mates a male, second i don't know how he'd feel if I told a bunch of vampires, third neither jacob or I am ready to tell bella, fourth I don't wanna push jake into another sexuality crisis.' I said.
"What about you?" Edward questions.
I stop and look at him, I hadn't really thought about me. But telling others isn't really something I want right now. Because I still don't really trust jacob with...me or my heart. We both ended up broken last time.
And if he rejects me I'd rather no one else know. Which I know is a stupid fear seeing as he imprinted on me.
But i need jacob. And I'm sure he needs me.
Edward surely heard all of this since I hadn't put up my mental blocks.
"Well i want to hear what this is about but I really have to be getting home." Bella says. She then stands and begins gathering her things.
I hope she talked to edward about what she was feeling. I watch edward eyes dart to me before he follows bella. Oops did I forget to put up my blocks.
I sigh. When I hear the door close and bella's lavender scent fades away i look at the rest of the cullens. I'm gonna tell them. About jacob and i.
They'll find out sooner or later anyway, and plus it's what's best for us both at the moment.
"What I wanted to ask...was...could...maybe uh well." Baka! Spit it out.
"If jacob could visit me...here?" I said trying not to cringe.
It was silent, and i was expecting that. And also what follows.
"...the wolf?" Said alice. I nod.
Esme looks at Carlisle seeming actually confused on what to say. She then looks at me "you do know we're enemy's right dear."
Carlisle nods also looking at me "Yes, and that there's a reason we have a border that neither of us can cross for any reason."
I nod again "Yes I understand that but-"
"But what? Dude the wolves have problems controlling their phasing when they get angry. It'll be like throwing oil on a fire!" Emmet says sounding serious. I was surprised he was taking something seriously.
"And you know how it gets when a vampire and wolf are in the same vicinity." Emmet finished
"But it'll just be jacob! And there'd be no reason for him to get angry-"
"We're vampires aidzuki that's reason enough. Jacob hatred for us runs deep because he loves bella and she loves edward. Who's a vampire. Not to mention his very instinct tells him to kill us." Jasper puts in looking displeased about this whole conversation.
"Besides what do you need the mutt for! I'm here for you. We're all here to help. If you need someone around untill you get better, I would be more then happy" Alice says.
I look around at all their faces and see the displeasure on all of them. I don't think this is going great.
"No its not just that. Hey, maybe me being here will keep jacob calm. And it's not like you guys don't unintentionally provoke eachother. You're always talking about eachothers scents and calling offensive names. Maybe try to get along..." I know I sound crazy to them but I'm desperate.
"You're not listening, we're enemy's and if jacob comes here and something goes wrong it could start a war." Jasper says.
There was alot of mistrust between the pack and cullen coven. But if they all just got to know eachother maybe they could atleast tolerate one another. I understand the dynamic but at the same time I don't.
"M-maybe-" I start.
"Aidzuki the answers no." Carlisle says sternly. Esme nods in agreement everyone following behind her. "There's just to much risk." He adds.
"But he's my-" I try to get out mate bit I'm interupted by rosalie.
"Him being your best friend won't matter if he tries to attack. He will be killed!" She says calmly.
I growl at her shocking everyone including me. I didn't appreciate her saying that about jacob. No one's gonna take him from me and I'll fight against the world by his side. "Kare wa watashi no...meito." I say downcasting my eyes.
I look up at Rosalie to convey how lost I was and saw her frozen features, she was staring at me shocked though her features remain relaxed.
"What?" Alice said looking between us.
"He said... he said...Jacob's his mate." Rosalie said.
"I was gonna start off with that but, well the whole situation is just so complicated. But what I do know for sure is that he's my mate and i got sick cause we were on bad terms. He's the reason I'm better now. And the bond between us is so fragile that I'll start getting worse again if he's not around..." I explain my voice low.
Silence greeted me again but I didn't much mind it.
"But I understand your decision. I was just hoping you'd put the enemies stuff aside just for a bit. I know jacob would, it was why I vouched for him. I need him." I sigh laying my head on the island counter.
"Aidzuki..." Alice trails off.
"Maybe something can be worked out. I'd have to talk with the pack and we'd have to prepare ourselves. But i'm still worried about the risks this could bring." Carlisle says. I look at him brightly quickly sitting up.
"You would really consider it!?" I said happily.
He nods.
I would've jumped up and hugged him but I don't think the sudden bout of dizziness would allow that. And the aches in my body slowly started creeping back in. Seems like it took less then a day for me to back slide.
I could feel my sense of smell weakening once more. And then i was swaying.
"Aidzuki? What's wrong?" Carlisle said approaching me.
"I feel a bit light-heade-" I groan as i fall back against Carlisle who flashed behind me.
The sounds I could hear seemed to get fuzzy "I'm gonna take him upstairs." Was The last thing I heard.
Jacob...
* Even though I know most or even all of them might know Japanese I wanted to make rosalie the sole vampire Japanese translator.