Good morning! A new week starts today, and this week will bring good things to me. Thanks to our writing session yesterday, I'm almost done with the prompts, that's a relief! To be honest I feared I would reach the point where I had nothing to post because I would have accumulated too much delay. Glad I will be able to offer you every single story this year again!
This theme is "I'm alright"~
"If there was one thing you could tell them… Your friends, your family. Whoever you have left. What would it be?"
This question, hushed from one cell to another in the middle of the night, haunted me a lot. When that girl asked me, that night, I did not know what to answer. And because they came for her the next day, because she never came back, I never had the chance to give her a proper answer.
But I kept thinking about it.
I had no family left, but I had friends. Used to have friends, at least. Where were they? Were they okay?
Because I was fine.
This was my answer. This was what I would tell them. Ephemer, and everyone else… I missed them so much it was painful. I would cry just thinking about them. Scared I would never see them again, scared I would see them again only to find out I had been replaced, forgotten.
I was fine.
This looked like a lie. These words whispered from a cold cell where I was sitting on the floor, these words muttered after yet another painful experiment, these words prayed as I wasn't sure I'd wake up to see another day… They probably looked very fake. But they were not.
I was fine.
More than often, I cried myself to sleep. That was when I got to sleep at all. I was so starved I was paper thin. I couldn't see my face, but it wasn't hard to imagine the shadows under my eyes, the hollow of my cheeks. And my hair. Oh, my hair. They shaved it very quickly. Would my friends recognize me with just patches of dark hair growing here and there on my skull?
I was fine.
This wasn't a pretty lie I was telling myself. It was the truth. Whenever I doubted it, I simply had to think about them. Blaine's jokes. He was hilarious, and loved nothing more than a good story. Ventus's hugs. She missed these a lot. There was a warmth in Ven, something that made you feel safe. Pure light. Lauriam's smiles. When he smiled, it felt like everything would be fine. There was such confidence from him, as if he always knew exactly what he was doing. Ephemer's… There wasn't anything about Ephemer I didn't miss. His smiles, his laugh, his voice, his kindness, his soft eyes, his delicate curls…Thinking about him, thinking about them all, made me hope for better days, for a brighter future. And that hope by itself was enough to make me forget about the cold, the hunger, the loneliness.
If I could tell my friends one thing, if I had the chance of meeting them again, I knew exactly what I would tell them.
Not to worry, because thanks to them, I was fine.
I realise I haven't written much about my usual favourites... Aqua, Larxene, Marluxia, they all had one story each so far, Vanitas haven't had even one yet... I guess it's a yay for variety but I'm still a bit sad I haven't written more about these babies!
Tomorrow is "Save your tears", yet another joyful story, you can tell!