Edward's POV

If I weren't a vampire, my hair would have been torn off of my head, scalp and all, considering how hard I was pulling my hair in fustration.

That girl. How dare she. Why does she smell so...EARGH! Why here, why now?!

I fought to maintain control so as not to disable the car before I made to farthest I could possibly get from that- right now. I shook my head.

I've been clean for decades after...why now, why?! I screamed in my head, banging the dashboard. Fustrated with not being able to gain control over my thoughts I blasted punk music to flush them out.

There were friends who followed the same lifestyle as my family who were settled like us as well in Alaska but I wasn't going to them. I was hoping being in the middle of nowhere would help desensitize my sense of smell, but I never thought of feeding on a canadian on my drive up here. It was only her I wanted. So my plan didn't work.

My mind ran back to her. With every second that passed I became more and more obsessed with her. I wanted to consume her, touch her, and make her pay for what she was putting me through. I wanted her to feel pain.

It wasn't thoughts that tortured me anymore. It was images. Scenes where I took her and drank from her untill she was lifeless, where I took her and 'played' with her played in my mind. I no longer saw the alaskan trees. I destroyed those around me.

I can't...I have to have her!

I ran back to the car and sharply turned, going back on the road, the screeching of the tires echoing. I chuckled to myself. Excitement. Maddening excitement.

When I returned, classes were over. It wasn't hard at all to find her place of residence, following her scent.

Grr...No matter what, no matter how hard she struggles against me or tries to fight me off. I WILL possesss her!

I got out of my car and jumped into her room, scrounged for her passport and state ID card whilst holding my breath before coming for her. Back on the lawn I stalked towards her. From here, even though my photographic memory was perfect it was something else to see her again, I saw how ordinary she was. But there was something that I had zero control over that made me watch her every move, even the slightest.

I trapped her, being on all fours over her. I could feel the heat from the incubated blood running through her veins. I could hear the rush. It spurred a rush through me, as if my long dead body were alive.

I could see her body vibrate at 528 Hz, making her eyelashes flutter like petals in a strong wind. And like those petals her scent was spread around the surrounding area.

She will be mine.

She then opened her eyes, shock changing her expression.

"Uh...Edward?" She stuttered. She sounded so innocent. Anger filled me again.

She's not innocent.

But it isn't her fault I'm a monster. I argued with myself. Sadness for her came from my still heart and pushed my deplorable instinct to hurt her away.

"You're too close." She said.

"I've only been gone for a few hours but I couldn't stay away any longer..." I said, and lowered my face to her exposed neck, breathing in her scent. Rubbing my face against her, touching my lips to her, I could taste her.

Her heart accelerated more and more, filling my ears with the sound her blood rushing through her. I growled as a result of the extreme excitement I was feeling. My own breathing became labored, my body vibrated with her. My fingers speared through the ground.

I trace the special artery down to her heart with my nose, my chin coming between her breasts. Another layer of excitement washed over me. Arousal.

She screamed and started to fight off but I quickly pinned her arms back and covered her mouth so I could continue.

"I'm sorry, it seems I am to be in constant control of my flower...you haven't a clue how heavenly you smell..." I told her. She gave an indescernible scream. I understood her behavior but my animalistic instinct didn't want to let go of it's prey. It was rationality that convinced me to let her go.

"Are you going to be quiet?" She didn't answer me but after a few billion nanoseconds I took my hands off her but the girl made to run. I caught her and pulled her back.

"I give you my trust and this is what you do?!" Her response was pathetic. Nothing in this human world could stop me. I took a rock the size of my fist and crushed it to show her what she was dealing with.

"Imagine this was your father's bones. You get the picture. I am a gentleman so when I ask you nicely the first time I expect full obedience. Follow me down the road, do you think you can do that?" When she didn't move my expression and eyes darkened again.

"O-okay." I helped her up, the fear locking her in place. She resisted to get into the car, but a stern tone got her in.

"Why are you doing this?" She rightfully asked.

"Your blood is-perhaps we should wait for when we are alone." I wanted to explain but I needed to make my escape before Alice came.

"Why are you taking me far?" Damn, so persistant. It was annoying. I would just have to tough on her.

"I'll tell you but right now, do as I say." I said, pushing her in.

I decided to take us over the border but go to the opposite side of the country, away from the Denalis. I was so happy, so excited to have her but it was a struggle being in a closed space with her scent tainting the air. That made me struggle with my instincts again. I played Clair De Lune to try to calm me.

Every now and then I would look at her. She wasn't crying or looking for a way to escaped. That made me happy and so I smiled to myself.

Good girl.

But then her fists tightened, and her racing heart didn't return to it's resting pace though it was slower than before.

"Don't be afraid, I'm not...going to kill you." I told her, to try to calm her fears.

I wouldn't would I?

"Y-you hesitated there." I couldn't help but chuckle, even if she didn't mean to make a joke

"I did but I meant what I said."Did I? Could I control myself?

"Why are you doing this." She asked softly.

"Please keep quiet." He nearly growled.

She took a deep breath through throughnose and let it out slowly through her mouth. I was air but it was her scent. The beast in me was ready to pounce.

"Can you not do that?!" He yelled. He rolled down the windows, the cold wind purging the car from my breath. I stared in shock. one second he was 'normal', the next he was furious.

"I need you to please, be quiet, still, and not breathe like that. Do you think you can handle that?! I need to keep a clear head and it's difficult enough as it is with you so close. My mind is full of your scent."

Thankfully she was quiet from then on.

I drove as fast as the car could go. I sometimes wondered what she was thinking, I still had no idea why I couldn't read her mind. Maybe it would have helped me remain calm, or maybe it would have made my mind harder to handle.

I knew what I was doing was wrong, I knew my family would be disappointed but I needed her. A part of me felt disheartened at the thought of being disowned by the only family I've ever known, or could remember. But at the same time, satiating my thirst was just as important.

In ten hours I was at the border. It was easy to lie to the toll booth agent and police officers. I said my adorable wife had stayed up the night before and fell asleep now and that we were only staying for the weekend. I wasn't sure if God would hear me but I prayed that my forged passports went through. It was linked to someone with my name, if the authorities found out it could easily be blamed on a glitch in the system.

It passed and I continued. That was another problem. She was now in the registration system of how has crossed. I could only keep her in the country for so long. And the Police in Forks would eventually find out.

What have I done?! What do I do?! I cried in my head.

Six hours later I made it to the city of Edmonton in Alberta. The food I bought for her, however disgusting it smelled, masked her her scent allwoing me to think straight. Thirty five minutes past noon she was finally waking up. I saw her eyes widen and smelled the adrenaline spiking her blood again.

"Are you hungry? I bought some food." She stared at me with a mixture of anger and horror. I truly was a monster. But she would also obey me knowing that.

"How did you…" I took out two blue passports from the compartment over my head.

"You...?!" She reached over to try to take them but I grabbed her wrist.

"Bella…" I said, my voice reflecting how long I've been waiting, controlling myself, to finally have a taste. I pulled her wrist closer and took a deep breath in. So delicious.

And it's all mine, my precious....I smiled to myself.

"I can't get enough…I don't know how much longer I can last without…a taste…" I licked the inside of her wrist.

"No no no no no-" I tighened my girp on her wrist in warning.

"Ah-ow!" I losened my grip a little.

"Be good, and I'll be good to you understand?"

"Please don't kill me, please!"

"I won't, I promise but…" Would I be able to control myself, would I be able to stop feeding before I killed her?

"Just be good for me okay? And I'll try not to hurt you. I truly don't want to but when you fight back...it's exciting, like a hunt. It wakes the beast inside me and I may not be able to control myself. If I did kill you I would regret it for the rest of my already miserable existence…" I tried to explain, maybe it would make things easier form. I sighed heavily, hanging my head. Maybe it wouldn't. I let her go and continued to drive.

"…weren't you…about to d-drink from me?" She asked.

"No. I don't want to do it out here but soon. Very soon." I couldn't wait till then. My hands tightened around the steering wheel.

"If…you're not going to kill me then…what are you going to do with me?" So annoying! I ignored her to the best of my ability.

"I think I deserve to know considering you took me across the border and continue to drive north apparently."

"You're the prisoner, not the captor." She was right, absoutely right. So goddamn annoying.

"Eat." I ordered her, picking up the bag of food and dropping it on herlap. She didn't 'pounce' on it at first till her stomach growled. I wondered what it smelled like to her, how it tasted.

"My Dad knows I wouldn't have run off so you bet he's interrogating your family." She said.

"I know." At the same time her hand froze, fork inches from her mouth.

"Your entire family are vampires!"

"They're not…going to kill anyone to hide your tracks are they?"

"No they're…vegetarian. They don't drink human blood, most of them never have." Guilt slowly started to overtake me.

"Did…you?"

"…yes." I confessed.

"They were rapists and killers that haven't been caught yet. I thought it was fine but after a while…they're people too."

"…I can't-I can't imagine what it's like to…drink it all."She commented, squirming in her seat. Out of disgust from being full if she drank all of someone's blood?

"Is that what bothers you?"

"Well…I just don't think anyone like that is sorry for what they've done. The world wants them gone so…but if your family don't drink human blood then what do they drink?" Is she not disgusted of me then?

"Animal's. Bears, mountain lions, wild rabbits, squirrels. We try not to affect the ecosystem and to not fall into temptation."

"…what made you fall?"

"You did. I hate you and I'm mad; I've been doing so well since that dark time but then you came along and ruined it you very much."

"I didn't do anything to you." All of the feelings that I've felt for the past week came back full force.

"No, you can't help it, it's not even your fault for smelling the way you do. But…I hate you. I might lose my family." I added, sighing at the last part.

"If you know that then why did you stuff me in your car in the first place? You know you can bring me back and everything will be alright; I won't tell them-"

"No so fast." I laughed. It won't be so easy for her to run and escape me.

"You're mine now."

"So you're just going to use me like a blood bank."

"Since I'm already going to hell. And you're going to like it." I said through my grin. Blood rushed into her cheeks. I couldn't help but close my eyes as I took a deep breath in.

"Mmm…delicious." My eye fell onto her rapidly rising and falling chest.

"Eat faster, your food is getting cold. And finish it all; you'll need it." Today. Today.

She did as I commanded, eating at a normal pace based on my observations of her during the lunch hour. Half way through she started crying.

"Why are you crying."

"Why do you care." Her smart alec answer angered me. Bella Swan knew nothing.

"It's not that I don't-We need to set some ground rules and that's what we're going to do right now." I don't have to prove myself, I don't have to kind to her at all! here I was feeling like the lowest of the low, concerned for her, ha!

"There will be no crying, no talking, unless spoking to, no questions, no answers if I don't feel like it no matter how many times you ask." She said nothing which pleased me. I kept driving until I rolled onto the gravel parking lot of the small family owned inn.

"You're going to do exactly as I say and pretend you're my girlfriend and we're on holiday understand? You better be a good actress." I went around the car to her side and pull ed her out.

"Let's go." She lost her footing with the force that I used on her. I pulled her higher up before she fell with a growl to myself. Human.

"Watch where you're going. If you get a cut, god help you." I put an arm around my waist and pushed me forward. For her sake, I didn't have to put on a show yet.

I dealt with the mature woman behind the counter, ignoring her thoughts, handing over the ID's she needed and my credit card. I should have planned better.

"Ah, a little holiday for you two love birds eh?" She said.

"A happy wife is a happy life." I nudged her. She let out an awkward laugh.

"You have quite the looker," She said to her.

"Aren't I lucky." I kept the smile on my face. I knew she didn't mean it, not even a little even which irked me just a little.

"Here are your keys and everything's been turned on. The appliances are all in good condition though food isn't included."

"I understand, thank you very much."

"Thank you."

"It'll be a miracle if anyone marries you." She said under her breath.

"I know. Get in the car."

I drove us farther into the park to the cabin. It was a relief to have a weekened to think.

"Come on." I walked at a human pace but stopped when she wasn't keeping up.

"Keep walking." She was staring at me in wonder, her hanging slightly open. I've forgotten to tell her about the characteristics of my being. Buth then I didn't have to.

I opened the door for her, and she slowly walkined it. I let it slam shut. Finally. She jumped at the sound. I was already behind her, arms wrapped around her over her arms and buried my face into her neck.

"Get off!" She screamed, and she squirmed.

"I've been so patient…finally!"

"NOOOO! Get! OFF! Gargh!"

"Don't. Be. Difficult! I'm not going to rape you!"

"I don't know you, I don't trust you!"

"Bella STOP!" I roared.

"Goddamnit!" I screamed, whipping around the room, ripping the curtains from their rods and went back to tie her up.

"Because you're being difficult I'm going to tie you up to keep you from going anywhere. It's your own damn fault. Now move it!" I pushed into the bedroom and tossed her onto the bed.

"I know you don't trust me but you're going to have to." I told her, tying her hands to the headboard. Then the phone rang. Her eyes lit up. I scoffed. With a hand over her mouth I picked up the phone.

"He-"

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING? WHY DIDN'T YOU ANSWER YOUR PHONE YOU FUCKING-!"

"I haven't been answering my phone because I tossed it Rosalie." I heard someone take the phone from her.

"Edward." That was all Carlisle had to say and I new everything he wanted to say.

"She's fine Carlisle." I said defensively.

"Son, don't lose yourself again. You can return home and I will help you. You know this isn't right, you remember how the last bout affected you-"

"Don't lecture me, I know what I'm doing. I just…have this much control, not enough to-"

"This is wrong. Her family are worried. I can't hold them and the police off anymore, lie for you."

"I know."

"You have to bring her back-"

"No, I'm not taking her back, not now. Not ever."

"Edward. We will do what it takes to bring her to safety. Please don't make us do this son"

"Catch me if you can." I hung up and went to tie her feet.

"That was your family?" She asked tentatively.

"Yes."

"Are they…mad?"

"Worried."

"Sounded like…he was worried about you…"

"Don't even try, or I'll gag you."

"Sorry, I'll be good…Charlie?"

"Fine. Worried, like a father should be. Heh, he's sure I took you away and is ready to shoot me dead." I laughed somewhat hysterically. I wish he could.

"Can't he?"

"Do you want him too?" I asked, genuinely wanting to know.

"…no…I don't want that to happen." Odd.

"Why wouldn't you?"

"Because…I'm just not like that. Did he say anything about my mom? She's a worry-wart and-"

"I don't know."

"…what did your family say?"

"It's none of your business. You're going to be fine." I sat on the side of the bed and stroked her hair.

"I am sorry for doing this but I really couldn't help it, just like I can't right now…be nice to me…" I moved closer, crawling onto the bed to loom over her. I laid my head on her chest, hearing her heart beat. She seemed to be more in control of herself this time.

I ran the tip of my nose over her collar bone, my lips touching her skin every so often, till they reached the inside of my neck.

"Eegh…" She squeaked when I licked her neck. I moved my hand to support her neck and bring her closer to me at better angle.

"Are you afraid?" I asked gently.

"Will it hurt?" She whispered.

"Not for long." A hiss left my throaht as I opened my mouth and bit into her. When my teeth punctured her, her blood spurted into my mouth. Her scream overlapped my moan. Her hot blood flowed down my throaht, quenching my week-long thirst. Ohhhhh yes...I caressed her neck, grateful for this wine. Her constant wriggling, I can semll her arousal, reminded me to stop. I licked the wound to seal it.

"…amazing…" I breathed. She squirmed in her bonds, I could see her abdomen convulse. I could smell her. I traced her figure with my eyes. I could have a feast...

"Don't…" She said, interrupting my dream. I pulled my hair, wanting to pull my head off, arching my back.

"It's different, very different, I don't know why." I muttered and ran out of the room.

I apologize for any typos, thanks all for reading. Oh, and I hoped you enjoyed this! Sorry I didn't entertain you earlier in the week, my body aches from this cold was really bad. Anyway back to Bella's POV next chapter obviously.